Divided in Death

  She shook her head, pleased when her hair fell into place without any fuss.

  Then her eyes widened in shock. She was vain, or edging perilously close to it. And it had to stop. Deliberately, she turned away from the mirror. She needed to get out of this stupid robe and into clothes. As soon as she did, she’d check on the lab.

  Work, she assured herself, was the only thing worth being vain about.

  14 SHE’D BARELY NIPPED into the bedroom when Roarke stepped in from the elevator.

  “I just need to change, then I was coming by the lab.”

  “Well, I need a minute to speak with you, and saw that Mavis and Trina had gone.”

  “What about?” She started rummaging through her dresser for old, comfortable sweats. It gave her something to do with her hands as she prayed it had nothing to do with a field operation in Dallas. “Did you guys have a breakthrough?”

  “No. It’s painstaking and exacting work. Slow and tedious. Feeney’s taking an hour restorative. It’s hell on the eyes.”

  “Okay.” She could hardly complain about the break when she’d spent a good chunk of the evening flat on her back and covered with goo. “I’m not much help in the comp-jock area, but I’ve got some probabilities to run, some theories I want to play with. Mind’s clear. I hate that.”

  “You hate that your mind’s clear?”

  “No.” Her shoulders relaxed again. She was tuned to every nuance in his voice, and everything was all right. For now. “I hate that the stuff Trina does actually works—on the brain. I’m pumped,” she said, hauling out a ragged and ancient short-sleeved sweatshirt she’d buried under a stack of silk and cashmere tees. “And I’m thinking . . . what’re you looking at?”

  “You. Darling Eve, you look—”

  “Don’t start.” She waved the shirt at him and backed up two steps. Even that was a fake, she thought. It was such a tremendous relief to know he could look at her that way. To know, when he did, her blood warmed, her body tightened. “Don’t even start.”

  “You’ve had a pedicure.”

  Instinctively, her toes curled in embarrassment. “She did it while I was under VR, and she won’t tell me how to get it off.”

  “I like it. Sexy.”

  “What’s sexy about pink toes? What could possibly be sexy about that? Wait, I forgot who I was talking to. If she’d painted my teeth pink, you’d think it was sexy.”

  “A fool in love,” he murmured and stepped close enough to brush a thumb over her cheek. “Soft.”

  “Stop it.” She slapped his hand away.

  “And you smell . . . exotic,” he said after easing closer for a testing sniff. “A bit tropical. Like a lemon grove in spring, with just a hint of . . . jasmine, I think. Night-blooming jasmine.”

  “Roarke. Down.”

  “Too late.” He laughed and gripped her hips. “A man needs his restorative, you know. Why don’t you be mine?”

  She was his, but still she gave him a shove as his lips came down on hers. “I’ve already had my break.”

  “You’re about to extend it. You taste incredible.” His lips skimmed over her jaw, then under it, and his busy hands had already unbelted her robe, slipped beneath it. “Let’s just see . . .”—he tugged on her bottom lip—“ . . . what else Trina’s been up to.”

  He eased the robe off her shoulders, skimmed his teeth over bare skin.

  The little ball of lust that had curled in her belly expanded. She tipped her head to the side to give him better access. “I’m giving you twenty minutes, thirty tops, to get yourself under control.”

  “Thirty should give me just enough time to . . .” He trailed off as his gaze lowered to her breast. “Well now.” His voice came out in a purr as he rubbed his thumb lightly over the replica of her badge. “What have we here?”

  “One of Trina’s little brainstorms. It’s just a temp, and actually I got kind of a kick out of it after I got over the shock.”

  He said nothing, only continued to stroke and circle the image with his thumb.

  “Roarke?”

  “I’m amazed to find myself ridiculously aroused by this. How odd.”

  “You’re kidding.”

  His gaze lifted to hers, and that hot blue slammed through her. “Okay.” Nerves danced under her skin. Over it. “Not kidding.”

  “Lieutenant.” He gripped her hips again, and hitched her up in one clean jerk until her legs wrapped his waist. “You’d best brace yourself.”

