Breaking Dawn

  I could finally understand why Edward never hit the trees when he rana question that had always been a mystery to me. It was a peculiar sensation, the balance between the speed and the clarity. For, while I rocketed over, under, and through the thick jade maze at a rate that should have reduced everything around me to a streaky green blur, I could plainly see each tiny leaf on all the small branches of every insignificant shrub that I passed.

  The wind of my speed blew my hair and my torn dress out behind me, and, though I knew it shouldnt, it felt warm against my skin. Just as the rough forest floor shouldnt feel like velvet beneath my bare soles, and the limbs that whipped against my skin shouldnt feel like caressing feathers.

  The forest was much more alive than Id ever knownsmall creatures whose existence Id never guessed at teemed in the leaves around me. They all grew silent after we passed, their breath quickening in fear. The animals had a much wiser reaction to our scent than humans seemed to. Certainly, itd had the opposite effect on me.

  I kept waiting to feel winded, but my breath came effortlessly. I waited for the burn to begin in my muscles, but my strength only seemed to increase as I grew accustomed to my stride. My leaping bounds stretched longer, and soon he was trying to keep up with me. I laughed again, exultant, when I heard him falling behind. My naked feet touched the ground so infrequently now it felt more like flying than running.

  Bella, he called dryly, his voice even, lazy. I could hear nothing else; he had stopped.

  I briefly considered mutiny.

  But, with a sigh, I whirled and skipped lightly to his side, some hundred yards back. I looked at him expectantly. He was smiling, with one eyebrow raised. He was so beautiful that I could only stare.

  Did you want to stay in the country? he asked, amused. Or were you planning to continue on to Canada this afternoon?

  This is fine, I agreed, concentrating less on what he was saying and more on the mesmerizing way his lips moved when he spoke. It was hard not to become sidetracked with everything fresh in my strong new eyes. What are we hunting?

  Elk. I thought something easy for your first time . . . He trailed off when my eyes narrowed at the word easy.

  But I wasnt going to argue; I was too thirsty. As soon as Id started to think about the dry burn in my throat, it was all I could think about. Definitely getting worse. My mouth felt like four oclock on a June afternoon in Death Valley.

  Where? I asked, scanning the trees impatiently. Now that I had given the thirst my attention, it seemed to taint every other thought in my head, leaking into the more pleasant thoughts of running and Edwards lips and kissing and scorching thirst. I couldnt get away from it.

  Hold still for a minute, he said, putting his hands lightly on my shoulders. The urgency of my thirst receded momentarily at his touch.

  Now close your eyes, he murmured. When I obeyed, he raised his hands to my face, stroking my cheekbones. I felt my breathing speed and waited briefly again for the blush that wouldnt come.

  Listen, Edward instructed. What do you hear?

  Everything, I could have said; his perfect voice, his breath, his lips brushing together as he spoke, the whisper of birds preening their feathers in the treetops, their fluttering heartbeats, the maple leaves scraping together, the faint clicking of ants following each other in a long line up the bark of the nearest tree. But I knew he meant something specific, so I let my ears range outward, seeking something different than the small hum of life that surrounded me. There was an open space near usthe wind had a different sound across the exposed grassand a small creek, with a rocky bed. And there, near the noise of the water, was the splash of lapping tongues, the loud thudding of heavy hearts, pumping thick streams of blood. . . .

  It felt like the sides of my throat had sucked closed.

  By the creek, to the northeast? I asked, my eyes still shut.

  Yes. His tone was approving. Now wait for the breeze again and what do you smell?

  Mostly himhis strange honey-lilac-and-sun perfume. But also the rich, earthy smell of rot and moss, the resin in the evergreens, the warm, almost nutty aroma of the small rodents cowering beneath the tree roots. And then, reaching out again, the clean smell of the water, which was surprisingly unappealing despite my thirst. I focused toward the water and found the scent that must have gone with the lapping noise and the pounding heart. Another warm smell, rich and tangy, stronger than the others. And yet nearly as unappealing as the brook. I wrinkled my nose.

  He chuckled. I knowit takes some getting used to.

  Three? I guessed.

  Five. There are two more in the trees behind them.

  What do I do now?

  His voice sounded like he was smiling. What do you feel like doing?

  I thought about that, my eyes still shut as I listened and breathed in the scent. Another bout of baking thirst intruded on my awareness, and suddenly the warm, tangy odor wasnt quite so objectionable. At least it would be something hot and wet in my desiccated mouth. My eyes snapped open.

  Dont think about it, he suggested as he lifted his hands off my face and took a step back. Just follow your instincts.

  I let myself drift with the scent, barely aware of my movement as I ghosted down the incline to the narrow meadow where the stream flowed. My body shifted forward automatically into a low crouch as I hesitated at the fern-fringed edge of the trees. I could see a big buck, two dozen antler points crowning his head, at the streams edge, and the shadow-spotted shapes of the four others heading eastward into forest at a leisurely pace.

