The Child of Events!

  But in the contrary and against all our expectations , the welcome of the watch-officer to 'sherven' was quite cold and a sort of protocol , not only that by we noticed somehow an indifference and ignorance in his attitude toward 'sherven' . But instead he recieved very warmly 'gorgon' and shaked his hands cheerfuly and made him sit beside himself and asked about his business and affairs . Sherven , astound , flushed in a way that he lost his face colour and looked like dead . He supposed that the watch-officer ignored all the crimial past of 'gorgon' , so he intervened boldly and said :" I have the honour of belonging to the assembly of the security guards during the civil war period and punished all the agitators and criminals of that time but this one (pointing 'gorgon') is the most dangerous criminal of all time that we were searching for and finally arrested him , beside we have provided a petition from the neighborhood of 'dr.pagra' fiancee house for having been pillaged by him and his gang . Sherven searched in his pocket and took the paper of the petition and put it on the table of the officer , but out of anger he couldn't add more words .

  The officer with a sort of suspicion threw a look to the petition and after observing 'sherven' and all those in his company said carelessly with a meaningful smile :" you know , I noticed during these few minutes that you are here , that you suffer from a sort of delusional state of mind and you suspect everyone . Mr.Gorgon is a respectable man who is a great businessman and it seemed that you don't know him well , not only he is not a criminal , but he has been a great help for us to find and to arrest lot of well-known thieves and criminals". Then looking at 'gorgon' and his collaborator he expressed all his excuses for such an inappropriate and disagreeable incident and explained that all of this is caused by the inexperience and ignorance natural to the young people , then he accompagnyied respectfully 'gorgon' and his fellow friend till the door and addressing to two other police agents to accompagny them till their car . Sherven , furious intervened and said :" I will never let go a villain criminal escaping once again the punishment , I know him since my childhood , he is the most dangerous individual in the society , I arrest him in the name of law ". Before 'sherven' could get an opportunity to reach 'gorgon' , the watch-officer forbade him and said with a sort of tricky tone of voice :" Mr.Sherven , I praise all your noble feelings , you are a brave young man and please control yourself and don't express your anger in this way , I promise you that each time you require his presense for a trial or anything else , we will call him , and in between I suggest you to let the law to look after such issues and establish the order , the police office is not an amusement or mocking place for everyone who has some accounts to settle with someone else coming inculpating the others for crimes or providing some paper of petition to arrest people , if you have a complain you should refer to the justice court and asking the law to look after the criminals, with a paper of petition we are not allowed to arrest people . On the other hand , even though Mr.Gorgon has committed some wrong doings during the war , based on the general amnesty , he has been forgiven and is not anymore researched for crime ". Then changing the tone of his speech added :"I know you for some years [(although he ignored completely all the favours of 'sherven's family toward him and addressed to him just as an acquaintance)] and I'm familiar with your character and temperament , and know very well that you are young and you used to see things in a different way . I also know that you show lot of sensitiveness and ardour in front of events , but I think honestly that you have better to not intervening in others affairs and just mind your own business , because the security of the city can be guaranted even without you , and I seriously suggest you to never 'kidding' with this 'gorgon' , my advice is because of my best wish for you and for your safety ". At this time we heard the crowd who were awaiting to solve their problem and they were complaining about this long discussion .

  Sherven seemed stupefyied because he remained speechless . Apparently 'gorgon' bribed that officer . One among 'sherven' s company told us that 'gorgon' at war times had found a stock of all sort of products and created a black market which works till now and by this mean has found lot of influential personalities as his protectors , apparently this same officer was one of those people . We got into the car and we left that place . In the car , 'sherven's dog was attached to me and was looking at me with lot of kindness in his eyes. Sherven was silent and he realized that 'gorgon' escaped the danger just because of his friendship with the officer. All these events happened just in two or three hours , but I was still under the impact of the terror 'gorgon' has produced and all my body was hurt because of his pressing claws . In the afternoon 'sherven' brought me to my home and I was still worrying about the gift I lost in the middle of the fight and couldn't finally offer it to 'sherven'.