  There was no bracing against that kind of assault on the senses, that sort of brutal invasion of the system. Since the bed was too far away, he simply spilled them both onto the sofa and took her over with lips and hands.

  She clamped around him. It seemed if she didn’t hold on, hold tight, she might shoot out of her own body. Sensations crowded inside her, careening through blood and muscle and nerve until she was quivering, until she was coming in a screaming rush.

  Staggered, she fought for air, then met, finally met, those hungry lips with her own. Partly in lust, partly in desperate relief that they were together, at least here, they were together, she tugged at his shirt. He wasn’t the only one who wanted the taste and texture of flesh. His was hot, as if he burned from the inside out for her.

  Her miracle.

  “Let me.” She fought with his belt. “Let me.”

  And they rolled off the sofa, hit the floor with a solid thud.

  Her breathless laugh shimmered through him. God, he’d needed to hear her laugh.

  He’d needed to hold her, and be held.

  Her scent, her shape, her flavor all burned through the lines on his already straining control. He wanted to lap her like cream, to devour her like a feast after famine. He wanted to bury himself in her until the world ended.

  If it was possible to love, to want, to need too much, he’d already passed the boundary with her. There was no going back. She shuddered under him, moved under him. Her hand reached out and closed over him, and took the hard length of him into the wet, wild heat of her.

  Pleasure swamped him, drenched him, a saturation of mind and body as her hips plunged up, and he drove down.

  He could watch her dark amber eyes that were blurry with arousal, and he could see her lips tremble an instant before her head arched back and the throaty moan escaped her.

  Undone, he pressed his lips to the symbol of what she was, and felt the heart that thundered for him beneath it. His cop. His Eve. His miracle.

  He gave himself over to it, surrendered himself to her.

  Her pulse was nearly back to normal when he rolled so she was sprawled over his chest instead of pinned under his weight. From that vantage point, she folded her arms and propped her chin on them to study his face.

  He certainly looked relaxed at the moment, she thought, all loose and satisfied, like a guy about to take a nice little nap.

  “Pink toenails and boob tats. What is it with men?”

  His lips curved, though he didn’t yet open his eyes. “We’re so easily played. Really, we’re at the mercy of the female, with all her mysterious wiles.”

  “You’re at the mercy of your glands.”

  “That as well.” He sighed happily. “Praise God.”

  “So you really go for all that stuff? The potions and lotions and paints and all that?”

  “Eve. Darling Eve.” He opened his eyes now and stroked a hand over her hair. “I go for you. That should be obvious.”

  “But you get off on all the jazz.”

  “With or without the jazz.” He scooted her up until he could brush his lips to hers. “You’re my own.”

  Her lips twitched. “Your own what?”

  “Everything.”

  “Slick talker,” she murmured and gave in to nuzzle him. “You’re some slick talker. Just so you know, I’m not keeping the tattoo, even if it turns you into my sex slave. Just a few days, and that’s it.”

  “Your body, your choices. But I can’t say I’d want you to make it permanent. Something
about the surprise of it certainly flicked a switch in me. A bit baffling, really.”

  “Maybe I’ll surprise you every now and again.”

  “You always do.”

  She liked knowing that, and gave him a quick pat on the cheek before she rolled away. “Restorative period’s over.”

  “There’s no surprise in that.”

  “Get some clothes on, civilian, and report.”

  “I’m not entirely sure I used up my full thirty minutes. Someone was in a bit of a hurry.”

  She picked up his pants, threw them into his face. “Cover up that pretty ass of yours, pal. You said you needed to speak to me before you were overcome by my pink toenails. What about?”

  “Before I get to that, I’d like to express the hope that you remain barefoot as much as possible the next several days. And moving on,” he said with a laugh when she sent him a steely stare. “Feeney and I both agree we need more jocks in the lab. With just the two of us this restoration may take weeks at best.”

  “McNab will be back tomorrow.”

