The Golden Apples of the Sun

"Listen," said McDunn quietly. "Listen."

  We waited a moment. And then I began to hear it. First a great vacuumed sucking of air, and then the lament, the bewilderment, the loneliness of the great monster, folded over and upon us, above us, so that the sickening reek of its body filled the air, a stone's thickness away from our cellar. The monster gasped and cried. The tower was gone. The light was gone. The thing that had called to it across a million years was gone. And the monster was opening its mouth and sending out great sounds. The sounds of a Fog Horn, again and again. And ships far at sea, not finding the light, not seeing anything, but passing and hearing late that night, must've thought: There it is, the lonely sound, the Lonesome Bay horn. All's well. We've rounded the cape.

  And so it went for the rest of that night.

  The sun was hot and yellow the next afternoon when the rescuers came out to dig us from our stoned-under cellar.

  "It fell apart, is all," said Mr. McDunn gravely. "We had a few bad knocks from the waves and it just crumbled." He pinched my arm.

  There was nothing to see. The ocean was calm, the sky blue. The only thing was a great algaic stink from the green matter that covered the fallen tower stones and the shore rocks. Flies buzzed about. The ocean washed empty on the shore.

  The next year they built a new lighthouse, but by that time I had a job in the little town and a wife and a good small warm house that glowed yellow on autumn nights, the doors locked, the chimney puffing smoke. As for McDunn, he was master of the new lighthouse, built to his own specifications, out of steel-reinforced concrete. "Just in case," he said.

  The new lighthouse was ready in November. I drove down alone one evening late and parked my car and looked across the gray waters and listened to the new horn sounding, once, twice, three, four times a minute far out there, by itself.

  The monster?

  It never came back.

  "It's gone away," said McDunn. "It's gone back to the Deeps. It's learned you can't love anything too much in this world. It's gone into the deepest Deeps to wait another million years. Ah, the poor thing! Waiting out there, and waiting out there, while man comes and goes on this pitiful little planet. Waiting and waiting."

  I sat in my car, listening. I couldn't see the lighthouse or the light standing out in Lonesome Bay. I could only hear the Horn, the Horn, the Horn. It sounded like the monster calling.

  I sat there wishing there was something I could say.

  2

  THE PEDESTRIAN

  Copyright, 1951, by The Fortnightly Publishing Company.

  To enter out into that silence that was the city at eight o'clock of a misty evening in November, to put your feet upon that buckling concrete walk, to step over grassy seams and make your way, hands in pockets, through the silences, that was what Mr. Leonard Mead most dearly loved to do. He would stand upon the corner of an intersection and peer down long moonlit avenues of sidewalk in four directions, deciding which way to go, but it really made no difference; he was alone in this world of 2053 A.D., or as good as alone, and with a final decision made, a path selected, he would stride off, sending patterns of frosty air before him like the smoke of a cigar.

  Sometimes he would walk for hours and miles and return only at midnight to his house. And on his way he would see the cottages and homes with their dark windows, and it was not unequal to walking through a graveyard where only the faintest glimmers of firefly light appeared in flickers behind the windows. Sudden gray phantoms seemed to manifest upon inner room walls where a curtain was still undrawn against the night, or there were whisperings and murmurs where a window in a tomb-like building was still open.

  Mr. Leonard Mead would pause, cock his head, listen, look, and march on, his feet making no noise on the lumpy walk. For long ago he had wisely changed to sneakers when strolling at night, because the dogs in intermittent squads would parallel his journey with barkings if he wore hard heels, and lights might click on and faces appear and an entire street be startled by the passing of a lone figure, himself, in the early November evening.

  On this particular evening he began his journey in a westerly direction, toward the hidden sea. There was a good crystal frost in the air; it cut the nose and made the lungs blaze like a Christmas tree inside; you could feel the cold light going on and off, all the branches filled with invisible snow. He listened to the faint push of his soft shoes through autumn leaves with satisfaction, and whistled a cold quiet whistle between his teeth, occasionally picking up a leaf as he passed, examining its skeletal pattern in the infrequent lamplights as he went on, smelling its rusty smell.

