Soup By Volume Two

  Chapter 11: Words From August 2013

  Carpe Chickens

  The eighth month begins bright. The forecast is a line of cloud, the doom-laden rain-spilling sort. One sullen puff emits lightening forks. I tell Boy he is banned from the planned room clean and must be outside instead. Carpe diem is a phrase birthed for a temperate zone.

  One does not need the forecast to be correct. It stands as excuse and impetus. Lovely washing on the bobbing line: all my paper weighed down on the pallet table (my eraser is stolen by a wind, but found again caught in a grass clump under the rusty garden chair.)

  I hear chicken cacophony next door: they have broken free and are drinking from the paddling pool. I don’t know that they were responsible for pushing the folding chair into the water, nor do I know that they weren’t.

  Clamorous

  Fresh cut hair flares rakishly. Sweet stodge of bread and honey behind a fine smile. Sky full of giant cloud poodles. No rain, only heat falls. Physics says hot air rises, of course, but I am sure it is hotter lying here than it would be riding on one of those broad backed clouds.

  All the fire exits are open for evening air. Boy and I are in the third hour of hall space rented from the Okehampton Table Tennis Club. I have opened my coffee flask while he commands the warm-up and I say to the parents assembled: ‘It’s lovely, having an assistant.’

  Under rain, the hall roof is a drum skin. Lights dim and flick. Under thunder we must mime: this kick, this block: to a line of faces: avid, awed, timid. The hall roof is played like timpani.

  I have always loved a storm and shut the doors reluctantly. I am glad to hear the bellow of it. Feels a long time in the making, comes with such clearance.

  ’Are we safe?’ Asks Harry, in the lull.

  ‘Don’t touch anything metal.’

  His eyebrows show concern.

  My smirk says not to worry.

  His smirk says he thinks his Instructor has a quirky sense of humour, and something about this brings reassurance. His eyebrows settle.

  Before I shut down the lights in the ladies’ bathroom, I look in the mirror. Even scrunched up for work, the fresh cut hair has a raffish confidence.

  The Sky Will Always Astound

  There’s not an inconsequential cloud here. They are things of marvellous substance. Sunlight blares between. Such loud weather. It calls us to the moors, to seek a good walk and a vantage point.

  Once I saw the glow-edge of the Northern Lights: the sky was shaded purple: it quite surprised my eyes. From the top of Feather Tor, in the unnerving tug of wind, the shades of this heaven are not unexpected, yet hold that thrill.

  After deeds of mild daring and a vanilla cone, we drive slowly home in phenomenal torrents.

  Beach Colours

  At first the rain was of a mild grayish sort, a good sort to wander a shore under, watching surf roll, the light all low contrast monotone. It’s after the car parking is paid for and we are walking the cliff top path to Widemouth South that the Super Rain strikes. Swimming is superfluous by the time we reach the sea. Every thread on our bodies has reached maximum saturation. Nothing to do, but run in the warm sea and laugh. Back to the car park, more of a squelch than a walk. There’s a lovely café here. No one has remembered to bring a wallet. There’s a small bag of change which is counted out at the take away window: enough for three portions of chips. We peel off wet things, wrap towels, sit in the car with our chip boxes and plastic forks, listen to the buzz of car fan, the slide of wipers, wait for the rain to drain from our eyes, finally get to watch the surf roll: blue and white.

  Let’s Blame The Weather

  Everyone has days, I believe, where anxiety is niggling underfoot and close to causing a fall. Perhaps it is because it is not appreciated that the anxiety returns? Maybe it is the sense of all the hostility that lingers in the world, the fragility of all you have? It is the flipside then, of appreciation: the unpleasant side of not taking life for granted.

  It does not seem fair, that fatheads can live untrammelled.

  Fingers tap on desk: thought occurs. To have confidence in a thing, is that to take it for granted?

  I have been without lots of things; the washing machine is a good example. I have one now. It works, and I am grateful every time, for every turn of that drum. I love what I have, have no need of dissatisfaction.

  Except, I don’t love that anxiety. Fingers tap on desk.

  When the dice are always rolling, the thrill wavers. The lack of security frustrates. I would have a haven, a place for buds to grow un-nipped, for roots to stretch. If I could. Years enough of worry have passed, they secure my attitude. I would not be spoilt if that simple place was mine.

  Fingers tap on desk.

  Always I am trying to push back the comfort zones, to challenge myself, to be strong, to embrace this life. To love the bubble and not fear the pop.

