Mind Game

Silently reciting a calming mantra, Dahlia made her way to the other side of the building and slipped over the side. She knew they would never spot her, not unless it was entirely accidental. There were advantages to being small. She lay flat against the side of the wall as she climbed down, using finger and toeholds she found in the cracks. She was always patient, making the descent in silence and without haste. Movement caught the eyes, so most stealth was done with care and in slow motion.

  She felt for the ground with her toe, connected and jumped, landing softly in the dirt beside the house. She remained there, crouched down, orienting herself to her position and the light patterns cast from the streetlights and windows of the surrounding buildings. She could no longer see any of the men near the "safe" house. Jesse had been wrong. Someone knew about it. He worked for the NCIS, and yet someone who shouldn't have had found the safe house. Who could have tipped them off? Someone from Jesse's office, or had they tortured the information out of him? The idea made her sick. She couldn't imagine Jesse telling anyone anything. He was always confident to the point of arrogance. And he was dedicated to his job and country. The idea of someone breaking Jesse's code of honor was abhorrent to her.

  She slipped into the shadow of the building and edged around the corner, feeling for the energy that would tip her off to the fact that she wasn't alone. Energy was a double-edged sword. As it collected around her, she lost the ability to "feel" precisely where it was coming from. Energy poured from the house, masses of nerves and fear and the determination to live. The NCIS team inside the house had expected to find her alone and had gone in "soft," not looking for trouble. They knew now that they were surrounded and in for a firefight from an unknown enemy.

  Nicolas was determined to even the odds. He lay on the roof, his sites steady on his first target. If they were going to wipe out the NCIS team, he was going to make certain they paid for it. For the first time, he was slightly distracted, part of him wanting to touch Dahlia and know she was safe. He was certain he would know if she ran into trouble. He steadied his finger and kept his eye firmly against the scope, hoping she was far enough away when he pulled the trigger.

  DAHLIA went to her knees as the wave of violence swamped her. She clutched her stomach, fighting off dizziness. White spots danced in front of her eyes. She could feel her airway begin to close. She pushed herself up and staggered through the narrow pathway of bushes and garbage cans, holding on to branches as she gasped for breath. She tried to control the sound of her breathing. Sound traveled in the night, and even with the music that seemed to pour from various establishments a street or two over, she knew the kind of men hunting for her would be tuned to the slightest noise.

  She had to cross an open street. There was no one in sight, and the violent energy was so strong it was impossible to tell if anyone was close to her. She had to chance crossing. It was imperative to get as far from the battle-ground as possible. She glanced around, one last cautious look, and started across the street, moving as quickly as she was able to on rubbery legs. Her vision blurred. The streets were uneven, cracked and pitted in places. She stumbled and hoped if anyone saw her they would assume she'd been drinking. She was three quarters to the other side when a man stepped out of the shadows and off the sidewalk. He was carrying a gun, and it was pointed right at her.

  Dahlia felt the waves of malevolence pouring off of him but she kept walking, her gait stumbling and uneven, muttering to herself as if she didn't notice him. She doubted if anyone knew what she looked like. The French Quarter was packed most of the time, even in the early morning hours before dawn, and tourists drank all the time. She glanced up when she was only a few feet from him, feigned surprise, hoping she looked like a regular on her way home.

  "Are you coming home from a costume party? Nice getup." She slurred her words and swayed drunkenly, inching closer to him, trying to get within striking distance.

  Confusion hit her, a wall of it, as he tried to assess if she was a danger to him. She wore a black sweatshirt and boots, but her hair was flowing to her waist and she obviously was without a weapon. She was too small to be a physical threat. The man visibly relaxed. "What the hell are you looking at?"

  She muttered something wordless, hoping to continue her impression of a drunk.

  He reached out and caught her arm, pushing her toward the wall. "What are you doing out this late?" Holding her there, his hand gripped her breast hard through the material of her sweatshirt.

  Dahlia calculated the odds of fighting him off while maintaining her drunken charade. He was hurting her with his squeezing. He suddenly laughed. She realized he believed all the fighting was taking place around the corner. He was bored and a little angry that he didn't get to participate, instead regulated to standing guard. He was tired of watching the action and had made up his mind to have a little of his own.

