Moonlight the twilight poetry of coldones

  The next time I saw her she was with Edward Cullen

  I didn’t give it much thought because the Cullens befriended none

  But I didn’t know that when my love was beginning

  To bloom, it will as soon be sent towards its ending

  The girl of whom I was so sure that she liked me

  Was now with another guy, she no more wanted me

  She was from the start interested in the Cullens

  Therefore, she had asked me those legends

  I never believed those legends to be right

  They told that the Cullens were vampires

  I seldom met Bella now

  But still I loved her even now

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  I decided that I will be the best friend of hers

  Whenever she will need me I will be there for her

  I will take away all her fears

  I will wipe away all her tears

  But a question I always asked from me

  Why did she prefer Edward on me?

  Was it because he was far more beautiful than me?

  Or was it because he was far more richer than me?

  Bella didn’t seem to be such a girl

  But the reality was she was now his girl

  Then as the next year started

  A little present on her birthday I gifted

  She didn’t like the idea of gifts

  But surely a present I had to give

  She loved it and promised to keep it safe

  It was a charm supposed to keep her safe

  I hugged her tightly sighing

  When I saw Edward staring

  Hatred whipped through me

  Anger lashed through me

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  Still I let her go to him

  She had immense love in her eyes for him

  The love in her eyes was very strong

  I realized that him; she couldn’t live without

  I was content that she was so happy with him

  He also loved her equally I expected from him

  But a little time later Charlie called

  Bella was nowhere to be found

  Another news was also spreading

  That the Cullens had left silently

  So he had left her all alone

  She was missing because he had gone

  At night Sam found Bella in the woods

  It still haunts Sam how she had looked

  Edward had broken her

  He had completely shattered her

  He was the most cruel monster

  He never ever deserved her

  Bella was completely destroyed

  She was infinitely devastated

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  She no more smiled

  She always looked so wild

  Her eyes were always red from crying

  She never smiled, was always sighing

  She now spent her time all alone

  Lost in thoughts of him who was gone

  Whenever something made her remember him

  She would wrap her arms around her chest tightly

  As if the memory would tear her apart

  As if it would burst her heart

  Charlie had told me how she always screamed

  Horribly at nights from nightmares in her sleep

  She was so sensitive, so fragile

  This horrible situation; how could she survive?

  She had lost her enthusiasm, her spirit was lost

  All the excitement, happiness and peace of her was gone

  He had played with her innocence

  How badly he returned her love and devotion

  If I was asked to kill one person in the whole world

  I was sure; completely doubtless that it would be Edward Cullen

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  Then she started to spend a little time with me

  Of course, she could always come back to me

  I would give her such love that she would forget

  That monster completely who had so cruelly left

  She helped me to get parts for the Rabbit

  And in favor asked me bike mending

  We together in my garage mended some bikes

  Which I gleefully taught her to ride

  As this was a little risky

  So we hadn’t told Charlie and Billy about this

  She would now spend the whole day with me

  All the time doing adventurous things

  Her condition slowly started to become better

  Now she smiled and regained her enthusiasm

  This is what I aimed at

  To get her enchanting smile back

  I would be her best friend

  And at the right time express my love

  When she would have completely forgotten him

  When she would have moved over him

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  We used to spend so much time together

  We were becoming nearer and closer

  “Bella, I know what he did to you

  And I would never ever do that to you”

  I promised her this

  But may be it wasn’t long lived

  I felt all hot, Sam and his friends always stared at me.

  Something strange was going on with me

  Something had first happened to Paul, Quil and Embry

  And they had all then joined him

  They all looked hopefully towards me

  As if expecting something from me

  I was terrified beyond my wits

  I didn’t want something bad to happen to me

  Something that would make me join Sam

  I never wanted to be his pal

  Days passed and changes grew through me

  Damn it! What was happening to me?

  Each and every day I was growing

  Becoming bulkier and taller

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  The growth spurt was so quick

  That Bella also noticed it

  I always had fever now

  I always felt irritated, down

  One day the fever grew more intense

  Bella and I were both so tense

  Billy asked me to stay at home and get some rest

  During this all of a sudden the “thing” happened

  Ah! What a fate! What a world!

  All those legends in reality were!

  I had transformed into a wolf

  I had become a werewolf

  This is what they were expecting from me

  This is what they were looking for inside me

  So the Cullens were really vampires

  And a nauseatic feeling through me rised

  Bella loved a blood sucker, a leech

  And she never bothered to tell me!

  What was she thinking?

  Did she want to be killed?

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  So dangerous he was for her

  From him I had to save her

  He wasn’t human at all

  What was he doing with Bella!

  Now I understand why he looked at Bella as if she was something to eat

  Because the reality was this that for him she WAS something to eat

  And Bella was with him

  Just because he was so beautiful and rich

  Didn’t she ever worry about her life?

  How in his presence could she thrive?

  He was the predator and she was the prey

  How in his company she could sta
y?

  What were they both thinking?

  Why everything was she risking?

  Didn’t she realize that he would one day end her life?

  For God’s sake, was she out of her bloody mind?

  Just thinking of their relationship gives me chills

  It makes me sick, it makes me ill

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  It was thoroughly sadomasochism

  It was something entirely forbidden

  May be Edward liked to play with the prey first

  Then afterwards dramatically satiated his thirst

  Thanks God his bloody family left

  I will never ever let him near her again

  Bella, its my promise to you

  I will forever protect you

  “But how Jacob? How?