  The things I have, I like them to be useful.

  If I have these anxious moments, firstly, they are not in the comfort zone. By my own argument, this is healthy. Without that jab of discomfort would I be so pushed to find contentment?

  Heavy rain again today: makes a person thoughtful.

  A Wait To Celebrate

  The object of today’s wonderings is not an object. She is a baby of seven pounds and fifteen ounces: by the time of writing this, about five hours in age.

  While I am wondering I am wandering: around the lanes, before breakfast, where I see the harvest has begun in one wheat field, but not finished, the rain has seen to that. Green berries are gaining blush and size. Dog follows badger scent sagas. Some bits grip so deep her tail freezes.

  In the afternoon my car is delegated transport for children to reach the beach. Boy loads the surfboards, hmms at clouds. Dog is relegated to the boot space, next to the bodyboard, to make room for Boy and friends.

  At Widemouth South the shallows are warm and lively with the foam of little waves. Between the lifeguards’ flags the sea teems with impossible numbers. A fan of empty sand, I find this blast of close quarters humanity endearingly cheery. If Dog and I play over by the rocks, it is only so I can throw her ball without clouting a bodyboarder.

  We watch the pocket of filled surf from the cliffs, where the gulls sit easy on the edge of sheer drop.

  My car takes up an ominous clang, but gets us home, then gets us to work and back. There’s a pile of wet beach paraphernalia in the bathroom and a stack of washing up in the kitchen. In the front room is all the stuff we had to drag out of my car to get the beach kit in. All of it destined for tomorrow’s To Do list. Jobs need doing, just as sometimes they need ignoring, because sometimes the sun shines, because a baby should be born on a happy day.

  Sun King

  Morning sun in ermine mist, certain of ascendance, watches me peg the washing: the irregular bunting.

  By noon we are prostrate.

  No other body could centre this universe.

  The sky is courtly blue; clouds move as respectful whispers.

  Later, I see, behind concretized blocks, the simple circle blurred with intricate fire: the colour that belittles gold.

  At the traffic lights, where the roads are widest and their convergence sweeps obstructions: there the settled sun watches us retreat.

  Observing The Alien

  Two moments from the Kids’ Camp weekend, interspersed with a memory: I often wonder what odd things will stick in these children’s minds. One can hope it’s a tradition of magnificent story telling and wise counsel, one can hope it’s the excited discovery of achievements: the first time they step out on the zip wire, the first stay away from home… but it might, of course, be a dead insect.

  I was sorry that we drowned the wasp. There were plenty that didn’t slip into the simple trap. It helped to keep a sense of calm, I suppose, to know there was a way to halt their stinging sprees. Some of the children were allergic. The drowned wasp did not scare them. They could observe the shape, the infamous stripes, the articulated legs, those mo
urnful eyes, the tiny slack mandibles.

  Boy shrugs. He has tried the old trick of luring them off with a picnic lunch of their own: an apple split and left open in the hedge-line. Evident from the creature that lands on his own sandwich that an apple was not enough. The bread chomping is so hearty I can imagine that it burps. Vespula Vulgaris, the common wasp: well named.

  Eleanor squints at the body in the drinks bottle. She wants to know what to do with it.

  ‘Put it in the hedge, so it can go back into the earth.’

  A simple insect funeral is performed.

  It’s odd, the things that stick in a mind. I remember a beer garden lunch; long ago when chicken-in-a-basket was a novelty dish; there being a pint glass on the table squirming with these black and yellow monsters. At the tabled area the air was laced with grease, beery sweat, perfume, cigarette smoke. The metal cutlery too hot to touch. Away from here was short grass, cool under foot, and flowers colours still bright in shade. Ladybirds were considered friendly, but close up, no less alien than wasps.

  Later, after we have all been into the woods to locate a variety of tree species, a girl leans over a leaf we are identifying. She thinks she sees a ladybird.

  ‘It’s a Harlequin,’ her team leader says. ‘They actually eat our native ladybirds. You should squish it, really.’

  She looks closely at the orange invader, uncertain, lets it disappear under a leaf.

  Beach And Quiche

  ‘Cuddle.’ Little Granddaughter lifts up her arms. Her face has a glow of high temperature. All her energy seems burnt out.

  ‘Beep beep.’ She squashes Nam-ma’s nose and giggles.

