Once a Princess

  I looked at her puckered brow, her unhappy posture and wondered if Elva was a math mind. The navigation image sure pointed that way.

  “Listen if you find any reason to distrust Captain Hurricane, I’ll listen. But I do feel obliged to tell you that I’m going to make my own plans as soon as we reach land. That doesn’t include your brothers mages or magisters, or whoever sent him.”

  Elva flushed “thats fair.”

  We finished our meal and dipped our dishes in the bucket set aside for them. I watched the brief flare of magic cleaning my plate as it hit the water, and I remembered the cleaning buckets from my childhood. It had actually been such homely little magics and no grand and spectacular spells that had caused me to ask my father to teach me. On this world no one had to wash and rinse dishes—or clothes, if you had a cleaning bucket or frame. And the cleaning frame not only cleaned your clothes but your body as well, right to your teeth, when you stepped through. It felt like the snap of electricity all over you leaving you feeling as if you’d scrubbed with a loofa and rubbed all over with a thick towel.

  I stacked my dish n the waiting pile. There was a step behind me, and a young woman as tall as me appeared from one of the little cabins. I realized I blocked the access way and moved aside, murmuring a word of pardon.

  She ducked her head, giving me a quick almost furtive look without meeting my eyes and climbed with practiced speed up the ladder to the deck. I followed more slowly, trying to get the feel of climbing a ladder when the ship swings you out, back and bucks suddenly from side to side. On deck I discovered yet more drills going on among those not on duty. This time it was personal combat.

  The weather had changed dramatically while Elva and I were below. A heavy mist grayed th masts and the sails overhead, turning the blue sea to gray-green. It made the deck slippery but that did not stop the practice on the forecastle, directly outside of our cabin where most of the crew gathered round a clear space.

  Devli sat on the rail along with several other young men. He’d accepted a bunk below in the crew’s quarters and these were his mess mates. That is the fellows he shared a table with. The pirates seemed like sailors to me. Nobody was cursing and spitting, or teaching parrots naughty songs. In fact, I wasn’t sure if this world even had parrots, though I knew that many earth animals, birds and other fauna as well as flora had come or been brought through.

  Devli beckoned to his sister, who walked to the rail where he sat, her arms crossed. Next to the sailors, her uneasiness made her seem out of place.

  A short girl with bright red hair tapped her sword point on Elva’s shoulder. “want to join in?”

  Elva jumped and shook her head warily.

  Her attitude seemed to puzzle the redhead, and I wondered if her feelings were hurt by Elva’s attitude. But she turned my way and said more tentatively, “Would you like to get in some practice?”

  After years of dojos full of strangers, I was used to this situation. Thinking that rest, food and a workout were the three things I needed most and I’d gotten the first two I said, “sure thanks.”

  A big grin was my reward. “I’m Robin, second mate. Why don’t you grab yourself a weapon. You’ll get a turn anon.”

  She indicated the weapons locker. It was an admirably neat arrangement that rolled back against one side of the half-deck wall and lashed into place. The locker held three rows of neatly stored steel weapons, ranging from light rapiers to very heavy flat swords of the sort infantry carry. There was one curve-tipped cavalry sword marked off with a red tie.

  I picked out a duelling sabre, buttoned on the end and began warm-ups as I watched the two in the center.

  It was immediately apparent that they were more enthusiastic than trained. The bout only lasting a few seconds. One dropped his sword, the watchers crowed and catcalled with good nature, then they recommenced. This bout lasted longer only because they circled two or three times, watching one another but not well enough to actually spot openings.

  The winner of that bout turned around. His eyes briefly met mine, and the fellow flushed. I wondered if I’d managed to come unbuttoned or unzipped anywhere. No the sturdy shirt I’d borrowed was laced up to my collarbones sashed with a plain berry brown-dye sash. The deck trousers were drawstring, securely tied, so I wasn’t flashing underwear. My feet were bare, as I’d kicked off my sandals almost first thing on coming on board.

