It's All Relative

  Jessie squirmed, moaning lightly at the seductive way he was teasing her. Raising her hips to find him, she pulled down on his hair, trying to alter the position of his mouth. “Kai…please…”

  Smiling, he closed his mouth over her nipple. He kept his eyes open, watching her as she arched and dropped her head back. She sucked in a breath through her teeth, groaning as one of her hands ran down to his hip, tugging in vain to get him to connect with her. Not caving just yet, his propped knee between her legs keeping him just out of reach, he let go of her nipple and traveled the length of her exposed neck.

  Once his tongue reached her jaw, he laid a soft kiss there. “I love the sound of your voice. Even over the phone, you affect me.” He ran his mouth over to her ear, grazing his lips along her skin. She shivered, and he knew she wasn’t cold. Into her ear, he breathed, “I dream about hearing you climax. Nothing…compares to that sound. Just thinking about it…makes me hard.”

  Jessie whimpered, squirming underneath him, her hips struggling to meet up with him. “Kai, quit teasing…touch me.” Kai sucked on her ear lobe for a moment, letting her words travel right down his throbbing body. He imagined how wet she must be. Just the thought of her being that turned on for him, her wanting him that much, almost made him lose it. Pulling back his focus, he quickly found her mouth.

  He let the desire and passion he’d been stoking consume him. Their kisses frantic and needy, he felt himself getting lost in her. “Jessie…” Stopping them, he looked down on her, needing just one more second to say what he’d most wanted to say. She lightly panted in his face, her eyes searching his. “I love you…so much.”

  She paused, her dark eyes overflowing with emotion. “I love you too, Kai.”

  With those words, he lowered his entire body to hers. She gasped in his mouth when his erection slid against her. He groaned when her desire coated him. They were both so ready to be together, guilt and remorse free…finally. Her legs wrapped around him as her hips rocked him into place. As he felt the tip of himself press against her entrance, he heard her groan, “I want you buried in me, I want to be consumed by you.”

  His words echoed back to him, by her, had to be one of the most erotic things a girl had ever said to him. “God, that’s hot, Jessie.” He barely got the breathy words out of his body before he could no longer control the instinct to be inside of her. Adjusting his position, he pushed into her warm, wet body, as far as he could go.

  Dropping his head to her neck, Kai paused to pant a moment into her skin. She felt so good wrapped around him; it was like finally coming home. Jessie moaned in his ear, her legs clenching him tight, her hands on his hips holding him still, holding them together. “Kai…you feel…you’re…so perfect.”

  He lifted up to look at her face, her eyes closed in bliss as she just enjoyed the sensation of him filling her. Kai started to throb with the need to move and slowly rocked his hips back. Dropping her mouth open, she exhaled in a quick pant. Kai groaned at the erotic look on her face, the electricity shooting up his body deep inside her. Biting his lip, he almost pulled out of her before he plunged in again. The cry she let out was pure ecstasy, and Kai reveled in the fact that he made her feel that.

  Kai maintained long, smooth strokes, nearly pulling out before plunging back. He felt it along the entire length of himself. It was exquisite bliss. Jessie apparently felt the same; her groans and pleas for more nearly brought him to the brink. He fought through it, wanting to give her the most pleasure he could, wanting to savor the moment for as long as he could.

  Moaning in his ear, Jessie’s hand came up to clench his tattooed shoulder blade. Her fingers lightly grazed the skin and Kai let a satisfied noise escape his throat. She intensified her nails in his flesh, but seemed to be careful to not break the skin, to not damage the ink. Hissing in a quick breath, he grasped her hip, his head dropping to rest on her neck again.

  Jessie’s legs wrapped around him even tighter, pulling him even deeper inside of her. Kai’s lips found the heat of her skin, the slight taste of sweat on his tongue. Her hips lifted to meet his, in perfect unison as he pushed down to meet hers. Their pace naturally started to increase as they both felt their glorious releases building. Pure pleasure ran all the way up Kai’s body, making his legs shake a bit.

  Panting and groaning underneath him, Jessie’s head dropped back as she grabbed a fistful of his hair. Kai hissed in a breath again and huskily muttered her name. His lips made their way along her jaw, her head and back arching with every centimeter he got closer. When he found her lips, she moaned and drove her tongue inside of him.

  The need surging through his body thrusting deep inside of her, faster and faster, built to a point that made him cringe and start to close his eyes. He was close. He hoped she was close too. He wasn’t sure if he could hold out much longer.

  Then he heard her bite back a cry and he opened his eyes to look at her. She was squirming, her face torn between ecstasy and frustration. She almost seemed like she was willing herself to not come. The thought drove Kai right to the brink. Was she really holding off, so they could release together?

  Lifting himself so he could stare down at her, he groaned and murmured her name. She opened her eyes, her mouth dropping open in a pant. His hand cupped her cheek, his movements slowing as he took in the look of barely controlled passion on her face. Biting his lip, he whispered, “Don’t hold back…let go.”