  After her nose is beeped by return she rests her head on Nam-ma’s shoulder, watches waves swoosh, the shenanigans of Dog, the cluster fuss of gulls.

  ‘We go back now,’ a tired thing sighs. ‘Go back Nam-ma’s car, now.’

  ‘Shall we just look around this rock?’

  ‘Okay.’

  ‘Oh, s’pretty shell!’

  She points at a whirl-patterned pebble.

  ‘That’s a stone.’

  ‘Oh. S’tone. S’rock?’

  ‘Yes, a small rock.’

  ‘Uh huh.’ She nods as though, in her opinion, the question is answered correctly.

  Wide spaced raindrops are blown from the warm grey sky. She pulls up her coat hood.

  ‘Not ‘gain.’ A head shakes, is placed gently back to the shoulder.

  ‘Back Nam-ma’s car?’ A muffled voice requests.

  Nam-ma stands in the shallows, where temperate sea washes over smooth stones and sea breeze messes up her hair. Dog is running over the rocks into the waves and the gulls are annoyed into flight. Girl stands alongside, throws the ball for Dog: intermittently: is weary from tending her poorly child through the night.

  ‘We could have quiche and chips for lunch,’ she says. The quiche is all ready cooked, has been left cooling on a worktop. ‘And salad. I need to buy chips and salad.’

  Nam-ma chuckles on catching sight of an ardent collie herding its tennis ball.

  ‘Nuther one dog!’ The little commentator perks.

  They all walk back towards the car park.

  Lullaby Trees

  The world looks like one of those panoramic pictures, letterbox shaped: viewed through a visor. Yawns burble up, are caught in an inconvenienced palm, pushed away. All the house is busy or crowded, all the garden sodden. A pitch is set in the polytunnel where the air is warmed to torpidity. Seedlings stand upright in a row, an earwig scouts the book pile, a fly makes a journey. The rest of us wilt. I see how the ash trees in the hedge have slender reaching branches, good for whirring in a fast breeze: hear that soft rustle, that low song: follow it into a dream, head on a pillow of folded arms.

  Startlement

  It is after the rain bearing clouds have blown by: after I hang the washing out and the white shower curtain reflects the sun to make me squint: I am indoors, running upstairs: I don’t know why, I always run upstairs: I am looking for a thing, a coffee cup usually, and that is the point of first startlement.

  A house sized shadow flies across the horses’ field. I feel the noise.

  Boy jumps out of his room. ‘Two propellers,’ he says, peering through windows for sign of the beast in flight. ‘There it is.’ He points. It is low and heavy: a cargo of something leaden. The shock of the shadow replays.

  The warmth settles and there is no need to be indoors. I have coffee and paper and a working pen and sit at the pallet table writing serious notes when a second startlement occurs: smaller, with grey tone wing feathers splayed to slow its course: a predatory bird scouts the hedge, light and low, then curves a path into the greenery of the ash tree.

  40 Years Of Steve

  This day, 1973:

  In the patterned house of things both lime and purple, in the polyester breeze wafted by maxi skirts and the turbulence of corduroy flares, in the shade of my father’s sideburns, there grew a bump in my mother’s tummy, quite unmarked by myself. At three one notes the joyful melt of summer chocolate, the enticing mew of wild cats at the end of the garden, the difference between sand crunch and sea splash: one does not note the changing shape of one’s maternal parent. Parents are considered a stable entity.

  It was quite dark when my father and his shady sideburns shook my shoulder to wake me up. It was therefore either wrong or of great import. He whispered, which was pointless. A whisper is something done when you don’t want to wake a person. He whispers: ‘You have a little brother. Come and look.’

  What? But his tone was reverent, it told of a significant event. I put my feet on the macramé carpet and pulled on my lime and purple dressing gown and followed him along the hallway where the lime and purple wallpaper made geocentric repetitions that were bright even at midnight. I followed him and the shadow of his gigantic facial hair into the room with the big bed that parents sleep in and my mother was awake as well. She looks at a cot that has suddenly arrived, and it seems to have arrived with a baby in it.

  ‘He looks like you,’ remarks the father.

  -I don’t look at all like a baby. I am a person, aged three and a half!

  Yesterday, 2013.

  I am shoving spare bedding back into the airing cupboard. Haste makes a lousy job. It all falls out. Grit teeth, sigh big: pull out the base of the pile to fold and stack and here’s a small cushion cover, gently faded, patterned: purple, lime green. Just for a moment before the sensible refold, it gets hugged.

