Forge of Darkness

  ‘Find Raskan. Help him.’

  ‘Help?’ The boy’s eyes were wide with sudden fear.

  Draconus frowned. ‘I meet your eyes. You are the son of Draconus. Go to him.’

  * * *

  Arathan found Sergeant Raskan crumpled against a wall, his face ravaged by grief. As he drew nearer, the man looked up, wiped roughly at his eyes and made to stand, only to sag once more on the wall. He looked away as if shamed.

  ‘Rint and Feren are going to where we will make camp,’ said Arathan. ‘They have all the horses.’

  ‘Go away, boy.’

  ‘I cannot.’

  ‘I said go away!’

  Arathan was silent for a long moment, and then he said, ‘I wish that I could, sergeant. This should be a time for you to be alone. I do not know what she did, but I can see that it was cruel.’

  ‘Keep your distance,’ Raskan said in a low rasp, ‘lest I harm you.’

  ‘Sergeant, my father has met my eyes. I am his son. I am not here to ask you. I am here to command you. I will lead you to the camp. It is my father’s wish.’

  Raskan looked up, eyes hooded in the gloom, his cheeks streaked and his beard glittering. ‘Your father,’ he hissed, making the words a curse. ‘This was Ivis’s task, not mine! Maybe he could have weathered it, but I cannot!’

  ‘What did she take from you?’

  His laugh was harsh and bitter, but he straightened from the wall. ‘I am not the fool he thinks I am. She knows him from long ago. I begin to see.’

  ‘What do you mean? What do you see? Sergeant Raskan, tell me – what do you see?’

  ‘Azathanai blood is what I see. It needs chaining and that’s what he’s done. Chained it down. By his will alone you are held back, made normal to our eyes. You fool – not once did she look at you!’

  Arathan stared at the man, trying to comprehend. And then he backed away a step. ‘Why should she? Raskan! Why should she look at me at all?’

  But the man levered himself from the wall and staggered in the direction of the hill beyond the village. After a moment, Arathan stumbled after him. He heard the sergeant muttering under his breath.

  ‘How can it be a secret when even I did not know it? No, I have dreamed no sordid dreams, longed for nothing immoral. There is no cause for disgust. I could kneel above the water – I could look down on my face. And see nothing evil. She lied. I deserve no shame!’

  The man was speaking nonsense. Arathan wondered if his mind had been broken by the witch’s magic. His own thoughts felt unhinged. My father knew her long ago. I don’t know what that means – it means nothing. It seems all of the Azathanai know my father. Grizzin Farl. Old Man. And now this witch. Each one we meet knows him. They call him the Suzerain of Night. They fear him.

  I am his son. Bastard no longer.

  Why did he wait? Why did he bring me out here to say that?

  They clambered over the last of the settlement’s walls. Ahead the track resumed, climbing to a crossroads flanked on one side by a humped, rounded hill on which stood half a dozen trees, forming a half-ring. In the cup they formed stood Rint and Feren. Neither Draconus nor Olar Ethil could be seen – he wondered where they had gone. Were they still at the pool?

  The horses were tied to the trees and stood with heads lowered beneath gnarled boughs that seemed tangled with black lichen.

  Raskan ascended the hillside as if it were the face of a hated enemy, tearing at the grasses, pulling aside rocks and leaving them to tumble and roll so that Arathan had to jump from their path. The manic fury of the man was frightening.

  Halfway up Raskan halted and wheeled to glare down at him. ‘Some truths should never be revealed! Look at me!’

  ‘There is nothing to see, sergeant,’ Arathan replied. ‘Nothing but anger.’

  The man stared as if in shock.

  ‘You are the gate sergeant of House Dracons, Raskan. You wear my father’s old moccasins and you have ridden at his side. He sent you to me, remember? And you said what needed to be said.’

  Each statement seemed to strike the man like a blow, and he sat down on the slope.

  ‘Stand up!’ Arathan snapped. ‘You taught me how to ride Hellar. You fed Sagander blood-broth and saved his life.’

  Raskan drew a deep, shuddering breath, squeezed shut his eyes for a moment, and then regained his feet. ‘As you say.’