  "Hello, in there," he whispered to every house on every side as he moved. "What's up tonight on Channel 4, Channel 7, Channel 9? Where are the cowboys rushing, and do I see the United States Cavalry over the next hill to the rescue?"

  The street was silent and long and empty, with only his shadow moving like the shadow of a hawk in mid-country. If he closed his eyes and stood very still, frozen, he could imagine himself upon the center of a plain, a wintry, windless Arizona desert with no house in a thousand miles, and only dry river beds, the streets, for company.

  "What is it now?" he asked the houses, noticing his wrist watch. "Eight-thirty P.M.? Time for a dozen assorted murders? A quiz? A revue? A comedian falling off the stage?"

  Was that a murmur of laughter from within a moon-white house? He hesitated, but went on when nothing more happened. He stumbled over a particularly uneven section of sidewalk. The cement was vanishing under flowers and grass. In ten years of walking by night or day, for thousands of miles, he had never met another person walking, not one in all that time.

  He came to a cloverleaf intersection which stood silent where two main highways crossed the town. During the day it was a thunderous surge of cars, the gas stations open, a great insect rustling and a ceaseless jockeying for position as the scarab-beetles, a faint incense puttering from their exhausts, skimmed homeward to the far directions. But now these highways, too, were like streams in a dry season, all stone and bed and moon radiance.

  He turned back on a side street, circling around toward his home. He was within a block of his destination when the lone car turned a corner quite suddenly and flashed a fierce white cone of light upon him. He stood entranced, not unlike a night moth, stunned by the illumination, and then drawn toward it.

  A metallic voice called to him:

  "Stand still. Stay where you are! Don't move!"

  He halted.

  "Put up your hands!"

  "But--" he said.

  "Your hands up! Or we'll shoot!"

  The police, of course, but what a rare, incredible thing; in a city of three million, there was only one police car left, wasn't that correct? Ever since a year ago, 2052, the election year, the force had been cut down from three cars to one. Crime was ebbing; there was no need now for the police, save for this one lone car wandering and wandering the empty streets.

  "Your name?" said the police car in a metallic whisper. He couldn't see the men in it for the bright light in his eyes.

  "Leonard Mead," he said.

  "Speak up!"

  "Leonard Mead!"

  "Business or profession?"

  "I guess you'd call me a writer."

  "No profession," said the police car, as if talking to itself. The light held him fixed, like a museum specimen, needle thrust through chest.

  "You might say that," said Mr. Mead. He hadn't written in years. Magazines and books didn't sell any more. Everything went on in the tomb-like houses at night now, he thought, continuing his fancy. The tombs, ill-lit by television light, where the people sat like the dead, the gray or multi-colored lights touching their faces, but never really touching them.

  "No profession," said the phonograph voice, hissing. "What are you doing out?"

  "Walking," said Leonard Mead.

  "Walking!"

  "Just walking," he said simply, but his face felt cold.

  "Walking, just walking, walking?"

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p; "Yes, sir."

  "Walking where? For what?"

  "Walking for air. Walking to see."

  "Your address!"

  "Eleven South Saint James Street."

  "And there is air in your house, you have an air conditioner, Mr. Mead?"

  "Yes."

  "And you have a viewing screen in your house to see with?"

  "No."

  "No?" There was a crackling quiet that in itself was an accusation.

  "Are you married, Mr. Mead?"

  "No."

  "Not married," said the police voice behind the fiery beam. The moon was high and clear among the stars and the houses were gray and silent.

  "Nobody wanted me," said Leonard Mead with a smile.

  "Don't speak unless you're spoken to!"

  Leonard Mead waited in the cold night.

  "Just walking, Mr. Mead?"

  "Yes."

  "But you haven't explained for what purpose."

  "I explained; for air, and to see, and just to walk."

  "Have you done this often?"

  "Every night for years."

  The police car sat in the center of the street with its radio throat faintly humming.

  "Well, Mr. Mead," it said.

  "Is that all?" he asked politely.

  "Yes," said the voice. "Here." There was a sigh, a pop. The back door of the police car sprang wide. "Get in."

  "Wait a minute, I haven't done anything!"

  "Get in."

  "I protest!"

  "Mr. Mead."

