The Cairo Trilogy: Palace Walk, Palace of Desire, Sugar Street

  He touched the hair at his temples and complained, “My hair turned aay while I waited, may God forgive you”. Then he whispered, “Is the lady here?”

  She jestingly imitated his whisper: “Yes… she's alone with a fantastic man.”

  “Won't she be angry if she learns I've come at this hour?”

  She turned around, shrugging her shoulders in disdain. She started up the stairs saying, “Is there a more appropriate hour for a lover Lke you to come?”

  “So s.ie won't see anything wrong with our meeting in her house?”

  With a dancing motion of her head, she replied, “Perhaps she would think it very wrong if we didn't meet.”

  “Long live the lady!”

  She resumed speaking, proudly this time, “I'm not just her lute player. I'm her sister's daughter. She's not stingy with me___You can enter in peace.”

  When they reached the foyer upstairs they could hear some delightful singing accompanied by lute and tambourine. Yasin listened a little and then asked, “Are they alone or is it a party?”

  She whispered in his ear, “Alone and a party both. The sultana's lover is a good-humored man who loves music. He wouldn't bear for even an hour of his soiree to pass without lute, tambourine, wine, laughter… and you know what else.”

  She turned to open a door and entered, setting the lamp on a table bracketed to the wall. She stood in front of the mirror to examine her reflection carefully. Yasin forgot about Zubayda and her musical lover. He riveted his greedy eyes on Zanuba's desirable body, which he was seeing for the first time stripped of the wrap. He fixed his eyes on her with force and concentration and moved them deliberately and delightedly from top to bottom and from bottom to top. Before he could act on any of the tens of wishes racing through his breast, Zanuba remarked, as though continuing the same conversation, “He's a man with no equal in his graciousness or sensitivity to music. As for his generosity, we could talk about that from today till tomorrow… that's what lovers should be like … otherwise …”

  He did not miss the implications of her reference to the generosity of the performer's lover. He had accepted from the start that his new romance would cost him dearly, but her reference to it seemed in poor taste and offended him. Motivated by an instinct of self-defense, he found himself forced to say, “Perhapshe's a rich man.”

  Responding to his maneuver, she said, “Wealth is one thing, generosity is another. Many a wealthy man is stingy.”

  He inquired, not because he wanted to know but merely to avoid silence, which he was afraid would seem to express disapproval, “Who do you suppose this generous man is?”

  Turning the knob to raise the wick on the lamp, she answered, “He's from our district. You must have heard of him… al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad.”

  “Who!”

  She turned toward him in astonishment to see what had frightened him. She found him in a rigid pose with his eyes bulging out.

  She asked him disapprovingly, “What's the matter with you?”

  The name she had spoken had come upon him like a hammer falling violently on top of hishead. The question had escaped from him unintentionally in a scream of alarm. For some momentshe was bewildered and oblivious to his surroundings. When he saw Zanuba's face again and its expression of astonishment and disapproval, he was afraid he would give himself away. He exerted his willpower to defend himself. To conceal his alarm, he resorted to some playacting. He clapped his hands together, as though he could not believe what had been said about the man, because he thought he was so respectable. He muttered incredulously, “Al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad!… With a store in al-Nahhasin?”

  She gave him a bitterly critical look for alarming her for no reason. She asked him scornfully, “Yes, him…. So what made you cry out for help like a virgin being deflowered?”

  He laughed in a perfunctory way. Praising God secretly that he had not told her his full name the day they met, he replied with mock astonishment, “Who would believe this of such a pious, respectable man?”

  She looked at him with skepticism before asking him sarcastically, “Is this what really alarmed you?… Nothing but that? Did you think he was a sinless saint? … What's wrong with his doing this? Cati a man attain perfection without having an affair?”

  He said apologetically, “You're right… there's nothing in this world worth being astonished at”. He laughed nervously and continued: “Imagine this dignified gentleman flirting with the sultana, drinking wine, and swaying to the music….”

