Her Last Breath

  “Can’t hurt.” Rasmussen’s eyes sharpen on mine. “Any chance the kid saw something?”

  “It’s possible, but he was in critical condition and in surgery when I left the hospital.” I glance at my watch. “I’ll find out and keep you posted.”

  But we know the majority of crash victims rarely remember the minutes preceding a crash, especially if they’ve sustained a head injury or lost consciousness.

  “With this kid being Amish,” I begin, “even if he saw the vehicle and remembers it, he may not be able to tell us the make or model.”

  “Well that’s just fucking peachy,” Rasmussen mutters. “We need to find this son of a bitch, people.”

  CHAPTER 4

  Deputy Maloney, Sheriff Rasmussen, and I spend several hours walking the scene, photographing, video-recording, sketching, and surmising. At 2:00 A.M., Glock shows up with four large coffees from LaDonna’s Diner, and we swarm him like zombies seeking flesh. It’s hours before his shift starts, but he possesses a sort of sixth sense when it comes to showing up when he’s needed. He never seems to mind putting in the extra time, even though he’s got two babies and a wife at home. I’m invariably glad to have him on scene and unduly thankful for the caffeine.

  I’m standing next to my Explorer when a Painters Mill volunteer fire department tanker pulls onto the shoulder. I watch the young firefighter disembark, link the hose, and begin to flush the blood from the road and grassy areas. A few yards away, local farmer and town councilman Ron Jackson arrives in his big John Deere to haul the dead horse to the landfill.

  Glock wanders over and we watch a big Ford dually back a twenty-foot flatbed trailer to the debris field. A red-haired man from a local wrecker service contracted by the sheriff’s department gets out. Maloney and Rasmussen don gloves and begin picking up pieces, dropping them into bags, and loading them onto the trailer.

  For several minutes Glock and I stand there, sipping our coffees, watching.

  “Hell of a way to start the day,” he says.

  “Coffee helped.” I smile at him and he smiles back.

  “You get anything from the vehicle?” he asks.

  I tell him about the lack of debris and he shoots me a look. “That’s weird,” he says.

  We stare at each other, our minds working that over. “Maloney thinks this guy was going upwards of eighty miles an hour,” I say.

  “There should have been debris.”

  “A lot from the buggy,” I say.

  “Maybe the debris from the vehicle got mixed in with it.”

  Even as he says the words, something tugs at my brain, worrying me like a child yanking at his mother’s dress to get her attention.

  “Seems like the impact would have fucked up the grille of a vehicle,” Glock surmises. “Or busted out a headlight or signal light or something.”

  The feather touch of a chill brushes across the back of my neck, and I realize the lack of debris is the thing that’s been bothering me all along. “They’re going to haul everything down to impound, take a closer look under some lights.”

  Rasmussen approaches us. “I think we’ve got everything loaded up.”

  I address the sheriff. “Did you find any more debris from the vehicle?”

  “Just the side-view mirror so far,” Maloney replies.

  I see a creeping suspicion enter the sheriff’s eyes. “If that son of a bitch was going as fast as you say, he should have left pieces scattered all the way to Cleveland.”

  “Even with the work lights and generator, it’s dark as a damn cave out here,” Maloney says. “Maybe we missed something. Maybe it got tossed in with all those pieces from the buggy.”

  “Driver might have had a brush guard on his front end,” Glock offers.

  Rasmussen nods, but he doesn’t look convinced. “Even with a brush guard, he would have busted out a headlight or knocked off some plastic. Vehicles have a lot of plastic these days.”

  “Maybe it’s some kind of homemade job,” Glock offers.

  Maloney tosses him an interested look and adds, “All you need is a welder and some steel.” He turns to me. “Any vehicles from around here come to mind?” he asks. “Souped-up truck, maybe?”

  “Or a fuckin’ tank,” Glock mutters beneath his breath.

  Images of a hundred vehicles scroll through my mind. Stops I’ve made. Citations I’ve issued. Recent DUIs.

  “A lot of farm trucks,” I tell them. “I’ll see if I can come up with a list.”

