Cloud Nine

  “So!” I said. “Makes quite a tale, I must say.”

  “But, Mr. Kirby, there’s more.”

  “Then, let’s get it told, by all means.”

  “When I didn’t join in with the laughing, the other boy got scared and blew. He just up and walked out, and she said: ‘Oh for God’s sake, let him—he’s chicken anyway.’ Then she commenced wiping me off where I bled, with the towel that she brought. So then Burl decided I’d had enough for one night, and she complimented him on how considerate he was, ‘though of course it’s tough on you.’ And when he asked what she meant by that, she told him, ‘If it was me, I’d be looking around for help.’ So then he jumped her, and again I heard those terrible sounds that she made, and once more I thought I would die.”

  “...You mean Burl had you both?”

  “Yes, sir—and she had them both.”

  “All right. And—?”

  “They did it one more time, and then at last it was daylight and she took me home. And on the way, she said I shouldn’t tell Mother, ‘as it’s all for your own good, and had to come sooner or later.’ I didn’t tell, but not for that reason. She’s always suspicious of me so I was afraid to. So I said nothing about it. And Burl visited two or three times, wanting to take me out, but I wouldn’t go. Then, though, I missed my period, and had a horrible idea why. So I waited and hoped and prayed, but then when no period came I had to go to the doctor and let him give me the test. So when it came back positive he said he had to call Mother. And then holy hell broke loose!

  “That was last week, and in all this time I haven’t had one kind word or one peaceful moment. She’s bad enough, the way she carried on, but he’s worse, the goofy ideas he has. They’re willing to have the abortion done, but to have an abortion in Maryland, on the basis that I was raped, I have to charge the guy, bring him into court. Because they won’t do an abortion just on the girl’s say-so to the doctor that unfortunately she was raped, or else they all would say that. But Mr. Kirby, I’d rather die—you know the stink it would kick up, but they don’t as I haven’t even told them yet how those other two helped Burl. They insist I have to charge him, and they’ve given him until sundown to say what he’s going to do—you’d think this was a Western.

  “And another thing: It’s in my father’s family to shoot in a case like this. His grandfather killed a guy once, for playing around with his grandmother. It blackened her name, but my father thinks it was wonderful. So now he feels he must carry on, except instead of shooting Burl he means to put him in jail.”

  “Or make him marry you?”

  “Oh no. Father knows I wouldn’t.”

  “Then, at sundown, what’s he supposed to do?”

  “That keeps digging at me. I can’t get it out of my head, he’s supposed to come up with dough. That’s what my father’s pushing him for.”

  “He doesn’t have any money.”

  She studied me, then asked, “Are you sure?”

  “...His mother has money, of course—she’s not rich, but she’s comfortably well-off. However, I can’t quite see her kicking in for this.”

  “And you have dough, Mr. Kirby?”

  “Not as much as you might think—I have a business, I make a living. But Burl is twenty-one, and I’m not liable for what he does. So—“

  “Mr. Kirby, will you kindly wake up? Come out of that dream you seem to be in? Maybe you’re not liable, but you can’t turn your back on Burl, and neither can your mother. He’s your brother, he’s her son, as this whole community knows, and you’ll have to stand by him, you and your mother both, whether you want to or not. And then what? You have a business, you say, but will you have one next week, when this stink really gets going? Who wants to do business with a guy who’s brother is sitting in jail, for raping a girl in her teens, with the help of two kind friends who are sitting in jail too? I tell you, my father means business, on my behalf, he says, but no matter whose behalf, you are under the boom!”

  “I’ve got it, I see it!”

  Not that I liked it much, but at least she’d made it clear, where I was at and why, so I could try and figure out what I might do about it. But little by little, as a few minutes went by, I felt things clearing for me—I wouldn’t get out of it cheap, but to get out at all was the main thing. She must have sensed I had thought of something, as she leaned forward and waited. “First,” I said, “You haven’t mentioned yet what you think should be done.”

  “Well I didn’t think I had to. If I don’t charge him and I’m not ’titled to the abortion, then I must have the child, which I’m willing to do—I hate it, but I’ve resigned myself, Mr. Kirby. I’ll go to the Crittenton Home, have it, and give it in for adoption—God knows, I won’t want to keep it myself. Then I’ll take it from there. It won’t be easy, and I don’t care for the honor of being one of those girls who had to skip a year at school. But—”

  “Okay, now we’re getting somewhere. Has it occurred to you that what Burl is supposed to say is that he’ll pay for the Crittenton Home?”

  “Yes, Mr. Kirby, it has.”

  “Then suppose I offered to pay?”

  “Oh, Mr. Kirby, would you?”

  “Do you know how much it is?”

  “Yes sir, all the girls know. Eleven eleven.”

  “Eleven—?”

  “Eleven hundred and eleven dollars. What they do with the odd amount I never found out, buy the baby a rattle, perhaps.”

  I probably gulped, as it was more than I expected. But I made myself sound cheerful as I yelped: “Fine! Now why don’t I call your father, and go over to see him at once.”