  In her same sarcastic tone she said, as though to continue his statement, “And playing the tambourine better than a professional like Ayusha and telling one gem of a joke after another until everyone with him is dying of laughter. It's not surprising, given all of this, that in his store he's seen to be a fine example of sobriety and earnestness. You should be serious about serious things and playful when you play. There's an hour for your Lord and an hour for your heart.”

  He plays the tambourine better than a professional like Ayusha. … He tells jokes that make his companions die from laughter…. Who could this man be? His father? … Al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad? That stern, tyrannical, terrifying, God-fearing, reserved man who kills everyone around him with fright?

  How could he believe what his ears had heard? How, how? … There must be some confusion between two men with similar names. There could be no relationship between his father and this tambourine-playing lover. But Zanuba had agreed he owned a store in al-Nahhasin. There was only one store in al-Nahhasin that bore this name and it was his father's. Lord, was what he had heard true or washe raving? He wanted dearly to learn the truth for himself, to see it with his own eyes. That desire gained control of him. This investigation appeared to him the most important thing in life. He was unable to combat the desire. He smiled to the girl and shook hishead sagely as though to say, “What days we live in. Each more amazing than the last”. Then he asked her, as if motivated by nothing but curiosity, “Isn't there some way I could see him without being seen?”

  She objected, “You're strange! What need is there to spy?”

  He entreated her: “It's a sight worth seeing. Don't deprive me of it.”

  She laughed contemptuously and commented, “You've got the brains of a child in the body of a camel. Isn't that so, my camel? But death to anyone who disappoints one of your requests…. Hide in the foyer while I take them a dish of fruit. I'll leave the door open till I come back.”

  She left the room and he trailed after her with a pounding heart. He hid in a dark corner of the hall while the lute player continued on her way to the kitchen. She soon returned with a dish of grapes. She went to the door from which the singing came and knocked. She waited a moment and then went in, leaving the door open. There he saw a divan at the end of the room. Zubayda sat in the middle of it cradling a lute. She accompanied herself as she sang, “O Muslims, O People of God.”

  Sitting next to her was his father, not someone else. When he saw him, hisheart pounded harder. His father had removed his cloak and rolled up his sleeves. He was shaking the tambourine and gazing at the performer with a face brimming with joy and happiness. The door was open only so long as Zanuba was in the room, one or two minutes, but during that time he witnessed an amazing sight: a secret life, a long story with many ramifications. He awoke like a person emerging from a long, deep sleep to the convulsions of a violent earthquake. In those two minuteshe saw a whole life summed up by one image, like a brief scene in a dream that brings together diverse events that would take years in the real world. He saw his father the way he truly was - his father, not some other man, but not as he was accustomed to seeing him. Never before had he seen him without his cloak, at a relaxed, spontaneous party. He had never seen him with his black hair sticking up as though he had been running around bareheaded. He had never seen his naked leg as it appeared at the edge of the divan, sticking out from his gown, which had been pulled up. He had never seen, by God, the tambourine in his hands as he shook it
with a dancing rhythm gracefully interspersed with taps on the skin. Perhaps most amazing of all, he had never before seen his face smile. It was glistening with such affection and goodwill that Yasin was stunned, just as Kamal had been when he saw their father laughing in front of his store, the day he went to see him driven by his desire to get his mother released.

  Yasin saw all of this in two minutes. Once Zanuba had closed the door and gone to her room he remained where he was, listening to the singing and the jingling of the tambourine with a spinning head. It was the same sound he had heard when he entered the building, but how differently it affected his soul, what new images and ideas it brought to his mind now…. When a child who has not started school yet hears a school bell ring, he smiles, but once he is a pupil it sounds like a warning of the many hardship's ahead.

  Zanuba rapped on the door of her room to summon him. He awoke from his daze and went to her. He was trying to gain control of himself so he would not appear disturbed or stunned when she saw him. He entered with a broad smile on his face.

  “Did you see something to make you forget yourself?”

  He replied in a contented and relieved tone, “It was a rare sight, and the singing was excellent.”