  ‘They’re getting a meal ready. We should join them.’

  But Raskan hesitated, and then he said, ‘I am sorry, Arathan. I misspoke.’

  ‘You made no sense.’

  ‘That is true enough. No sense, none at all. Forgive me.’

  Arathan shrugged.

  Raskan resumed the climb, but slowly this time, without vehemence. After watching for a moment, Arathan tried to follow, but his legs would not move. She was up there, and she carried his child. A girl had been made, by him and her. In the heat and wet, in the hunger and need, a child had been made. The thought terrified him.

  He managed a step, and then another, although it seemed, all at once, that this was the hardest climb of his life. Feelings swarmed him in chaotic confusion, until they all blended into a solid roar; he felt that sound then rush away, leaving only a numbed silence, too weary for hope, too exhausted for expectation. All that remained was the taste of the terror he had experienced earlier, dull now, metallic.

  They had made a child, but Feren needed nothing more from Arathan. She already had all she had wanted from him. In giving her one thing, he had thought it only right to give her everything, all of him. The foolish were ever too generous – he had heard Sagander say that often enough when stuffing scrolls and manuscripts into a chest that he then locked. His private writings, the culmination of his life as a scholar. Kept, for none to see. Arathan understood that now. What is given away for free comes back wounded. Value is not always shared and some hands are rougher than others.

  Father, this is what Old Man said to you, in warning.

  I don’t think you were listening.

  * * *

  Feren touched the wound on her cheek. Rint had pulled from it a shard of clay, sewing the gash shut with gut thread. The bitch had laughed and that laugh still echoed in her skull, sharp as claws. Her mind felt full of blood, as if the wound from the clay fragment still bled, but only inward now, in unceasing flow.

  Rint crouched nearby, building the cookfire, but she could see that his hands were shaking.

  The witch had only confirmed what the corpse in the barrow had told them: she was seeded. A child was spreading roots through her belly. But now it felt alien, monstrous, and this sensation made her spirit recoil. The midwives were clear on this: love must line the womb. Love, forming a protective sheath. Without love, the child’s soul withers, and she so wanted to love this creation.

  The seed had been given in innocence. The hunger for it had belonged to her alone, hoarded like a treasure, a chest she wanted filled to the brim. And it had seemed that, night after night, she had cast in the boy’s precious gifts by the handful, only to find that chest still gaping come the dawn. An illusion, she realized now. She was swollen with wealth and this sense of pallid impoverishment was her failing, not his.

  She recalled looking upon pregnant women in the Bordersword villages, not too long ago, and seeing in them the sated satisfaction that she had, on occasion, derisively called smug. She had been a fool, quick to forget when she had known the same, when she had sauntered bold as a glutton – but such memories delivered spasms of pain and grief: it was no wonder she rejected all of what she too had known, leaving nothing but contempt and spite.

  But now all she could feel was the girl curling like a fist inside her. Around blood most unusual! The boy had been more than just a boy. He was the son of Draconus, and the witch knew something – a secret, a buried truth. The unknown mother was not unknown to her, or so Rint now believed.

  The wound in Feren’s face stung as if licked by flames. It throbbed, shouted with pain in the centre of her ch
eek. It had torn her beauty away – what beauty she possessed and she’d never gauged it a thing to admire or envy – and she felt marked now, as if with a thief’s brand. She stole the seed of a lord’s son – see her! There is no hiding the truth of that!

  She wanted to love the child growing within her: that first gift of protection offered up by all mothers, and if the shock of birth was as much the surrendering of that protection as it was labour’s own pain, she was a veteran to both and nothing awaiting her was unfamiliar. She had no cause to fear: every desire had been appeased; every prayer answered in the white stream’s perfect blessing.

  A girl, damned in conception, and when Feren imagined looking upon its newborn face, she saw her own, cheek gashed and bleeding, with eyes that knew only hate.

  The torment of her thoughts shredded and spun away when Raskan clambered into view and she saw what had been done to him. He looked aged far beyond his years, his motions palsied and febrile as those of an ancient with brittle bones as he tottered to the fire and slowly sat down. He looked more than shocked; he looked ill, and Feren wondered if the witch’s brutal sorcery had stolen more than peace from his soul.

