The Empty House

  3

  She had been to Penfolda once before, only once, and then in the cool half-light of a spring evening ten years before.

  “We’ve been invited to a party,” Alice had announced over lunch that day.

  Virginia’s mother was immediately intrigued. She was immensely social and with a seventeen-year-old daughter to launch into society one only had to mention a party to capture her attention.

  “How very nice! Where? Who with?”

  Alice laughed at her. Alice was one of the few people who could laugh at Rowena Parsons and get away with it, but then Alice had known her for years.

  “Don’t get too excited. It’s not really your sort of thing.”

  “My dear Alice, I don’t know what you mean. Explain!”

  “Well, it’s a couple called Barnet. Amos and Fenella Barnet. You may have heard of him. He’s a sculptor, very modern, very avant-garde. They’ve taken one of the old studios in Porthkerris, and they have a great number of rather unconventional children.”

  Without waiting to hear more Virginia said. “Why don’t we go?” They sounded exactly the sort of people she was always longing to meet.

  Mrs. Parsons allowed a small frown to show between her beautifully aligned eyebrows. “Is the party in the studio?” she inquired, obviously suspecting doctored drinks and doped cigarettes.

  “No, it’s out at Lanyon at a farm called Penfolda, some sort of a barbecue on the cliffs. A camp fire and fried sausages…” Alice saw that Virginia was longing to go. “… I think it might be rather fun.”

  “I think it sounds terrible,” said Mrs. Parsons.

  “I didn’t think you’d want to come. But Tom and I might go, and we’ll take Virginia with us.”

  Mrs. Parsons turned her cool gaze upon her daughter. “Do you want to go to a barbecue?”

  Virginia shrugged. “It might be fun.” She had learned, long ago, that it never paid to be too enthusiastic about anything.

  “Very well,” said her mother, helping herself to lemon pudding. “If it’s your idea of an amusing evening and Alice and Tom don’t mind taking you along … but for heaven’s sake wear something warm. It’s bound to be freezing. Far too cold, one would have thought, for a picnic.”

  She was right. It was cold. A clear turquoise evening with the shoulder of Carn Edvor silhouetted black against the western sky and a chill inland wind to nip the air. Driving up the hill out of Porthkerris, Virginia looked back and saw the lights of the town twinkling far below, the ink-black waters of the harbour brimming with shimmering reflections. Across the bay, from the distant headland, the lighthouse sent its warning signal. A flash. A pause. A flash. A longer pause. Be careful. There’s danger.

  The evening ahead seemed full of possibilities. Suddenly excited, Virginia turned and leaned forward, resting her chin on crossed arms on the back of Alice’s seat. The unpremeditated gesture was clumsy and spontaneous, a reflection of natural high spirits that were normally battened firmly down under the influence of a domineering mother.

  “Alice, where is this place we’re going?”

  “Penfolda. It’s a farm, just this side of Lanyon.”

  “Who lives there?”

  “Mrs. Philips. She’s a widow. And her son Eustace.”

  “What does he do?”

  “He farms, silly. I told you it was a farm.”

  “Are they friends of the Barnets?”

  “I suppose they must be. A lot of artists live out around this part of the world. Though I’ve no idea how they could ever have met.”

  Tom said, “Probably at The Mermaid’s.”

  “What’s The Mermaid’s?” Virginia asked.

  “The Mermaid’s Arms, the pub in Lanyon. On a Saturday night all the world and his wife go there for a drink and a get-together.”

  “Who else will be at the party?”

  “Our guess is probably as good as yours.”

  “Haven’t you any idea?”

  “Well…” Alice did her best. “… Artists and writers and poets and hippies and drop-outs and farmers and perhaps one or two rather boring and conventional people like us.”

  Virginia gave her a hug. “You’re not boring or conventional. You’re super.”

  “You may not think we’re quite so super at the end of the evening. You may hate it, so grit your teeth and reserve your judgment.”

  Virginia sat back, in the darkness of the car, hugging herself. I shan’t hate it.

