The Nick Adams Stories

  “What’s the matter, Nick?” Marjorie asked.

  “I don’t know,” Nick said, getting wood for a fire.

  They made a fire with driftwood. Marjorie went to the boat and brought a blanket. The evening breeze blew the smoke toward the point, so Marjorie spread the blanket out between the fire and the lake.

  Marjorie sat on the blanket with her back to the fire and waited for Nick. He came over and sat down beside her on the blanket. In back of them was the close second-growth timber of the point and in front was the bay with the mouth of Hortons Creek. It was not quite dark. The firelight went as far as the water. They could both see the two steel rods at an angle over the dark water. The fire glinted on the reels.

  Marjorie unpacked the basket of supper.

  “I don’t feel like eating,” said Nick.

  “Come on and eat, Nick.”

  “All right.”

  They ate without talking and watched the two rods and the firelight in the water.

  “There’s going to be a moon tonight,” said Nick. He looked across the bay to the hills that were beginning to sharpen against the sky. Beyond the hills he knew the moon was coming up.

  “I know it,” Marjorie said happily.

  “You know everything,” Nick said.

  “Oh, Nick, please cut it out! Please, please don’t be that way!”

  “I can’t help it,” Nick said. “You do. You know everything. That’s the trouble. You know you do.”

  Marjorie did not say anything.

  “I’ve taught you everything. You know you do. What don’t you know, anyway?”

  “Oh, shut up,” Marjorie said. “There comes the moon.”

  They sat on the blanket without touching each other and watched the moon rise.

  “You don’t have to talk silly,” Marjorie said. “What’s really the matter?”

  “I don’t know.”

  “Of course you know.”

  “No I don’t.”

  “Go on and say it.”

  Nick looked on at the moon, coming up over the hills.

  “It isn’t fun any more,”

  He was afraid to look at Marjorie. Then he looked at her. She sat there with her back toward him. He looked at her back. “It isn’t fun any more. Not any of it.”

  She didn’t say anything. He went on. “I feel as though everything was gone to hell inside of me. I don’t know, Marge. I don’t know what to say.”

  He looked on at her back.

  “Isn’t love any fun?” Marjorie said.

  “No,” Nick said. Marjorie stood up. Nick sat there, his head in his hands.

  “I’m going to take the boat,” Marjorie called to him. “You can walk back around the point.”

  “All right,” Nick said. “I’ll push the boat off for you.”

  “You don’t need to,” she said. She was afloat in the boat on the water with the moonlight on it. Nick went back and lay down with his face in the blanket by the fire. He could hear Marjorie rowing on the water.

  He lay there for a long time. He lay there while he heard Bill come into the clearing, walking around through the woods. He felt Bill coming up to the fire. Bill didn’t touch him, either.

  “Did she go all right?” Bill said.

  “Oh, yes.” Nick said, lying, his face on the blanket.

  “Have a scene?”

  “No, there wasn’t any scene.”

  “How do you feel?”

  “Oh, go away, Bill! Go away for a while.” Bill selected a sandwich from the lunch basket and walked over to have a look at the rods.

  The Three-Day Blow

  The rain stopped as Nick turned into the road that went up through the orchard. The fruit had been picked and the fall wind blew through the bare trees. Nick stopped and picked up a Wagener apple from beside the road, shiny in the brown grass from the rain. He put the apple in the pocket of his Mackinaw coat.

  The road came out of the orchard on to the top of the hill. There was the cottage, the porch bare, smoke coming from the chimney. In back were the garage, the chicken coop and the second-growth timber like a hedge against the woods behind. The big trees swayed far over in the wind as he watched. It was the first of the autumn storms.

  As Nick crossed the open field above the orchard the door of the cottage opened and Bill came out. He stood on the porch looking out.

  “Well, Wemedge,” he said.

  “Hey, Bill,” Nick said, coming up the steps.

  They stood together looking out across the country, down over the orchard, beyond the road, across the lower fields and the woods of the point of the lake. The wind was blowing straight down the lake. They could see the surf along Ten Mile point.

