Little by Little

had found true love.

  And then they talked about what a bitch I was and that I should be avoided like the plague because I use people.

  I could do nothing but cry the whole day. It felt terrible to be called names and have people think of you as someone that you are not.

  I know why Shelly did it- she had fallen for Mark too. What I didn’t understand was why she had played such a dirty game with me. I was her best friend ever since we were in the fourth grade and we were practically like sisters.

  And suddenly I had become this horrible person for her to beat down with vicious lies. It hurt when everyone avoided me and no one would sit with me. Turns out that Shelly’s lies had won. I had no true friends and no one even asked my side of the story.

  I had become a monster in everyone eyes- a person who had been using and bullying my best friend and who wouldn’t even let her have the boy she loved.

  Like I said before, I had no one to go to and I know my family would never understand. All they see is the terrible grades I’m getting. No one sees the struggle that I’m going through.

  All I can keep telling myself is that I can overcome this hurt. And even if I can’t survive high school, at least it will be ending soon, right? I’ll be going off to college soon.

  Oh, that is if I get my grades up again.

  Alright then- resolution time. I’ll focus on my studies instead of that bitch Shelly. I’ll ace the next test and show her and everyone else that they haven’t beaten me. Not yet, anyway.

  Dear Diary

  So I didn’t ace that stupid Math test. But guess who did?

  Yup, Shelly aced the test. The usual dunderheaded idiot, managed to get full marks on the math test.

  She probably cheated. Yeah, that’s what happened. She was sitting with Mark during the test and he probably helped her cheat. I can’t believe I had a crush on a cheater! That moron! How could he not see what a bitch Shelly is? Is he that blind?

  I’m glad he’s with her. A loser like him deserves a loser like Shelly. They’re both losers and when they marry and have kids, their kids will be losers and their kids will be losers too!

  Their whole generation will be one blockhead loser after another!!!!

  Dear Diary,

  This totally weird thing happened today.

  I was in History class, sitting right at the front because all those stupid Shelly’s friends had taken all the good desks at the back. I just wanted to disappear so that the professor wouldn’t notice that no one was sitting anywhere near me.

  It was going to be another humiliating day for me, but I put a brave face and sat right at the front, all alone. All the other students who entered moved past me to sit anywhere else but beside me. I was wondering what new poison Shelly had administered against me, when Mark enters.

  Apparently he was transferring to History and after he had submitted his papers to the professor, he came to sit right beside me. I almost had a heart attack and heard an unmistakable gasp from one of Shelly’s lackeys.

  I ignored him. He was Shelly’s boyfriend after all. Obviously she had turned him against me too. Then when class was over, Mark turns to me and asks me if he could borrow my notes.

  He was obviously up to something. Shelly must have put him up to it. If I had given him the notes, they would have probably torn it or written some insults on it and given it back to me. So I did what was right.

  I told him he should ask someone else in the angriest voice I could. Then I walked away and felt so guilty.

  What if he genuinely did want my help?

  Dear Diary,

  I don’t know what to think anymore. Mark sat beside me during History again. We didn’t say a word to each other and when class was over, I pretty much ran from there.

  I can’t believe I may still like him. Why am I such an idiot?

  I have to focus on this one thing: HE’S SHELLY’S BOYFRIEND!!

  On the other hand, won’t it be great if I could steal him from her?

  LOL, sinister thoughts…..