  There were headlights like fireflies, coming from all directions, converging on Penfolda. From the road the farmhouse could be seen to be blazing with light. They joined the queue of assorted vehicles which bumped and groaned their way down a narrow, broken land and eventually were directed into a farmyard which had been turned temporarily into a car park. The air was full of voices and laughter as friends greeted friends, and already a steady trickle of people were making their way over a stone wall and down over the pasture fields towards the cliffs. Some were wrapped in rugs, some carried old-fashioned lanterns, some—Virginia was glad all over again that her mother had not come—a clanking bottle or two.

  Someone said, “Tom! What are you doing here?”, and Tom and Alice dropped back to wait for their friends, and Virginia went on, loving the feeling of being alone. All about her the soft, dark air smelled of peat and sea-wrack and wood-smoke. The sky was not yet empty of light and the sea was of so dark a blue that it was almost black. She went through a gap in a wall and saw, below her, at the bottom of the field, the golden flames of the fire, already ringed with lanterns and the shapes and shadows of about thirty people. As she came closer, faces sprang suddenly into focus, illuminated in firelight, laughing and talking, everybody knowing everybody. There was a barrel of beer, propped on a wooden stand, from which brimming glasses were being continually filled, and there was the smell of potatoes cooking and burning fat, and somebody had brought a guitar and begun to play and gradually a few people gathered about him and raised uncertain voices in song.

  There is a ship

  And she sails the sea,

  She’s loaded deep

  As deep can be.

  But not as deep

  As the love I’m in …

  A young man, running to pass Virginia, stumbled in the dusk and bumped into her. “Sorry.” He grabbed her arm, as much to steady himself as her. He held his lantern high, the light in her face. “Who are you?”

  “Virginia.”

  “Virginia who?”

  “Virginia Parsons.”

  He had long hair and a band around his forehead and looked like an Apache.

  “I thought it was a new face. Are you on your own?”

  “N … no. I’ve come with Alice and Tom … but…” She looked back. “I’ve lost them … they’re coming … somewhere…”

  “I’m Dominic Barnet…”

  “Oh … it’s your party…”

  “No, my father’s, really. At least he’s paid for the barrel of beer which makes it his party and my mother bought the sausages. Come on … let’s get something to drink,” and he grabbed her arm with an even firmer grip and marched her down into the seething, noisy fire-lit circle of activity. “Hey, Dad … here’s someone who hasn’t got a drink…”

  A huge bearded figure, medieval in the strange light, straightened up from the tap of the barrel. “Well, here’s one for her,” he said, and Virginia found herself holding an enormous mug of beer. “And here’s a sausage.” The young man whisked one nearly off a passing tray and handed it to her, impaled on a stick. Virginia took that too, and was just about to embark upon some polite social conversation when Dominic saw another familiar face across the circle of firelight, yelled “Mariana!” or some such name, and was away, leaving Virginia once more alone.

  She searched in the darkness for the Lingards but could not find them. But everyone else was sitting, so she sat too, with the enormous beer mug in one hand and the sausage, still too hot to eat, in the other. The firelight scorched her face and
the wind was cold on her back and blew her hair all over her face. She took a mouthful of beer. She had never drunk beer before and immediately wanted to sneeze. She did so, enormously and from behind her an amused voice said, “Bless you.”

  Virginia recovered from the sneeze and said, “Thank you,” and looked up to see who had blessed her, and saw a large young man in corduroys and rubber boots and a massive Norwegian sweater. He was grinning down at her and the firelight turned his brown face to the colour of copper.

  She said, “It was the beer that made me sneeze.”

  He squatted beside her, took the mug gently from her hand and laid it on the ground between them. “You might sneeze again and then you’d spill it all and that would be a waste.”

  “Yes.”

  “You have to be a friend of the Barnets.”

  “Why do you say that?”

  “I haven’t seen you before.”

  “No, I’m not. I came with the Lingards.”

  “Alice and Tom? Are they here?”

  “Yes, somewhere.”