  “She’s blowing,” Nick said.

  “She’ll blow like that for three days,” Bill said.

  “Is your dad in?” Nick asked.

  “No. He’s out with the gun. Come on in.”

  Nick went inside the cottage. There was a big fire in the fireplace. The wind made it roar. Bill shut the door.

  “Have a drink?” he said.

  He went out to the kitchen and came back with two glasses and a pitcher of water. Nick reached the whiskey bottle from the shelf above the fireplace.

  “All right?” he said.

  “Good,” said Bill.

  They sat in front of the fire and drank the Irish whiskey and water.

  “It’s got a swell, smoky taste,” Nick said, and looked at the fire through the glass.

  “That’s the peat,” Bill said.

  “You can’t get peat into liquor,” Nick said.

  “That doesn’t make any difference,” Bill said.

  “You ever seen any peat?” Nick asked.

  “No,” said Bill.

  “Neither have I,” Nick said.

  His shoes, stretched out on the hearth, began to steam in front of the fire.

  “Better take your shoes off,” Bill said.

  “I haven’t got any socks on.”

  “Take them off and dry them and I’ll get you some,” Bill said. He went upstairs into the loft and Nick heard him walking about overhead. Upstairs was open under the roof and was where Bill and his father and he, Nick, sometimes slept. In back was a dressing room. They moved the cots back out of the rain and covered them with rubber blankets.

  Bill came down with a pair of heavy wool socks.

  “It’s getting too late to go around without socks,” he said.

  “I hate to start them again,” Nick said. He pulled the socks on and slumped back in the chair, putting his feet up on the screen in front of the fire.

  “You’ll dent in the screen,” Bill said. Nick swung his feet over to the side of the fireplace.

  “Got anything to read?” he asked.

  ‘Only the paper,”

  “What did the Cards do?”

  “Dropped a double-header to the Giants.”

  “That ought to cinch it for them.”

  “It’s a gift,” Bill said. “As long as McGraw can buy every good ballplayer in the league there’s nothing to it.”

  “He can’t buy them all,” Nick said.

  “He buys all the ones he wants,” Bill said. “Or he makes them discontented so they have to trade them to him.”

  “Like Heinie Zim,” Nick agreed.

  “That bonehead will do him a lot of good.”

  Bill stood up.

  “He can hit,” Nick offered. The heat from the fire was baking his legs.

  “He’s a sweet fielder, too,” Bill said. “But he loses ball games.”

  “Maybe that’s what McGraw wants him for,” Nick suggested.

  “Maybe,” Bill agreed.

  “There’s always more to it than we know about,” Nick said.

  “Of course. But we’ve got pretty good dope for being so far away.”

  “Like how much better you can pick them if you don’t see the horses.”

  “That’s it.”

  Bill reached down the whiskey bottle. H
is big hand went all the way around it. He poured the whiskey into the glass Nick held out.

  “How much water?”

  “Just the same,”

  He sat down on the floor beside Nick’s chair.

  “It’s good when the fall storms come, isn’t it?” Nick said.

  “It’s swell.”

  “It’s the best time of year,” Nick said.

  “Wouldn’t it be hell to be in town?” Bill said.

  “I’d like to see the World Series,” Nick said.

  “Well, they’re always in New York or Philadelphia now,” Bill said. “That doesn’t do us any good.”

  “I wonder if the Cards will ever win a pennant?”

  “Not in our lifetime,” Bill said.

  “Gee, they’d go crazy,” Nick said.

  “Do you remember when they got going that once before they had the train wreck?”

  “Boy!” Nick said, remembering.

  Bill reached over to the table under the window for the book that lay there, face down, where he had put it when he went to the door. He held his glass in one hand and the book in the other, leaning back against Nick’s chair.

  “What are you reading?”

  “Richard Feverel.”

  “I couldn’t get into it.”

  “It’s all right,” Bill said. “It ain’t a bad book, Wemedge.”