  Gasping, her hand ran down his chest to his hip. She squirmed as he slowed even more. “Let go…” The ache of restraint nearly killing him, his voice strained, he added, “I’m right there with you, Jessie, let go…”

  Then his hand dropped to clutch her hip and he thrusted harshly into her. “Oh, god…Kai…” was all she got out before she started verbally letting him know that she was indeed letting go.

  Kai dropped his chest to hers. Driving into her with abandon, his body stiffened, the tension building in his stomach until he couldn’t speak anymore, only groan. Jessie let out a long, satisfying cry, her walls tightening around the length of him, her arms running up his back and clutching him tight to her. The ecstasy in her voice rang through his head, barreling him over the edge.

  His stomach clenched, his body jerked, and he felt the tension build to an apex. Knowing that she liked hearing it, he sucked in a quick breath, and just as he started releasing into her, he groaned into her ear that he was coming. Her body tightened harder around him as the warmth rushed from him, into her. As he moaned with the perfectly intense burst of rapture exploding in and out of him, he felt her grab his face, making him look at her. They locked gazes, the sounds of their mutual satisfaction filling the quiet room as they watched each other experience a moment that neither one of them thought they’d ever get to have together again.

  Chapter 22

  Happiness

  Jessie sighed contently as Kai slid over to her side. He wrapped his arms and legs around her like he never wanted to let her go. As her body tingled with the aftereffects of outstanding sex, Jessie thought she’d never felt so completely satisfied in all her life. Her hands ran around his back, pulling him even closer and he exhaled softly as he buried his head in her neck. Making some sort of content grumbling noise deep in his chest, Jessie thought he was probably equally satisfied. She smiled and kissed his head, listening to her wildly beating heart.

  Nestling his head into her skin, she heard him tenderly say, “We just made love.”

  Laughing softly, she pulled her head back to look at him. Kai adjusted his body to look at her. His face matched the peace that Jessie felt in hers. Their noses brushing together as their heads rested side-by-side on the pillow, she smiled warmly. “I know.”

  His grin was a wide one as he brought a finger up to brush away a curl resting over Jessie’s cheek. “And I don’t feel ill.” He shook his head.

  Jessie laughed again, relief and happiness flooding through her. Clutching his back, she brought her lips to his briefly. “Me either.”

 
Kai tilted his head and cocked an eyebrow at her as their lips separated. “And you’re not running away.”

  Jessie giggled, thinking of the times before this that they’d had sex. She’d rushed out to meet up with Harmony after the first time, and she’d rushed out to be alone after the second time. She had sort of run away from him after both instances, just for completely different reasons. Kissing him a few times as they snuggled close together, she vowed to never run away from him again. “Hmmm…” she murmured into the warmth of his lips, “is this what I was missing?”

  Kai rumbled a laugh in his chest. “I can be quite cuddly, if you give me a chance.”

  She sighed as they languidly kissed. The euphoria of lovemaking started mixing with the heavy emotion of the past few days, making her head long for slumber. As she felt her eyes closing, Kai’s hand came up to stroke her hip. Between their lips, he whispered, “A part of me is inside of you again.”

  Grinning against his mouth, she brushed her lips against his. “I know.”

  He kissed her jaw, then her cheek. “And you’re sure that doesn’t bother you, even a little?”

  Jessie pulled back to take in his face. He didn’t seem bothered by the idea, only curious over how she felt about the matter. She shook her head, the backs of her fingers coming up to brush over his cheek. “No, not at all. You’re not family, not by blood anyway, and I’m…completely okay with this.” She flushed slightly. “And you still being with me…it’s almost like…like you shared your…essence with me. It makes me feel closer to you.”

  Kai grinned and Jessie groaned, bringing her hand to cover her face. “God, I sound like a lovesick idiot, don’t I?”

  His hand removed the fingers covering her eyes. “No…you sound…” he laughed huskily, “just like me actually.” He cocked an eyebrow at her. “I was just thinking almost the same thing.” He shrugged. “Just…that I feel closer to you.”

  Fighting back a tired yawn, Jessie smiled, and continued softly kissing him. “Well, I sort of love that a piece of you is inside of me.” She laughed huskily and added, “I could use all of you inside of me.”

  Kai rumbled an approval and shifted his body to lean over the top of hers. Their gentle kissing switched to a deep passionate one and Jessie felt parts of her body start to reawaken. Amazing that he could do that; no other guy she’d been with had ever been able to arouse her so soon after a session. Jessie considered briefly that he may be the kind of guy that she could make love to all day. She’d heard women talk of doing that, but had never encountered any guy that she would actually want to do that with…until now.

  His hands ran down her sides as their breaths picked up pace. “Alright…just give me a minute or two,” he muttered into her lips, in answer to her statement.

  She laughed huskily at this playful side of him and he laughed with her, locking gazes. Sighing, she ran a hand down his cheek. “I’m so happy right now,” she whispered.

  Kai smiled wider before his beautiful face turned serious. “I am too. I didn’t think it was possible…to feel this happy.”

  Jessie frowned as she stroked his cheek. “Are you?”

  Sliding over to her side again, he frowned at her reaction. “Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?” He smiled softly as his hand stroked her ribs.