  -I am a bit of a baby after all.

  Simpatico

  It is my first foray into the newly cut wheat field. Stalks under sun are briefly gold: Dog runs through filigree, entirely impervious to the grandeurs of colour. She rolls in some olfactory delight, which might be of equal mystery to my understanding, and runs and rolls and her tongue lolls and her tail whizzes. I have missed the musical plink of these stalks under the tread of Wellington boots: zigzag a path just to hear more of it.

  In the hedge are blackberries, ripe and palatable. Dog eats some grass, the tall wide bladed stuff, dew-dotted. What seems a sentient moment passes between us: this simple recognition: ‘Oh look, we’re eating.’

  A Cinematic Nap

  The densest substance in the universe, briefly, is made of eyelids. I have no hope to prop them up. Hope abounds everywhere but in these lids. They shut as velvet curtains do at the old style cinema, to reopen on a lit screen where pictures move, lifelike, with a flickering light. Everyone is smiling. It’s a replay, not quite reality. I hear the cool leather creak, the tractor chug: know I am lying on my sofa by an open window: know I am dreaming. Out takes of the day thus far: Boy in his crisp white shirt, leaving his acceptance letter on the car seat: I am asking; so, what questions did they ask you; release from pre-interview nerves unfetters hunger; we think about the view from the top of the big wheel, but the view from the café is fine and there we sit to celebrate with baguettes and beverages. Sun blares. The car park time is generous. We walk a
nd say how things look.

  Tree Bench Busy

  Alongside the river in the edge of the woods a path runs a course. Thorns are thin here, so bare legs can swing safely in the shade. Underfoot is a firm textured mud; the air smells of earth and water: a lively calm kind of damp. Dog makes clumsy sticks crackle in the undergrowth. There is bird song, there is the river burbling, there is my own muffled stepping on the soft track. For a while I sit, on the fallen tree bench, and dangle legs and throw sticks into the burble, and Dog throws herself with hilarious splashes. A swim is a tempting thing, but there is all this veiled scattering of light through the leafed trees and over the river to be watched. There is the surround of ornithological sound. There is the weight of legs, the ease of unburdened feet, the press of wood grain. There is the canine comedy. There are scents to appraise: musky, woody, fresh: sun on skin has a particular smell.

  Salted human caramel?

  There is coffee to be brewed and breakfast cooked: Dog catches up. Her wet tail slaps on my shins as she passes.

  The Why Of It

  The drives back from work are not to the dipping of the sun but the rising of the moon. It catches orange light in its early stages, as though to acclimatize us to the loss of sunset. This evening, on the horizon in perfect focus is the silhouette of a cow running uphill. It reminds me of the nursery rhyme:

  ‘Hey diddle diddle

  The cat and the fiddle

  The cow jumped over the moon

  The little dog laughed to see such fun

  And the dish ran away with the spoon.’

  The scene is absurd, therefore fabulous. Thoughts flow with the passing landscape, these curious snippets of outlines and de-familiarising shadows.

  Ordinary things are beautiful to an attuned eye.

  Extraordinary things are easier to view, no less imbued.

  That’s the why of it, explains my brain.

  Writing is a daily practice, for me: even without access to pen or keyboard I form sentences, sometimes out loud, sometimes in mind. I composed one this morning about swallows preening on telephone wires. Gorgeous words, left to float away over a cornfield, not to be remembered: to be lived: that is the why of it.

  Words explore and map my reality. If I can describe it to myself, I can know it, build it, love it. It is where the imagination: what is in me, the vital creative force: intersects with the outer world. It can be used to reveal the brilliant in a mundane experience. It can be a coping mechanism. It can be an attitude adjuster, a happiness transmitter. It can stretch reality to a fuller capacity. The more it is practiced, the more the inner and outer worlds open up, revealing and increasing wonder.

  I do not want my words to instruct you to find the world as I do: I want everyone to find the beauty their own view. It does not matter if you are unique or commonly moulded. There is this life: that is what we can deduce from being alive. Life is barely a blink, why waste time over conceptual things when there is so much actual beauty? If a deity has made it, appreciate that work. If it is an accident, appreciate luck. The real point is, it is beautiful.

  That’s the why of it.