  He walked like a man suddenly drunk. As he passed the front window of the car he looked in. As he had expected, there was no one in the front seat, no one in the car at all.

  "Get in."

  He put his hand to the door and peered into the back seat, which was a little cell, a little black jail with bars. It smelled of riveted steel. It smelled of harsh antiseptic; it smelled too clean and hard and metallic. There was nothing soft there.

  "Now if you had a wife to give you an alibi," said the iron voice. "But--"

  "Where are you takimg me?"

  The car hesitated, or rather gave a faint whirring click, as if information, somewhere, was dropping card by punch-slotted card under electric eyes. "To the Psychiatric Center for Research on Regressive Tendencies."

  He got in. The door shut with a soft thud. The police car rolled through the night avenues, flashing its dim lights ahead.

  They passed one house on one street a moment later, one house in an entire city of houses that were dark, but this one particular house had all of its electric lights brightly lit, every window a loud yellow illumination, square and warm in the cool darkness.

  "That's my house," said Leonard Mead.

  No one answered him.

  The car moved down the empty river-bed streets and off away, leaving the empty streets with the empty sidewalks, and no sound and no motion all the rest of the chill November night.

  3

  THE APRIL WITCH

  Copyright, 1952, by The Curtis Publishing Company.

  Into the air, over the valleys, under the stars, above a river, a pond, a road, flew Cecy. Invisible as new spring winds, fresh as the breath of clover rising from twilight fields, she flew. She soared in doves as soft as white ermine, stopped in trees and lived in blossoms, showering away in petals when the breeze blew. She perched in a lime-green frog, cool as mint by a shining pool. She trotted in a brambly dog and barked to hear echoes from the sides of distant barns. She lived in new April grasses, in sweet clear liquids rising from the musky earth.

  It's spring, thought Cecy. I'll be in every living thing in the world tonight.

  Now she inhabited neat crickets on the tar-pool roads, now prickled in dew on an iron gate. Hers was an adaptably quick mind flowing unseen upon Illinois winds on this one evening of her life when she was just seventeen.

  "I want to be in love," she said.

  She had said it at supper. And her parents had widened their eyes and stiffened back in their chairs. "Patience," had been their advice. "Remember, you're remarkable. Our whole family is odd and remarkable. We can't mix or marry with ordinary folk. We'd lose our magical powers if we did. You wouldn't want to lose your ability to 'travel' by magic, would you? Then be careful. Be careful!"

  But in her high bedroom, Cecy had touched perfume to her throat and stretched out, trembling and apprehensive, on her four-poster, as a moon the color of milk rose over Illinois country, turning rivers to cream and roads to platinum.

  "Yes," she sighed. "I'm one of an odd family. We sleep days and fly nights like black kites on the wind. If we want, we can sleep in moles through the winter, in the warm earth. I can live in anything at all--a pebble, a crocus, or a praying mantis. I can leave my plain, bony body behind and send my mind far out for adventure. Now!"

  The wind whipped her away over fields and meadows.

  She saw the warm spring lights of cottages and farms glowing with twilight colors.

  If I can't be in love, myself, because I'm plain and odd, then I'll be in love through someone else, she thought.

  Outside a farmhouse in the spring night a dark-haired girl, no more than nineteen, drew up water from a deep stone well. She was singing.

  Cecy fell--a green leaf--into the well. She lay in the tender moss of the well, gazing up through dark coolness. Now she quickened in a fluttering, invisible amoeba. Now in a water droplet! At last, within a cold cup, she felt herself lifted to the girl's warm lips. There was a soft night sound of drinking.

  Cecy looked out from the girl's eyes.

  She entered into the dark head and gazed from the shining eyes at the hands pulling the rough rope. She listened through the shell ears to this girl's world. She smelled a particular universe through these delicate nostrils, felt this special heart beating, beating. Felt this strange tongue move with singing.

  Does she know I'm here? thought Cecy.

  The girl gasped. She stared into the night meadows.

  "Who's there?"

  No answer.

  "Only the wind," whispered Cecy.

  "Only the wind." The girl laughed at herself, but shivered.