  “Would you like us to do what they're doing?”

  “On our first night? … Certainly not…. I wouldn't want to mix anything else with you, not even singing.”

  At first he had been forcing himself to talk so he would appear to her, and to himself, to be calm and natural. He got caught up in what he was saying and no longer needed to pretend. He found he had returned to normal faster than he would have imagined. Similarly, a person who pretends to cry at a funeral may end up weeping, profusely. Even so, Yasin was suddenly struck with astonishment and told himself, “What an amazing situation! It would never have occurred to me. Here I am with Zanuba and my father's in a nearby room with Zubayda. Both of us in the same house!” He soon shrugged his shoulders and continued to himself: “But why should I bother to be amazed at something that seems incredible when it's an actuality I've observed myself? There it is, so it's silly to wonder with astonishment whether I can believe it. I'll believe it and stop marveling at it. What's wrong with that?”

  He felt not only relief but happiness beyond measure. He needed no encouragement to continue his sex life, but like most men indulging in forbidden pleasure, he was interested in the company of a like-minded person. How incredible to have found this person in his father, the traditional role model, who had terrified him for so long, whether consciously or not, because he assumed they held contradictory views. He set aside everything but his joy, which seemed the most precious thing he had achieved in life. He felt new love and admiration for his father, unlike the old typeshe had previously known, which had a thick coating of awe and fear. This new emotion sprang from the depths of his soul and was intertwined with the roots of his being. It seemed identical to his love and admiration for himself. His father was no longer a man who was distant, hard to reach, a closed door. He was near at hand, a bit of his own soul and heart. Father and son were a single spirit. The man in there shaking the tambourine was not al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad but Yasin himself, the way he would be in the future and the way he should be. Nothing separated them except secondary considerations of age and experience.

  “Good health to you, Father,” he thought to himself. “Today I've discovered you. Today's your birthday in my soul. What a day and what a father you are___Until tonight I've been an orphan.

  Drink and play the tambourine even better than Ayusha. I'm proud of you. Do you sing too, I wonder?”

  “Doesn't al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd al-Jawad sing sometimes?”

  “Are you still thinking about him? Why can't people leave each other alone? … Yes, he sings, my camel…. When he's drunk, he joins in singing the choruses.”

  “How's his voice?”

  “As full and beautiful as his neck.”

  “All the singing voices in our family go back to this source,” he mused. “Everyone sings. It's a family with deep roots in music.

  I wish I could hear you, even just once. The only memory I have of your voice is of yelling and scolding. The only refrain of yours we all know is ‘Boy! Ox! Son of a bitch!’ I'd like to hear you sing ‘Affection's rare with good-looking people’ or ‘I'm in love, my beauty.’ What are you like when you're drunk, Father? What are you like' when you get rowdy? I must know so I can follow your example and live according to your traditions. How are you when you're in love? How do you embrace?”

  He remembered Zanuba. He saw her in front of the mirror smoothing her hair with her fingers. The armhole of her dress revealed smooth, clear skin sloping down to a breast like a round loaf of unbaked bread. Intoxicating desire swept through his body, and he fell on her like a bull elephant crushing a gazelle.

  40

  THREE AUTOMOBILES proffered by friends of al-Sayyid Ahmad stopped in front of his house to wait for the bride and her party, whom they were to convey to the Shawkat residence in Sugar Street, or al-Sukkariya. It was late in the afternoon. The rays of the summer sun had withdrawn from the street and were resting on the houses opposite the bride's home. There was no hint of a wedding there, except for the roses decorating the lead vehicle. These caught the eyes of the nearby shop owners and of many of the passersby.

  The engagement had been arranged previously. The presents had arrived. The trousseau had been sent. The marriage contract had been signed. At no time during all of this had there been any ululations of joy from the house, any decorations on the door, or any other of the customary signs of a wedding to reveal what was going on inside. Families were usually proud to make a display on such occasions, using weddings as an excuse to express their concealed longing for delight with song, dance, and shrieks of joy.