  An older gray-haired man said, “You keep pickin’ the easy ones. Come on let’s see you work up a bit of a sweat.” And he stepped up, swinging his sword from hand to hand.

  More cat calls and the gray-haired fellow promptly and gleefully trounced the younger, taller fellow. Then it was his turn to pick a partner, and he pointed straight at me. “let’s see what your father taught you.”

  “Well he started teaching me, anyways.” I stepped into the ring of watchers. “most of my training was gotten elsewhere.” I felt self-conscious, but no more than one did during a sparring match for a belt test.

  What I didn’t say, because I thought it would sound arrogant, was that I’d seen his own weaknesses when he fought the tall, young fellow from Devli’s mess, and so I knew where to get inside his guard as soon as he lunged at me in a feint.

  I tapped the button against his chest, and he looked down blue eyes wide in surprise. “Well try it again?”

  I swept my sword up in salute. The second bout was longer. He was stronger than I but I had the edge on footwork, speed, and far better training. Once again I tapped him, this time just above the collarbones, and a whoop went up from the watchers.

  “Pick me! Pick me!”

  “Hoo, how would you like to die?”

  Laughter and more catcalls surrounded me as Zathdar and his two captains on the half-deck aft watched. A short wiry man with waving dark red hair leaped over someone and confronted me, his slanty eyes slitted with laughter and his grin wicked. Like Zathdar, he wore a golden hoop in one ear. “try me, prin—ah”

  I’d forgotten the pricess business. Was that why some of them stared at me so much? “Sasha will do.”

  “Owl first mate.” I saw a sort of family resemblance to Robin, and later found out they were cousins, though almost a generation apart in age.

  “All right Owl bring it on!”

  “Bring?” He looked around. “It? On?”

  “Slang for have at it!”

  As we squared up whispers of bring it on went through the watchers. Owl attacked me and I closed out everything else.

  I won that first one, only because I whipped a hook kick up and nailed his wrist after I dodged a lunge. The crew sent up an appreciative cheer, Owl flashed a grin and we were at it again, this time much faster and harder. I was soon drenched with sweat, several times nearly losing, recovering a heartbeat ahead of defeat, and then returning an attack which he parried sometimes almost too late.

  But finally he launched a complicated strike that I couldn’t deflect without straining my wrist. I was just enough off-balance to take the brunt of the hit in my hand and arm. I dropped my blade, wringing my stinging fingers. “Yi!Yi!Yi!”

  “We’ll call that a draw.” Owl lowered his point to the deck. “Do you usually fight with gloves?”

  “Yes,” I gasped. “And that’s something I’ll have to see to right away. But that was a win. It was as fair as my hook kick, right? All’s fair in war, but not in duelling? Is that true here?”

  A silence fell, at first I thought because of my question, but I saw that Zathdar had joined the circle. “More or less. Depends where you are.” Zathdar swung his sword experimentally.

  Zathdar and Owl squared up and began a long bout that was sheer pleasure to watch.

  As they traded feints, Elva slid up next to me. “I think you should thump him.” She jerked her chin toward Zathdar. “do him some good.”

  “Nope,” I said, after a flurry so fast I nearly couldn’t follow it. Zathdar staggered back, Owl’s sword flew and he rolled on the deck. The sword was caught in midair by the ta
ll, blond young woman I’d seen below. She had a strong face, with a Kirk Douglas chin. She returned Owl’s blade as she said to Zathdar in an oddly shy manner, “That trick. How do you do it?”

  “On your feet, Owl. Move through it slowly.”

  Owl scrambled to his feet and took his sword in hand. “I pressed inside like this.” He made a slo-mo lunge.

  “And I blocked here, used my shoulder to bind him.” Zathdar whipped his sword in a tight circle, shifting his weight as he came out of the turn with his blade low.

  “I saw it almost too late, blocked”

  The two re-enacted the exchange, their method recalling good bouts from my dojo days. Most of the crew intently watched each pass.

  When they were done there was general movement, and again Elva said, “Go on.”

  I shook my head. “He’s better.”

  Elva made a noise of disgust.

