Beyond Reach

  The yellow ATF tape across the door was the only thing that looked new. Hank hadn’t told her the bar had been closed. There were only two reasons to explain the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and Firearms paying a visit to the Hut: either Hank had been caught selling liquor to underage patrons or he’d been caught dealing drugs.

  Lena tried the door, but it was locked. She put her hand on top of the jamb and felt for the spare, but it wasn’t in its usual place.

  She gave up and walked around the side of the building. She didn’t need to get inside the bar anyway. Hank’s office, which bore a closer resemblance to an outhouse, was tucked behind the bar on the edge of a slow-running stream.

  Lena tried the shed door just in case, but it was locked, too. Hank must have locked it himself; there was no sign of ATF tape on the shack. The federal boys probably hadn’t bothered to get a warrant for the shed. The drug trafficking going on inside the bar would’ve been enough to make the headlines.

  She put down her can of Coke and pushed her hands against the small window tucked high on the creek side, but it would not budge. A rock helped, and the untempered glass shattered into a million pieces, some of it falling into the open mouth of her soda can. Lena found a stick and used it to knock away the broken glass. Still, she didn’t like the idea of climbing blind through the window. What’s more, it was high up, probably too high to get to without a ladder. She had done stupider things, but at the moment, Lena was hard-pressed to remember what.

  Out of frustration, she kicked the wall, mad at herself and this idiotic situation. The board made a hollow sound, and she kicked it harder until the wood splintered. A few more kicks created a nice hole in the shack. She cringed as she reached in and pulled out the pink insulation, sneezing from the dust, wondering if she was inhaling asbestos. There were black flakes of mold and excrement from animals that she didn’t want to think about, but she pulled out enough fiberglass to expose the backside of the paneling that lined the inside office. She used her foot again, kicking out the plywood, which made a cracking sound as it pulled away from the rusted penny nails holding it to the studs.

  A few minutes later, Lena was inside Hank’s office.

  She brushed off her jeans as she looked around, trying to find the light switch. She pushed away a spiderweb, then realized that it was actually the cord for the overhead light. Lena tugged the string and the bare bulb flickered on, then made a loud pop as it blew.

  Lena cursed again. She had a flashlight in her car, but she didn’t want to go back and get it. Instead, she used the light coming in through the broken window to look for the spare bulbs Hank always kept in his desk. He had wired the office himself using a hundred-foot extension cord he’d snaked through a piece of metal pipe and plugged in at the bar. This was not the first time the light had blown. She found the pack of bulbs in the bottom drawer and changed the light, trying not to think about what her hands might find in the dark. Her feet crunched on the broken glass as she twisted the bulb, the socket making a dry, crackling sound as she tried to get the right angle. Finally, the light came on and the sudden heat from the bulb made her jerk back her hand.

  She wasn’t just being paranoid. Hank had almost electrocuted himself a couple of times trying to change the bulb.

  Lena looked around the airless room, which was wallpapered with posters from beer and liquor companies. Half-naked women stared back at her, most of them fellating bottles they held in their hands. White cartons stuffed with paperwork that dated back to the bar’s grand opening were stacked against the back wall, leaving about ten square feet for a desk and two chairs. Piles of receipts were in shoeboxes scattered around the desk.

  Six years ago, Lena had sat in one of those stupid plastic chairs across from Hank, drinking so much Jack Daniel’s that she made herself sick as she tried to work up the courage to tell him that Sibyl was dead.

  Was that when he had started using again? Had the news that his beloved girl, his favorite niece, was dead been what had finally thrown him over the edge?

  Or had it started six months ago when Hank had taken Lena to the abortion clinic? He had stood outside the building, chain-smoking cigarettes, listening to angry protestors with their disgusting signs screaming about hell and damnation, condemning Lena and everybody else in the clinic to hell for their sins.

  Had she done this to him? Had Lena’s actions helped put the needle back in his arm?