  Jessie sighed and shook her head. “I know things between us are…better,” they both grinned crookedly, “but…I didn’t just find out that the man who raised me wasn’t my real father. I didn’t just find out that my entire childhood was a lie.” She cupped his cheek. “Are you okay, Kai?”

  Sighing, he looked down. “I don’t know. I just…can’t think about it yet.” He glanced back up at her, a love beyond expression in his tropical eyes. “One life changing event at a time.”

  Jessie grinned and ran her arms around his body. “Life changing?”

  He grinned and ran his arms around her, pulling them tight in their side-by-side position. “You change everything for me, Jessie. I really don’t know what I’d do without you.”

  Jessie sighed contently, then accidentally let that yawn out. Kai smiled then yawned himself. Jessie ran a thumb under the weariness she could see under his eyes. “You’re tired,” she whispered.

  He nodded. “It’s been a long day…a long week…a long autumn.” He shrugged.

  Jessie nodded, kissing him softly. Yes, it definitely had been. Closing her eyes, she murmured something about needing to call her work. Kai handed her a phone from her nightstand and then adjusted the bedspread to cover their naked bodies. Jessie yawned as she dialed, sinking back down into his warm skin covered now by a warm quilt. The combination was a natural sedative and she could barely keep her eyes open. Upon hearing the receptionist pick up, Jessie sleepily started to lie her ass off. Letting all of the tiredness she felt seeping into her body seep into her voice, she told the woman on the other end that she’d thrown up after lunch and was staying home. The receptionist heartily agreed with her decision, obviously not wanting to get sick herself.

  As she hung up the phone, Kai laughed sleepily. Burying himself even more into her body, he muttered, “Such a liar.”

  Now finding herself free for the afternoon, the exhaustion that she’d been fighting completely took her over. Ducking her arms in-between them to rest on his chest, she sighed contently as Kai’s warm body enveloped her. “I couldn’t really tell her the truth now, could I?”

  He let out a tired laugh then kissed her head and exhaled in a long, happy way. As a peaceful silence filled her bedroom, Jessie felt her head swim in and out of sleep. Hearing Kai’s breath start to slow down, she wondered if he was already there. Then his low voice broke the quiet. “Can I stay?”

  Jessie wasn’t sure if he meant here in her bedroom, or here in Denver. Regardless, her answer was the same. Sleepily kissing the edge of his tattoo, she muttered, “I think the better question is, can you ever leave?”

  Kai squeezed her and sighed. “I can handle that. I love you.”

  She mumbled something that resembled I love you too, and then sleep swept over her.

  Jessie could have slept all day, she was so tired and content in Kai’s arms. In fact, it was quite possible that she was sleeping all day. She didn’t care; her dreams were all of Kai, of what their life could be, now that it didn’t disgust her to love him.

  She was deep in a dream of watching him emerge from the ocean - the waves pounding behind him, the water dripping from his dark hair, a seductive smile on his face as he ran his fingers through it, the low slung board shorts clinging to the glorious shape of him, outlining what was only hers now…

  “Hey, Jess, you can’t bitch about us leaving stuff everywhere and then…oh, hey…sorry, I didn’t know you had… Oh. My. God.”

  The irritating voice encroaching on Jessie’s fabulous dream of a wet Kai slowly stirred her to consciousness. For a minute, she didn’t know where she was and what was going on…or why the voice sounded so horrified. Then cold ice flashed through her body and her eyes opened about as wide as they could go. In all the euphoria of finally letting go with Kai, she’d sort of forgotten that she had roommates, roommates who knew him, and knew that he was her family. Well, they thought that he was her family anyway. They didn’t yet know what Jessie and Kai now knew – that he wasn’t.

  Her huge eyes locked onto Harmony’s equally wide pale ones, and Jessie’s body went rigidly straight. Kai beside her shifted and eventually lifted his head off of her shoulder, propping his body up on his elbow as he tried to push away the fatigue and figure out what was happening. Blinking sleepily, he looked up at Harmony. The redhead’s mouth was practically on the floor as she gaped between the two of them.

  Kai startled and glanced down at Jessie. They’d both been so exhausted that they’d slept until evening and hadn’t heard her roommate come home. They hadn’t had time to redress, and Kai’s bare chest, combined with Jessie’s bare shoulders as she held the covers in place, made what they’d done all too obvious, even to t
he most clueless person. And Harmony wasn’t some dimwit who would have needed it that spelled out anyway. Just the two of them being asleep in a bed together would have been enough proof. Adults just weren’t found together like that for innocent reasons.

  A bang of the front door signaled the arrival of her second roommate. April’s voice drifted back to them from the hall. “Kai parked in my spot, is he here? And what’s up with Jessie’s clothes everywhere?” Harmony snapped out of her daze, twisting her lips in disgust and quickly fleeing from the doorway.

  That woke Jessie up. “Shit, Harmony, wait!” She scrambled out of bed, finding the first piece of clothing she could – her underwear and Kai’s layered bundle of shirts. Throwing them on, she dashed out of the room to talk to her grossed out best friend.

  Rushing into the living room, Jessie saw a sickly pale Harmony shaking her head at a confused looking April. Not sure what to say first, Jessie walked up to her, shaking her head. “It’s not what you think, Harm.”