  “What else have you got I haven’t read,” Nick asked.

  “Did you read the Forest Lovers?”

  “Yup. That’s the one where they go to bed every night with the naked sword between them.”

  “That’s a good book, Wemedge.”

  “It’s a swell book. What I couldn’t ever understand was what good the sword would do. It would have to stay edge up all the time because if it went over flat you could roll right over it and it wouldn’t make any trouble.”

  “It’s a symbol,” Bill said.

  “Sure,” said Nick, “but it isn’t practical.”

  “Did you ever read Fortitude?”

  “It’s fine,” Nick said. “That’s a real book. That’s where his old man is after him all the time. Have you got any more by Walpole?”

  “The Dark Forest,” Bill said. “It’s about Russia.”

  “What does he know about Russia?” Nick asked.

  “I don’t know. You can’t ever tell about those guys. Maybe he was there when he was a boy. He’s got a lot of dope on it”

  “I’d like to meet him,” Nick said.

  “I’d like to meet Chesterton,” Bill said.

  “I wish he was here now,” Nick said. “We’d take him fishing to the ‘Voix tomorrow.”

  “I wonder if he’d like to go fishing,” Bill said.

  “Sure,” said Nick. “He must be about the best guy there is. Do you remember the ‘Flying Inn’?”

  If an angel out of heaven

  Gives you something else to drink,

  Thank him for his kind intentions;

  Go and pour them down the sink.

  “That’s right,” said Nick. “I guess he’s a better guy than Walpole.”

  “Oh, he’s a better guy, all right,” Bill said.

  “But Walpole’s a better writer.”

  “I don’t know,” Nick said. “Chesterton’s a classic.”

  “Walpole’s a classic, too,” Bill insisted.

  “I wish we had them both here,” Nick said. “We’d take them both fishing to the ‘Voix tomorrow.”

  “Let’s get drunk,” Bill said.

  “All right,” Nick agreed.

  “My old man won’t care,” Bill said.

  “Are you sure?” said Nick.

  “I know it,” Bill said.

  “I’m a little drunk now,” Nick said.

  “You aren’t drunk,” Bill said.

  He got up from the floor and reached for the whiskey bottle. Nick held out his glass. His eyes fixed on it while Bill poured.

  Bill poured the glass half full of whiskey.

  “Put in your own water,” he said. “There’s just one more shot.”

  “Got any more?” Nick asked.

  “There’s plenty more, but Dad only likes me to drink what’s open.”

  “Sure,” said Nick.

  “He says opening bottles is what makes drunkards,” Bill explained.

  “That’s right,” said Nick. He was impressed. He had never thought of that before. He had always thought it was solitary drinking that made drunkards.

  “How is your dad?” he asked respectfully.

  “He’s all right,” Bill said. “He gets a little wild sometimes.”

  “He’s a swell guy,” Nick said. He poured water into his glass out of the pitcher. It mixed slowly with the whiskey. There was more whiskey than water.

  “You bet your life he is,” Bill said.

  “My old man’s all right,” Nick said.

  “You’re damn right he is,” said Bill.

  “He claims he’s never taken a drink in his life,” Nick said as though announcing a scientific fact.

  “Well, he’s a doctor. My old man’s a painter. That’s different.”

  “He’s missed a lot,” Nick said sadly.

  “You can’t tell,” Bill said. “Everything’s got its compensations.”

  “He says he’s missed a lot himself,” Nick confessed.

  “Well, Dad’s had a tough time,” Bill said.

  “It all evens up,” Nick said.

  They sat looking into the fire and thinking of this profound truth.

  “I’ll get a chunk from the back porch,” Nick said. He had noticed while looking into the fire that the fire was dying down. Also he wished to show he could hold his liquor and be practical. Even if his father had never touched a drop Bill was not going to get him drunk before he himself was drunk.

  “Bring one of the big beech chunks,” Bill said. He was also being consciously practical.