  It was a good body, this girl's body. It held bones of finest slender ivory hidden and roundly fleshed. This brain was like a pink tea rose, hung in darkness, and there was cider-wine in this mouth. The lips lay firm on the white, white teeth and the brows arched neatly at the world, and the hair blew soft and fine on her milky neck. The pores knit small and close. The nose tilted at the moon and the cheeks glowed like small fires. The body drifted with feather-balances from one motion to another and seemed always singing to itself. Being in this body, this head, was like basking in a hearth fire, living in the purr of a sleeping cat, stirring in warm creek waters that flowed by night to the sea.

  I'll like it here, thought Cecy.

  "What?" asked the girl, as if she'd heard a voice.

  "What's your name?" asked Cecy carefully.

  "Ann Leary." The girl twitched. "Now why should I say that out loud?"

  "Ann, Ann," whispered Cecy. "Ann, you're going to be in love."

  As if to answer this, a great roar sprang from the road, a clatter and a ring of wheels on gravel. A tall man drove up in a rig, holding the reins high with his monstrous arms, his smile glowing across the yard.

  "Ann!"

  "Is that you, Tom?"

  "Who else?" Leaping from the rig, he tied the reins to the fence.

  "I'm not speaking to you!" Ann whirled, the bucket in her hands slopping.

  "No!" cried Cecy.

  Ann froze. She looked at the hills and the first spring stars. She stared at the man named Tom, Cecy made her drop the bucket.

  "Look what you've done!"

  Tom ran up.

  "Look what you made me do!"

  He wiped her shoes with a kerchief, laughing.

  "Get away!" She kicked at his hands, but he laughed again, and gazing down on him from miles away, Cecy saw the turn of his head, the size o
f his skull, the flare of his nose, the shine of his eye, the girth of his shoulder, and the hard strength of his hands doing this delicate thing with the handkerchief. Peering down from the secret attic of this lovely head, Cecy yanked a hidden copper ventriloquist's wire and the pretty mouth popped wide: "Thank you!"

  "Oh, so you have manners?" The smell of leather on his hands, the smell of the horse rose from his clothes into the tender nostrils, and Cecy, far, far away over night meadows and flowered fields, stirred as with some dream in her bed.

  "Not for you, no!" said Ann.

  "Hush, speak gently," said Cecy. She moved Ann's fingers out toward Tom's head Ann snatched them back.

  "I've gone mad!"

  "You have." He nodded, smiling but bewildered. "Were you going to touch me then?"

  "I don't know. Oh, go away!" Her cheeks glowed with pink charcoals.

  "Why don't you run? I'm not stopping you." Tom got up. "Have you changed your mind? Will you go to the dance with me tonight? It's special. Tell you why later."

  "No," said Ann.

  "Yes!" cried Cecy. "I've never danced. I want to dance. I've never worn a long gown, all rustly. I want that. I want to dance all night. I've never known what it's like to be in a woman, dancing; Father and Mother would never permit it. Dogs, cats, locusts, leaves, everything else in the world at one time or another I've known, but never a woman in the spring, never on a night like this. Oh, please--we must go to that dance!"

  She spread her thought like the fingers of a hand within a new glove.

  "Yes," said Ann Leary, "I'll go. I don't know why, but I'll go to the dance with you tonight, Tom."

  "Now inside, quick!" cried Cecy. "You must wash, tell your folks, get your gown ready, out with the iron, into your room!"

  "Mother," said Ann, "I've changed my mind!"

  The rig was galloping off down the pike, the rooms of the farmhouse jumped to life, water was boiling for a bath, the coal stove was heating an iron to press the gown, the mother was rushing about with a fringe of hairpins in her mouth. "What's come over you, Ann? You don't like Tom!"

  "That's true." Ann stopped amidst the great fever.

  But it's spring! thought Cecy.

  "It's spring," said Ann.

  And it's a fine night for dancing, thought Cecy.

  "... for dancing," murmured Ann Leary.

  Then she was in the tub and the soap creaming on her white seal shoulders, small nests of soap beneath her arms, and the flesh of her warm breasts moving in her hands and Cecy moving the mouth, making the smile, keeping the actions going. There must be no pause, no hesitation, or the entire pantomime might fall in ruins! Ann Leary must be kept moving, doing, acting, wash here, soap there, now out! Rub with a towel! Now perfume and powder!