  He sounded so pleased that the Lingards were here that Virginia fully expected him to go, then and there, in search of them, but instead he settled himself more comfortably on the grass beside her, and seemed quite happy to remain silent, simply watching in some amusement, the rest of the party. Virginia ate her sausage, and when she had finished and he still had said nothing, she decided that she would try again.

  “Are you a friend of the Barnets?”

  “Um…” His attention interrupted, he turned to look at her, his eyes a clear and unwinking blue. “Sorry?”

  “I wondered if you were a friend of the Barnets, that’s all.”

  He laughed. “I’d better be. These are my fields they’re desecrating.”

  “Then you must be Eustace Philips.”

  He considered this. “Yes,” he said at last. “I suppose I must be.”

  Soon after that he was called away … some of his Guernseys had wandered in from a neighbouring field and a batty girl who had drunk too much wine thought that she was being attacked by a bull and had thrown a pretty fit of hysterics. So Eustace went to put the matter to rights, and Virginia was presently claimed by Alice and Tom, and although she spent the rest of the evening watching out for him, she did not see Eustace Philips again.

  The party, however, was a wild and memorable success. Near midnight, with the beer finished, and the bottles going round, and the food all eaten and the fire piled with driftwood until the flames sprang twenty feet high or more, Alice suggested gently that perhaps it might be a good idea if they went home.

  “Your mother will be sitting up thinking you’ve either been raped or fallen into the sea. And Tom’s got to be at the office at nine in the morning and it really is getting bitterly cold. What do you say? Have you had enough? Have you had fun?”

  “Such fun,” said Virginia, reluctant to leave.

  But it was time to go. They walked in silence, away from the firelight and the noise, up the slopes of the fields towards the farmhouse.

  Now, only one light burned from a downstairs window, but a full moon, white as a plate, sailed high in the sky, filling all the night with silver light. As they came over the wall into the farmyard, a door in the house opened, yellow light spilled out over the cobbles, and a voice called out across the darkness. “Tom! Alice! Come and have a cup of tea or coffee—something to warm you up before you go home.”

  “Hallo, Eustace.” Tom went towards the house. “We thought you’d gone to bed.”

  “I’m not staying down on the cliffs till dawn, that’s for certain. Would you like a drink?”

  “I’d like a whisky,” said Tom.

  “And I’d like tea,” said Alice. “What a good idea! We’re frozen. Are you sure it’s not too much trouble?”

  “My mother’s still up, she’d like to see you. She’s got the kettle on…”

  They all went into the house, into a low-ceilinged, panelled hall, with a flagged slate floor covered with bright rugs. The beams of the roof scarcely cleared the top of Eustace Philips’s head.

  Alice was unbuttoning her coat. “Eustace, have you met Virginia? She’s staying with us at Wheal House.”

  “Yes, of course—we said hallo,” but he scarcely looked at her. “Come into the kitchen, it’s the warmest place in the house. Mother, here are the Lingards. Alice wants a cup of tea. And Tom wants whisky and…” He looked down at Virginia. “What do you want?”

  “I’d like tea.”

  Alice and Mrs. Philips at once busied themselves, Mrs. Philips with the teapot and the kettle, and Alice taking cups and saucers down from the shelves of the painted dresser. As they did this they discussed the Barnets’s party, laughing about the girl who thought the cow was a bull, and the two men settled themselves at the scrubbed kitchen table with tumblers and a soda siphon and a bottle of Scotch.

  Virginia sat too, wedged into the broad window-set at the head of the table, and listening to, without actually hearing, the pleasant blur of voices. She found that she was very sleepy, dazed by the warmth and comfort of the Penfolda kitchen after the bitter cold of the outdoors, and slightly fuzzy from the unaccustomed draught beer.

  Sunk into the folds of her coat, hands deep in its pockets, she looked about her and decided that never had she been in a room so welcoming, so secure. There were beams in the ceiling, with old iron hooks for smoking hams, and deep window-sills crammed with flowering geraniums. There was a huge stove where the kettle simmered, and a cane chair with a cat curled in its seat, and there was a Grain Merchant’s calendar and curtains of checked cotton and the warm smell of baking bread.

