Black Halo

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  But he found nothing.

  He felt them, each one of them, in his nostrils.

  And in each expulsion of breath, he felt them, each one of them, die.

  ‘Five hundred. ’

  At the sound of the voice, he turned without a start. His body was drained, a shell of red flesh and brittle bones in which there dwelt no will to start, to snarl, to curse. All he could do was turn and face the grandfather with eyes that sank back into his skull.

  ‘Exactly,’ the grandfather said.

  ‘What?’

  ‘There were five hundred Rhega that fell here,’ the ancestor said as he walked wearily to the water’s edge. ‘I spent over a year taking in their scents to find their names, Wisest. I doubt you have that long. ’

  ‘I don’t have anywhere to be. ’

  ‘You do … You just don’t know where yet. ’

  They stood, side by side, and stared. The waters of the pond lapped soundlessly against the shore. The wind in the trees had nothing to contribute. The Elder was the grave into which all sound was buried and lost, so inundated with death that even the great sigh of the earth was nothing.

  ‘How did you find this place, Wisest?’

  Grandfather’s voice brought Gariath back to his senses, his attentions to the heavy object dangling from his belt. He reached down, plucked it from the leather straps that held it there, and held it up.

  Grandfather looked up into empty eye sockets beneath a bone brow.

  ‘I asked the skull,’ Gariath replied.

  ‘You went back to find it. ’

  ‘I needed to know what you wouldn’t tell me. The skull knew. ’

  ‘The dead know. ’ Grandfather stared out over the pond. ‘I had hoped you wouldn’t have ears for their voices. ’

  ‘It didn’t say much,’ Gariath said. ‘I could only hear fragments of words, like it was talking in its sleep. It knew where the Elder was. ’

  ‘All dead things know where the Elder is. ’ Grandfather sighed and made a gesture to the pond. ‘It speaks because it can’t remember that it should be asleep. Do what is right, Wisest. ’

  Gariath nodded, kneeling beside the pond to let the skull fall from his hands into the water. In its empty eyes, he saw a kind of relief, the same kind that followed an important thing remembered after having been forgotten for so long.

  Or maybe I’m just seeing things.

  It did not simply vanish into the water. Instead, it remained stark white against the blue as it fell, still vivid in his eyes no matter how much it shrank. The sunlight caught the water’s surface, turned the blue into a pristine crystal through which he could see the muddy bottom and the stark white that painted it.

  He stared into the water.

  Five hundred skulls stared back.

  ‘This was a pit when I brought them here,’ Grandfather said. ‘When it was all over, when I was the last one alive … I dug the earth open and lay them within. It rained – a long time it rained – and this pond formed. ’ He nodded. ‘Rivers and rocks. The Rhega should lie in water. ’

  The sunlight was chased away by clouds. The water masked itself with blue again. Gariath continued to stare.

  ‘How?’ he asked.

  ‘Same way everything died on this island,’ Grandfather replied. ‘In the great war. ’

  ‘Between Aeons and mortals? I thought the humans fought that. ’

  ‘They did. Would it surprise you, Wisest, that we fought alongside them? In those days, we fought along many creatures that you would call weak. ’

  ‘It does not surprise me. The Rhega should have been there to lead, to inspire, to show them what courage is. ’

  ‘And you know courage, Wisest?’

  ‘I know what the Rhega are. ’

  ‘So did I, back then. So did we all. We thought ourselves full of courage … That was reason enough to fight. ’

  ‘To hear the humans tell it, the Aeons threatened all mortals. ’

  ‘They did,’ Grandfather said. ‘But the Rhega were made of stronger things than crude flesh and bone. No matter what the humans tried to tell us, we were apart from their little wars. If we died, we returned to the earth and came back. Let the humans be concerned with heaven. ’

  ‘Then why did we fight?’

  ‘We had our reasons. Perhaps life was too good for too long. Perhaps we needed to remember what pain and death were. I don’t know. I’ve thought of a thousand reasons and none of them matter. In the end, we are still dead.

  ‘But we fought, all the same, and in that day, we became a people obsessed with death. When the first Rhega died and did not come back, we turned our thoughts to killing. If we did not kill, we died. If we did not die, we killed. Over and over until we were the red peak upon a mountain of corpses. ’

  ‘And you died in battle with the rest?’