  “So that’s three of us, except when at least one of us is pulled off for something else. If you want answers, Eve, you have to give us the tools to get them.”

  “Why isn’t Feeney, as head of EDD, requesting this?”

  “Because I lost the bloody flip, which wouldn’t have happened if I’d gotten my hands on the coin long enough to switch it for one of my own. But he said—I believe this is a direct quote—‘you don’t get bit by the same dog twice.’ Which is his colorful way of saying he’s aware I’ve rigged a coin toss on him before.”

  “He’s no easy mark.”

  “He’s not, no. And neither of us is green when it comes to electronics, nor are we slackers. As much as it pains both of us to admit it, we need help. I’ve some in mind who—”

  “If you’re thinking Jamie Lingstrom, forget it. I’m not dragging a kid into an unstable situation like this.”

  “I wasn’t. Jamie’s in classes, and I’m set on his remaining there. I want Reva. She’s already aware of the situation,” he continued before Eve could speak. “She’s one of the best, her clearance is top level, and she already knows what’s going on.”

  “Because she’s one of the elements. It’s a tricky business to bring in one of the prime elements. To bring in another civilian.”

  “She won’t have to be brought up to speed, which saves us all time. She has a personal investment so she’ll work harder than anyone. She’s not a suspect, Eve, but another kind of victim.” He paused, and his tone was cooler when he continued. “Shouldn’t a victim have a right to stand for herself, as much as to have someone stand for her, if the opportunity’s there?”

  “Maybe.” They were veering toward it, toward that gulf with the jagged edges. She wanted to step back from it, and worse, pretend it wasn’t there. But the gap was building even as she stood with her body still warm from him.

  “Did you run this by Feeney?”

  “I did. And circled the same ground you and I are dancing on now. Then I showed him her qualifications. He’s anxious to work with her.”

  “You seduced him.”

  That made him smile, just a little. “That’s a bit of an uncomfortable image for me. I prefer that I convinced him. Regarding Reva, and Tokimoto.”

  “Another of yours. Another civilian?”

  “Yes, and there are several reasons for the choice. First, civilians with as high a security rating as these two are less likely to leak something to the media. Don’t blow,” he said, mildly, when she showed her teeth. “These choices would be less likely to leak than any others. Reva for obvious reasons, and Tokimoto because he’s in love with her.”

  “Well, fucking A.”

  “She doesn’t know it,” Roarke continued without missing a beat. “And he may never move in that direction, but the fact’s are the facts. Due to his feelings for her, and his natural interest in the work, he’ll put more energy and effort into it than most. Love does that sort of thing to you.”

  When she didn’t respond to that, he turned to open a panel, and the minifridgie behind it. He took out a bottle of water. Opened it, sipped.

  It wet his throat, but didn’t cool the anger that was starting to build. “Aside from that, if you bring in cops, you have to do the paperwork, deal with the budget, clear them for this level of operation, and so on. I have a bigger budget than the NYPSD.”

  “You have a bigger budget than Greenland.”

  “Perhaps, but the point is I have a vested interest in solving this problem, and protecting my Code Red contract. I’ve quite a bit to lose if we don’t find the answers with some expediency. Because of that, because of what was done to a friend of mine, because I know what the bloody hell I’m about in this area, I’m recommending we bring in the best people for the job.”

  “You don’t have to get pissy about it.”

  “I feel pissy about it. About the whole shagging thing. I don’t sit easy when people I care about are in this kind of turmoil, and it’s fucking frustrating to be picking my way through the holy mess of those units working toward retrieval, and to be doing that, spending my time there instead of spending it finding out exactly who was responsible for what happened in Dallas.”

  A small, hard ball of ice dropped in her belly. And there it was, the big, glowing elephant in the room she’d hoped to ignore, and it was trumpeting. “That’s what’s under it, isn’t it? All of it.”

  “Aye, that’s under it and over it, it’s around it and through it.”

  “I want you to put it away.” Her voice stayed calm even as her belly clenched. “I want you to put it aside before you cross a line I can’t ignore.”

  “I have my own lines, Lieutenant.”