  Zathdar said in a quiet voice with considerable amusement, “She’s right, you know. Not by much, though. It’s those upward blocks.”

  So he’d heard. While I shut out everything when I engage in about, he was aware of everything around him. This is the difference between a lifetime of just dojo-floor practice and a lifetime of using what you learned, I thought. But aloud I only said to Elva’s flushed face, “we don’t hit above the collarbones in competition fencing, which is why I’m unused to blocking upward.”

  “Nor do you defend against a mounted attacker, is my guess,” Zathdar observed.

  “True enough. Plus he’s a tad taller and bigger through the upper body than I, so he’s got a longer reach. That makes a difference even when the training is the same, but his is better I think.”

  “Practical experience.” He gestured with a mocking air of apology and flashed a grin. “However. As this is supposed to be learning, want to show them some tricks of the trade from the other world?”

  “All right.” I scrambled to my feet. “But I saw those hits you scored on Owl. Anyone have a pair of gloves I can borrow?”

  Several women offered by their hands were all smaller than mine. Only the blonde did not offer though she was my size. A gangly fellow passed me his, and they fit perfectly.

  So Zathdar and I squared off and the entire crew fell silent, even those in the tops who leaned out to watch.

  We began by making a few passes to test reflexes and strength. On the former we were roughly equal but he had the edge on the latter. Also his drill hadn’t been confined to the rules, and while I’d seen opportunities to use street-fighting techniques with slower fighters, he was too well practiced high, low, back, in all the places sport fencing forbade. He seemed to be holding back—he was demonstrating. Gradually we sped up, until my arm felt like string and my eyes burned with sweat, and then came the inevitable tap of the point lightly in the hollow of my collarbones.

  The crew burst into cheers. “That was fantastic,” I exclaimed and flourished a salute.

  “Want another?” he offered.

  “Nope I can already tell I’m going to be sore and stiff by nightfall. I haven’t had a workout that good in much too long.”

  He turned away to select another volunteer as I returned the gloves to their owner, apologizing for their dampness. At least there was a cleaning frame below, I thought, sitting gratefully.

  We observed two more sessions before the watch bell rang. In the general movement Zathdar appeared at my side. “come to the cabin?”

  “All right.” I swung to my feet. “I have some questions.”

  “I thought you might.” He gave me an ironic eyebrow lift before leading the way. I followed that silk, no less eye-blinding for being sodden from the increasing mist, as around us the day watches changed, people talking and laughing, the armourer keeping up a running stream of insults if weapons were not wiped down and put back in the racks to his exact specifications.

  The other two captains had long since rowed back to their own ships to oversee their own combat sessions. Zathdar waved me into the cabin, and I ducked my head absently as I passed inside. This time I noticed things I hadn’t before: the neatly made bunk, the coverlet dyed various shades of green from pale silver to deep forest. Green was green, but somehow the thing radiated masculine vibes.

  Above the bunk at the head end, someone had built shelves which were crammed with handmade books. Next to the shelves a silverwork crane taking flight rested on its own little shelf jury rigged between a bulkhead and the hull. Next to that, in eye-pleasing array were a series of maps—Khanerenth, Sartor, Colend, Chwashirsland. Some of the western lands that I did not recognize.

  Above the foot of the bunk a shelf held a tiny carving of a tree it was exquisite, the bark indicated by the grain of the wood, each branch curving up into impossibly tiny and intricate twigs attached to which were tiny five point leaves mad of green silk.

  “I didn’t steal that,” Zathdar said from right behind me.

  I jumped and whirled around feeling unsettled as if I’d been caught prying through someone’s personal things.

  Zathdar did not glance my way. Shifted around me, the crimson silk of his shirt shimmering in the diffuse light from the stern windows. The fabric shaped smoothly over the contours of shoulder and arm as he reached up and carefully took the carved tree from its shelf. “there’s a spell that goes with it. You say it and the leaves rustle. You can listen to them. Very pleasant, I assure you, if you happen to be caught windless out in the deeps, the ship wallowing and no breath of air.”