  ‘No,’ Grandfather said. ‘I should have, though. When the children of Ulbecetonth marched against the humans and the earth rattled under their feet, I marched alongside everyone. I climbed their great legs. I shamed the humans and their stupid metal toys by splitting their thoughts open. ’ His eyes narrowed, jaw clenched. ‘I leapt into their minds. I tore them apart until I could taste their thoughts on my tongue. ’

  Gariath recalled the great ravine, the greater skeleton that lay within it, and the massive hole split open in its skull. He recalled how Grandfather had crawled into that hole and vanished, as he seemed to vanish now, growing fainter with every breath.

  Suddenly, he sprang into full, bitter view with a deep, unpleasant laugh.

  ‘And still, I am obsessed with death. ’

  ‘How did you die, Grandfather?’

  The ancestor’s body quivered and grew hazy with the force of his sigh.

  ‘When I crawled out of that skull, when I stopped hearing the screaming, I looked and saw I was the only one left,’ he said. ‘The dead were everywhere: the demons, the humans, but I was the only one concerned for the Rhega, the only one concerned for the dead. The mortals had moved on, pushing Ulbecetonth back to her gate. I was left alone.

  ‘So, I cut the earth open around the Elder and I dragged their bodies back, finding every piece. ’ He paused, glancing into the water. ‘Almost every piece, at least. But the Rhega came back … not born again, as they should have been, but as I am now. They still wanted to fight, they wondered where their families were, they had so many reasons and they were all so tired …

  ‘And so, one by one, I bade them to sleep. Then I watched them sleep. I watched for so long I forgot the need for food, for water … and when I came back, there was no one left to bid me to sleep. ’

  He turned and stared hard into Gariath’s eyes.

  ‘When you are gone, who will bid you, Wisest?’

  Gariath met his concern with a scowl.

  ‘You think I’ll die?’

  ‘We all die. ’

  ‘I haven’t yet. ’

  ‘You haven’t tried hard enough. ’

  The dragonman offered the ancestor nothing more than a snort in reply, his hot breath causing the spectral form to ripple like the water at their feet. Gariath returned his stare to the water. Through the obscuring azure, he could feel their gazes. In the earth, he could smell their final moments.

  But in the air, he couldn’t hear their voices, not even the whispering sleep-talk of the skull. They all rested soundly now; staring, dead, utterly silent.

  ‘What is it you feel, Wisest?’ Grandfather asked. ‘Hatred for the humans for drawing us into this war? A need for vengeance against the demons?’

  ‘You can’t read my thoughts, Grandfather?’

  ‘I have been inside your heart,’ the spirit replied coldly. ‘It’s not a place I want to go back to in the best of times. ’

  ‘Take your best guess, then. ’

  After a long, careful stare, the ancestor obliged him. His prediction was manifested in his great, heaving sigh. The accuracy of it was reflected
in Gariath’s unapologetic grunt of confirmation.

  ‘What is it you plan to do, then?’

  ‘The skulls are silent. Their scent is nothing but death,’ Gariath said, folding his arms over his chest. ‘This earth is dead. It has nothing to tell me. ’

  ‘The earth is dead, yes, but those that walk upon it still live. ’

  ‘I agree,’ Gariath replied.

  Grandfather’s eye ridges furrowed, a contemplative look rippling upon his face.

  ‘That is why I am going to find the Shen. ’

  And when the ripples settled, there was fury plain upon the spirit’s face.

  ‘The Shen?’ Grandfather snarled. ‘The Shen are a people just as obsessed as we were … as you are. ’

  ‘Good company to keep, then. ’

  ‘No, you moron! The Shen are what dragged us into the war!’

  ‘But you said—’

  ‘I said we had a thousand reasons, and none of them mattered. The Shen were the original one, and they matter least of all. ’ Upon Gariath’s confused look, he sighed and raised a hand. ‘Shen, Owauku, Gonwa … all descend from a single ancestor, born to serve Ulbecetonth. In them, we saw people who could not hear the rivers or smell the rocks. We were moved to sympathy. We gave our lives for them. ’

  ‘And they pay it back. I have seen them. They are brave; they are strong. ’

  ‘They are dead. They just don’t know it yet. ’ Grandfather’s lips peeled back, his teeth stark and prominent despite the haziness of his form. ‘We killed for them. We died for them. And what have they done? They continue to kill! They continue to die!’