  Nick came in with the log through the kitchen and in passing knocked a pan off the kitchen table. He laid the log down and picked up the pan. It had contained dried apricots, soaking in water. He carefully picked up all the apricots off the floor, some of them had gone under the stove, and put them back in the pan. He dipped some more water onto them from the pail by the table. He felt quite proud of himself. He had been thoroughly practical.

  He came in carrying the log and Bill got up from the chair and helped him put it on the fire.

  “That’s a swell log,” Nick said.

  “I’d been saving it for the bad weather,” Bill said. “A log like that will burn all night.”

  “There’ll be coals left to start the fire in the morning,” Nick said.

  “That’s right,” Bill agreed. They were conducting the conversation on a high plane.

  “Let’s have another drink,” Nick said.

  “I think there’s another bottle open in the locker,” Bill said.

  He kneeled down in the corner in front of the locker and brought out a square-faced bottle.

  “It’s Scotch,” he said.

  “I’ll get some more water,” Nick said. He went out into the kitchen again. He filled the pitcher with the dipper, dipping cold spring water from the pail. On his way back to the living room he passed a mirror in the dining room and looked in it. His face looked strange. He smiled at the face in the mirror and it grinned back at him. He winked at it and went on. It was not his face but it didn’t make any difference.

  Bill poured out the drinks.

  “That’s an awfully big shot,” Nick said.

  “Not for us, Wemedge,” Bill said.

  “What’ll we drink to?” Nick asked, holding up the glass.

  “Let’s drink to fishing,” Bill said.

  “All right,” Nick said. “Gentlemen, I give you fishing.”

  “All fishing,” Bill said. “Everywhere.”

  “Fishing,” Nick said. “That’s what we drink to.”

  “It’s better than baseball,” Bill said.

  “Ther
e isn’t any comparison,” said Nick. “How did we ever get talking about baseball?”

  “It was a mistake,” Bill said. “Baseball is a game for louts.”

  They drank all that was in their glasses.

  “Now let’s drink to Chesterton.”

  “And Walpole,” Nick interposed.

  Nick poured out the liquor. Bill poured in the water. They looked at each other. They felt very fine.

  “Gentlemen,” Bill said, “I give you Chesterton and Walpole.”

  “Exactly, gentlemen,” Nick said.

  They drank. Bill filled up the glasses. They sat down in the big chairs in front of the fire.

  “You were very wise, Wemedge,” Bill said.

  “What do you mean?” asked Nick.

  “To bust off that Marge business,” Bill said.

  “I guess so,” said Nick.

  “It was the only thing to do. If you hadn’t, by now you’d be back home working trying to get enough money to get married.”

  Nick said nothing.

  “Once a man’s married he’s absolutely bitched,” Bill went on. “He hasn’t got anything more. Nothing. Not a damn thing. He’s done for. You’ve seen the guys that get married.”

  Nick said nothing.

  “You can tell them,” Bill said. “They get this sort of fat married look. They’re done for.”

  “Sure,” said Nick.

  “It was probably bad busting it off,” Bill said. “But you always fall for somebody else and then it’s all right. Fall for them but don’t let them ruin you.”

  “Yes,” said Nick.

  “If you’d have married her you would have had to marry the whole family. Remember her mother and that guy she married.”

  Nick nodded.

  “Imagine having them around the house all the time and going to Sunday dinners at their house and having them over to dinner and her telling Marge all the time what to do and how to act.”

  Nick sat quiet.

  “You came out of it damned well,” Bill said. “Now she can marry somebody of her own sort and settle down and be happy. You can’t mix oil and water and you can’t mix that sort of thing any more than if I’d marry Ida that works for Strattons. She’d probably like it, too.”

  Nick said nothing. The liquor had all died out of him and left him alone. Bill wasn’t there. He wasn’t sitting in front of the fire or going fishing tomorrow with Bill and his dad or anything. He wasn’t drunk. It was all gone. All he knew was that he had once had Marjorie and that he had lost her. She was gone and he had sent her away. That was all that mattered. He might never see her again. Probably he never would. It was all gone, finished.