Mavis of Green Hill

  CHAPTER XIX

  The morning the Howells' car came to take Mercedes and Wright toHavana and the Mendez dance, Mrs. Howells came with it. She would notwait for luncheon, but had a little talk with me while Mercedes, in aflutter, was collecting her things. It was a very little talk, andconsisted mostly in shruggings of the maternal shoulders, lifting ofthe placid, maternal brows, and half-finished phrases, unspokenquestions. And she left, indolently satisfied. The tin-pans had wonher. I foresaw a cloudless sky of courtship for Wright, as far as hisMercedes' mother was concerned.

  Mercedes, promising to "return" Wright on the morrow, was reluctant togo.

  "I've been so happy here," she whispered, as she kissed me good-by."You'll never know how happy. And I'm so grateful, Mavis!"

  She kissed Bill, too, when her mother's back was turned, the merestghost of a caress, brushing his cheek, accompanied by a little giggleof pure mischief. And he patted her slim shoulders with a toleranthand, as he bade her "run along and enjoy her party."

  "My aunt!" said Wright to me, tragically, "couldn't you persuade theold lady to sit in the front seat with that brigand in a general'suniform who is driving the car?"

  I waved them farewell with a sinking at my heart. It was as if Youthand Gaiety were leaving me, hand in hand, with never a backwardglance.

  I did not see Bill again until luncheon an hour later. It was one ofour old-time silent meals, although we talked in a desultory manner,while the slippered servitors were in the room. Bill passed me saltafter the manner of an ancient monarch handing poison--with deadlycourtesy. I responded with pepper. And after Wing and Fong had leftus, at the end of the meal, I tried desperately to make small talk.

  "I miss Mercedes so much," I said, "and Wright too."

  No answer.

  "It looks like a match," said I presently.

  "It does," said Bill, gloomily.

  I waited.

  "Wright's crazy about her," proffered my husband, after a time,leaning back in his chair.

  "Did he tell you so?" I asked curiously.

  "Kept me up one whole night, expatiating on her charms and his extremeunworthiness," he replied.

  I laughed.

  "When I think of the things he said about her at first: 'femaleleopardess,' and 'did you take him for a lion tamer?'" I said, "itreally is funny."

  "A little antagonism at the outset," said Bill, blowing neat rings,"is very good for the course of true love--sometimes."

  I was silent.

  "Of course," said Bill, positively growling, "it's a lottery anyway--"

  He was so absurd, so little-boyish, so ill-tempered, that I wanted tomother him. I had seen Peterkins just like that when things wentwrong.--After all, I thought, it must be trying to be even temporarilybound to a woman you dislike so much.

  "Speaking of lotteries," I said lightly, "you haven't heard theresults of the last drawing, have you?"

  "No," he answered, "but Silas is counting the hours until theafternoon when the papers come up--he bought half a dozen tickets fromthat chap who rode up here the other day--"

  He rose from his chair and called the garage on the phone. By amiracle, Silas was there, and I heard Bill ask him the number of histickets. Then, jotting them down, he called Havana and some mysteriousperson and asked for the winning numbers.

  As he spoke in rapid Spanish, I was forced to wait until he turnedfrom the phone to say, "By George, Silas has made a killing!"

  I jumped up and was at his elbow when he put the receiver down.

  "Oh what is it?" I asked, fairly dancing with excitement.

  "Not the big prize," he answered, "but $1500 for all of that--"

  "Sarah will die of joy," I began.

  "So it's true then," said Bill, interrupting.

  "True as true," I answered, "and I think it's splendid."

  "I thought there was something afoot," said Bill, "when Silas askedfor a job with me. I was glad to give him one. He can be useful to mein a hundred ways. He's a corker--"

  "They could build a little house at the back of the garden. Fatherwould be so pleased--" I said, eagerly. "Sarah wouldn't leave me, youknow--"

  I stopped.

  Bill, with his hat in his hands, turned.

  "It will be difficult to arrange that," he said, "as you have madeother plans. And I shall leave Green Hill--so I am afraid," heconcluded evenly, "that a 'little house in the garden'--unless _you_wish to keep Silas on--wouldn't be quite feasible."

  He went out with that, and it was some time before I had pulled myselftogether and gone in to tell Sarah the news. I saw her later, flyingin a most indecorous manner toward the garage, and knew that she andSilas would presently be sitting on the step of the car buildingair-castles in Green Hill with their new fortune. Well I knew that oneof them would be reared in the back of my little garden, just as Ithoughtless enough, had one. It wouldn't be fair to hurt Sarah now, Itold myself. I would wait till we were home. Sarah would be sorry--sheliked Bill--but Father would keep both Sarah and Silas on--the placeneeded a permanent man-of-all-work....