  ‘For what they believe in. ’

  ‘What do they believe in, Wisest?’

  ‘They are Shen. ’

  ‘That is not a reason to live—’

  ‘And I am Rhega!’ Gariath roared over the ancestor, baring teeth larger, sharper and far more substantial. ‘I remember what that means. No Rhega was meant to live alone. ’

  ‘Then don’t!’ Grandfather said. ‘There may still be more out there, somewhere. Go with the humans. Even if you never find another Rhega, you will never be alone!’

  Gariath’s expression went cold, the rage settling behind his eyes in a cold, seething poison, a poison he all but spat upon the ancestor.

  ‘This is what it’s been about, isn’t it?’ he hissed. ‘This is why you told me to find Lenk. This is why you did not lead me here, why you tried to keep me from coming here. You would have me run into the arms of humans, like a fat, weeping lamb. ’

  ‘I would have you live, Wisest,’ Grandfather snapped back. ‘I would have you find more Rhega if you could. If you couldn’t, I would have you die and have no need to come back. Amongst the Shen, you cannot do that. ’

  ‘Amongst the Shen, I can learn more. Do you know what it was like to hear the word Rhega instead of “dragonman”? Do you know what it is to smell things besides greed and hate and fear?’

  ‘I know their scent, pup. Do you?’

  ‘That’s not important. ’

  ‘It is. You know what’s important; you just won’t admit to it. You know that the humans are important. You know that without them, you would have died long ago. After your sons—’

  ‘Never, Grandfather. ’ Gariath’s voice was cold, his claw trembling as he levelled it at the spirit. ‘Not even you. ’ Waiting a moment, challenging the ancestor to speak and hearing nothing, he snorted. ‘I kept myself alive. The fire inside me burned too bright to be contained by death. ’

  ‘Fires burn themselves out. The humans gave you purpose, gave you direction. ’

  ‘Stupidity. ’

  ‘Then why did you try to kill the shict when you knew she was going to kill the silver-haired one? Why did you go to save the two females you claimed to hate?’

  ‘To kill, to fight’

  ‘To what end? Because you knew that if they died, you would, too. In some ugly part of you, Wisest, you know it. Follow the humans. Live, Wisest. The Shen can give you nothing. ’

  He paused for a moment before turning and stalking away.

  ‘They can give me answers. ’

  ‘They cannot,’ Grandfather called after him.

  ‘We’ll find out. I am going to find the Shen, Grandfather. If I return, I will tell you what I’ve learned. ’

  ‘You won’t return, Wisest,’ the spirit shrieked. ‘Wisest!’

  He did not turn around.

  ‘Gariath!’

  He did not stop.

  ‘LOOK AT ME, PUP!’

  He paused.

  He turned.

  A fist met him.

  Grandfather’s roar was as strong as his blow. Gariath felt his jaw rattle against the knuckles, felt it course through his entire body. The silence was gone now. In the wake of Grandfather’s enraged howl, the wind blew and shook the trees, the water churned and hissed in approval. Four hundred and ninety-nine voices found a brief, soundless voice.

  Gariath could hear them, but only barely. Grandfather’s roar drowned out all sound. Grandfather’s fists knocked loose his senses as they hammered blow after blow into his skull, as if the spirit hoped some great truth was slathered upon his knuckles and would drive itself into Gariath’s brain.

  But Gariath’s skull was hard. His horns were harder.

  Grandfather learned this.

  Through the rain of fists, Gariath burst through, a cloud of red mist bursting from his mouth to herald his howl as he drove his head forward and against the spirit’s. It connected solidly, sending the ancestor reeling. He followed swiftly, going low to tackle the spirit about the middle.

  Claws raked his flesh; he ignored them. Fists hammered his skull; he disregarded them. More than one foot found itself lodged in a deeply uncomfortable place; he tried his best to ignore that, too, as he hoisted Grandfather into the air and brought him down low.

  And hard.

  Gariath was panting. Grandfather didn’t need to breathe. The spirit continued to lash with a vigour and hatred better suited to someone young. Or to a Rhega, Gariath thought, feeling a faint urge to grin. But his admiration lived only as long as it took for him to recognise the disparities between them. Gariath was bleeding flesh and rattled bones. Grandfather was rivers and rocks. The ending of this fight was clear to Gariath.