Lovefool (Introduction)

#77 HOURGLASS GLUED TO A TABLE

  Once as he was giving her energy and she was observing the sapphire-like light, she asked him curiously:

  -Julian, why is this light so wonderfully blue?

  -It is because I have blue eyes. – He smiled back and moved his hands over her stomach.

  -And how does it work?

  -What?

  -This whole thing with your energy. How do you absorb it?

  -The entire world is full of energy. Every rock, every lake, every sea, every piece of air and every living creature starting with plants and ending up with human beings possess energy. My family never took energy from human beings. Apparently, you can absorb some individual skills of people in this way, but I am not sure. We never practised it. It was part of our agreement with humans. We didn't want to hurt them and taking their energy away is seen as a crime. People don’t have much energy anyway. Furthermore, it would be very easy to take away their lives then. It is just as if you would come home after training and there would be just a sip of water in your house. You wouldn't be able to resist the desire to drink it all, it would be hardly possible for you to stop half way. Our Wisemen said it is impossible to stop and it is forbidden from the very beginning. The same is with animals. Nevertheless, there is much energy around us. Sometimes people say that a special feeling is in the air. It is energy. Some people can sense it more, some less. Nevertheless, with every step I take, I absorb the energy I need to live from earth and space, water, air and wind, and fire. In addition, we have another element, namely time. Time is our Fifth Element. People underestimate time and we value it a lot.

  -When you share your energy with me, is it consequently possible that I will get some of your skills, even in a small scope? – She asked hopefully.

  -Unfortunately, it doesn’t work this way. We barely tried it. Sometimes we are helping people who are dying by giving them an illusion of being happy. I can put my hand on your shoulder and some of my good vibrations would come over you. I can take your hand and it will be the same way. Unfortunately, we never do such transfers like I am doing here with you in. I heard it is possible. My energy causes that you heal faster. My energy causes that you feel better. My energy causes that you go out of your natural balance and you could explode.

  Julian was very sad as he spoke it. He tried to stay calm and serious, but his emotions were present in his voice. Mia felt how he was suffering just because of thinking about it again.

  -It is like a chewing gum balloon. It has its limits. It can happen that it explodes sooner or later. You, as a human, can’t foresee it. I can. Unfortunately, in your case, you are a riddle for me. You are the only one I ever dreamt of and I would risk everything to save you. I didn't think about consequences. I didn't think at all. I reacted emotionally and it should have never happened. I broke my rules because of my selfish wish to keep you alive. I couldn't let you fade away and be another candle in the wind. I cannot estimate how much energy is good for you. In that moment, I helped you, I didn’t want to lose you. I risked your life. I risked your life, Mia.

  Julian tried not to look her in the eyes. He was ashamed. He felt like a betrayer. He was risking her life and could hurt her.

  Mia stroked his cheek.

  -Julian, don’t think about it. During these days I spent with you, I felt more alive than in my whole life.

  Julian shook his head briefly and continued. He wanted to get over with it.

  -I heard from my family that it was possible to heal people. Some of us are involved in this area, healing people. They are much older and more experienced than me. I saw their practise already in a jungle of America and in deserts of Africa. When one of us helps people in this way, he is definitely walking on a thin line. It is not easy to decide if you should let someone live longer. We don’t know our fates and we don’t know fates of people, either. Healing you with my energy is another broken rule. It was my first time. So far, I only accompanied people, who were dying with a smile on their faces. I helped people in depressions to stand up again and to live on. My energy makes you heal faster and better than you would under normal circumstances. It makes you happy and it fulfils you. However, you are a human and you will stay a human. I am what I am. I will not change either. I can keep your company as long as you live.

  Julian looked out of the window and stars lighted up the sky. He wanted to say more, but it was too hard for him. He was visibly moved, sad and heartbreaking.

  -So, I will be older and older and die one day and you will barely change in this time? –Mia asked with a trembling voice.

  He took her in his arms and said serenely:

  -Mia, we all have our destination. We can influence some processes, but we cannot influence the circle of life. I am growing older as well. However, a human lifetime is in average 60-80 years and mine is much, much longer. When I was young, I was looking like a child. We look similar to people. Therefore, I am growing and getting older like every living creature. My autumn of life will come someday.

  She was really sad. Her whole life was less many than his wink of an eye. She didn't even get her five minutes in his 24 hours. Now she was afraid of getting older. She couldn't imagine to be as old as her grandmother and to still have him by her side then. How would it look like? He wouldn't love her anymore.

  -Mia, nothing in this world will change my love for you, but I cannot change the world in the way I would like. Nobody knows where and when we might end up, but I will stay at your side. – Julian said and kissed her sensitively. She smiled, but inside there were many tears and doubts about such a creepy future. If her inner voice was right, she wouldn't achieve her 70th year of age. There was Jonas who standing in her way. Mia didn't know what to do right now. She was in fact anxious.