  Everything had been concluded in calm silence. No one knew about the marriage except for relatives and friends and a select group of neighbors. Al-Sayyid Ahmad had refused to budge from his sense of decorum or to allow any member of his family to escape from it even for an hour. Consequently, accompanied by the women of her family, the bride left the house in silence despite the protestations of Umm Hanafi. Aisha dashed for the automobile at breakneck speed, as though she feared that the eyes of the onlookers might scorch her wedding gown or her white silk tiara and veil, which were decorated with different varieties of jasmine. Khadija and Mary am followed her, together with some other girls. The mother and women relatives and neighbors found their places in the other automobiles. Meanwhile Kamal took his seat beside the driver of the bride's car.

  The mother wanted the procession to pass by al-Husayn so she could have a fresh look at his shrine, which her desire to see had cost her so dearly once before. She wished to ask al-Husayn's blessing on her beautiful bride. The automobiles went along the streets she had taken that day with Kamal. Afterward they turned into al-Ghuriya at the corner where she had almost met her death. Finally they dropped their passengers at Mutawalli Gate in front of the entrance to Sugar Street, which was too narrow for cars to enter. They all dismounted and entered the alley, where wedding decorations could be seen. The boys of the district rushed toward them while screams and trills resounded from the Shawkat residence, the first house on the right as they entered the alley. The windows of the house were crowded with the heads of people peering down and trilling with joy. The bridegroom, Khalil Shawkat, stood at the entrance with his brother Ibrahim Shawkat as well as Yasin and Fahmy. Khalil smilingly approached the bride and offered her his arm. She did not know what to do and would not have moved if Maryam had not taken her arm and put it around his. Then he escorted her inside. They passed by the crowded courtyard as roses and sweets were showered at the bride's feet and those of the bridal party until the women disappeared behind the door of the women's quarters.

  Although the marriage contract for Aisha and Khalil had been signed a month or more earlier, the sight of their arms being intertwined and of them walking side by side affected Yasin
and Fahmy, and especially the latter, with an astonishment mixed with embarrassment and a feeling almost of disapproval. The family code did not seem to make any exception for wedding ceremonies conducted in full accord with Islamic law. This reaction was even more pronounced in Kamal, who pulled on his mother's hand in alarm and pointed to the bridal couple preceding everyone else up the stairs. He seemed to be appealing to her to prevent an outrageous evil.

  The two young men wanted to steal a look at their father's face to see what effect that rare sight had on him. They quickly looked all around but found no trace of him. He was not at the entrance or in the adjacent courtyard, where benches and chairs were arranged in rows with a platform up in front for the singers. The fact was that: al-Sayyid Ahmad had shut himself up with some of his best friends in a reception room opening on the courtyard and had not left it since he had set foot in the house. He was determined to stay there until the evening was concluded. He wanted to keep some distance between himself and the “masses” clamoring around outside. Nothing made him so uncomfortable as to be with his family at a wedding party. He did not want to impose his supervision on them at a time set aside for delight and did not care to observe at close hand their relaxed response to a festive occasion. What he hated most of all was for any of them to see him lapse from the stern dignity to which they were accustomed. If the matter had been left to him, the wedding would have been carried out in complete silence. The widow of the late Mr. Shawkat had met his suggestion with totally inflexible opposition. She had refused for the bride to be welcomed to her home with anything less than a gala evening party. For the entertainment she had hired the female vocalist Jalila and the male vocalist Sabir.

  Kamal was so ecstatic with the freedom and enjoyment he was allowed that he could have been the bridegroom. He was one of the few individuals permitted to move freely back and forth between the women's section inside and the men's area in the courtyard by the stage. He stayed for a long time with his mother, gazing at the women's ornaments and jewelry and listening to their jokes and conversations, which were dominated by the topic of marriage. He also heard the performer Jalila there. She sat at the front of the hall, resembling in both her huge size and her ornamentation the ceremonial camel litter sent with the pilgrims to Mecca. She proceeded to sing some popular songs, while openly drinking wine.