Lost Love

  Reaching behind my back, he unclipped my bra and let it fall down my arms to the floor.

  He swayed a little as he stared at my breasts. Well, that’s a nice confidence booster.

  I stood awkwardly, not knowing what to do while Steed stared at my chest.

  “Is everything okay?” I asked shyly.

  “Fucking perfect. Amazing. Jesus you’re perfect, Pax.”

  My cheeks heated as I lifted his own shirt over his head. The itch in my fingertips to touch him was hard to ignore. Placing my hands on his chest, he inhaled sharply. I smiled, loving his reaction to my touch.

  Letting my tongue glide over my lips, I leaned in and kissed his perfectly sculpted chest.

  “Paxton, baby, I’ve missed you.”

  I lifted my eyes to meet his while I continued to kiss his chest, making my way down to his abs. I was hungry with lust and love for this man and that brought out something brazen in me. Plus, he had been so patient…the least I could do was give him a bit of attention first.

  Dropping to my knees, I unfastened his belt, my shaking hands unbuttoning his jeans. His hands sunk into my hair and a small groan slipped from his lips when I unzipped and ran my fingers over the bulge in his briefs. I swung my eyes up and beamed when I saw the look of pure love on his face.

  I pressed a light kiss right where his trail of hair led to the one thing my body was aching to have. “I know what I’m doing now as well.”

  “Fuuck,” he said with a strained voice. I couldn’t help but smile.

  “Your boots?” I asked. He scrambled to kick his boots off. I tugged on his jeans and briefs and almost laughed when he helped pull them off and almost lost his balance. I could hear his breathing over my own and that did something to me. Knowing how much he was anticipating my touch made me feel sexier. Wanton. It drove my libido up even more.

  His hard dick twitched against that perfect body of his.

  Shit. I’d forgotten how big he was. I would need a few days to recover after today.

  Cupping his balls with one hand, I wrapped my hand around his hard, thick shaft. The hiss from his lips urged me on, melting my nerves as his hand grabbed a handful of my hair, and he groaned.

  My tongue moved lightly up his dick before I took him into my mouth. His pre cum caused me to moan in delight at the taste of him. Oh, how I’ve missed Steed’s taste…

  Steed’s entire body jumped, and he cried out, “Fucking hell!”

  I remembered what he liked me to do during a blowjob, and I quickly got to work sucking and licking him as if I was starved for him. My other hand gently worked his balls.

  “Oh God, Paxton.” He used his hands to still my head. His hips rocked into my mouth, and I loved hearing him moan.

  Swirling my tongue around him I relished the taste of this man. Strong hands grabbed me and pulled me to a stop.

  “I’m about to come in your mouth.”

  I grinned sheepishly. “Is that a bad thing?”

  He was fighting for his breath. “Yes, I want to be inside you when I come.”

  “Oh,” I whispered with a sly grin.

  Steed’s hands quickly went to work at getting my jeans and panties off while I kicked my boots off.

  “Christ almighty. Paxton, I’m trying so damn hard to go slow.”

  I swallowed hard. “I don’t want slow, Steed. I only want you.”

  His hands cupped my face before his lips pressed to mine. Backing me up to the bed, we crawled onto it, not breaking our kiss once as I laid down. He moved over me. I was positive my heart hadn’t ever beat this hard. Not even our first time. I had been more nervous and scared about it hurting. Now…now I was melting with the heat between our bodies. Knowing what to expect drove me even more. Damn. I was so horny. I was soaked between my legs.

  As if on cue, Steed’s hand moved lightly down my body and between my legs. I spread them apart, panting with the need for him to touch me.

  “Steed,” I whispered against his lips when I pulled away for air. “I need to feel you. Please, it’s been so long.”

  His fingers slipped inside, causing me to jump and lift my hips into his hand.

  “You’re so damn wet.”

  “Yes,” I hissed.

  Pressing his lips on my neck, he kissed me until he reached a nipple. Taking it into his mouth he sucked and pulled while his fingers quickly worked my orgasm up.

