Collected Short Stories Volume 4

  'Good God!'

  There was a moment's awed silence. The paper was passed from hand to hand. It was odd that none seemed willing to believe till he saw it for himself in black and white.

  'Oh, I am sorry.'

  'I say, it's awful for his wife,' said Tom Saffary. 'She was going to have a baby. My poor missus'll be upset.'

  'Why, it's only a fortnight since he left here.'

  'He was all right then.'

  'In the pink.'

  Saffary, his fat red face sagging a little, went over to a table and, seizing his glass, drank deeply.

  'Look here, Tom,' said his opponent, 'would you like to call the game off?'

  'Can't very well do that.' Saffary's eye sought the score board and he saw that he was ahead. 'No, let's finish. Then I'll go home and break it to Violet.'

  Douglas had his shot and made fourteen. Tom Saffary missed an easy in-off, but left nothing. Douglas played again, but did not score and again Saffary missed a shot that ordinarily he could have been sure of. He frowned a little. He knew his friends had betted on him pretty heavily and he did not like the idea of failing them. Douglas made twenty-two. Saffary emptied his glass and by an effort of will that was quite patent to the sympathetic onlookers settled down to concentrate on the game. He made a break of eighteen and when he just failed to do a long Jenny they gave him a round of applause. He was sure of himself now and began to score quickly. Douglas was playing well too, and the match grew exciting to watch. The few minutes during which Saffary's attention wandered had allowed his opponent to catch up with him, and now it was anybody's game.

  'Spot two hundred and thirty-five,' called the Malay, in his queer clipped English. 'Plain two hundred and twenty-eight. Spot to play.'

  Douglas made eight, and then Saffary, who was plain, drew up to two hundred and forty. He left his opponent a double balk. Douglas hit neither ball, and so gave Saffary another point.

  'Spot two hundred and forty-three,' called the marker. 'Plain two hundred and forty-one. Plain to play.'

  Saffary played three beautiful shots off the red and finished the game.

  'A popular victory,' the bystanders cried.

  'Congratulations, old man,' said Douglas.

  'Boy,' called Saffary, 'ask these gentlemen what they'll have. Poor old Knobby.'

  He sighed heavily. The drinks were brought and Saffary signed the chit. Then he said he'd be getting along. Two others had already begun to play.

  'Sporting of him to go on like that,' said someone when the door was closed on Saffary.

  'Yes, it shows grit.'

  'For a while I thought his game had gone all to pieces.'

  'He pulled himself together in grand style. He knew there were a lot of bets on him. He didn't want to let his backers down.'

  'Of course it's a shock, a thing like that.'

  'They were great pals. I wonder what he died of.'

  'Good shot, sir.'

  George Moon, remembering this scene, thought it strange that Tom Saffary, who on hearing of his friend's death had shown such self-control, should now apparently take it so hard. It might be that just as in the war a man when hit often did not know it till some time afterwards, Saffary had not realized how great a blow to him Harold Clarke's death was till he had had time to think it over. It seemed to him, however, more probable that Saffary, left to himself, would have carried on as usual, seeking sympathy for his loss in the company of his fellows, but that his wife's conventional sense of propriety had insisted that it would be bad form to go to a party when the grief they were suffering from made it only decent for them to eschew for a little festive gatherings. Violet Saffary was a nice little woman, three or four years younger than her husband; not very pretty, but pleasant to look at and always becomingly dressed; amiable, ladylike, and unassuming. In the days when he had been on friendly terms with the Saffarys the Resident had from time to time dined with them. He had found her agreeable, but not very amusing. They had never talked but of commonplace things. Of late he had seen little of her. When they chanced to meet she always gave him a friendly smile, and on occasion he said one or two civil words to her. But it was only by an effort of memory that he distinguished her from half a dozen of the other ladies in the community whom his official position brought him in contact with.

  Saffary had presumably said what he had come to say and the Resident wondered why he did not get up and go. He sat heaped up in his chair oddly, so that it gave you the feeling that his skeleton had ceased to support him and his considerable mass of flesh was falling in on him. He looked dully at the desk that separated him from the Resident. He sighed deeply.