  But there were breakers ahead--bitter waters. I was to be sparednothing--nothing--to the final humiliation.

  There was a letter from Father when the mail came in. It isn'tnecessary to set it down here. Suffice it to say that something I hadsaid in my last letter about his never-failing generosity to me, hadcalled forth a denial that "the bit of pin-money--to make you feelindependent, dear!" amounted to anything. And then a word about theincome Bill had settled on me: "I think you should know, Mavis," heconcluded, "although I am breaking word with Bill. He told me hedidn't want your small, unworldly head to be bothered with moneymatters. But it is time that you learned to be practical--"

  He mentioned the little allowance he had insisted on making me: itwould hardly have paid for my shoes. And eventually it was clear to methat the money in the bank ... my clothes ... my lovingly purchasedgifts for my friends ... Sarah's wages ... my many extravagances sincecoming to Cuba ... everything, everything had come from the one source... Bill. And I, more ignorant than any child about the value ofmoney, had not even asked, except once. And then he had lied to me,had told me it was my money, my Father's money, and all the time I hadbeen living on charity. How well he knew me, that he took the chancethat I would not ask Father for a definite statement of what allowancehe was making me!

  I was overwhelmed with shame and dismay. It seemed as if this were theproverbial last straw. "They make gold out of straws, don't they?" mysick brain inquired childishly. It was hard to think coherently.

  I went to the telephone and called the garage. Silas answered. Imanaged, somehow, to congratulate him on the lottery drawing before Iasked him to find Dr. Denton, please, and ask him to come up to thehouse, if he were not too busy. I wished to speak to him.

  Ten full, wretched minutes I endured before he came.

  "Is anything the matter?" he asked, bursting in precipitately.

  Mutely, I gave him the letter.

  He read it, and crumpled the sheets in his hand.

  Instantly on the defensive,

  "Well?" he said.

  "Was there any reason to lie to me?" I counter-questioned, quietly."You must have known that, sooner or later, I would know ... if notnow, then when I saw Father again."

  I think my eyes warned him that this was a time for very plainspeaking.

  "I had hoped," he answered, after a little pause, "to persuade yourFather to bear me out in what I believed a harmless enoughconspiracy.--After all," he added, breaking my persistent silence, "itwould be difficult to explain to your Father that you refused to letme support you."

  "I am sorry," I said, rather more gently than I felt, "to have beenmore of a burden on you than I knew. Had I known, had I for oneinstant dreamed that I would be dependent on you, I would never haveconsented to this arrangement. This may sound very foolish, I know,and I see now how impossible it all would have been,--but this is howI felt, and you, I think, knew."

  He nodded, eyes on
mine.

  "Yes," said he.

  "You have had a very pretty revenge," I told him, each word droppinglike a cold, little stone into the hush of the big room. "You musthave laughed, often, to yourself. No doubt it has been very amusing,waiting for the bubble to break. If you will make me out a statement,as nearly as you can, of just how much I am indebted to you, I willtry to repay you little by little."

  I felt the absurdity of the situation, the utter arrogance andfutility of my words as I spoke them. But I had to speak.

  "Please--" he flung out a protesting hand, "why do you fret yourselfwith trifles? Are you not willing to make some further sacrifice foryour Father? When the time comes for us to separate, I hadhoped--after all, it would be only the usual thing to do--to make youan allowance."

  "Did you intend to consult me about it?" I asked, furiously.

  He hesitated.

  "Please answer," I said.

  At my tone, he raised his eyebrows ever so slightly.

  "I am waiting," I announced, with dangerous patience.

  "Well--I admit the situation seemed difficult, but it was in thefuture," he answered finally, "and I thought, perhaps--"

  "Never mind. You would have gone out of my life with the amusingknowledge that you had a hold on me, to a certain extent? It was wellplanned," I said, growing colder and colder minute by minute, until inthe sunny warmth of the windows I shivered uncontrollably. "But youmust have thought me even more of an imbecile than I am. I owe you," Iended, "a large sum of money. When we are separated, when Father getsused to that fact, and when he realizes how well I am, how strong,there will be some sort of work for me somewhere, I am sure, that willboth occupy my time, and enable me to repay you."

  "Work?" said Bill, and then, under his breath, "My God!"

  He was angry, I knew--hurt, I felt. And I was glad.