  “Faster!” I cried out. I didn’t care how needy and shaken my voice sounded. I was on the edge of the abyss, and I needed to fall over it. Now.

  Steed’s mouth moved to my other nipple. He gently bit down, and my back arched, my orgasm hitting so hard I cried out with the only word I could manage.

  “Steed!”

  Pleasure ripped through my body. Steed moved back up my body. His hands all over me as he squeezed my breast, blew hot breath on my nipple. I was a trembling mess.

  The minute I started to free fall back down to reality he started his assault again.

  “You’re so damn beautiful, Paxton. Watching you come is one of my favorite things.”

  Fighting for words, I smiled and said the only thing that came to mind. “Holy shit.”

  He winked. “I’m not done, pumpkin. You’re so tight. I don’t want to hurt you when I push inside of you.”

  “Not done?” I gasped.

  He disappeared again. This time he buried his face between my legs and swiped his tongue over my sensitive clit.

  “Fucking hell!” I cried out. My hands grabbed at the bedspread as I tried to lift my hips up. Steed’s strong hands pushed my hips down while he moved his mouth ever so slowly over my hot pulsing core.

  It wasn’t going to take me long to come again. Hell, my body still felt the aftershocks from my other orgasm.

  “Steed. Oh God. Oh God!” He slipped his fingers inside while his tongue worked magic on my sensitive nub. One move with both sent me over the edge.

  My entire body went rigid as the orgasm burst through. Squeezing my eyes shut, I saw nothing but a pulsing light. My hands grabbed at Steed’s hair, and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pull him in closer or push him away. He must have scissored his fingers because an instant sting mixed with my pleasure and caused me to jump. I was too far over the edge to care though. My hips bucked while at the same time I desperately tried to get away. I needed it to stop. It was the most intense orgasm I’d ever had in my life. I didn’t care that I was crying out Steed’s name. It felt fucking amazing.

  He finally let me go and I laid on the bed feeling completely spent. My muscles lax and unable to move.

  “Damn, baby. That was amazing to watch.”

  I opened my eyes to see his beautiful smiling face staring at me. My chest was still rising and falling as I tried to get my breath under control.

  “I can’t wait another second, Paxton. I need to be inside of you.”

  I nodded. “I need that too. Desperately.”

  Steed was over me, his lips against mine as he guided the head of his cock into me. I stiffened while he slowly entered.

  “Are you okay?” he asked softly.

  “Yes. Yes. I just need a second to adjust. It’s been a long time.”

  The look in Steed’s eyes made my chest tighten and my stomach dip. It was like his life depended on being inside of me. Right this very moment.

  He pulled out some before pushing back in. We both moaned in delight.

  “My God. You feel so fucking good,” he spoke against my lips.

  My fingers dug into his back as I arched, needing to feel him deeper.

  “I can’t control myself, Paxton.”

  Our eyes met. “Then don’t.”

  Holy fucking shit. I was in heaven. Paxton’s pussy squeezing my cock was the most delicious feeling ever. I’d forgotten how amazing she was. How she made me feel when I was inside her. Nothing else in this world mattered but us. The only woman I’d ever loved was back in my arms and I was trying so hard not to let loose and fuck the living shit out of her.
br />   “I can’t control myself, Paxton.”

  Her eyes turned dark with desire. “Then don’t.”

  It was a whisper, but it seemed like a shouted plea. I leaned up and grabbed her hips, pulling out and pushing back in harder.

  “Fuck!” I cried out. Paxton grabbed at the bedspread, her face flushed with her earlier orgasms. When I looked down, I saw my cock moving in and out of her body. It was hot as hell, and I had to fight my orgasm off. No fucking way I was letting it end things that quick.

  When I glanced back up, Paxton was on her elbows, watching our bodies become one. Her bottom lip caught between her teeth as she stared at my cock pounding into her over and over again.

  Jesus, her watching was hot. Where did my sweet, innocent Paxton go? I fucking loved this older version of her. I sped up, the sounds of our bodies slapping together driving me closer and closer to my release.