  “A lot of them farm boys got welders,” Maloney adds.

  The sheriff makes a sound of frustration. “We’ll take a closer look at everything in the morning. In the interim, if you see something that fits the bill, make the stop.”

  He tips his hat and the two men start toward their respective vehicles.

  I glance at my watch, surprised to see it’s almost 3:00 A.M. “You want body shops or farms?” I ask Glock.

  “Body shops.” He grins. “Amish don’t trust me for some reason.”

  “That’s because you cuss too much.”

  He grins. “Now that makes me feel misunderstood.”

  “Hit every body shop or auto shop that does collision work, including anyone who works out of a home shop or keeps a can of Bondo on his workbench. If someone brings in a vehicle with a messed-up grille, I want to know about it.”

  “I’m all over it.”

  “I’ll get Skid and Pickles to cover these farms in the morning.”

  We saunter to the place where the accident happened and look in both directions. The grassy shoulder is trampled from all the traffic and muddy where the fire department flushed away the biohazard. The tractor that hauled away the dead horse left deep ruts. I think about the hit-and-run driver and something scratches at the back of my brain.

  “Where was he going anyway?” I say, thinking aloud.

  “If he was headed west,” Glock replies, “he was on his way to Painters Mill. Millersburg, maybe.”

  “If he was stinking drunk, where was he coming from?”

  Our gazes meet. “The Brass Rail,” we say in unison.

  The Brass Rail Saloon is a couple of miles down the road; the scene of the accident is smack dab between that bar and Painters Mill. It’s one of the area’s more disreputable drinking establishments. If you want to get drunk, fight, buy dope, or get laid—and not necessarily in that order—The Brass Rail Saloon is one-stop shopping.

  “Probably a long shot.” But I can’t quite dispel the rise of dark anticipation that comes with the possibility of that all-important first lead.

  “Unless the bartender remembers someone leaving in a souped-up truck five minutes before the accident.”

  “Stranger things have happened.” I fish my keys out of my pocket. “Let me know what you find out from the body shops, will you?”

  “You bet.”

  I leave him there, frowning and looking just a little bit worried.

  * * *

  I swing by the house for a shower and a few hours of sleep. I don’t notice the blood on my shirt until I’m standing naked in the bathroom and look down at my uniform heaped on the floor. I’m usually pretty mindful of any kind of biohazard, but I don’t remember when I picked it up. I don’t know whose it is.

  I look down at my hands and see dried blood on my palms and beneath my nails and cuticles. That’s when it strikes me this blood represents the death of a man I’ve known most of my life. The deaths of two innocent children. The injury of a third child. And the hell of grief for a woman who was once my best friend.

  Unnerved, I turn to the sink, grab the bar of soap, and scrub my hands with the single-minded determination of a mysophobe. When my flesh is pink, I twist on the shower taps as hot as I can bear and spend the next fifteen minutes trying to wash away the remnants of the accident, seen and unseen.

  By the time I pull on a tee-shirt and sweat pants, I feel settled enough to call Tomasetti. I want to believe I’m calling him because he’s a good investigator. Be
cause he’ll offer some gem of advice. Because he’s great to bounce ideas with and he rarely fails of give me something I can use. But the truth of the matter is I need to hear his voice. I want to hear him laugh, hear him say my name. Or maybe I just need him to help me make sense of this.

  I walk into the kitchen. The wall clock tells me it’s three thirty in the morning; I shouldn’t bother him at this hour. Like me, Tomasetti’s an insomniac. Sleep is tough to come by some nights. For a moment, I sit there debating. In the end, my need to talk to him overrides decorum. I grab my cell phone off the counter where it’s charging, pour myself a cup of cold coffee, and punch in his number.

  He picks up on the second ring. “I was just thinking about you.”

  I can tell he was sleeping, and that he’s withholding his usual upon-wakening grumpiness. His voice, so calm and deep, fills me with a sense of optimism and reminds me that the good things in life balance out the bad.

  “You were asleep,” I tell him.