  To tell her anything you are not allowed”

  There was actually a treaty between the Cullens

  And our ancestors, our old ones

  Cullens had said that different they had stayed

  In place of humans, on animals they preyed

  On the condition that they keep true to these words

  We wouldn’t enter their territory and harm no one

  Nor we will expose them to the world

  They will be normal humans for others

  Besides their identity we also could not

  Expose our identity to the human lot

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  As it would also expose the Cullens

  And the treaty would be broken

  So I was also forbidden to tell

  About my werewolf self

  In addition I was also dangerous to her

  So I was forced to stay away from her

  I started rejecting her calls

  I didn’t talk to her at all

  As this would break my control

  I should better be left alone

  Thus I had broken my promise

  To never ever do what the leech did

  But I also had left her

  When I was most needed by her

  This situation burned me from inside

  Although I looked tough on the outside

  Anxiously I would circle around her home

  At nights, so nothing harms her, this way she wouldn’t be alone

  I was also anxious to stay there

  Because someone evil was back here

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  Victoria was looking forward to kill Bella

  As Edward had murdered James for Bella

  United our whole werewolf team

  So that, Bella safe we keep

  On one such day when we were out in the forest

  We got the burning stench of one of the vamps

  We all gathered to attack together

  It was Laurent, near Bella; about to kill her

  But he didn’t expect us

  He backed away on seeing us

  We outnumbered him hugely

  So we had killed him easily

  Before attacking I had went near Bella

  With my eyes I was trying to tell Bella

  That it was me; I was a werewolf

  But she didn’t understand what she was being told

  Laurent was sent there by Victoria

  To search for Cullens the area

  So that if Bella is alone, unprotected

  She get her revenge from Edward by killing

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  His love; as he pretended that Bella

  Was to him; that he dearly loved Bella

  And see what was the cruel reality

  He had left her completely unprotected

  It didn’t matter to him if she died or lived

  She was nothing, absolutely nothing for him

  She was in mortal danger

  I had to protect her

  She was burdened by so many things

  Flight of Edward, fear of being killed

  And her best friend didn’t even talk to her

  Oh God! I had been so much upsetting her

  I was helpless

  Utterly restless

  But how could I tell her? What could I do?

  When telling anything I was forbidden to

  It was too risky, too dangerous to break the treaty

  Because it would start a fight between us and the vampires surely

  But when she came to my home, broken, beaten

  Drenched in rain, completely sadness laden

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  Reminding me about my promise

  She asked me why I was doing this

  I asked her to leave me alone

  But in fact, I could take this no more

  I had to do something

  I couldn’t see her like this

  I loved her so much

  From me she deserved this much

  That I go tell her everything

  But it will then break the treaty

  I was confused, I was irritated

  I was broken, I couldn’t endure this

  I was going to end this all

  I had made my plan and all

  On that first day, on that beach

  I had in a sense told her everything

  I didn’t know that those legends were true then

  Therefore, the treaty was still unbroken, intact

  And if I try to remind her the stories

  She will definitely be able to work out my secret

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  So one night, I climbed into her room

  Through her window, I was confident that soon

  I will befriend her again and she

  Will workout all the points of the story

  I told her the situation

  That if she thinks with concentration

  She will work out why I wasn’t talking to her

  She didn’t respond, I had probably confused her

  But I emphasized on that beach day with her

  And yes, my efforts were fruitful; it was worked out by her

  “So you are a werewolf, Jacob Black?”

  In a strange way she asked me that

  “What is so strange?” I asked her

  She said that it had surprised her

  That her best friend was also not human

  She was living in what kind of world?

  Was anything merely a myth anymore?

  How many secrets were there to be exposed?

  But I had much more pressing questions on my mind

  And I will ask her all no matter if it takes a long time

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  “Did you know that Edward is a vampire?”

  “Yeah, I had worked out that secret in too little a time”

  “What were you possibly thinking?”

  Why your life you were risking?”

  “I wasn’t risking my life at all

  In fact, he was my life all in all

  I wasn’t risking anything at all

  He was never a danger at all”

  “So you didn’t realize that he was going to end your life?”

  “For God’s sake Jake! He loved me, we were each others life

  How can he possibly end his own life?

  In fact, he was always over protective, all the time”

  “Bella, were you out of your bloody mind?

  What were you thinking! He was a VAMPIRE!”

  “He lives on animal blood, Jacob

  Although, he craves for human blood

  But he disgusts such an act

  On his
principles he always acts

  Which are never to hurt a human

  To feed only on the animals

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  Even if my blood most lusts him

  I was in no danger from him”

  “What are you saying? Were you different for him?

  More delicious to him, more wanted, more thirsted by him?”

  “Yeah Jake, its true but he completely loved me

  More than anyone has ever loved anybody

  His love was the strongest love in the world

  He had amazing control. He had crossed all limits of love”

  “Then why did he left you here?”

  “Because, of the danger he wasn’t aware”

  He didn’t know that Victoria could do such a thing

  He considered himself merely a danger to me

  He thought that as long as I was with him

  Vampires will keep coming across me

  They could hurt me, they could kill me

  Just like James and Jasper had attacked me

  Therefore, he left; just to protect me,

  Just to keep me alive, from dangers save me

  But how can I possibly live without him?

  He was the entire life of me!

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  Love, life, meaning were all over

  On the day he left Forks forever”

  “But why, Bella, why?

  Why do you prefer him on me, why?

  Is it because he was so beautiful, had good looks?

  Does a fish fall in love with an eagle just because of its good looks?