  I centered myself around the scent of the male, the hot spot in his shaggy neck where the warmth pulsed strongest. Only thirty yardstwo or three boundsbetween us. I tensed myself for the first leap.

  But as my muscles bunched in preparation, the wind shifted, blowing stronger now, and from the south. I didnt stop to think, hurtling out of the trees in a path perpendicular to my original plan, scaring the elk into the forest, racing after a new fragrance so attractive that there wasnt a choice. It was compulsory.

  The scent ruled completely. I was single-minded as I traced it, aware only of the thirst and the smell that promised to quench it. The thirst got worse, so painful now that it confused all my other thoughts and began to remind me of the burn of venom in my veins.

  There was only one thing that had any chance of penetrating my focus now, an instinct more powerful, more basic than the need to quench the fireit was the instinct to protect myself from danger. Self-preservation.

  I was suddenly alert to the fact that I was being followed. The pull of the irresistible scent warred with the impulse to turn and defend my hunt. A bubble of sound built in my chest, my lips pulled back of their own accord to expose my teeth in warning. My feet slowed, the need to protect my back struggling against the desire to quench my thirst.

  And then I could hear my pursuer gaining, and defense won. As I spun, the rising sound ripped its way up my throat and out.

  The feral snarl, coming from my own mouth, was so unexpected that it brought me up short. It unsettled me, and it cleared my head for a secondthe thirst-driven haze receded, though the thirst burned on.

  The wind shifted, blowing the smell of wet earth and coming rain across my face, further freeing me from the other scents fiery gripa scent so delicious it could only be human.

  Edward hesitated a few feet away, his arms raised as if to embrace meor restrain me. His face was intent and cautious as I froze, horrified.

  I realized that I had been about to attack him. With a hard jerk, I straightened out of my defensive crouch. I held my breath as I refocused, fearing the power of the fragrance swirling up from the south.

  He could see reason return to my face, and he took a step toward me, lowering his arms.

  I have to get away from here, I spit through my teeth, using the breath I had.

  Shock crossed his face. Can you leave?

  I didnt have time to ask him what he meant by that. I knew the ability to think clearly would last only
as long as I could stop myself from thinking of

  I burst into a run again, a flat-out sprint straight north, concentrating solely on the uncomfortable feeling of sensory deprivation that seemed to be my bodys only response to the lack of air. My one goal was to run far enough away that the scent behind me would be completely lost. Impossible to find, even if I changed my mind

  Once again, I was aware of being followed, but I was sane this time. I fought the instinct to breatheto use the flavors in the air to be sure it was Edward. I didnt have to fight long; though I was running faster than I ever had before, shooting like a comet through the straightest path I could find in the trees; Edward caught up with me after a short minute.

  A new thought occurred to me, and I stopped dead, my feet planted. I was sure it must be safe here, but I held my breath just in case.

  Edward blew past me, surprised by my sudden freeze. He wheeled around and was at my side in a second. He put his hands on my shoulders and stared into my eyes, shock still the dominant emotion on his face.

  How did you do that? he demanded.

  You let me beat you before, didnt you? I demanded back, ignoring his question. And Id thought Id been doing so well!

  When I opened my mouth, I could taste the airit was unpolluted now, with no trace of the compelling perfume to torment my thirst. I took a cautious breath.

  He shrugged and shook his head, refusing to be deflected. Bella, how did you do it?

  Run away? I held my breath.

  But how did you stop hunting?

  When you came up behind me Im so sorry about that.

  Why are you apologizing to me? Im the one who was horribly careless. I assumed no one would be so far from the trails, but I should have checked first. Such a stupid mistake! You have nothing to apologize for.

  But I growled at you! I was still horrified that I was physically capable of such blasphemy.

  Of course you did. Thats only natural. But I cant understand how you ran away.

  What else could I do? I asked. His attitude confused mewhat did he want to have happened? It might have been someone I know!

  He startled me, suddenly bursting into a spasm of loud laughter, throwing his head back and letting the sound echo off the trees.

  Why are you laughing at me?

  He stopped at once, and I could see he was wary again.

  Keep it under control, I thought to myself. I had to watch my temper. Just like I was a young werewolf rather than a vampire.

  Im not laughing at you, Bella. Im laughing because I am in shock. And I am in shock because I am completely amazed.

  Why?

  You shouldnt be able to do any of this. You shouldnt be so so rational. You shouldnt be able to stand here discussing this with me calmly and coolly. And, much more than any of that, you should not have been able to break off mid-hunt with the scent of human blood in the air. Even mature vampires have difficulty with thatwere always very careful of where we hunt so as not to put ourselves in the path of temptation. Bella, youre behaving like youre decades rather than days old.

  Oh. But Id known it was going to be hard. That was why Id been so on guard. Id been expecting it to be difficult.

  He put his hands on my face again, and his eyes were full of wonder. What wouldnt I give to be able to see into your mind for just this one moment.

  Such powerful emotions. Id been prepared for the thirst part, but not this. Id been so sure it wouldnt be the same when he touched me. Well, truthfully, it wasnt the same.