  The guy with the red swastika had helped, too—she was certain of it. Lena had to find the man, to figure out who he was working for. Guys like that were muscle. There was a brain somewhere, and once Lena found that brain, she would burn his fucking house down with him inside.

  Lena sat in Hank’s chair, the springs squeaking like an old barn door. The top drawer to his desk was locked, and she took her folding knife out of her back pocket and flicked open the blade from the white pearl handle. The lock jimmied open easily enough. In the drawer, she found Hank’s business checkbook, a couple of free coupons to Harrah’s casino up in the mountains, and his spare set of keys to the bar. The larger drawers contained files that seemed mostly to do with the running of the business. Liquor distributors, payroll, taxes, and insurance. She flipped back through the checkbook and saw the last balance was dated three weeks ago. At the time, he had around six thousand dollars in the bank.

  What date had the bar been closed down? She would have to find out from the sheriff’s office. She wondered if that old fart Al Pfeiffer was still running the show and had to smile at the thought of going into his office, flashing her gold shield in the fucker’s face. Pfeiffer had a neat trick where he pulled over young girls for speeding and frisked them to within an inch of their ovaries. He had pulled over Lena once and taken a few liberties before she had figured out what was going on and slammed her knee into his groin. Pfeiffer had thrown her into jail without charging her or giving her a phone call. She had sat in the cell for six hours before Hank had come down to the station to file a missing persons report.

  His face. God, she could still see Hank’s face. There was this split second when he saw her coming out of the jail when his eyes filled with tears and his mouth opened, letting out this yelp-like sound when he realized that she was okay. Just as quickly, his mouth had closed into an angry frown, and he had cuffed her on the back of the head, asking her what the hell she was doing getting herself into trouble, who the hell she thought she was sassing the police. He hadn’t wanted to hear her story. Pfeiffer was one of his AA buddies and Hank thanked the man for not formally charging her.

  Still, his face…

  Lena had seen that same transformation so many times now that she’d come to think of Hank in almost schizophrenic terms. One second, the loving guardian who would do anything for her, the next second the angry disciplinarian threatening to beat her to within an inch of her life.

  And now the drug addict—back to that old role again, waiting for the curtain to finally come down.

  She put her elbows on the desk and dropped her head into her hands. The shack was like a kiln, and she felt sweat rolling down her back and into the waist of her jeans. Still, she sat there, heat engulfing her body, the water in the creek a constant murmur as she thought about Hank, the way he had looked in the shower, the hard words he had used when he told her to leave.

  There had to be an explanation for his disintegration. Did the bar’s closing send him into a spiral? Was that what had finally pushed him back into his old ways? Lena looked around the cramped office, trying to put herself in Hank’s mind. He had no love for this place. He had always seen the Hut as a way to make money and nothing else. There was almost a perverse pleasure he got from being a recovering alcoholic and having the strength to be around liquor all day without imbibing. Had it been a crutch all these years?

  She pushed herself back from the desk, her shoe sliding on a piece of paper. Lena reached down to pick it up, her hand freezing midair as she stared at the light blue notepaper on the concrete floor. The handwriting was
a perfect cursive, the kind they used to teach in school back when it mattered. The words were easy to read from this distance, but still, she picked up the paper and sat back in the chair so she could study it. She had to read through the page two more times before the words started to make sense.

  Lena rummaged through the desk, looking for the rest of the letter. She moved the shoeboxes and found three more pages underneath, then a few more that had fallen behind the desk. When she put them together, Lena found that there was not just one but three letters, all dated within the last two months. She read through them, feeling like she was reading someone’s diary. The notes were banal in parts, listing details of shopping for groceries and picking up the kids after school. Some of it was intensely personal, the kinds of things you shared only with a close friend.

  Finished, Lena pressed her palm flat against the stack of letters, fingers splayed out, as if she could divine their true meaning.

  How had she been so blind?

