Lucifer, God's beloved son

  Chapter Seven-- The history of the rebellion Part One

  Lucifer was alone in the library of heaven. Ever since he first contemplated the absence of goodness, he had been coming to the library often. He had politely declined many games of hide and seek. Lucifer wanted to be alone, he wanted to think, and the library was the place when his thoughts could flow more freely.

  Lucifer had tried his best to avoid The Father, Son and Holy Spirit. He was not really ignoring them, he merely needed some free time by himself.

  Lucifer had searched the whole library to see if he could find any book on the subject of evil. Yet, the books in the library were ignorant on that subject. There were books on all kinds of virtues in the library, but there was not a single book about evil.

  The absence of goodness, which you are contemplating about now, is evil. I know all the knowledge of it but hate it with a passion.

  The Son had claimed that He knew all the knowledge of evil. Then, why did He hide that knowledge? Why wasn't there a single book on that knowledge here?

  Lucifer was frustrated about the lack of information on the subject of evil. That oppressive tyrant.

  Lucifer shook his head. What was it that he just thought to call Him? An oppressive tyrant. Now, that was an absence of praise.

  Lucifer smiled as he further pondered over the absence of praise. Stupid fool. Selfish idiot.

  Lucifer laughed. The absence of praise was fun. Now, he would call this absence of praise blasphemy. Lucifer began to come out with more names he could use to refer to God, and he was amazed by his new found freedom.

  When he was tired of blaspheming against Him in his thoughts, he began to actually say out his blasphemies in words.

  God did not know everything. Or He would have stopped me from what I am doing. Lucifer thought to himself.

  What would be the absence of love? Ha, it would be hate. Lucifer tried to hate God. It was difficult at first, but he managed to do it after some attempts. He extended this hate to the other angels, and then eventually to himself. He was delighted in his new found freedom. What was freedom after-all, if you could only love, and not hate?

  Lucifer began to think of all the other absences. The absence of self-control. The absence of mercy. The absence of kindness. And all other absences.

  He smiled as he pondered only the absence of worship and humility. That would be pride and self-worship. What would it be like if he no longer worship God, but chose to worship himself? Ha, that would be a great freedom. He would not have to bow before that oppressive tyrant.

  Lucifer began to worship himself.

  I am so beautiful. I am so clever. I am the smartest angel that ever exist. Lucifer laughed. The absence of goodness is fun. It was such a liberating knowledge. Why didn't He share this knowledge?

  A pang of guilt came over Lucifer. He had been so good to me. Condemnation smiled as it began to conquer Lucifer. Lucifer wondered how he could ever bring himself to look into the eyes of Him after what he had just done. Maybe I should just give up what I am doing and go and apologize to Him?

  Hate and Love battled with each other. They began with a gentle match, which accumulated into a full-time wrestle. Lucifer was torn by their all-out warfare.

  Before I embarked on this journey to seek out the absence of goodness, Love had always been the winner. Hate was never in existence. And I love Him so. Lucifer thought to himself. And Love smiled as it gain a momentary victory over hate.

  No. He was wrong to keep the knowledge of evil from me. How could I be truly free if I could only think about virtues and Him? Lucifer thought, angrily. I would not give up my new found freedom.

  With his free-will, Lucifer supported hate, and crushed out Love. Love wept as it fled away in silence. Hate grinned in victory, and embraced Lucifer.

  Lucifer smiled. I hate Him.

  He continue to worship himself. I am more powerful than any other angels. I am the first angel that He created to discover the absence of goodness. I am the first angel to embrace the path of evil. I am better than even Him. The evil which He had no courage to embrace, I accept as my tool.

  Lucifer smiled. Self-worship was great. But, wouldn't it be good if others would realize how great he was as well? What if other angels would turn their heads away from worshiping God to worship Lucifer?

  Lucifer laughed as he imagined a host of angels bowing and falling prostrate before him. Maybe that was why He choose to keep the knowledge of evil to himself. He was afraid of Lucifer, of what Lucifer could do with the knowledge of evil.

  I will ascend to heaven; above the stars of God I will set my throne on high; I will sit on the mount of assembly in the far reaches of the north; I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will make myself like the Most High.

  I will be the new God.

  God would try to stop Lucifer. That would be for sure. If Lucifer hoped to be the new God of the universe, Lucifer would need to rebel against Him. And to do that, he would need allies. Yes, he must persuade some of the other angels to join him in his cause. Alone by himself, he would never be a match for God. But if he had allies, he might possibly win in his battle against God.

  The Holy Spirit came to visit Lucifer. Lucifer, you ought to be spending time with the other angels and with Us.

  Lucifer felt his pang of guilt returning, again. “Holy Spirit, I want to be alone.”

  You had not been active in the composing of the new songs in heaven. We had not worked together to compose new songs for a long time. The Holy Spirit whispered, gently. Should we work together to compose a new song now?

  Lucifer felt like confessing everything to Him just then. He felt like telling The Holy Spirit what he had done-- how he had blasphemed Him and entertained thoughts of rebellion against Him. Love and Hate battled again, within him.

  “I want to be alone.” Lucifer repeated. Hate smiled in triumph as Love reluctantly went away.

  Lucifer, evil corrupts and destroys all who will walk in its path. The Holy Spirit whispered.

  Then, The Holy Spirit was gone. And Lucifer was alone, again.

  He knows. Lucifer thought to himself. He knows my plans.

  Don't listen to him. Evil whispered. He doesn't know. Remember how you blasphemed against him earlier. If He knows, He will rebuke you. You had talked to The Son about your contemplation of evil. The Son must have told The Holy Spirit about your contemplation.

  Lucifer smiled. He doesn't know. It was a mere coincident.

  Lucifer began to explore in his minds all the ways he could use to persuade the other angels to join him in his cause. Evil laughed.