Collected Stories
‘Ah, my dear young man, don’t talk about passing – for the likes of me! I’m passing away – nothing else than that. She has a better use for her young imagination (isn’t it fine?) than in “representing” in any way such a weary, wasted, used-up animal!’ St George spoke with a sudden sadness which produced a protest on Paul’s part; but before the protest could be uttered he went on, reverting to the latter’s successful novel: ‘I had no idea you were so good – one hears of so many things. But you’re surprisingly good.’
‘I’m going to be surprisingly better,’ said Overt.
‘I see that and it’s what fetches me. I don’t see so much else – as one looks about – that’s going to be surprisingly better. They’re going to be consistently worse – most of the things. It’s so much easier to be worse – heaven knows I’ve found it so. I’m not in a great glow, you know, about what’s being attempted, what’s being done. But you must be better – you must keep it up. I haven’t, of course. It’s very difficult – that’s the devil of the whole thing; but I see you can. It will be a great disgrace if you don’t.’
‘It’s very interesting to hear you speak of yourself; but I don’t know what you mean by your allusions to your having fallen off,’ Paul Overt remarked, with pardonable hypocrisy. He liked his companion so much now that it had ceased for the moment to be vivid to him that there had been any decline.
‘Don’t say that – don’t say that,’ St George replied gravely, with his head resting on the top of the back of the sofa and his eyes on the ceiling. ‘You know perfectly what I mean. I haven’t read twenty pages of your book without seeing that you can’t help it.’
‘You make me very miserable,’ Paul murmured.
‘I’m glad of that, for it may serve as a kind of warning. Shocking enough it must be, especially to a young, fresh mind, full of faith, – the spectacle of a man meant for better things sunk at my age in such dishonour.’ St George, in the same contemplative attitude, spoke softly but deliberately, and without perceptible emotion. His tone indeed suggested an impersonal lucidity which was cruel – cruel to himself – and which made Paul lay an argumentative hand on his arm. But he went on, while his eyes seemed to follow the ingenuities of the beautiful Adam ceiling: ‘Look at me well and take my lesson to heart, for it is a lesson. Let that good come of it at least that you shudder with your pitiful impression and that this may help to keep you straight in the future. Don’t become in your old age what I am in mine – the depressing, the deplorable illustration of the worship of false gods!’
‘What do you mean by your old age?’ Paul Overt asked.
‘It has made me old. But I like your youth.’
Overt answered nothing – they sat for a minute in silence. They heard the others talking about the governmental majority. Then, ‘What do you mean by false gods?’ Paul inquired.
‘The idols of the market – money and luxury and “the world”, placing one’s children and dressing one’s wife – everything that drives one to the short and easy way. Ah, the vile things they make one do!’
‘But surely one is right to want to place one’s children.’
‘One has no business to have any children,’ St George declared, placidly. ‘I mean of course if one wants to do something good.’
‘But aren’t they an inspiration – an incentive?’
‘An incentive to damnation, artistically speaking.’
‘You touch on very deep things – things I should like to discuss with you,’ Paul Overt said. ‘I should like you to tell me volumes about yourself. This is a festival for me!’
‘Of course it is, cruel youth. But to show you that I’m still not incapable, degraded as I am, of an act of faith, I’ll tie my vanity to the stake for you and burn it to ashes. You must come and see me – you must come and see us. Mrs St George is charming; I don’t know whether you have had any opportunity to talk with her. She will be delighted to see you; she likes great celebrities, whether incipient or predominant. You must come and dine – my wife will write to you. Where are you to be found?’
‘This is my little address’ – and Overt drew out his pocket-book and extracted a visiting-card. On second thoughts, however, he kept it back, remarking that he would not trouble his friend to take charge of it but would come and see him straightway in London and leave it at his door if he should fail to obtain admittance.
