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  “But Mr. Pintu, I don’t know how our teenagers motivated by such blue waves, why they don’t try to maintain their ideology?” Rishabh said.

  “It is unsolvable,” Neelon commented.

  “Yes Neelon, you are right. From beggars to rich people, childish to old age, everyone can be motivated. All such blue waves erected as an illusion and by such activities we lose our all roots of peace and harmony. It gives us pain only and we are going to maintain a bad spirit. We think that we have a power to survive our own life along with all fantasies, but it is certainly not. And one day, we lose everything… we lose our family and society. It makes us very hungry, but it lasts for an interval.”

 

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  One day, we had one more visit in Gangtok. It was a very cool and cold place. I had a sound sleep and I didn’t remember what they discussed about our youths and teenagers and in the same evening…………..

  “Rishabh, I am feeling very bore,” Neelon said.

  “You are too boring by your self,” Rishabh replied.

  “He he he…don’t talk to me” Neelon smiled.

  “Not expected. Okay,” Neelon replied.

  “Sorry Neelon,” Rishabh apologized.

  “Okay Neelon. Let me tell you a poem.”

  “Wow! Wow!”

  I was under by a shadow.

  And was looking very restless.

  A feminine voice which

  Enhances my heartbeats.

  I was searching that one

  Here and there.

  And was moving

  And they’re restlessly.

  And was following that.

  That feminine voice was

  Asking for a help,

  And me puzzled.

  Her queries puzzled me,

  To move and leave that place

  And was looking her activity.

  “Was it a real fact?” Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

  “Yes. Trust me, it was real. I didn’t know who she actually was!!”

  “That voice was very common and I had an experience over it, my school days experience,” Rishabh said to Mr. Pintu.

  “What?” Mr. Pintu asked.

  “Yes, it’s true,” Rishabh, replied.

  “Okay Rishabh, do have you any faith on such devil souls?” Neelon asked.

  “Yes, I can say you from my own experience that devil soul still exists. A devil is always a devil. Still they working and they work on devil works. A devil is always a devil whether it is a dead entity or a living one”

  “May be. I don’t have such an experience,” Neelon replied.

  “Trust me, I realized it and realized a devil soul during my school days. I saw such one devil soul three more times in a week. It was always hidden. I tried to saw his/ her complete appearance but that one wearing white cloths only and it was as white as snow. That image had a query. I did not explain it to any one. It was comfort near our entrance. I observed that during winter only. He/ she did not even disturb me ever. That one was very restless and looking very decent and it was very much ideal as if it was protecting and watching me by his / her restless steps.”

  “I don’t have much more experience on that. But one thing I can say that I afraid such devils,” Mr. Pintu said to Rishabh.

  “I realized such devil souls several times and it was too horrible to see,” Rishabh replied to Mr. Pintu.

  “ I realized it during winter only. At around 9to 9.30pm, after our tuition classes. Still I asking myself whether that was a male or a female but it was a dead soul. I had an experiment on it and it was in the evening time only, when I realized about the existence of such devil souls. I felt his/her presence and was alone in the room. I was preparing my daily class notes and all the doors were being closed. I heard a human walking sound all over the rooms. That day was a winter and everyone surrounded me were becoming deserted. I observed someone’s presence at our place. I checked all the rooms properly and becoming very scared. I thought, it might be one of my

  family members, who is walking alone inside the room, but I did not notice whether all those doors were being locked or not and finally, I have decided to check all those doors. All those doors were being closed from inside and I had a full bucket of water at my right hand and suddenly it fell from my hand and scattered all over the room. My heartbeats stopped working.”

  “It was so horrible. What happened next?” Neelon asked to Rishabh.

  “ I saw a deserted land outside of our place. I was fully scared to stay alone inside the room and there was no way out to wait out side our cottage. There I expected someone to whom I can at least explain about the matter.”

  “Did you get there anyone?” Neelon asked again.

  “Don’t say Neelon, no one was there and no one come? I knocked some doors and all are being closed. I had no way to leave the place and I ran towards my grandpa’s place and I got there all our family members. That incident happened, when my grandpa expired. That night, I did not asleep properly with my elder brother. I told him about that incident but he had no importance about me. But during that same night, that sound was ringing repeatedly at my ears and there was someone who was calling from outside of our place and was asking for a help.”

  “So, was there any sound in any other days?” Mr. Pintu asked to Rishabh.