  'You must try not to take it too hard, Saffary,' said George Moon. 'You know how uncertain life is in the East. One has to resign oneself to losing people one's fond of.'

  Saffary's eyes slowly moved from the desk, and he fixed them on George Moon's. They stared unwinking. George Moon liked people to look him in the eyes. Perhaps he felt that when he thus held their vision he held them in his power. Presently two tears formed themselves in Saffary's blue eyes and slowly ran down his cheeks. He had a strangely puzzled look. Something had frightened him. Was it death? No. Something that he thought worse. He looked cowed. His mien was cringing so that he made you think of a dog unjustly beaten.

  'It's not that,' he faltered. 'I could have borne that.'

  George Moon did not answer. He held that big, powerful man with his cold level gaze and waited. He was pleasantly conscious of his absolute indifference. Saffary gave a harassed glance at the papers on the desk.

  'I'm afraid I'm taking up too much of your time.'

  'No, I have nothing to do at the moment.'

  Saffary looked out of the window. A little shudder passed between his shoulders. He seemed to hesitate.

  'I wonder if I might ask your advice,' he said at last.

  'Of course,' said the Resident, with the shadow of a smile, 'that's one of the things I'm here for.'

  'It's a purely private matter.'

  'You may be quite sure that I shan't betray any confidence you place in me.'

  'No, I know you wouldn't do that, but it's rather an awkward thing to speak about, and I shouldn't feel very comfortable meeting you afterwards. But you're going away tomorrow, and that makes it easier, if you under-stand what I mean.'

  'Quite.'

  Saffary began to speak, in a low voice, sulkily, as though he were ashamed, and he spoke with the awkwardness of a man unused to words. He went back and said the same thing over again. He got mixed up. He started a long, elaborate sentence and then broke off abruptly because he did not know how to finish it. George Moon listened in silence, his face a mask, smoking, and he only took his eyes off Saffary's face to reach for another cigarette from the box in front of him and light it from the stub of that which he was just finishing. And while he listened he saw, as it were a background, the monotonous round of the planter's life. It was like an accompaniment of muted strings that threw into sharper relief the calculated dissonances of an unexpected melody.

  With rubber at so low a price every economy had to be exercised and Tom Saffary, notwithstanding the size of the estate, had to do work which in better times he had had an assistant for. He rose before dawn and went down to the lines where the coolies were assembled. When there was just enough light to see he read out the names, ticking them off according to the answers, and assigned the various squads to their work. Some tapped, some weeded, and others tended the ditches. Saffary went back to his solid breakfast, lit his pipe, and sallied forth again to inspect the coolies' quarters. Children were playing and babies sprawling here and there. On the sidewalks Tamil women cooked their rice. Their black skins shone with oil. They were draped about in dull red cotton and wore gold ornaments in their hair. There were handsome creatures among them, upright of carriage, with delicate features and small, exquisite hands; but Saffary looked upon them only with distaste. He set out on his rounds. On his well-grown estate the trees planted in
rows gave one a charming feeling of the prim forest of a German fairy-tale. The ground was thick with dead leaves. He was accompanied by a Tamil overseer, his long black hair done in a chignon, barefooted, in sarong and baju, with a showy ring on his finger. Saffary walked hard, jumping the ditches when he came to them, and soon he dripped with sweat. He examined the trees to see that they were properly tapped, and when he came across a coolie at work looked at the shavings and if they were too thick swore at him and docked him half a day's pay. When a tree was not to be tapped any more he told the overseer to take away the cup and the wire that held it to the trunk. The weeders worked in gangs.

  At noon Saffary returned to the bungalow and had a drink of beer which, because there was no ice, was lukewarm. He stripped off the khaki shorts, the flannel shirt, the heavy boots and stockings in which he had been walking, and shaved and bathed. He lunched in a sarong and baju. He lay off for half an hour, and then went down to his office and worked till five; he had tea and went to the club. About eight he started back for the bungalow, dined, and half an hour after went to bed.