  Paxton dropped back down, her head thrashing from side to side.

  “More! Steed, deeper!” she cried out as she met me thrust for thrust.

  A sheen of sweat covered our bodies. Dropping down, I pulled her closer as I moved in and out. Her little moans and noises were like music to my ears. I wanted her to come again. To release when I did.

  “I love you so much, Paxton. Christ, I’ve missed this.”

  Her eyes snapped open, and I was overcome with how blue they looked. I could see her love for me. No longer was there doubt or fear. No more pain and hurt. Only love.

  “I…love…you,” she panted.

  “I will never leave you. Never!” I said while pressing my mouth to hers. The kiss was almost as amazing as the fucking.

  Dragging her mouth from mine, her eyes seemed to spark as she cried out, “I’m going to come.”

  The feel of her pussy pulsing on my cock with her release was my undoing.

  I pulled out and pushed back in fast and deep. A long deep grunt pulled from the deepest part of my throat as I called out, “Oh fuuck.”

  Her arms and legs wrapped around me, clinging to me for her life. Both of us let out small moans while we came together.

  Filling her with my cum made my heart beat harder and my chest squeeze.

  It wasn’t until our bodies came to a stop that I realized what we had done. With my face buried in her neck, I was too fucking afraid to ruin the moment by pointing out we had just had sex without protection. No wonder if felt so fucking good.

  Paxton’s fingers moved lazily over my back while my cock still twitched inside her.

  “That was the most amazing moment of my life,” she softly said.

  Drawing back, our eyes locked. “For me too.”

  Her gaze searched my face before landing back on mine. She chewed on the corner of her lip then said, “We didn’t use protection.”

  My heart sank. “I know. I was so caught up in everything, I didn’t think about it until right after. I’m sorry, Paxton.”

  I tried to read her but couldn’t. She traced a finger over my stubble. “Neither one of us thought about it. But you should know…I’m not on the pill.”

  Ten years ago I’d have freaked the fuck out. Now, a small part of me hoped like hell I’d just gotten her pregnant. Another part of me, the greedy selfish bastard, hoped I hadn’t so I could have her to myself for a bit longer.

  “What happens happens. It changes nothing for me. I love you, and I want you to be a part of my life, Paxton. Forever.”

  Her eyes threatened to spill over with tears, but she was able to hold them back.

  “Is it wrong a part of me wants it, but the other part doesn’t?”

  I grinned. “No, because I just thought the same damn thing.”

  She chuckled. Leaning down, I kissed her softly. Slowly. I could feel my dick coming back up, and I started to move again. Paxton moaned softly into my mouth.

  “Do you want me to stop?” I asked. One time going without protection was one thing. Twice was just playing with fire.

  “Could you pull out? I want you again.”

  Before I had a chance to answer, the door to the cabin opened and we both froze.

  “Who is that?” Paxton mouthed.

  With wide, surprised eyes, I mouthed back, “I have no clue.”

  I could hear movement. Whoever it was walked in, set something on the table, and made their way over to the sink.

  Slowly pulling out of her, I felt my cum. Paxton must have felt it also because she sat up and peered down. I frantically looked around for something to clean her with. The red bandana caught my eye. It had something written on it, but I didn’t pay attention when I grabbed it. I wiped off Paxton then cleaned myself off and threw it on the floor.

  We quietly slipped off the bed and got dressed. It took everything out of me not to start laughing. It might have been one of the ranch hands coming to check things out if they saw the horses.

  Then the person started humming.

  Paxton stopped moving and covered her mouth. An expression of pure horror moved over her face.

  Amelia!

  “Meli?” I mouthed.

  Nodding her head, Paxton dropped her hands and pulled on her boots.

  “Okay. Words…come to me!” Amelia said. I could faintly hear the sounds of her fingernails tapping against her keyboard.

  Now it made sense. The flowers sitting on the table were Amelia’s favorite. She had told me she had a hiding place for writing when she was struggling with a story. She must have meant the cabin.