  A Very Eccentric Triathlon

  Yesterday’s air was viscously thick. Three of us: Boy, Dog, me: pad on foot. Mr commands a bicycle. We all pant. The chap at the cottage is out painting and while we stop to rediscover normal breathing he bemoans the loss of lead in paint. It used to be so much tougher, the old style stuff.

  There’s a high percentage of eccentrics per capita here.

  There’s us in our lycra mixes and him in his overalls that are for coloured painting jobs. The other pair do for white paint. He laughs while he says this, though he misses the old style of paint.

  ‘Well, you always knew a painter and decorator, in those days, they were tall and very thin.’

  ‘From the lead poisoning?’ Mr suggests.

  ‘Well, yes.’ He chuckles. ‘That’s right. From the lead.’

  He leans on some fresh sage-green paint, but it’s okay, he knew he would do that. He has the colour paint overalls on.

  When we are able we say goodbye. We run to the river and clamber on rocks till we are all in the cool water. Dog wins the swim event.

  On the way home, Boy takes the bike and goes on ahead to buy breakfast eggs from the Nextdoor Chickens.

  A Staycation Safari

  Before breakfast a list of experiences edges on smugness. Two litres of blackberries, a wasp sting, an owl’s feather, discovery of another cut-crop field, four spider apologies for web breaking, a short walk through a dance of brown butterflies, a revolting heap of badger poo and the attempt to wash a thousand sticky grass seeds from a spaniel’s fur. Before breakfast.

  Breakfast was outside with an audience of this year’s fledgling sparrows. We ate steak and egg-fried rice. Lots of pepper.

  This afternoon Boy and me are back in Britain’s Ocean City where the sun and wind are tussling up and down the straight wide streets, chopping up the water in the urban ponds. Today we opt for a Park and Ride bus. It’s like a tour. I point out several men of generous proportions, in shorts and Plymouth Argyle football shirts, eating pasties as they walk to Home Park. Given the variety of people also walking in their football paraphernalia, they are not representative of the average supporter, so I must have been susceptible to a media stereotype. I know this, but it doesn’t spoil my enjoyment of what seems akin to being on safari and spotting a giraffe. I tell Boy it feels like we’re on a city break vacation and he reminds me I am on holiday, albeit at home.

  ‘India was amazing,’ he muses, further down the holiday theme, ‘but when I got back I realized Britain is amazing too.’

  ‘Fresh eyes!’ His mother delights! (She can’t recall exactly the quote: the best thing about traveling is to get back home and see it all anew.)

  Philosophy, Coffee And Yoghurt

  One is up and out before breakfast, again, though it hardly seems repetitious to be trawling hedges for dark fruits. This time a horsefly bites. The wasps are presumably well fed: calm and slow. Two of the cut fields are ploughed over. The ground is neither damp nor dusty. Being turned it has a soft give, like ample Earth Mother curves. At the corner of the field, the straightness of the hedge, a glimpse of telegraph poles, the bare earth, the clumps of stalk turned upside down: it’s odd, I think, to have all these signs of human life and feel so far from civilization. I remember having a sensible job and the joy of looking out of a window, how the rain sounded on the fabric of my leopard print umbrella when I took a lunch break stroll. If anything, those stinted years were the best training to be here and appreciate this scene.

  At home, a bath is waiting. The Rayburn has smouldered all night making this hot water. On the stove is a brand new Bialetti Venus 10 cup espresso pot. After a bath, sat steamy clean and smiling, there is breakfast to be revelled over at the pallet table.

  It’s not luck, exactly, that has landed us here: other people might sit and think of the mould in the bedroom wall, the shower that’s broken, the awkwardness of traffic on the single lane, the wind’s habit of putting hair in your mouth as you try to eat.

  Perhaps my words ramble: they are on holiday too: we love the new espresso pot: we have the mindset to love what adds to a life and discard the detractions.

  Hubble-bubble on the stove: wry smile: tips of honeyed yoghurt in a freshly washed fringe.

  Go Sleep, Moontime!

  Morning:

  A small convoy of Nam-ma, Little Granddaughter and Dog greet the ghosts of horses through morning mist. They tread their dew-proof boots:

  ‘You boots, me boots, one two boots!’

  up the side track in the ploughed field.

  ‘One boot, five boots, one moon, round and round.’

  Moon in the blue sky, halved, ends like froth, is somewhere between broken egg and breaking wave.

  ‘Go sleep, moontime!’

  She has an expression of a person who is pretending to be cross for comic reasons. Then she clips Dog
’s lead onto Nam-ma’s shorts and this is very funny.