  But last night he went home immediately he had finished his match. Violet had not accompanied him that day. When the Clarkes were there they had met at the club every afternoon, but now they had gone home she came less often. She said there was no one there who much amused her and she had heard everything everyone had to say till she was fed to the teeth. She did not play bridge and it was dull for her to wait about while he played. She told Tom he need not mind leaving her alone. She had plenty of things to do in the house.

  As soon as she saw him back so early she guessed that he had come to tell her that he had won his match. He was like a child in his self-satisfaction over one of these small triumphs. He was a kindly, simple creature and she knew that his pleasure at winning was not only on his own account, but because he thought it must give her pleasure too. It was rather sweet of him to hurry home in order to tell her all about it without delay.

  'Well, how did your match go?' she said as soon as he came lumbering into the sitting-room.

  'I won.'

  'Easily?'

  'Well, not as easily as I should have. I was a bit ahead, and then I stuck, I couldn't do a thing, and you know what Douglas is, not at all showy, but steady, and he pulled up with me. Then I said to myself, well, if I don't buck up I shall get a licking, I had a bit of luck here and there, and then, to cut a long story short, I beat him by seven.'

  'Isn't that splendid? You ought to win the cup now, oughtn't you?'

  'Well, I've got three matches more. If I can get into the semi-finals I ought to have a chance.'

  Violet smiled. She was anxious to show him that she was as much interested as he expected her to be.

  'What made you go to pieces when you did?'

  His faced sagged.

  'That's why I came back at once. I'd have scratched only I thought it wasn't fair on the fellows who'd backed me. I don't know how to tell you, Violet.'

  She gave him a questioning look.

  'Why, what's the matter? Not bad news?'

  'Rotten. Knobby's dead.'

  For a full minute she stared at him, and her face, her neat friendly little face, grew haggard with horror. At first it seemed as though she could not understand.

  'What do you mean?' she cried.

  'It was in the paper. He died on board. They buried him at sea.'

  Suddenly she gave a piercing cry and fell headlong to the floor. She had fainted dead away.

  'Violet,' he cried, and threw himself down on his knees and took her head in his arms. 'Boy, boy.'

  A boy, startled by the terror in his master's voice, rushed in, and Saffary shouted to him to bring brandy. He forced a little between Violet's lips. She opened her eyes, and as she remembered they grew dark with anguish. Her face was screwed up like a little child's when it is just going to burst into tears. He lifted her up in his arms and laid her on the sofa. She turned her head away.

  'Oh, Tom, it isn't true. It can't be true.'

  'I'm afraid it is.'

  'No, no, no.'

  She burst into tears. She wept convulsively. It was dreadful to hear her. Saffary did not know what to do. He knelt beside her and tried to soothe her. He sought to take her in his arms, but with a sudden gesture she repelled him.

  'Don't touch me,' she cried, and she said it so sharply that he was startled.

  He rose to his feet.

  'Try not to take it too hard, sweetie,' he said. 'I know it's been an awful shock. He was one of the best.'

  She buried her face in the cushions and wept despairingly. It tortured him to see her body shaken by those uncontrollable sobs. She was beside herself. He put his hand gently on her shoulder.

  'Darling, don't give way like that. It's so bad for you.'

  She shook herself free from his hand.

  'For God's sake leave me alone,' she cried. 'Oh, Hal, Hal.' He had never heard her call the dead man that before. Of course his name was Harold, but everyone called him Knobby. 'What shall I do?' she wailed. 'I can't bear it. I can't bear it.'

  Saffary began to grow a trifle impatient. So much grief did seem to him exaggerated. Violet was not normally so emotional. He supposed it was the damned climate. It made women nervous and high-strung. Violet hadn't been home for four years. She was not hiding her face now. She lay, almost falling off the sofa, her mouth open in the extremity of her pain, and the tears streamed from her staring eyes. She was distraught.

  'Have a little more brandy,' he said. 'Try to pull yourself together, darling. You can't do Knobby any good by getting in such a state.'