  "I am not a--charity patient, Dr. Denton!" I said, and left the room.

  The rest of that day is a blank to me now. If I had suffered before, Isuffered a thousand-fold now. I could not look at the miniature. I waseven angry with Father--dearest Father, who had done his "human best"for me. I hated myself, I hated life, I wanted to die. To be laughedat; to have had my little defiances and independences met with thesecret thought "the very clothes on her back were bought with mymoney"; to have been fooled and fooled again, to his heart's content;to have lived on the bounty of a man who despised me, hurt and woundedme at every turn--it was unbearable.

  When I was home again, when the tangle finally became unraveled, Iwould go to Uncle John. I would ask him frankly what to do; tell himthe whole, bitter little story; ask him to find work for me--readingproof, correcting manuscript, scrubbing floors--I didn't care. Therewere business schools, I thought vaguely--and cursed the years ofinvalidism which had kept from me so much knowledge of the world, sounfitted me to cope with it, once I was on my material feet.

  Father need never know. He would think it a whim, would be, Iimagined, even a little proud, would believe, even, that I sought todistract myself after the wreck of my married life. Other women haddone the same thing.

  I thought of the city as I had seen it: the crowds and the lonelinessand the bleakness of the streets: the hurrying, uncaring people--I hadread of girls in the city; the indignities of the boarding house; thestrain and the demand and the difficult way that lies before theuntrained wage-earner--

  Mavis of Green Hill in a New York office! I laughed aloud at thethought, and the sound of my own voice frightened me.

  I couldn't cry. Somehow, I hadn't a tear left. I could only clench andunclench my hands on the lap of the little mauve gown which WilliamDenton had bought for me--I wondered if Mrs. Goodrich knew. It hadbeen she who had attended to all my purchases before I left GreenHill, who had gone into town with my measurements and returned withtwo trunks full of everything I needed, and assured me that the "billwas taken care of."

  What a fool I had been!

  I did not go out to tea. Sarah brought me something in my room. I toldher I had a headache. It was the truth. And through my closed door Icould hear Bill's voice asking for me. Mr. Crowell was there; he hadridden over some time before. I sent my regrets and stayed in my room.

  At dinner I hardly spoke. I was too conscious of the clothes I wore,the food I ate. The one burdened me, the other choked me.

  Bill, which was unusual, talked nervously all through the meal, abouteverything and nothing. Even through the dull sense of impotence andanger that possessed me, I could see that he was ill-at-ease, excited,waiting for something--waiting, perhaps, for me to reopen the lastpainful chapter. He could wait, I thought.

  We had just been served with salad, when Fong came in, brushed Wingaside, and bent over Bill, saying something very low.

  A little gleam of some inner excitement came into the steel-blue eyes.He flung down his napkin.

  "Tell Juan to wait," he said, and rose.

  "I beg your pardon," he said formally to me, "but I am afraid that youmust eat your dinner alone. Someone has come up from the village tosee me."

  "Juan?" I asked. "Is Annunciata ill again?"

  "No, no," he was clearly impatient and started from the room.

  "Shall I have Norah save some dinner for you?" I asked, mechanically.

  "Don't bother," he said, hesitated, and then, suddenly crossing theroom in four strides, he was beside me. I felt his hand on my hair andstiffened under the unaccustomed touch. The hand dropped to his side.

  "Don't think so badly of me, Mavis," he said, "even if you have been a'charity patient'--do you know the Bible meaning of Charity?"

  Before I could speak, he was gone. He had not changed for dinner, areal innovation, and was in riding things. I heard the ring of thelittle spurs he wore on the tiles, and the sound of a closing door.

  "The Bible meaning of Charity?" But that was--that was--Love. What didhe mean--a love-patient?

  I sat, my hands under my chin, while Wing came and went with theuntasted food. A love-patient?

  Something terribly sweet and keen pierced my heart. It couldn't be.Love wasn't like that--cruel and wounding and hurting. Love "sufferethlong and is kind." That was in the Bible too. "Love suffereth long andis kind--seeketh not its own--beareth all things, believeth allthings, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Love never faileth."

  The big tears ran down my cheeks. "_Love never faileth._"

  If it was true then--"Oh, God, let it be true!" I prayed, mutely. Ifit were true then, how blind I had been! Sacrifice--patience--hope--.Would he have done so much for someone he despised--even for revenge?I began to remember--

  There were voices outside--loud, excited, almost hysterical--Was Billthere? I waited for him in my chair. I had not moved. He would find meas he had left me. Perhaps he had come back to tell me what he hadmeant. Charity--Love.