  “Oh, you’re sweet!”

  She came over and kissed me, a strange, virginal, young girl’s kiss that didn’t square at all with what we’d been talking about, the condition she was in. I asked for her father’s number, and when I called him and said who I was, he was most agreeable, saying: “Oh yes, Mr. Kirby—how are you?” quite as though he knew me, which it turned out later he did. He said he’d look forward to seeing me and gave me the address, which was in University Park, a few blocks away. She was standing by the phone, and her eyes shone when I hung up. I said I was on my way, and that she should stay in the house, “without answering the door or the phone, as I’m known far and wide as a bachelor, and I don’t want you to explain.” I said I had a luncheon engagement I couldn’t break, “but you’re my first order of business, and I’ll get back as soon as I can, I hope with some really good news.”

  “All right. I’ll stay put until you come.”

  “Raid the icebox when you get hungry, please.”

  “It’s the best thing I do, eat.”

  And then, grabbing my arm as I turned to go, and spinning me around: “Mr. Kirby, why don’t I say it? We’ve met before. Don’t you remember me?”

  “Sonya, I’ve been having a feeling—”

  “At Northwestern High, at Christmastime, when you addressed the school assembly, and said how wonderful it would be if the whole year could be filled with the Christmas spirit. And I fell for you. I really fell for you. And—”

  “You played the march? The Wooden Soldiers?”

  “And then sat down with you—”

  “And asked me to sign your program. And—!”

  She laughed, and I knew she knew what I suddenly remembered. Her dress had slipped up, while she was sitting beside me, to show those beautiful legs, the same ones I was looking at now. She kissed me again, this time not so virginal. I got out of there, but fast.

  Chapter 3

  THE LANGS LIVED ON Van Buren, in a frame house with shaded trees around it, and I had supposed them strangers to me. But it turned out I knew them both. He was a teller in the Farmers’ Trust, and had cashed my checks often, while she worked in a store at the Plaza, and had sold me my upstairs furniture. A plump, middle-aged woman, she let me in, and recalled herself to me. Then she took me into the living room, an airy place with slipcovers on the furniture, where he was waiting. He was a
slim, tallish man, with a face not even a mother could be sure of, and one of those quiet, ‘Will-you-have-it-in-tens’ voices, like every voice in a bank. However, I placed him at once, and said: “Oh yes, Mr. Lang—we meet again!” She pushed up a chair, he waved me to it, and we all three sat down. And at once a pause ensued, or whatever a pause does—or at least for a long moment, you could hear the clock on the mantelpiece. Then, pretty nervous, I got at it. I said I’d been talking to Sonya, and he said yes, he thought she’d be calling me up. I said I’d come to see if there wasn’t some way of “straightening this thing out.” He said: “Well that would be up to your brother—actually it was your mother who rang me, asking me to hold off until tonight, but if any straightening is to be done, your brother will have to do it.”

  Now that news about Mother threw me off, and for a moment I was annoyed that Sonya hadn’t mentioned it, but then it occurred to me, perhaps she hadn’t known it. Also, his manner, and this news about Burl, that he had to do the straightening if straightening was going to be done, reinforced what I’d smelled, from the way she had acted about it, that something was lurking under cover that I’d had no idea of. So I heard myself tell him, “Well, I’m strictly here on my own. I haven’t talked to my brother in a couple of months, or seen my mother since Sunday. If I represent anyone, it’s Sonya.”

  “I represent her, Mr. Kirby.”

  His voice had a bit of a rasp.

  “Then, Mr. Lang, suppose we get at it. Do you mind my asking, so I have things perfectly clear, what it was you intended to do, that you held off from at my mother’s request?”

  “Mr. Kirby, it was you who came to see me.”

  “Or in other words, get at it?”

  “If you don’t mind.”

  My temper was beating a tattoo in my throat, but I swallowed it under control, and told him: “Well, we have two questions, here, as I see it. One is moral, and I don’t condone it, or try to minimize it. What my brother did was unspeakable, I don’t try to pretend it was not. But I know nothing I can do about it.

  “The other question is financial, and about that, there is something I can do, and will, if permitted. As Sonya explained it to me, it comes down to this: If no charges are filed, if the whole matter is dropped, a Maryland abortion is out, and Sonya must have the child. That, she tells me, she’s willing to do, and in fact prefers it to what she calls the stink that would surely come if my brother is persecuted. But of course, it will entail a certain expense, especially at the Florence Crittenton Home. So in return for your dropping the charges, I’m willing to bear that expense. I can give you a check right now.”

  Money talks, and I always carry a blank check in my wallet. I slipped it out now, like a magician palming a card, and waved it in front of his eyes. He hardly looked at it. Instead, he asked: “Do you know what the charges will be?”

  “Sonya told me, yes.”

  “And you think the amount you suggest, the Florence Crittenton expense, adequately compensates her?”

  “It’s compensation for the actual costs.”

  “It’s no compensation at all.”

  “It’s not hay, it’s four-figure money.”

  “But what does it leave her? What does she get out of it?”