  With a sudden gesture she sprang to her feet and pushed him aside. She gave him a look of hatred.

  'Go away, Tom. I don't want your sympathy. I want to be left alone.'

  She walked swiftly over to an arm-chair and threw herself down in it. She flung back her head and her poor white face was wrenched into a grimace of agony.

  'Oh, it's not fair,' she moaned. 'What's to become of me now? Oh, God, I wish I were dead.'

  'Violet.'

  His voice quavered with pain. He was very nearly crying too. She stamped her foot impatiently.

  'Go away, I tell you. Go away.'

  He started. He stared at her and suddenly gasped. A shudder passed through his great bulk. He took a step towards her and stopped, but his eyes never left her white, tortured face, he stand as though he saw in it something that appalled him. Then he dropped his head and without a word walked out of the room. He went into a little sitting-room they had at the back, but seldom used, and sank heavily into a chair. He thought. Presently the gong sounded for dinner. He had not had his bath. He gave his hands a glance. He could not be bothered to wash them. He walked slowly into the dining-room. He told the boy to go and tell Violet that dinner was ready. The boy came back and said she did not want any.

  'All right. Let me have mine then,' said Saffary.

  He sent Violet in a plate of soup and a piece of toast, and when the fish was served he put some on a plate for her and gave it to the boy. But the boy came back with it at once.

  'Mem, she say no wantchee,' he said.

  Saffary ate his dinner alone. He ate from habit, solidly, through the familiar courses. He drank a bottle of beer. When he had finished the boy brought him a cup of coffee and he lit a cheroot. Saffary sat still till he had finished it. He thought. At last he got up and went back into the large veranda which was where they always sat. Violet was still huddled in the chair in which he had left her. Her eyes were closed, but she opened them when she heard him come. He took a light chair and sat down in front of her.

  'What was Knobby to you, Violet?' he said.

  She gave a slight start. She turned away her eyes, but did not speak.

  'I can't quite make out why you should have been so frightfully upset by the news of his death.'

  'It was an awful shock.'

  'Of course. But it seems very strange that anyone should go simply to pieces over t
he death of a friend.'

  'I don't understand what you mean,' she said.

  She could hardly speak the words and he saw that her lips were trembling.

  'I've never heard you call him Hal. Even his wife called him Knobby.'

  She did not say anything. Her eyes, heavy with grief, were fixed on vacancy.

  'Look at me, Violet.'

  She turned her head slightly and listlessly gazed at him.

  'Was he your lover?'

  She closed her eyes and tears flowed from them. Her mouth was strangely twisted.

  'Haven't you got anything to say at all?'

  She shook her head.

  'You must answer me, Violet.'

  'I'm not fit to talk to you now,' she moaned. 'How can you be so heartless?'

  'I'm afraid I don't feel very sympathetic at the moment. We must get this straight now. Would you like a drink of water?'

  'I don't want anything.'

  'Then answer my question.'

  'You have no right to ask it. It's insulting.'

  'Do you ask me to believe that a woman like you who hears of the death of someone she knew is going to faint dead away and then, when she comes to, is going to cry like that? Why, one wouldn't be so upset over the death of one's only child. When we heard of your mother's death you cried of course, anyone would, and I know you were utterly miserable, but you came to me for comfort and you said you didn't know what you'd have done without me.'

  'This was so frightfully sudden.'

  'Your mother's death was sudden, too.'

  'Naturally I was very fond of Knobby.'

  'How fond? So fond that when you heard he was dead you didn't know and you didn't care what you said? Why did you say it wasn't fair? Why did you say, "What's going to become of me now?"?'

  She sighed deeply. She turned her head this way and that like a sheep trying to avoid the hands of the butcher.

  'You mustn't take me for an utter fool, Violet. I tell you it's impossible that you should be so shattered by the blow if there hadn't been something between you.'

  'Well, if you think that, why do you torture me with questions?'

  'My dear, it's no good shilly-shallying. We can't go on like this. What d'you think I'm feeling?'