  The household by seeing my pitiyful state , colourless face and trembling body became very upset, 'grand-ma' was crying because my face had trace of injury and thrombosis and I looked very sad and exhausted . They were all astonished and asked about what happened to me . Breathless I told them the whole story , they were all crying and each one tried to comfort me in some way , they offered to me some homemade sedative beverage and while caressing me they asked the characteristic signs of 'gorgon' and they promised that they will do everything to find him and to surrender him to the justice . All of their endeavours comforted me and reduced my concerns , and because I spent a turbulent day , I fell asleep.

  In the evening when I opened my eyes , I saw my nice teacher 'mr.solen' sat beside my bed , fanned me because of the hot weather and watching me with his eyes full of great compassion and love and he was worrying about the heat which could harm me while I was spending an horrible deadly day . This young man who was not a biological relative to me was closer than any relative and any parent or friend , this was really great and beautiful like a fairy tale .

 

  30

 

  Days after days , months after months passed and so it was almost more than a year that I was living in 'mr.solen's family . I was still studying at school studiously and all the family members like always were very careful about my health , study and my amusement and vacation times in order I don't feel the least frustration or deprivation . They never let me go alone to unknown or far places . During the holidays and for my free times they organized some occupation and amusement . The most fascinating fun I had and enjoyed it was drawing and painting . In a short time I felt that I had the potential to reproduce everything around me on paper . The face of people , their look and expression , the nature , the colours , the seasons left such and impact on my mind that I could reproduce them in their very details on the paper . As if some muse inspired me to create everything which had impressed me pleasantly . Solen family provided all the necessary stuff for my drawing and painting . Drawing after drawing , painting after painting , and training after training caused that in few months I could create a collection of all my artworks which incited the amazement of my surrounding and these artworks appeared so professional and exceptional that the family members of 'mr.solen' began considering me in a very new way which was a mixture of admiration and anxiety , they were thinking that maybe they were adopting and educating a child who is revealing himself a genius . The idea that they had maybe a genius in their family filled them with a great pride , but at the same time they were worrying about how could they afford this genius . Anyway they were proud of me because this fact attracted the attention of all their relatives , neighbours and acquaintances who looked at me as a child that the Solen family has adopted and they could make of him a genius .

  I was growing up , and each day lot of changes occured in my body and soul. I was looking at everything with a new way and a new consideration . My sensitiveness was extreme toward everything around me . Now I could perfectly understand and interpret all phenomena , I could look at my past and all the events and
the things happened to me, and could consider my past as an abandoned child . My sensitiveness was so huge that I was hurt by the least glance, least word , least gesture and look the others displayed around me , sometimes this sensitiveness took a patological shape in a way that I was ready to interpret even the kindness and attention people payed to me in a negative gesture or intention , and sometimes I thought that they wanted making fun of me or mocking me by saying the good things about me and I was thinking that all of this attention and kindness were in fact a way for humiliating me . Meanwhile few things were puzzling me and made me weighed down with grief : my biological parents and the fact that I was a child that my father abandoned me , no logic or explanation could convince or console me because I remembered that my father took me with him for a walk , while I was only three and left me in that unfamiliar place which was an orphanage . Another thing which always hurt me was my status of a stranger or foreigner in that city , because I already knew that my home and country was somewhere else and we had left it because of my father's job. Also I remembered all the roads we left behind while moving to the new city , the ways and the roads along very deep green and grassy valleys where at the buttom the scummy river was flowing. And I remembered when my father left me in that building with its huge door which has been closed behind me and I never saw him again . So I was creating for myself some new ground for suffering and being in pain . Sometimes I was hearing the interjections of the relatives or the neighbours of the 'solen' family who with a sort of pity said :" indeed , what a good child , how intelligent he is , and what pity that his parents abandoned him.." and then they were whispearing :" in fact he was a lucky child that the 'solen' family adopted , if not only god knows what happens to this sort of children". All these remarks and opinions were largely enough for me to increase my suffering , my loneliness and my misery .