‘Ah! you probably will fail; my wife’s always out, or when she isn’t out she’s knocked up from having been out. You must come and dine – though that won’t do much good either, for my wife insists on big dinners. You must come down and see us in the country, that’s the best way; we have plenty of room, and it isn’t bad.’
‘You have a house in the country?’ Paul asked, enviously.
‘Ah, not like this! But we have a sort of place we go to – an hour from Euston. That’s one of the reasons.’
‘One of the reasons?’
‘Why my books are so bad.’
‘You must tell me all the others!’ Paul exclaimed, laughing.
St George made no direct rejoinder to this; he only inquired rather abruptly: ‘Why have I never seen you before?’
The tone of the question was singularly flattering to his new comrade; it seemed to imply that he perceived now that for years he had missed something. ‘Partly, I suppose, because there has been no particular reason why you should see me. I haven’t lived in the world – in your world. I have spent many years out of England, in different places abroad.’
‘Well, please don’t do it any more. You must do England – there’s such a lot of it.’
‘Do you mean I must write about it?’ Paul asked, in a voice which had the note of the listening candour of a child.
‘Of course you must. And tremendously well, do you mind? That takes off a little of my esteem for this thing of yours – that it goes on abroad. Hang abroad! Stay at home and do things here – do subjects we can measure.’
‘I’ll do whatever you tell me,’ said Paul Overt, deeply attentive. ‘But excuse me if I say I don’t understand how you have been reading my book,’ he subjoined. ‘I’ve had you before me all the afternoon, first in that long walk, then at tea on the lawn, till we went to dress for dinner, and all the evening at dinner and in this place.’
St George turned his face round with a smile. ‘I only read for a quarter of an hour.’
‘A quarter of an hour is liberal, but I don’t understand where you put it in. In the drawing-room, after dinner, you were not reading, you were talking to Miss Fancourt.’
‘It comes to the same thing, because we talked about Ginistrella. She described it to me – she lent it to me.’
‘Lent it to you?’
‘She travels with it.’
‘It’s incredible,’ Paul Overt murmured, blushing.
‘It’s glorious for you; but it also turned out very well for me. When the ladies went off to bed she kindly offered to send the book down to me. Her maid brought it to me in the hall and I went to my room with it. I hadn’t thought of coming here, I do that so little. But I don’t sleep early, I always have to read for an hour or two. I sat down to your novel on the spot, without undressing, without taking off anything but my coat. I think that’s a sign that my curiosity had been strongly roused about it. I read a quarter of an hour, as I tell you, and even in a quarter of an hour I was greatly struck.’
‘Ah, the beginning isn’t very good – it’s the whole thing!’ said Overt, who had listened to this recital with extreme interest. ‘And you laid down the book and came after me?’ he asked.
‘That’s the way it moved me. I said to myself, “I see it’s off his own bat, and he’s there, by the way, and the day’s over and I haven’t said twenty words to him.” It occurred to me that you would probably be in the smoking-room and that it wouldn’t be too late to repair my omission. I wanted to do something civil to you, so I put on my coat and came down. I shall read your book again when I go up.’
Pau
l Overt turned round in his place – he was exceedingly touched by the picture of such a demonstration in his favour. ‘You’re really the kindest of men Cela s’est passé comme ça? and I have been sitting here with you all this time and never apprehended it and never thanked you!’
‘Thank Miss Fancourt – it was she who wound me up. She has made me feel as if I had read your novel.’
‘She’s an angel from heaven!’ Paul Overt exclaimed.
‘She is indeed. I have never seen anyone like her. Her interest in literature is touching – something quite peculiar to herself; she takes it all so seriously. She feels the arts and she wants to feel them more. To those who practise them it’s almost humiliating – her curiosity, her sympathy, her good faith. How can anything be as fine as she supposes it?’
‘She’s a rare organisation,’ Paul Overt sighed.
‘The richest I have ever seen – an artistic intelligence really of the first order. And lodged in such a form!’ St George exclaimed.