  TUESDAY AFTERNOON

  CHAPTER 8

  AL PFEIFFER LIVED AS FAR from Elawah County as you could get and still be in the state of Georgia. Dug Rut was a border town on the edge of the Okefenokee Swamp, which meant that the trip would take Jeffrey and Sara into a primitive wetland known mostly for its alligators and mosquitoes, both of which could kill a man. In high school, Jeffrey and two of his friends had planned to take a few weeks during their summer vacation and explore the swamp, but that was the same year that Deliverance came out, and even though the movie was filmed in the north Georgia mountains, it was enough to turn any man off the idea of canoeing.

  Still, Jeffrey remembered a little bit about the wetlands from his reading. He knew that the headwaters of the Suwannee and the Saint Marys rivers were located in the swamp, each eventually draining to the Gulf of Mexico and the Atlantic Ocean, respectively. Hundreds of endangered birds and mammals resided in the protected wildlife refuge and the plant life was of the sort you would expect to see in a science-fiction film. The place was as cut off as it was remote, and families tended to live and die there without seeing the rest of the world. Back in the early 1900s, there were folks living in the swamp who still had not yet heard that the Civil War was over. Not much changed in their lives when they got the news.

  The ride down was a quiet one. Sara hadn’t had much to say when Jeffrey got back to the motel. Oddly, she had cleaned the bathroom, something she seldom did at home unless she was pissed at Jeffrey or knew that her mother was coming over. She had actually seemed proud about bringing a shine to the crappy fixtures. For Jeffrey’s part, he had stared at the tub while he was taking a leak, fighting the urge to redirect the stream and mess up Sara’s handiwork. If he’d wanted a wife who took pleasure out of cleaning a toilet, he would’ve married his high school sweetheart back in Alabama.

  Sara had listened politely as Jeffrey had relayed the details he’d gotten from Nick about the Brotherhood, the meth business running up the eastern seaboard, the possibility that Elawah might be a stop along the cartel’s railroad. She’d nodded, but not offered her opinion on anything. She hadn’t asked him what he’d hoped to accomplish by talking to Al Pfeiffer or how any of this tied in to Lena. Part of him had hoped she would. Jeffrey wasn’t sure how to answer those questions himself. Talking it out with Sara might have helped him understand.

  Two hours into the trip, Jeffrey wasn’t even sure he was still in Georgia. Kudzu and knotty pines gave way to sand and palm trees. When he rolled down his window, he caught a whiff of the briny coast mixing with the pungent odor of shit that told him he was downwind from a paper company. An hour later, he followed a back route cutting into the state, toward the little bit of Georgia that fingered into Florida along the Saint Marys. By then, he could barely see the road. The car’s windshield was caked with all manner of streaks from the bugs that had flown into the glass, some of them as big as his fist.

  Jeffrey was about to pull over and look at the map Nick had given him when he noticed all the usual signs that indicated you were getting close to the border between two southern states: hot boiled peanuts, fresh produce, fireworks, totally topless/XXX-rated girls. Sara said she needed to use the restroom, so he pulled over at the rest stop on the Florida side. Jeffrey got out of the car to check his bearings, then got back in the car because in the full heat of the sun, it was almost too painful to be outside. He tried to think back to when he was a kid and the first week of November meant wearing a jacket and hoping it would snow so you wouldn’t have to go to school.

  In the car, Jeffrey turned on the ignition and ratcheted up the air-conditioning, letting the cold, artificial breeze blow on his face. He spread the map on his lap again and traced his route, squinting to read Nick’s handwriting where the GBI agent had noted streets and landmarks that the original cartographer had either failed to notice or considered inconsequential. Still, Nick had never been to visit Al Pfeiffer and the map only gave detailed directions to Dug Rut, not to Pfeiffer’s house. There was just the street address to go by: 8 West Road Six. It was a good start, but Jeffrey would need better directions than that.

  Sara got back into the car. She handed him a bottle of water.

  “Thanks.”

  “You’re welcome.”

  He stared at her, trying to think of something to say.

  She indicated the map. “Do you know where you’re going?”

  “I’ll need to stop at a gas station closer in to town and see if they can give me better directions.”

  “Okay.” She slipped on her seat belt, clicked it into the buckle.