  Sometimes when I felt extremely hurt , I was searching for a 'refuge' in my artworks and was creating innumerable pictures of gardens, trees , flowers and sparrows and all my tears were hidden behind all these artworks . Grand-ma who has noticed this progressive change in my attitude tried always comforting me and asked about the reasons of my sorrows and insisted that I tell her all my worries and also encouraged me to invite my fellow students at home and spending time with them . But I was perfectly aware of the mentality and the point of view of the wealthy and privileged families with their children I shared the same classrooms and school . I could notice and analyse their social-class and racial prejudices which didn't allow them to frequent or to keep company with people out of their category , because pertaining to this category made them necessarily selfish and arrogant and they necessarily ignored or humiliated all the ones who didn't belong to the same social or ethnic group . In their eyes , anyone who didn't have an aristocratic origin or some wealth were just strangers who should be rejected . Those families seldom considered the dignity , the inner nobility , the goodness , the intelligence and talents of a child who was growing and enjoying the same privilege in a good adoptive family , they just considered this sort of child as an orphan or an abandoned kid whose parents were unknown and they should avoid and fear him because such kids are able to commit all sort of evil-doings because of their frustration and they should be careful because they could reveal themselves dangerous persons . This sort of current and usual prejudices caused that I became progressively a very shy and isolated teenager and might work hard to prove the opposite of this point of view and in order to attract the care and the assurance of my fellow students I had to do unimaginable things and endeavouring hard with lot of discretion . Of course I could realize that their reactions and attitude were provoked by their parents out of jealousy because of all of my learning skills , my talents in all fields and also because I was cherished and loved by the influential family of my theacher 'mr.solen' . Knowing and realizing all of this , and also because I was not a bold and insolent child , but in the contrary I had a modest , meek and humble nature and never involved myself in disputes or fights to defend my rights or to establish my own rule and inciting so the others to fear me or to respect me , then I behaved with everyone with an extreme discretion and I tried to respond to their caprices and needs as possible and provide for them all they were asking to me . Many times , even my very close friends , while I hesitated or couldn't provide one of the stuff they needed for their homeworks , just discorded and didn't talk to me and insulted me in their privacy . For example one of them while passing beside me full of snobbery interjected :" thank god that he is just a miserable begger and has nothing of his own and lives by the charity of the other ones who provide everything for him , if not only god knows what an arrogant fellow he would be ..." , another student when encountered me began mocking and producing ridiculous mimics with his face and blamed me with these words :" look at him ! what an attitude , what a snobbish ! thank god that he has no one and nothing , no parents , no family , if he had all of this only god knows what he could do or what he would be ..." . I always heard around me such remarks and humiliating interjections and this was enough to burn my heart and fill the stock of all my pain and suffering . So I was always forced to provide all the stuff they needed for the classroom program or to share all the cookies I brought with them and only in such occasion their behaviour changed and stopped insulting me . At this time I noticed tha the cruelty among the children or teenagers doesn't have any border and sometimes this sort of bullying could provoke deadly and fatal consequences in sensitive children or teenagers .

  In this way , the extent of my pain and suffering reached such an unlimited dimension that made me unable to recognize the level and the scale of love and devotion the Solen family showed and expressed toward me , I was in fact blinded by my pain which like a profound old wound not yet healed , burned me at each blow of wind . When I saw that all my fellow students grew up dearly in all liberty and their family provided generously all their needs and no one dared gossiping about them , my heart was somehow broken. On the other hand my pride and self-esteem avoided me to share all my feelings freely with my adoptive family . All the gossips I have heard around about myself , my social status and my miserable childhood caused that I lost my previous liberty with the family members of the Solen family and I became careful and very discret even with them because I was worrying about this fact that maybe my adoptive family, because I was not their biological child , had the same prejudices than all the other ones who expressed openly their opinions and point of view , or maybe I was fearing that they would considering me like the others have done .