  “That’s right, that’s right. Lieutenant.” She picked up her badge that lay on the dresser, and slapped it down again. “Dallas, Lieutenant Eve, NYPSD. You can’t stand there and talk about doing murder to a murder cop and expect me to ignore it and pretend it’s nothing.”

  “I’m talking to my wife.” He slammed the bottle down so water sloshed out and onto the glossy surface of the table. “A woman I vowed to cherish. There’s no cherishing, there’s no living with myself if I stand back and do bloody nothing. If I fold my hands while those responsible for what happened to you go on with their lives as if that was nothing.”

  “Their lives don’t matter to me. Their deaths, at your hands, do.”

  “Goddamn it, Eve.” He spun away from her and dragged on his shirt. “Don’t ask me to be what I’m not. Don’t ask it of me. I never ask it of you.”

  “No.” She steadied herself. “No, you don’t. You don’t,” she repeated, very quietly as that one point struck her as truth, inarguable truth. “So I can’t talk about this. I can’t think about it or fight about something we’ll never come close to agreeing on. But you’d better think about it. And when you’re thinking, you should remember I’m not a child like Marlena. And I’m not your mother.”

  He turned slowly, and his face was cold, and set. “I never mistake who you are, or who you’re not.”

  “I don’t need your kind of justice because I survived what happened to me, and made my own.”

  “And you cry in your sleep, and shake from the nightmares.”

  She was close to shaking now, but she wouldn’t cry. Tears wouldn’t help either of them. “What you’re thinking about won’t change that. Bring in whoever Feeney agrees to. I have to work.”

  “Wait.” He walked to his own dresser, opened a drawer. He was angry, as she was, and wished he knew how they’d so seamlessly turned from intimacy to temper. He took out the small, framed photograph he’d placed there, then walked over to hand it to Eve.

  She saw a pretty young woman with red hair and green eyes, healing bruises on her face, and a splint on the finger of a hand she held against the boy.

  The gorgeous little boy with the Celtic blue eyes who had his cheek pressed against the woman’s. Against his mother’s.


  Roarke and his mother.

  “There was nothing I could do for her. If I’d known . . . I didn’t, so that’s that. She was dead before I was old enough to fix her face in my memory. I couldn’t even give her that much.”

  “I know it hurts you.”

  “It isn’t about that. They knew about him. The HSO, Interpol, all the global intel organizations. They knew about Patrick Roarke long before he traveled to Dallas to meet with Richard Troy. But she, the woman who birthed me, the woman he murdered and tossed away didn’t even merit a footnote in their files. She was nothing to them, as a small, helpless child in Dallas was nothing to them.”

  She hurt for him, for herself, and for a woman she’d never met. “You couldn’t save her, and I’m sorry. You couldn’t save me, and I’m not. I’m good at saving myself. I’m not going to argue with you about this because it doesn’t fix anything. We’ve both got a lot of work to do.”

  She set the photo on his dresser. “You should leave this out. She was beautiful.”

  But when Eve left the room, he put the photo away. It was still too painful to look at those images for long.

  They gave each other a wide berth, working in their separate areas late into the night. Sleeping, for once, with a sea of bed between them and neither attempting to bridge it. In the morning, they circled around the distance that had spread between them, carefully avoiding each other’s territory, and cautious of their moves when that territory overlapped.

  She knew Reva Ewing and Tokimoto were in the house, and was leaving them to Feeney while she bunkered in her office, waiting for Peabody and McNab to get in.

  She could focus on the work at hand for long periods, running her probabilities, then sifting through data to create other scenarios. She could study her murder board, and reconstruct the crimes, the motives, the methods from what evidence she had and begin to see a picture.

  But she only had to shift that evidence to one side and a different picture formed.

  And if her concentration wavered, even for an instant, there was yet another image. One of herself and Roarke on opposing sides of a bottomless chasm.

  She hated that her personal life interfered with work. Hated more that she couldn’t stop it from creeping into her thoughts when she needed to train them on the job.