  “”No, because after the funeral all our family members back to our place. So, I did not feel myself alone, but it troubled me lot during at night. That day, I realized a devil, a devil that was very close and horrible. But by me, there is no devil. They can’t harm you if you are good. They afraid we human beings. We human beings can easily harm any one and we can do anything.”

  That was about our Gangtok tour.

  I was bounded under pressure and by inner voice I had to hide my hobby and myself. There was a reality behind all those conversations. It was all about our human thinking. I am very young and immature in front of you. It was my dream to make our own nation a polluted and violence free.

  Although, we human beings have some burdens. We all have different opinions about our lives. Some are very realistic and struggling to get the purity of a life, some are materialistic and moving with fantasies and some are very usual, having a little expectation and some are live for themselves only. In spite of common origin, common sense of humor and common anatomical activities, we move with other’s ideology. We try to be very unique, we try to be the best and we try to rule over others. Money and money, it fully scattered. We are going to forget the common source of origin. Money can do anything. It’s power changing our life styles and even attitudes and we are becoming very demanding. We are always under gravity and it enhances our normal lives. A life, which is going to be vacant. We are forgetting others and concentrating ourselves only. Are we maintaining a good job? It is my questions to all of you people. Can we save others? Can we save our nation? Aren’t we destroying our innocence lives?

  Sometime, some justice fails in front of money. I am not blaming a judge and their real justice. My judge is my common people. Justice has its own virtues and it has no faults. There are so many molestation with our common people. A poor servant is being torture by food. We had no judge and there was not being a judgment, when I was troubling by our societies and by our relatives and neighbors. Do you think poverty is curse by itself? Justice should like our mothers. No mothers in this cosmos ever differentiate her care and love. They have the capability to balance their care. We should stop such injustice by our societies. We should adore all justices. Justice has a supreme power to teach us at least about our all-future footsteps and about our all mistakes. Here I have considered my society where judgment is not being doing properly. Yes, judge has a duty to judge on some devil works, but why judge will decide. We ourselves judge properly to save us and to protect others. No one is motivating, we ourselves motivated. Even a devil may some causes to devote themselves on some devil works. Not always f
or money, may be other reasons.

  We forget everything, when we get a power then we start working under those same bad shadows. Such blue and bad shadows destroying our normal lives and a nation. Never allow yourself in it, for your cloth, food and shelter. Remember, we all are human beings; we can do a god job. We can feed others and ourselves. Never be disheartened. You cannot realize it until it bites you. We have to prevent them and no one is there to prevent you. You yourself have to prevent from it. It is a message to all my elders, friends and my loving brothers and sisters. It is very difficult to begin such a holy work, but you can try. I am requesting to all of you guys that never be dishearten. You can do a good job. Try for it and save your origin and save your nation.

  How long you keep yourself upset? How long you keep yourself dishearten? Chewing of Chewing gum is sweet to taste but a bit later, it become bitter in taste. Never stretches your sorrows. It can pain you and become a shadow along with your all shadows. Try to live in reality and be practical. It is little bit bitter in taste and it is good ahead. Try to save your all tears and try to save it to get a comfort able life ahead.

  Never show your strengths to any worthless things. A good health is good for us. So, never indulge your strength. Awake that ideal soul which is working inside your self. So that you can at least work properly. Remember, you are not only the single one who is struggling but we are on the same track. Try to devote yourself on some good works.

  Try to understand, what is good for us and what is good for you and try to realize what is good for your societies. Don’t think for yourself only.

  We are in trouble. Every nation has its own trouble. We are already late. Somewhere sometime, we are responsible for some burdens. We must solve our own burdens. All our higher officials can solve some our burdens and even our spiritual power can solve those burdens. But, why those higher officials, why our supreme power, why not you and me. We have that capability and let us do that work to make a good society and a good nation.

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  It seemed I was on the floated leaves,

  Hoped to touch and pull you back.

  It was too wide.

  All tiny droplets was moving along

  The stream was reflecting on me.

  I was feeling so fresh with it

  And hoped to stand on the droplets.

  It was looking vacant from outside.

  It seemed she was empty like me.

  She wanted too fill her empty spaces,

  But that was going very restless

  To keep she stable on it.

  She tried more and more

  My illusion was beyond expectation.

  All musical nodes indicating

  Her presence.

  She was on the edge of my goal

  And opened all my doors.

  She wanted to fill herself

  By everyone’s sorrows.

  She was covered her face,

  Was looking very alone.

  She tied my hands with burdens.