‘One would like to paint such a girl as that,’ Overt continued.
‘Ah, there it is – there’s nothing like life! When you’re finished, squeezed dry and used up and you think the sack’s empty, you’re still spoken to, you still get touches and thrills, the idea springs up – out of the lap of the actual – and shows you there’s always something to be done. But I shan’t do it – she’s not for me!’
‘How do you mean, not for you?’
‘Oh, it’s all over – she’s for you, if you like.’
‘Ah, much less!’ said Paul Overt. ‘She’s not for a dingy little man of letters; she’s for the world, the bright rich world of bribes and rewards. And the world will take hold of her – it will carry her away.’
‘It will try; but it’s just a case in which there may be a fight. It would be worth fighting, for a man who had it in him, with youth and talent on his side.’
These words rang not a little in Paul Overt’s consciousness – they held him silent a moment. ‘It’s a wonder she has remained as she is – giving herself away so, with so much to give away.’
‘Do you mean so ingenuous – so natural? Oh, she doesn’t care a straw – she gives away because she overflows. She has her own feelings, her own standards; she doesn’t keep remembering that she must be proud. And then she hasn’t been here long enough to be spoiled; she has picked up a fashion or two, but only the amusing ones. She’s a provincial – a provincial of genius; her very blunders are charming, her mistakes are interesting. She has come back from Asia with all sorts of excited curiosities and unappeased appetites. She’s first-rate herself and she expends herself on the second-rate. She’s life herself and she takes a rare interest in imitations. She mixes all things up, but there are none in regard to which she hasn’t perceptions. She sees things in a perspective – as if from the top of the Himalayas – and she enlarges everything she touches. Above all, she exaggerates – to herself, I mean. She exaggerates you and me!’
There was nothing in this description to allay the excitement produced in the mind of our younger friend by such a sketch of a fine subject. It seemed to him to show the art of St George’s admired hand, and he lost himself in it, gazing at the vision (it hovered there before him) of a woman’s figure which should be part of the perfection of a novel. At the end of a moment he became aware that it had turned into smoke, and out of the smoke – the last puff of a big cigar – proceeded the voice of General Fancourt, who had left the others and come and planted himself before the gentlemen on the sofa. ‘I suppose that when you fellows get talking you sit up half the night.’
‘Half the night? – jamais de la vie! I follow a hygiene,’ St George replied, rising to his feet.
‘I see, you’re hothouse plants,’ laughed the General. ‘That’s the way you produce your flowers.’
‘I produce mine between ten and one every morning; I bloom with a regularity!’ St George went on.
‘And with a splendour!’ added the polite General, while Paul Overt noted how little the author of Shadowmere minded, as he phrased it to himself, when he was addressed as a celebrated story-teller. The young man had an idea that he should never get used to that – it would always make him uncomfortable (from the suspicion that people would think they had to), and he would want to prevent it. Evidently his more illustrious congener had toughened and hardened – had made himself a surface. The group of men had finished their cigars and taken up their bedroom candlesticks; but before they all passed out Lord Watermouth invited St George and Paul Overt to drink something. It happened that they both declined, upon which General Fancourt said: ‘Is that the hygiene? You don’t sprinkle the flowers?’
‘Oh, I should drown them!’ St George replied; but leaving the room beside Overt he added whimsically, for the latter’s benefit, in a lower tone: ‘My wife doesn’t let me.’
‘Well, I’m glad I’m not one of you fellows!’ the General exclaimed.
The nearness of Summersoft to London had this consequence, chilling to a person who had had a vision of sociability in a railway-carriage, that most of the company, after breakfast, drove back to town, entering their own vehicles, which had come out to fetch them, while their servants returned by train with their luggage. Three or four young men, among whom was Paul Overt, also availed themselves of the common convenience; but they stood in the portico of the house and saw the others roll away. Miss Fancourt got into a victoria with her father, after she had shaken hands with Paul Overt and said, smiling in the frankest way in the world – ‘I must see you more. Mrs St George is so nice: she has promised to ask us both to dinner together.’ This lady and her husband took their places in a perfectly-appointed brougham (she required a closed carriage), and as our young man waved his hat to them in response to their nods and flourishes he reflected that, taken together, they were an honourable image of success, of the material rewards and the social credit of literature. Such things were not the full measure, but all the same he felt a little proud for literature.