  From here, those rubber booted steps are set towards honey and toast.

  Afternoon:

  It develops into the sort of hot, blue, shiny day where plans such as finishing the accounts are bypassed in favour of more scenic things, such as fixing a stable door to a polytunnel project, such as a fever pitch of writing by a wide open window, such as walking over the beach into the sea: where the waves break messy like the edge of a broken moon and a sultry brain can cool. Ten espressos is a lot for one day.

  Shush, dear brain.

  Ride into the white mass, over the top, let the board belly flop.

  Evening:

  The bonfire is lit. Two salty bodies sit and say how fire has a quality of unruly devouring; it licks, it spits. Supper was roast pork pie, a glass of homemade red.

  They look up, they say:

  ‘Oh, and there’s stars too!’

  No sight of the moon.

  ‘Must be asleep.’

  They smile.

  Breakfast Only Looks Impossible

  Written myself into a fug, though the windows are pushed so far open it’s a dangerous reach to close them. I have notes everywhere, things barely legible smudged on paper in blotches of biro ink. I have notes scrawled over several areas of brain and circles and arrows and optimism. I have skin that tingles with possible things: this, one can imagine, is how a cephalopod feels when it changes colour. Like a firework swallowed. Like chemistry in motion. Sensible enough, the day starts with a run but then breakfast has a look of impossibility and that’s how the day runs on. In dazed intervals, venture out to the sweep of lawn. Mr is digging feverish holes: the shed begins. Oh! More mind-body shivers! Whichever universe this is, I like it, I choose to stay. I plant my flip-flops firmly in this magnificently cut grass. Breakfast takes three sittings. Well done, tenacious us!

  The Ham Under The Plank

  Grandparent Pack Mules, hungry children, pregnant Mrs Mac, and Mr Mac; in charge of dogs; are veering from sharing a pleasant trail to enduring a march. One picnic area bans dogs, and the other demonstrates why dogs would be omitted from food sharing areas.

  Grandad is the first one to see the potential in the old railway bridge: the wide girder edge is a buffet table. The old sleepers slanting are almost benches. If we gather to one side the cyclists have plenty of room to whizz by, and spout little phrases of envy for our proper plates and superior olives.

  Little Grandson, Little Granddaughter both: they take this dining arrangement as they take all things: in chunks of awe and acceptance. Of course one sits on a slanty plank and eats ham with bike wheels whooshing where the condiments would normally be: of course Granma says not to climb on the table or you’ll fall in the river. One must interrupt this feast however to point out the miracle of being able to hide a piece of ham under a plank! And who knew: it works on this plank too!

  Summer Follies

  It’s morning. Pigeons chatter. Window open to sunlit breeze, to a pleasing chill that wafts over bared legs lying wryly on a guest bed. We are in Plymouth. Briefly one has dreamt of a pigeon teaching golf. It advises wiggling one’s bottom and aiming into the sun: and be sure to squint, it says.

  Golf?

  Legs do not want to move. Everything is post-party dehydrated, aches from overindulgence. I had misjudged my tolerance for something; alcohol, buffet food, dancing, heat; a stamina of some kind has been undermined. Poor stomach, all pressed with that purging heat.

  Tentative toast and water begins the restoration process.

  Happy 40th Birthday Samantha Redmond! Another glass of water, sip by sip, held up to the light in the kitchen and it glints like sequins. I have brushed my teeth, am enlivened by the mint.

  I am able to put my day clothes on, the right way around, in the right order. Things bode better.

  Here are sunglasses, a car window that winds all the way down. Mr drives across the city and the gulls cry and pigeons watch from rooftops and it’s sunny and it’s Saturday and see all the girls in their summer dresses and we all know autumn is nearby.

  We find the next address easily, in spite of all those streets; are greeted at the door by our daughter-in-law, her arms full with our littlest grandchild. Baby Girl has a chuckle to share. If she has too much milk she finds regurgitation merely pragmatic. We look at photos of her, how she is blooming, how she lies so content in her Daddy’s arms, how she has elfish ears like her Auntie. We look at her, she chuckles, she curls into Grandad and sleeps, while her Mummy tells tales that her Daddy was boozy sick at the V Festival. I recall that early in his paternity leave my stepson went to play golf; his wife has a loving air of indulgence for these follies.

  Wiggle your bottom, aim into the sun, be sure to squint.

  A smiley squint is best.

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