  The door flew open and Sarah burst in. She was crying. I saw that atonce, and wanted to say to her,

  "So you have heard? It isn't true, Sarah, it wasn't charity, afterall, it was love--"

  But she came straight to me and caught desperately at my hands,

  "Miss Mavis,--the cane--it's been set afire--Silas is down there, andDr. Denton--"

  Then I awoke.

  "Dr. Denton!" I had her by the shoulders, I was shaking her--"Not Dr.Denton!"

  "Yes, Miss Mavis. Juan crept up here to warn him. But those devilsfired the cane while he was in this very house. Fields of it in flame,and Silas there--"

  She was in a chair now, her apron twisted between her work-wornfingers, the sobs taking her by the throat.

  Funny that she could cry like that, I thought, watching her. I mustgive her something to make her stop--if Bill were here--

  _Bill! Bill!_

  I must have screamed. Sarah, her arms around me, was herself in aminute, had herself in hand.

  "There, there," she said soothingly. "They'll be all right, I am sure.You're to be calm, Miss Mavis, and not take on so."

  Calm! With the Far Country just within reach--and
the fire sweepingacross the cane-fields.

  I put her away from me.

  "Go to the kitchen, Sarah dear," I said very quietly, "and wait fornews. Have Wing and Fong gone too?"

  She nodded.

  "I'll wait here," I said. "I had better get out the Doctor's kit andall the first-aid things. Someone may be burned--"

  She sobbed at that, but turned and went to the kitchen.

  I went into Bill's room.

  For a minute I did nothing--only touched the things on his bureau--hisbrush, his comb--

  A little snap-shot of me stood there. Of me, in a wheel-chair--I hadforgotten that--

  I opened a leather case which stood on the bureau, it had his initialson it, and a small key lay beside it. Opened it and saw my letters toRichard Warren. They were tossed together, as if he had been readingthem. He had told me that he never kept letters.

  Somehow, I found the first-aid things and the little emergency case.They were on the table by his bed. And then, taking them into theliving-room, I called out to Sarah to find some linen and tear it intosheets--we had very little gauze in the house.

  My hands on the first-aid kit, I sat down to think. It was too badWright was not here. He would not lose his head. But Mercedes would. Iwas glad she was in Havana. Suddenly I laughed to think of them,dancing at the Mendez ball--

  Sarah came in, her hands full of an old sheet.

  "Any news?" I asked, steadily.

  "It's going fast," she said dully. "You can see it--"

  I went to the window. The whole sky was crimson. I saw the smokewreathing up through the flame, fancied that I heard shouts--strainedmy eyes for the sight of a tall, lean figure. He would come soon, Iknew, and tell me that it had been a nightmare, that he was safe, thathe had been in no danger--

  I looked around. Sarah had gone out, quietly. No one was there.

  Softly I went across the room, opened the door, and slipped like aghost into the menacing night.

  I walked at first. Then ran. The plants and trees caught at my dress.They wanted to hold me back. I shook myself free and went on. Nearerand nearer. How much smoke there was! The whole last crop gone.Thousands of arrobas of sugar, gone in a breath! Good, loyal Juan, Ithought, as I went on, stumbling, falling once to my knees. My dresswas ruined. Bill will buy me another, I said aloud. Not Charity--Love.

  Suddenly I was in the midst of it. The flame and the smoke, thehurrying figures, black with soot and sweat, digging the trenches thatmight save the cane.

  "Bill!"

  My own voice pierced through the smoke and crackle. I was going on. Iwould not stop until I had found him.

  Was that Bill, blackened, a figure in a dream, his shirt burned awayfrom one bare shoulder. There were red marks on his shoulder--

  He didn't hear me? Didn't he want to? Was he angry? I was sorry I hadbeen so foolish, but I hadn't known that he cared. Why hadn't he toldme? Or had he tried to, and I wouldn't listen?

  "Bill!"

  A spark on my dress--a glare and a flame. I was part of the roaringand the smoke and the crimson glare about me, beating at the little,licking, red tongues with ineffectual hands.

  Death then? But I wanted to live! It wasn't fair!

  Bill!

  His arms about me, his bare hands crushing out the flames, hisagonized voice in my ears--

  "Mavis! My darling!--"

  I was safe. I tried to put my arms around his neck, but they fellweakly to my side. He took my hands in his and clasped them where theybelonged. I was lifted, borne swiftly through the night.

  Crimson flame and smoke--a roaring--a voice pleading with me to raisemy head, to answer, only to speak--.

  Darkness....