  “This might come as a shock to you, but a man can actually think about a woman while he’s sleeping.”

  “So you were multitasking.”

  He pauses. “Is everything all right?”

  He asks the question with the nonchalance of someone inquiring about the weather, but he knows something’s wrong. I don’t like it, but he worries about me. Because I’m a cop. A woman. Or maybe because he knows how easily those you care about can slip away.

  I stick to cop-speak as I tell him about the hit-and-run, using terms like “hit-skip” and “juveniles.” I don’t mention my past friendship with Mattie or that I’d known both of them since I was a kid. I don’t tell him that when I close my eyes I see the faces of those dead children.

  I don’t have to; he already knows.

  “How well did you know them, Kate?” he asks.

  To my horror, tears sting my eyes. Though he can’t see me, I wipe frantically at them, as if somehow he’ll know.

  “Mattie was my best friend,” I blurt. “I mean, when we were kids. I knew Paul, too. Back when he was a skinny Amish boy with a bad haircut. We lost contact after I left, but those days were—” I fumble for the right word.

  “Formative.” He finishes for me.

  “I never had that kind of friend again.”

  “Until I came along.”

  I laugh and it feels good coming out. “I knew you were going to make me feel better.”

  “Is there anything I can do?”

  “Not really. Holmes County is the primary agency.”

  “You notified NOK?”

  There are times when silence is louder than words. This is one of those times. But I know if I speak, he’ll know I’m an inch away from going to pieces.

  “Are you okay?” There’s nothing casual about the question this time. He knows I’m not okay and he’s trying to figure out what to do about it.

  “This is going to sound corny, but I think I needed to hear your voice.”

  “My shrink would probably call that some kind of breakthrough.”

  “For me or you?”

  “Both of us.”

  I laugh, but I can’t think of a comeback.

  “Kate, do you want me to drive down?”

  “Do I sound that bad?”

  “Maybe I just want to spend some time with my girl.”

  “Is that what I am, Tomasetti?” I say the words in an offhand manner intended to lighten the conversation.

  “You’re my best friend.”

  Somehow the exchange has turned too serious, too personal. I try to think of some flippant response that will make us laugh and move the conversation back on solid ground, but I’m too moved to speak. All I can think is that if I do and he hears the emotion in my voice, he’ll know something about me I don’t want to share.

  “In case you’re wondering,” he says easily, “that was a favorable observation with regard to our relationship.”

  “I know.”

  “I thought you might want to say something reciprocal, like ‘you’re my best friend, too.’”

  “You are. I hope you know that.”

  “I do now.” He pauses. “I’m taking some vacation time. I could drive down and we could hang out. Go on a picnic. Have sex. Not necessarily in that order.”

  A laugh squeezes from my throat. “Tomasetti, you are so full of shit.”

  “Don’t go all sentimental on me. I’m getting choked up.”

  “I didn’t know you were on vacation.”

  “It was a take-it-or-lose-it situation.”

  I think about that a moment. “Let me tie up a few things here, and I’ll let you know.”

  “Don’t wait too long.”

  “I won’t.”

  “You sure you’re all right?”

  “I am now,” I tell him and disconnect.

  * * *

  Sleep is a fickle thing that has little to do with fatigue and everything to do with peace of mind. When I finally fall into a fitful slumber, I dream of Mattie and Paul, and two dead children who stare at me with accusing black eyes and rotting mouths that chant schinnerhannes! schinnerhannes!, which is the Pennsylvania Dutch word for a man who hauls away dead farm animals.

  I jerk awake to the sound of tapping. I’m tangled in the sheets and slicked with sweat. I don’t know the source of the sound, but I’m relieved to be free of the nightmare’s grip. I sit up, listening. A glance at the alarm clock on my nightstand tells me it’s almost 4:30 A.M. I’m trying to convince myself I only imagined the sound when it comes again and I realize someone’s at the door.

  Throwing the blankets aside, I get up, snag my revolver off the nightstand, and pad into the hall. Tap. Tap. Tap. Not the front door, I realize, and I move silently through the dark and into the kitchen. A few feet away from the back door, I recognize his silhouette against the curtains. Setting my weapon on the counter, I cross to the door and open it.