  Rint was stirring a broth on the fire. He did not look up when he spoke and his words were gruff. ‘Every witch has cold hands. The touch wears off, sergeant.’

  ‘She is Azathanai,’ the sergeant replied, making the statement a rejection of all that Rint had offered him.

  ‘A witch all the same,’ Rint responded doggedly. ‘Even the Jheleck know of this Olar Ethil, who looks out from flames and yearns to meet your eyes. They call her power Telas. We have all felt it, when the night slumps just before dawn, and we look upon the hearth, expecting to see nothing but embers, and are shocked at the sight of fresh flames.’ He nudged another stick into the fire. ‘And then … other times … who hasn’t fallen silent when sitting round a hearth, eyes trapped by the deadly spirit in the flames? You feel the cold on your back and the heat on your face, and it seems that you cannot move. A trance grips you. Your eyes are locked, and in your mind, moving like half-seen shadows, ancient dreams stir awake.’

  Feren stared across at her brother, half in wonder and half in fear. Rint’s face was twisted into a grimace. He stirred the broth as if testing the depth of mud before his next step.

  Beside Feren, Raskan’s breathing was harsh and rapid. ‘She has touched you, Rint.’

  ‘She has, though I knew it not at the time. Or perhaps I did, but kept the truth from myself. We are ever made uneasy by what we do not know, and there is no virtue in recognizing that, since it speaks only of our own ignorance.’

  ‘Better ignorance than this!’

  With that hoarse admission from Raskan, Arathan arrived. He halted a few paces from the fire, and Feren saw how he would not look at her. This was a relief, since the single glance she had just cast his way burned like a knife blade in her chest. She felt her eyes drawn to the flickering flames and quickly looked away, off into the night.

  Better ignorance than this! Voice that cry as if the words were holy, for they are surely that. Words to haunt our entire lives, I should think.

  Rint rose. ‘Feren, if you would, the bowls are here.’

  She did not object, as it gave her something to do. She set about ladling the broth into the bowls, while Rint moved off to his pack. When he returned he carried a flask which he offered to Raskan. ‘Sergeant, I’m of no mind to test your command this night. Nor shall Feren.’

  The man frowned. ‘Meaning?’

  ‘Get drunk, sergeant. Get good and drunk.’

  A faint smile cracked the man’s features. ‘I am reminded of an old saying and now wonder at its source …’

  Rint jerked a nod. ‘Yes. “Drown the witch,” sergeant, with my blessing.’

  ‘And mine,’ Feren said.

  When Raskan reached for the flask he suddenly hesitated and looked up at Arathan. ‘Lord Arathan?’

  ‘Mine, too,’ Arathan said.

  Feren settled back on her haunches, closing her eyes.

  ‘Lord Arathan.’ It is done, then. He met his son’s eyes and knew them as his own.

  ‘Of course he’d know them,’ she muttered under her breath. They just needed a few hundred wounds first.

  * * *

  ‘You did not expect me,’ said Olar Ethil. When he did not answer she looked across at him, and then sighed. ‘Draconus, it pains me to see you like this.’

  ‘What I shall deliver to Kharkanas—’

  ‘Will heal nothing!’ she snapped. ‘You always see too much in things. You make symbols of every gesture and expect others to understand them, and when they do not, you are lost. And, Draconus, you do not fare well when you are lost. She has unmanned you, that doe-eyed, simpering fool.’

  ‘You speak ill of the woman I love, Olar Ethil. Do not think I will yield another step.’

  ‘It is not you I doubt, Draconus. You gave her Darkness. You gave her something so precious she knows not what to do with it.’

  ‘There is wisdom in her indecision,’ Draconus replied.

  She studied him. The night felt starved of faith, as if he had taken it all inside, and now harboured it with undeserved loyalty. ‘Draconus. She now rules, and ascends into godhood. She sits on that throne, face to face with necessities – and I fear they have little to do with you, or what you desire. To rule is to kneel before expediency. You should fear her wisdom.’

  If her words found tender places, he had the will and the strength to not flinch, but there was pain in his eyes. She knew it well, from long ago. ‘There are Jaghut among the Dog-Runners.’

