Deity

  Chapter 8: The Source

  'That's 2.80 thanks'

  'Geez I'd love to fuck her' Billy thinks as he hands over some change.

  'Just smile. Don't show her what you're thinking' he tells himself, making eye contact during the exchange and, of course, putting on a big smile. He notices the look from the waitress lasts much longer than it needs to and he grins with satisfaction as he leaves with his daily coffee. He only ever came to this cafe occasionally, and more importantly, he never came here with Nikki. In fact he never went to the same cafe more than once a week for his regular coffees, there were so many cafes and that meant there were so many waitresses. But he will probably return here this week he thinks admiring her figure as she walks away, she was hot! And there is definitely a lead there. A girl like that undoubtedly has a guy, a date, maybe even a boyfriend but judging by the look she just gave him it seems the chump wasn't taking care of business and that suited Billy just fine.

  Sure he feels bad for Nikki but ultimately he just enjoys the chase too much and few things can match that moment when a beautiful stranger's eyes linger on you a moment longer than they need to. Not to mention all the tantalising possibilities racing through his mind right now and after all he is careful, Nikki hasn't found out yet and he intends to keep it that way. While he knows it sounds a little hypocritical he is adamant that the last thing he wants to do is hurt her so he is very careful and plans things with a lot of caution which has resulted in several successes. He knows Nikki loves him and his adamant that he loves her, just not monogamously. That's why he was so careful that she never found out. If he couldn't stop this for Nikki he couldn't stop it for anyone. Maybe he'd grow out of it, he hoped so but for now, as a young guy in a big city he didn't think it was possible to only have sex with just one girl, it inevitably got boring or mundane. Nikki meant the world to him but the simple fact was nothing compared to fucking a new girl. Plenty of his mates were the same, in fact the only ones who weren't were basically those who couldn't. Guys like Jas he thinks with a smirk, remembering the recent episode between Jason and Peta, his friend always froze around a pretty girl. His cheery personality disintegrating to mumbled words and forced laughs.

  Billy, however, loved the thrill of the chase. A glance becoming a smile becoming a touch and so on. It was one of the few things the two of them didn't relate on very strongly. His 'sidelines' with Nikki, for instance, he had chosen not to mention them to Jas, it seemed an unnecessary risk and like he said, he was careful. He had other friends with whom he traded such stories or boasts and he definitely enjoyed these meetings but he never really talked of them with Jas, even when he was younger and there was no Nikki involved. Of course he hasn't spoken to Jas for about two weeks now, he wonders what is happening with Peta? The last time he saw Jas he was talking to her, though bumbling would probably be a more accurate description of what his friend was doing. He can't understand how he made something so simple so difficult; girl likes boy, boy likes girl and you join the dots from there.

  So what was he going to do now? He thought to himself as he continued walking. Nothing really appealed. There were things he had to do but they could easily be put off. Not that it mattered much, he hadn't planned on doing much today anyway - mission accomplished. A voice in his head was telling him to return to the cafe and see the waitress but his previous experience told him he should wait a day or two, no more but also no less, maybe this time tomorrow, who knows he might even catch her at the end of her shift he thought as he continued his aimless stroll.