  John Tomasetti stands on my back porch, frowning as if he’s got every right to be here despite the hour and I’ve kept him waiting too long. “I’m sorry to wake you,” he begins.

  I laugh at that because we both know he’s not. I take a moment to process the picture of him, standing there, looking at me as if I’m the only person left in the world and he’s ravenous for company, and I know this is one of those small slices of time that I’ll never forget. Instead of his usual slacks and jacket, he’s wearing faded blue jeans and a navy golf shirt. Shoes that look like a cross between a hiker and a work boot. His usual office pallor has been replaced by a tan.

  “Vacation looks good on you,” I say.

  “You look good on me.”

  That makes me grin and I open the door wider. “Is everything okay?”

  “You mean aside from the slight paranoia that goes along with parking in the alley behind the police chief’s house?”

  “I thought that was part of the allure,” I say.

  “Not even close.”

  I catch a whiff of his aftershave as he steps past me, and my midsection flutters in a way that’s now familiar: a powerful mix of attraction, affection, and excitement.

  “You know we’re probably not going to be able to keep this a secret too much longer,” I say, closing the door behind him.

  “I’d hate to be the one to put a black mark on your reputation.”

  “One more added to the collection isn’t going to make a difference.”

  Up until this point, we’ve sort of been dancing around each other. Not getting too close. Not touching. Neither of us wanting to make that first telling move. If it wasn’t such an uncomfortable moment, I might have laughed at the absurdity of it.

  I break the silence with, “I’ve got a couple of Killian’s in the fridge.”

  “I thought you might.”

  Before I can turn away, he reaches out and takes my arm, pulls me to him. Wrapping his fingers around both my biceps, he pushes me backward until my rump collides with the counter. I look into his eyes to find them dark and fixed o
n me, and my knees go weak. Then he bends to me and his mouth is on mine. I dive into the kiss with everything I have. His lips are firm and warm and move against mine with an urgency that sucks the breath from my lungs. My arms go around his neck. My body presses flush against his. I feel the hard ridge of him against my belly. His hands skim restlessly down the sides of my ribcage. Sensation courses through me with such power that I have to close my eyes against it, like some crazy ride at the county fair, the kind where you’re dizzy and holding your breath but you never want it to end.

  After a moment, he pulls back and smiles down at me. “I’ve missed you.”

  “I can tell.”

  He laughs and then goes to the fridge and pulls out two beers. He hands one to me and, watching each other, we twist off the caps and sip.

  “How’s the investigation going on the hit-skip?” he asks.

  “It hasn’t changed in the last hour.” I’m still reeling from the effects of the kiss as I relay everything I know so far.

  “You think it’s someone local?” he asks.

  I go to the fridge, find some grapes, cheese, and crackers, and toss them onto a plate. “Probably. If not Painters Mill proper, then Holmes County or one of the surrounding counties. Vehicle was probably a truck.” I carry the plate to the table and sit.

  Tomasetti takes the chair across from me, and for several moments we’re caught up in our thoughts.

  “How’s your friend doing?” he asks.

  “She’s devastated. Camped out at the hospital waiting for word on her son.”

  “He going to be okay?”

  “Not sure yet.”

  “Anything I can do?”

  “In the coming days, we’ll probably be using the lab. If things get jammed up, it would be a huge help if you could expedite.”

  “I’ll do what I can.”

  We stare across the table at each other for a moment, then he says, “Now that we’ve gotten the preliminaries out of the way, I’ve got something to tell you.”

  A small thread of anxiety zips through me. Generally, I don’t like surprises. I prefer to know what’s coming so I can be prepared when it arrives. Tomasetti is a wild card. When I met him, he’d just lost his wife and children in a home invasion that left his life in tatters. Afterward, he fell to taking prescription drugs, mixing them with alcohol. I know he spent some time in an institution. He doesn’t talk about it, so details are sketchy. I’ve never pressed him.