  He faced me, holding out the tree in both hands I shook my head. “its too delicate. I’m afraid I’ll break it.”

  He turned away again and I whooshed out my breath, trying to find the cause of my absurd reaction. This was a captain’s cabin and little as I knew of ship matters, I did know it hardly constituted personal space, not unless the door was shut(it was not) and the scuttles all closed(they weren’t).

  He leaned a knee on the bunk and settled the tree just right the fringes of his bandana swinging against his cheekbone. The books, the green coverlet, the precise slant of the handwriting on those maps, the tree and the silver bird. I’d seen all these the day previous but then they’d been just things, scarcely noticeable. Now they were personal.

  Rain began hissing on the deck overhead which somehow made the space feel even more cramped. Though the rain made a steady thrum, I could hear the sound of his breathing. “Did you steal the ship?” I blushed uncomfortably. I hadn’t meant to say that at all.

  He grinned. “It’s tradition, how pirate ships change hands. But pause and think. Where would you go if you wanted to purchase one? To a kingdom shipyard, asking the yardmaster if he happens to have any pirate ships for sail—very fast preferably with at least one false hold? No, when navies take pirates, they tend to work the ships into their fleet, captains squabbling over who gets command. Then er they tend to be spotted and cut out again by people like me.”

  “You can have one built.”

  “But it can take years. If one has enough money. Easier to catch I’m afraid.”

  “You said pirate ships but you claim to be a privateer. How do privateers get their ships?” I asked.

  “Steal em from pirates.” He tapped the earring glinting against his jawline. A ruby stone glittered on it. “You wear a hoop after you’ve survived a battle, and rubies when you’ve defeated a real pirate. While that won’t scare off other pirates—little does—the ruby tends to ward off the would-bes. Saves effort.”

  He twiddled his fingers giving me a wry glance. I laughed as I was meant to. The moment made me feel slightly less unsettled.

  “So.” He thumped his elbows on the table, hands flicking open. “Before I get to my suggestion what do you wish to do?”

  “I’d like to be set on land as soon as possible, thank you.”

  “Even though by now there is a price on your head?”

  “There is? But I didn’t do anything!”

  “It’s not what you’ve done it’s who you are.” He gave me a
n apologetic smile. “I guess what follows is what they’re afraid you’ll do.”

  Annoyance flushed through me. “arrested for a crime someone else premeditated on my behalf? That’s got to be a new one even for the local dark lord.”

  “Dark Lord? King Canardan is a King, not a lord. He also has red hair. Or would the ‘dark’ refer to his clothing? Except that he is reputed to dress well, and the mode, everyone tells me is light colours.”

  Once again he made me laugh and my annoyance vanished. Why bother getting mad, ranting about unfairness? Zathdar already knew it was unfair, and of course he had a price on his head too.

  “So I said, “There’s a reward offered for laying me by the heels whether I’m on land or at sea, isn’t there?”

  He spread his hands.

  “Well on land I’m my own person, so to speak. I’d rather call the shots—” the words came out in English. “I’d rather be on my own.”

  “To find your gather?” he asked gently.

  I lifted my gaze—and met his blue eyes straight on .

  What is it about the mirroring of gazes? Eyes are just eyes, circles within circles. You meet people’s gazes all your life. Then, one moment you look across the table out of surprise or question or maybe even a little challenge and there are these eyes. Your nerves zing and prickle leaving you intensely aware of your heartbeat, your breathing, your toes crunched in your shoes, your damp palms. Distance is so relative. Whether the other person is a foot away or across a crowded room you have fallen into intimate space.

  I flicked my gaze up to the glittering gold embroidery on his headband. No itimate space here, noooo.

  I said to the fringes, “I have no idea if my father’s even alive. No one will tell me.”

  “He vanished. That’s all anyone can tell you.” Zathdar snapped his fingers. “The Ebans seem to think you know where he is.”

  “I can’t help that.” I shrugged and studied the map of Sartor just beyond his shoulder as if a professor was about to slap a final exam before me.