  Jeffrey waited, but she didn’t say anything else. He gave her the map. She folded it up as he reversed the car out of the space.

  Jeffrey merged back onto the highway and followed the signs to Dug Rut. Less than a mile off the main road, he understood where the town had gotten its name. The land was obviously part of the canal system they’d built in the early 1900s in an attempt to drain the swamp. New York’s Central Park had suffered this same fate, but the Okefenokee had proved to be too difficult to destroy. The handful of swamps left in America were probably some of the few remaining places on the continent where a man could live wholly sustained by the land, whether it was for food, shelter, medicine, or some of the cleanest drinking water on earth. Jeffrey wondered how long it would be before they were all completely destroyed.

  Downtown Dug Rut wasn’t much to write home about. There was a bar and a post office, but not much more than that. The tiny strip of storefronts lining Main Street were all closed. The owners hadn’t even bothered to put rental signs in the windows. There was something sad about the place, and as Jeffrey coasted through a stop sign, he was starting to give up hope of finding a gas station.

  He did a U-turn in the middle of the street and turned back toward the post office. Sara didn’t move to get out when he parked in front of the building, so he nudged her, saying, “You don’t think I’m going to ask for directions, do you? They’ll take away my man card.”

  She gave him a tight smile and got out of the car.

  Jeffrey watched her make her way toward the building. Her jeans were baggy in the back, and he realized that she had lost more weight. He didn’t like it. Sara had always been lean, but she was too thin now. When he made love to her, he could feel her ribs scraping against his chest. Her hips were disappearing, the curve of her waist cinching too tight. From the back, she could almost pass for a teenage boy.

  Jeffrey took a deep breath and let it go slowly. Eight years ago, Sara had come home from work early to find Jeffrey in their bed with another woman. Not just in bed, but in action. The look on Sara’s face—the betrayal, the hurt, the anger—had been the biggest wake-up call of his life, and Jeffrey had used every tactic he could think of to try and win her back. Just getting her to talk to him had been the biggest hurdle. Once she could speak to him without clenching her jaw, he had worked on getting her into bed. It hadn’t been nearly as easy as the first time, but Jeffrey found that wakin
g up with Sara next to him was even more rewarding. Six months ago, he had practically begged her to marry him. Hell, the truth was that he had begged her, even getting down on both knees at one point. Sara had taken her own sweet time, but finally she had said yes.

  And now, it was almost like she was disappearing before his eyes.

  Sara came out of the post office, and Jeffrey found himself looking at the map again instead of watching her walk toward him.

  “They were very nice,” Sara told him as she got into the car. She was holding a postal form where she’d written down some directions. “They said he’s about three miles west of here.”

  “Why don’t we just go to Florida?”

  Jeffrey heard his words fill the empty space in the car, knew they had come out of his own mouth, but had no idea where the question had come from.

  Sara smiled, shaking her head. Still, she suggested, “Drink margaritas on the beach?”

  He felt himself smiling back. “Rub suntan oil all over your body.”

  “Then aloe when the sun burns off the top layer of my skin.” Sara turned to him, still smiling. “You need to go left on Main Street.”

  “I’m serious about Florida.”

  “I’m serious about taking a left.”

  He reached out to her, tracing his fingers along her lips. “You’re beautiful. Do you know that?”

  She kissed his fingers, then put his hand back on the steering wheel. “Left,” she repeated. “Then take a right onto a road called Kate’s Way.”

  Jeffrey backed out of the space and turned onto Main Street. He slowed as they came to a gravel road, trying to read the handmade street sign. He did this at three roads before finding Kate’s Way, a bumpy, one-lane path that looked as if it was seldom used. The scenery changed abruptly the farther they traveled. This part of Georgia was flat marsh-land, huge, big-bottomed cypress trees growing straight out of the tea-colored water. Spanish moss draped over the branches like lace and there was a constant sound of crickets, birds, frogs, and the occasional gator bellow that they could hear even with the car windows rolled up tight.