IV
BEFORE a week had elapsed Paul Overt met Miss Fancourt in Bond Street, at a private view of the works of a young artist in ‘black and white’ who had been so good as to invite him to the stuffy scene. The drawings were admirable, but the crowd in the one little room was so dense that he felt as if he were up to his neck in a big sack of wool. A fringe of people at the outer edge endeavoured by curving forward their backs and presenting, below them, a still more convex surface of resistance to the pressure of the mass, to preserve an interval between their noses and the glazed mounts of the pictures; while the central body, in the comparative gloom projected by a wide horizontal screen, hung under the sky-light and allowing only a margin for the day, remained upright, dense and vague, lost in the contemplation of its own ingredients. This contemplation sat especially in the sad eyes of certain female heads, surmounted with hats of strange convolution and plumage, which rose on long necks above the others. One of the heads, Paul Overt perceived, was much the most beautiful of the collection, and his next discovery was that it belonged to Miss Fancourt. Its beauty was enhanced by the glad smile that she sent him across surrounding obstructions, a smile which drew him to her as fast as he could make his way. He had divined at Summersoft that the last thing her nature contained was an affectation of indifference; yet even with this circumspection he had a freshness of pleasure in seeing that she did not pretend to await his arrival with composure. She smiled as radiantly as if she wished to make him hurry, and as soon as he came within earshot she said to him, in her voice of joy: ‘He’s here – he’s here – he’s coming back in a moment!’
‘Ah, your father?’ Paul responded, as she offered him her hand.
‘Oh dear no, this isn’t in my poor father’s line. I mean Mr St George. He has just left me to speak to some one – he’s coming back. It’s he who brought me – wasn’t it charming?’
‘Ah, that gives him a pull over me – I couldn’t have “brought” you, could I?’
 
; ‘If you had been so kind as to propose it – why not you as well as he?’ the girl asked, with a face which expressed no cheap coquetry, but simply affirmed a happy fact.
‘Why, he’s a père de famille. They have privileges,’ Paul Overt explained. And then, quickly: ‘Will you go to see places with me?’ he broke out.
‘Anything you like!’ she smiled. ‘I know what you mean, that girls have to have a lot of people—’ She interrupted herself to say: ‘I don’t know; I’m free. I have always been like that,’ she went on; ‘I can go anywhere with any one. I’m so glad to meet you,’ she added, with a sweet distinctness that made the people near her turn round.
‘Let me at least repay that speech by taking you out of this squash,’ said Paul Overt. ‘Surely people are not happy here!’
‘No, they are mornes, aren’t they? But I am very happy indeed, and I promised Mr St George to remain in this spot till he comes back. He’s going to take me away. They send him invitations for things of this sort – more than he wants. It was so kind of him to think of me.’
‘They also send me invitations of this kind – more than I want. And if thinking of you will do it—!’ Paul went on.
‘Oh, I delight in them – everything that’s life – everything that’s London!’
‘They don’t have private views in Asia, I suppose. But what a pity that for this year, in this fertile city, they are pretty well over.’
‘Well, next year will do, for I hope you believe we are going to be friends always. Here he comes!’ Miss Fancourt continued, before Paul had time to respond.
He made out St George in the gaps of the crowd, and this perhaps led to his hurrying a little to say: ‘I hope that doesn’t mean that I’m to wait till next year to see you.’
‘No, no; are we not to meet at dinner on the 25th?’ she answered, with an eagerness greater even than his own.
‘That’s almost next year. Is there no means of seeing you before?’