  He looked at her. ‘What?’

  ‘Those who rejected the Lord of Hate. They amuse themselves ordering and reordering what does not belong to them. They make fists and call them gods. Spirits of water, air and earth flee before them. Burn dreams of war. Vengeance.’

  ‘Must it all crumble, Olar Ethil? All that we have made here?’

  She waved a dismissive hand. ‘I will answer with fire. They are my children, after all.’

  ‘Making you no different from those Jaghut, or will you now claim Burn as your child, too?’

  Scowling, Olar Ethil set her hands upon her distended belly. ‘They don’t feed her.’

  They were silent for a few heartbeats, and then he said, ‘Feren did not deserve that.’

  ‘I said I was a cruel goddess and I meant it, Draconus. What care I about who does or who doesn’t deserve anything? Besides, she was already well used. You will have a grandchild to play with and let us be plain: I don’t mean tossing on one knee. How are they, by the way? Our wretched spawn?’

  ‘If they had a fourth sister she would be called Venom,’ Draconus replied. ‘As it is, alas, they have no need for a fourth sister.’

  ‘Three memories of pain. That is all I have of them. Will you visit his mother, then?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘You and I, Draconus, we are cruel in love. I wager Mother Dark is yet to discover that.’

  ‘We shall not make love tonight, Olar Ethil.’

  She laughed harshly against the sting of those words. ‘A relief, Draconus. Three pains are enough for me.’

  ‘Old Man says … the next village.’

  ‘And then?’

  He sighed. ‘I shall send the others back and ride on to the Tower of Hate.’

  ‘Your son?’

  ‘He shall ride with me. I believe his tutor left him with gifts for the Lord of Hate.’

  ‘They will be ill received, I predict. Does the boy return to Kharkanas with you?’

  ‘He cannot, and the means with which I shall hasten that journey are for me and Calaras and none other.’

  ‘Then he knows nothing.’

  ‘Nothing.’

  ‘Draconus, must all your seeds be errant? Left to grow wild, for ever untamed? Our daughters will be the death of you – you keep them too close, smothered by your neglect. It is no wonder they are venomous.’

  ‘Perhaps,’ he adm
itted. ‘I have no answer to my children. All of myself that I see in them is but cause for concern, and I am left wondering why parents give to their children so freely their flaws, yet not their virtues.’

  She shrugged. ‘We are all misers with what we believe we have earned, Draconus.’

  He reached to her and rested his hand upon her shoulder, and that touch sent a tremble through her. ‘You wear your weight well, Olar Ethil.’

  ‘If you mean my fat then I call you a liar.’

  ‘I did not mean your fat.’

  After a moment she shook her head. ‘I think not. We are no wiser, Draconus. We fall into the same traps, over and over again. For all that I am fed by my Dog-Runners, I do not understand them; and for all that I nurtured Burn, at my own breast, still I underestimated her. I fear it is that fated disregard that will see the end of me some day.’

  ‘Will you not see your own death?’

  ‘I choose not to. Best it come in an instant, unexpected and so not feared. To live in dread of dying is to not live at all. Pray that I am running on my last day, fleet as a hare, my heart filled with fire.’

  ‘So I shall pray, Olar Ethil. For you.’

  ‘What of your death, Draconus? You were always one for planning, no matter how many times those plans failed you.’

  ‘I will,’ he replied, ‘die many deaths.’

  ‘You have seen them?’

  ‘No. I have no need for that.’

  She looked out upon the water of the spring. Night made it black. Caladan Brood’s sculpture of the Thel Akai still lifted a tormented face to the sky, and would do so for ever. It was aptly named Surrender, and he had forced that sentiment upon the stone itself, refusing all subtlety. She feared Caladan Brood for his honesty and despised him for his talent.

  ‘I see his mother in his face,’ she said after a time. ‘In his eyes.’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘That must be hard for you.’

  ‘Yes.’

  She pushed her hand into her belly, feeling the skin split, and then the sudden heat of blood and the steady beat of her heart – almost within reach. Instead, her hands closed about the baked clay form of a figurine. She pulled it out. She crouched to wash it clean and then straightened and offered it to Draconus. ‘For your son.’