  “Well if you put it on that basis—?”

  “I do, and you ought to be damned glad! You should be thanking God that I do. Because there’s another basis that I could put it on—”

  “Louis!” said Mrs. Lang. “Please!”

  “Our family,” he went on, paying no attention to her, “used to farm a place near Waldorf in Charles County, and my grandmother used to sell eggs. She sold eggs that she collected, from women all around, to a storekeeper on the Bryantown Road, who she claimed paid her better than any other. So one Saturday afternoon my grandfather lent her the truck, the little Ford truck that he had, so she could take her eggs in and sell them, and then he walked to Ryon’s store, that was across from the railroad station, to see a show that they had.

  “And the show was two runt oxen, that an old buzzard drove in every week, to make his week’s groceries with. The store kind of helped him out, by keeping silver dollars for him, silver dollars in the till, and how the thing worked was: The old buzzard would find him a sucker, and then bet him a silver dollar that he could throw it down—down in the dirt in front of the store, then roll the cartwheel on it, by word command to the oxen, and then talk them around. He would talk ’em, till they turned the cart clear around, sidewise a step at a time, without coming off the dollar. If they did the dollar was his, his coffee and sugar and flour for the week—but they always did and it was quite a show, that everyone gathered to watch, as he talked to them sweet and low, ‘Petty-whoa, petty-whoa, petty-whoa,’ always guiding to the left, and they would work the tongue around, swinging their heads together, braiding and unbraiding their legs. So, Mr. Kirby, on this particular day, the oxen were halfway around, with three-four hundred people gathered around, my grandfather with the rest, when a guy drove up in a Buick, sore as a boil at the storekeeper on the Bryantown Road.”

  Mrs. Lang stopped up her ears by pushing her fingertips into them, but he kept right on: “‘Is that a way to do business?’” he bellowed at everyone. “‘On a Saturday afternoon? He’s locked up his goddamn store, so he can screw the egg-woman? Couldn’t he screw her some other time?’”

  “My grandfather borrowed the Buick, ran on out to his place, picked up his thirty-eight, and ran on down to the store, which sure enough was still locked. He called that storekeeper out and shot him through the heart. That’s how my family does, when something like this comes up. What wipes out that stain is blood! And short of blood, you ought to be thankful for anything! That I don’t do to your brother what my grandfather did to that storekeeper! You ought to be down on your knees.”

  “You said it once, no need to say it twice.”

  But now Mrs. Lang had taken her fingers out, and told him, very bitter: “You shouldn’t have said it! You shouldn’t have said it at all! How could you tell him that, with me sitting here, your wife? Why couldn’t you have more respect?”

  “I tell it all, so he knows what he’s up against!”

  “You did not! You didn’t tell it all! You didn’t tell why the store was locked up, the real reason, not the one he said, that crazy man in the Buick. It was so he could candle her eggs that the storekeeper locked up his place! She brought in thirteen dozen eggs, and he had to candle them—for that he had to have dark, and that’s why he locked up his store! But to keep from getting hung, your grandfather blackened her name, so he could claim the unwritten law! And it broke them up and ruined her life, and I simply do not see how you can brag about it. And I also do not see how you’re willing to do what he did, blacken a woman’s name, blacken your own Sonya’s name, to do in the name of your family what you should be ashamed of.”

  “I’m not ashamed of it, I’m proud.”

  “You mean to kill Burl?” I asked him.

  “I don’t have to say what I mean.”

  “Oh yes you do, because if you don’t, I’m calling the police and filing charges against you. Spit it out! What do you mean, Mr. Lang?”

  She said: “Louis, you heard him?”

  “I mean, on behalf of my child, so she gets compensated, in place of blood to take money.”

  “I already offered you money.”

  “Your money, you did. It has to be his money. And a great deal more money than the piddling amount you quoted to me.”

  “He doesn’t have any money.”

  “I happen to know he does have.”

  “I’m his half brother, I think I know—”

  “I work in his bank. I know I know.”

  “Difference of opinion is what makes a horserace.”

  “Was there something else, Mr. Kirby?”

  “I go, I bid you good day.”

  Mrs. Lang took me to the door, patted my hand, and thanked me for being so considerate of Sonya.

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  MY MOTHER HAS ONE of the few stone houses in this neck of the woods, a pretty little place on Sheridan, a few blocks south of the Langs, and one block north of East-West, an arterial street in Riverdale. I say “little,” but actually it’s somewhat bigger inside than it looks to be from without. There’s a small stone portico, leading to an entrance hall, which is at the side of the house, not in the center, so the living room is quite large, being almost as wide as the house. It has a stone fireplace facing the arch from the hall, and its a bit on the dark side, as the drapes are dark red brocade.

  I pulled up around 11:15, parked, and looked for Burl’s car. I couldn’t see it, but that didn’t prove anything, and I admit I was pretty nervous, wondering what I would say if I had to face him. But Mother opened the door, when I was halfway up the walk. She took me in her arms and kissed me, then kissed me again, which for her was the equivalent of a crack-up for somebody else.