  I was on the fire, she agreed to

  stand by my side.

  I forced her to back at her place.

  She was safe and she filled me;

  She makes me, my smile.

  She makes me, my style.

  You are in my soul and

  Your soul is alive.

  You are in me,

  You can fill me.

  I miss you every time.

  I am still alive,

  That was for you.

  No one can shine on our expectation,

  It helps us to shine and glow only.

 

 

  PART SEVEN

 

 

  PART # SEVEN

  My single bedded room was being too small. They had often a visit at my room. That day, an earthquake occurred. We had a joint breakfast at my small room. I was writing a story, when they knocked my door but that door was partially locked. I tried to hide my all papers and by coincidence, I had to explain the whole story. I did not agree, but sometime we have to accept something.

  My friend ‘Neeloy’, we had our first introduction at our ‘Surveying’ practical. He was my classmate. There was a similarity between Rishabh and Neeloy. I am not going to introduce myself. May be later, if God help me to explain. Take a look at my College and office working hours…………..

  That time was a mid day; I was reading a newspaper, leaning against a wall. I heard someone was knocking my door repeatedly. It was Neeloy, with a branch of roses.

  “What is this brother?” I asked to Neeloy.

  “Nothing brother. That is for you only,” Neeloy replied.

  “Me! But why, I am not a girl,” I had some fun.

  “I have learnt a good lesson. So………………” Neeloy replied soundly

  “ What you have learnt?” I asked with my funny teeth.

  “Nothing. It was for your intuition,” Neeloy replied.

  “Intuition! How?” I astonished.

  “Your intuition has worked. I realized it very well.”

  “No Neeloy. Actually, we sometime listen what our mind says but not our heart. In most of the cases, we don’t want to be practical. Once you look your own troubles physically and very practically then you get your all answers but we never try for it and never listen our heart. We never are practical and all our faiths become fake. We think the path where we are going is the best.”

  But Neeloy was looking so unhappy with his wedding face. I noticed it during our office hours.

  “What happen Neeloy?”

  “ I am very much disheartened. I want to escape from this place.”

  “Escape from where?” I asked to Neeloy.

  “I want to escape from my soul and from this land,” Neeloy replied.

  “Are you mad?” I asked to Neeloy.

  “ I am going to lose my love and my heart. It is not being so easy to lose someone. I love her very much,” Neeloy replied.

  “You don’t need to forget someone and don’t need to escape. We need you and you have to rectify your all mistakes. We lose so many things in our first attempts and even our someone dearest and a good soul,” I suggested to Neeloy.

  “Our hero is a good advisor.” Mr. Pintu commented

  “That’s why; I am giving all those roses to you. You were correct and by me, you are the real owner of those roses. You are a very realistic fellow by yourself and your determination is strong. You even lost your love, but it lasted for many more years than me. But, you are still strong and still doing well. Its how brother? Let me know,” Neeloy asked to me.”

  “How?”

  “Okay then let me explain,” I replied.

  “See Neeloy, besides love we have many more things to live and joys and by me, love with a girl is too boring, simply a boring word. Still I love her, how can I forget to care thyself.”

  “Yes, you are right brother.” Neelon commented.

  “But why you saying such things?” Neeloy asked to me.

  “See, love has a good meaning. The whole universe and we all living beings are working under love and by love it is working but sometime, it pain us, we suffer, we cry and become very thirsty and

  you cannot imagine what I realized, what love is and what its affections.”

  “Brother, you are a good orator.” Rishabh commented.

  “No Rishabh, I am not an orator.”

  He was on fire, anger, a pain, and a lost, lost an own soul and was becoming very adamant.

  “Why don’t you understand? I am not mad. I made for someone.”

  “What happen Neeloy? Did your love break?”

  “Please brother, don’t ask me anything and please leave me alone.”

  “No, it’s not possible. I can’t leave you alone. See Neeloy, I am neither your someone nor your own brother. I will stand by your side to save
and protect you and will stay for the sake of our friendship. I can understand a pain.”

  “Why are you doing so? Why don’t you leave me alone? Do your own work. You have a live ahead,” Neeloy requested me by several ways to leave him alone.

  “I am here to save a son and a friend of mine and a reformer.”

  “Yes, I know, you are good. Please do your own task.”

  During that incident, it was being tough to me to stand by his side. I had my bad days and on the other hand, my examination had already started. I was praying to Lord Jesus to do a miracle. I was alone at that place and unable to touch that ‘Engineering Mechanics’