  “What do we do?” Paxton mouthed as she pulled the comforter off the bed and picked up the bandana and wrapped it all in a ball. I loved that she was trying to clean up.

  Smiling, I took her hand in mine. She shook her head and pulled back when I tried to get her to walk with me out to the living area.

  “Steed! No!” she whispered.

  The typing stopped. I put my finger to my mouth to get Paxton to stop talking. She dropped the bedspread like it had burned her.

  The typing started again as did the faint sound of music. I slowly opened the door to the bedroom. Amelia’s back was facing us. Paxton tried to sneak out of the cabin without Amelia seeing us. I watched as she tiptoed over to the front door. Amelia caught sight of her and screamed, then jumped up. Which made Paxton scream and throw her body against the front door.

  “It’s just me!” Paxton screamed.

  Amelia covered her chest with both hands. Her eyes jerked from Paxton to me, back to Paxton and finally back to me.

  “Jesus, son of Mary! You scared the living piss out of me! What in the hell are you—” She stopped talking. A slow smile moved across her face.

  “You slept together!” I glanced at Paxton. She wore a huge grin as her cheeks turned a beautiful shade of pink.

  Amelia jumped up and down. “You slept together! Oh. To-the-M! To-the-get it girl-G!”

  Covering her face in her hands, Paxton groaned. I walked over and pulled her into my arms. “We’ve been caught, pumpkin.”

  Amelia did a few spins, a fist pump, mumbled something about motivation and then stilled.

  “Wait. You had sex in here? Please tell me you were finished when I walked in.”

  I wanted to laugh at the horrified look on her face as it all sank in. “Actually, we were gearing up for round two when you walked in.”

  Paxton hit me on the stomach while Amelia covered her mouth and stumbled back a few steps. She fake gagged…or maybe she gagged for real. I’m not sure.

  “You were…when I… That’s gross.”

  Paxton dropped her head and buried her face into my chest. “I’m so humiliated.”

  “Don’t be, Pax. We didn’t know anyone would be showing up.”

  “Why must you guys use this cabin as your fuck zone? Oh my God! I walked in on Trevor banging some whore on my work table a few months ago! He has a house on the ranch! You have a house. Why are you here in my happy place?”

  “We were out riding and things got a little heated. I couldn’t take Paxton back to my place be
cause Mom’s there with Chloe.”

  Amelia sighed. “Did you at least clean up?”

  Paxton pushed off me. “We started to! Steed, get the bedspread and that little bandana.”

  I started for the bedroom, but Amelia stepped in front of me. “B-bandana?”

  “Yeah,” I said trying to walk around her.

  “What about it?”

  “I had to use it in a pinch.”

  Her eyes widened. “So you used it for blowing your nose?” She looked hopeful that I might agree with that.

  I shook my head. “No, if you must know, when you walked in I was still buried balls deep inside Paxton.”

  “Oh God,” Paxton said with a groan.

  Amelia snarled her lip. “Gross.”

  “You’re taking the conversation there, sis. I needed to wipe the cum off of us, and I saw the bandana on the side of the bed. I used it. I figured it was something Mom had picked up for decoration.”

  Horror moved over her face. “No! You didn’t! Steed! Why didn’t you walk into the bathroom and get a towel like any normal guy?”

  “I panicked, Amelia! I was fucking my girlfriend less than three minutes before you walked in! What the hell was I supposed to do?”

  She spun around and covered her mouth. “Too much information!”

  “You were the one jumping all around saying how happy you were we had sex!”

  “Um, maybe I’ll just go in and get that stuff,” Paxton said walking between us and into the bedroom.

  “Steed! That was a gift from one of my readers! They made it for me because one of my characters in a book I wrote always carried a bandana.”

  Oh shit.

  “Why in the hell did you have a gift from one of your readers on the side table in the cabin?”

  “Because I thought it would look cute in here with all the furniture. And this is my writing cave, you asshole!”

  Paxton came out of the bedroom carrying the bedspread. “Amelia, I’ll take care of this and get it all cleaned. I’m sure it’s…fine.”