  It was stronger.

  I reached up to trace the planes of his face; my fingers lingered on his lips.

  I thought I wouldnt feel this way for a long time? My uncertainty made the words a question. But I still want you.

  He blinked in shock. How can you even concentrate on that? Arent you unbearably thirsty?

  Of course I was now, now that hed brought it up again!

  I tried to swallow and then sighed, closing my eyes like I had before to help me concentrate. I let my senses range out around me, tensed this time in case of another onslaught of the delicious taboo scent.

  Edward dropped his hands, not even breathing while I listened farther and farther out into the web of green life, sifting through the scents and sounds for something not totally repellant to my thirst. There was a hint of something different, a faint trail to the east. . . .

  My eyes flashed open, but my focus was still on sharper senses as I turned and darted silently eastward. The ground sloped steeply upward almost at once, and I ran in a hunting crouch, close to the ground, taking to the trees when that was easier. I sensed rather than heard Edward with me, flowing quietly through the woods, letting me lead.

  The vegetation thinned as we climbed higher; the scent of pitch and resin grew more powerful, as did the trail I followedit was a warm scent, sharper than the smell of the elk and more appealing. A few seconds more and I could hear the muted padding of immense feet, so much subtler than the crunch of hooves. The sound was upin the branches rather than on the ground. Automatically I darted into the boughs as well, gaining the strategic higher position, halfway up a towering silver fir.

  The soft thud of paws continued stealthily beneath me now; the rich scent was very close. My eyes pinpointed the movement linked with the sound, and I saw the tawny hide of the great cat slinking along the wide branch of a spruce just down and to the left of my perch. He was bigeasily four times my mass. His eyes were intent on the ground beneath; the cat hunted, too. I caught the smell of something smaller, bland next to the aroma of my prey, cowering in brush below the tree. The lions tail twitched spasmodically as he prepared to spring.

  With a light bound, I sailed through the air and landed on the lions branch. He felt the shiver of the wood and whirled, shrieking surprise and defiance. He clawed the space between us, his eyes bright with fury. Half-crazed with thirst, I ignored the exposed fangs and the hooked claws and launched myself at him, knocking us both to the forest floor.

  It wasnt much of a fight.

  His raking claws could have been caressing fingers for all the impact they had on my skin. His teeth could find no purchase against my shoulder or my throat. His weight was nothing. My teeth unerringly sought his throat, and his instinctive resistance was pitifully feeble against my strength. My jaws locked easily over the precise point where the heat flow concentrated.

  It was effortless as biting into butter. My teeth were steel razors; they cut through the fur and fat and sinews like they werent there.

  The flavor was wrong, but the blood was hot and wet and it soothed the ragged, itching thirst as I drank in an eager rush. The cats struggles grew more and more feeble, and his screams choked off with a gurgle. The warmth of the blood radiated throughout my whole body, heating even my fingertips and toes.

  The lion was finished before I was. The thirst flared again when he ran dry, and I shoved his carcass off my body in disgust. How could I still be thirsty after all that?

  I wrenched myself erect in one quick move. Standing, I realized I was a bit of a mess. I wiped my face off on the back of my arm and tried to fix the dress. The claws that had been so ineffectual against my skin had had more success with the thin satin.

  Hmm, Edward said. I looked up to see him leaning casually against a tree trunk, watching me with a thoughtful look on his face.

  I guess I could have done that better. I was covered in dirt, my hair knotted, my dress bloodstained and hanging in tatters. Edward didnt come home from hunting trips looking like this.

  You did perfectly fine, he assured me. Its just that it was much more difficult for me to watch than it should have been.

  I raised my eyebrows, confused.

  It goes against the grain, he explained, letting you wrestle with lions. I was having an anxiety attack the whole time.

  Silly.

  I know. Old habits die hard. I like the improvements to your dress, though.

  If I could have blushed, I would have. I changed the subject. Why am I still
thirsty?

  Because youre young.

  I sighed. And I dont suppose there are any other mountain lions nearby.

  Plenty of deer, though.

  I made a face. They dont smell as good.

  Herbivores. The meat-eaters smell more like humans, he explained.

  Not that much like humans, I disagreed, trying not to remember.

  We could go back, he said solemnly, but there was a teasing light in his eye. Whoever it was out there, if they were men, they probably wouldnt even mind death if you were the one delivering it. His gaze ran over my ravaged dress again. In fact, they would think they were already dead and gone to heaven the moment they saw you.

  I rolled my eyes and snorted. Lets go hunt some stinking herbivores.

  We found a large herd of mule deer as we ran back toward home. He hunted with me this time, now that Id gotten the hang of it. I brought down a large buck, making nearly as much of a mess as I had with the lion. Hed finished with two before I was done with the first, not a hair ruffled, not a spot on his white shirt. We chased the scattered and terrified herd, but instead of feeding again, this time I watched carefully to see how he was able to hunt so neatly.