  Mrs. Philips was small as her son was large, grey-haired, very neat. She looked as though she had never stopped working from the day she was born and would have it no other way, and as she and Alice moved about the kitchen, deft and quick, gossiping gently about the unconventional Barnets, Virginia watched her and wished that she could have had a mother just like that. Calm and good-humoured with a great comforting kitchen and a kettle always on the boil for a cup of tea.

  The tea made, the two women finally joined the others around the table. Mrs. Philips poured a cup for Virginia and handed it to her, and Virginia sat up, pulling her hands out of her pockets and took it, remembering to say “Thank you.”

  Mrs. Philips laughed. “You’re sleepy,” she said.

  “I know,” said Virginia. They were all looking at her, but she stirred her tea and would not look up because she did not want to have to meet that blue and disconcerting gaze.

  But eventually it was time to go. With their coats on again, they stood, crowded in the little hallway. The Lingards and Mrs. Philips were already at the open front door when Eustace spoke from behind Virginia.

  “Goodbye,” he said.

  “Oh.” Confused, she turned. “Goodbye.” She began to put out her hand, but perhaps he did not see it, for he did not take it. “Thank you for letting me come.”

  He looked amused. “It was a pleasure. You’ll have to come back again, another time.”

  And all the way home, she hugged his words close as though they were a marvellous present that he had given her. But she never came back to Penfolda.

  Until today, ten years later, and a July afternoon of piercing beauty. Roadside ditches brimmed with ragged robin and bright yellow coltsfoot, the gorse was aflame and the bracken of the cliff-tops lay emerald against a summer sea the colour of hyacinths.

  So engrossed had she been in her business of the day, collecting keys, and finding the cottage at Bosithick, and considering such practical questions as cookers and fridges and bedclothes and china, that all the heaven-sent morning had somehow gone unnoticed. But now it was part of what had suddenly happened and Virginia remembered long ago, how the lighthouse had flashed out over the dark sea, and she had been, for no apparent reason, suddenly excited and warm with a marvellous anticipation.

  But you’re not seventeen any longer. You’re a woman, twenty
-seven years old and independent, with two children and a car and a house in Scotland. Life doesn’t hold that sort of surprise any longer. Everything is different. Nothing ever stays the same.

  At the top of the lane which led down to Penfolda was a wooden platform for the milk churns, and the way sloped steep and winding between high stone walls. Hawthorns leaned distorted by the winter winds, and as Virginia followed the back of Eustace’s Land-Rover around the corner of the house, two collies appeared, black and white, barking and raising a din that sent the brown Leghorn hens squawking and scuttling for shelter.

  Eustace had parked his Land-Rover in the shade of the barn and was already out of it, toeing the dogs gently out of the way. Virginia put her car behind his and got out as well, and the collies instantly made for her, barking and leaping about and trying to put their front paws on her knees and stretching up to lick her face.

  “Get down … get down, you devils!”

  “I don’t mind…” She fondled their slim heads, their thick coats. “What are their names?”

  “Beaker and Ben. That’s Beaker and this is Ben … shut up, you, boy! They do this every time…”

  His manner was robust and cheerful as though during the course of the short drive he had decided that this was the best attitude to adopt if the rest of the day was not to become a sort of wake for Anthony Keile. And Virginia, who did not in the least want this to happen, gratefully took her cue from him. The dogs’ noisy welcome helped to break the ice, and it was in an entirely natural and easy fashion that they all went up the cobbled path together, and into the house.

  She saw the beams, the flagged floor, the rugs. Unchanged.

  “I remember this.”

  There was a smell of hot pasties, mouthwatering. He went in through the kitchen door, leaving Virginia to follow behind, and across to the stove, whisking an oven cloth off a rack as he passed, and crouching to open the oven.

  “They aren’t burnt, are they?” she asked anxiously. Fragrant smoky smells issued out.

  “No, just right.”

  He closed the oven door and stood up.

  She said, “Did you make them?”

  “Me? You must be joking.”