  She waited until he lifted his head and exposed his throat. The moment he did, she hit him with the edge of her hand, putting her body weight behind it, at the same time trying to slide sideways, using the wall to help her get away from him. He was enormously strong, grunting and choking at the blow, but doggedly moved sideways with her, keeping her body pinned between his and the wall. He hit her hard in her stomach with his clenched fist, stepping back, still gagging, as she doubled over. He raised his gun, the butt end toward her face.

  Dahlia knew immediately he was dead. Her mind and body went nearly numb. Inside of her head, right before the white-hot pain exploded through her body, she heard her own scream. The force of the bullet drove the man backward away from her, so that he crumbled like a rag doll and settled onto the sidewalk in a lifeless heap. His gun clattered to the walkway beside him. It seemed to happen in slow motion, her vision narrowing to the grim image of death.

  Immediately she was swamped in the aftermath of the violence, her body taking the brunt of the destructive energy as it raced to claim her. She fought back, trying to stay conscious, trying to find a way out from the raw, swirling force threatening to take her over. The air crackled with electricity. She saw white arcs of it zigzagging above her head. It was only then that she realized she was on the ground, inches from the downed man.

  Dahlia began to crawl, a grueling effort when her body felt like lead and pain roared through her at her movement. She inched her way along the walkway. The smell of urine and blood was overwhelming and added to the misery of her churning stomach. She was sick several times as she clawed her way down the block.

  Nicolas came out of nowhere, his hands running over her body, probing for injuries. She knew it was him by the way he touched her, by the way the energy retreated to give her breathing room. She couldn't see through the dancing white spots and strange webbing that shrouded her vision, but she touched him to reassure him she was fine.

  "Relax, honey," he ordered. "I'm taking you out of here."

  She wasn't going to object. She just wanted to sleep for a long, long time.

  Nicolas swung her over his shoulder, needing both hands free. Her stomach was tender, and she was definitely moving in and out of consciousness. He anchored her with one hand and took off away from the area. He'd warned the men inside and he'd taken out a couple of the enemy for them, before spotting Dahlia in trouble. She was his first priority, his only priority now. He had a few bolt-holes of his own. And damn it, his heart was still pounding with fear for her. He had one shot, one chance to save her, and she'd been so close to her assailant.

  He moved into the shadows, sliding through the night. When he encountered a late-night crowd, or the street cleaners, he went up and over the building. Before he left on this mission, Gator had shoved maps into his pocket to houses in the bayou Gator's family owned, but rarely used. He used his powers unashamedly to keep people looking the other way as he took Dahlia out of the town.

  He blamed himself for her pale, almost translucent face and the terrible toll the violence had taken on her body. He'd viewed the tapes from her childhood and teenage years. He knew what violence
did to her, yet she seemed so self-assured, so confident, even "normal" as they moved through the Quarter to get to the condo, he'd managed to make himself believe she could take the continual assault of energy flowing around her.

  Dahlia stirred, her fist clenching in the back of his shirt. "Put me down before I get sick down your back." Her insides hurt, more from the punch than vomiting, but she wasn't taking any chances with humiliating herself further.

  Nicolas halted immediately and lowered her to the ground. They were near the river and the ground was uneven. He used it as an excuse to hold her when she was swaying slightly. "I'm sorry, Dahlia, I didn't have a choice."

  "I know you didn't. I could have handled him if I hadn't been so sick. I just can't be around anyone, Nicolas." It had to be said. She didn't have to like it. For a while she'd held out hope she could find a way to live with people, maybe somewhere near Lily where she could visit occasionally and have a friend to share things with. She hadn't dared think of keeping Nicolas in her life. She couldn't be around him and not have fantasies.

  Dahlia clung to him, his shirt bunched in her fingers. "I need to sit down. No one is chasing us, are they?" She didn't feel anyone hunting them, but she was on overload and just couldn't tell if they were in immediate danger.

  Nicolas helped her walk to a bench. She sank down gratefully, putting her head between her knees to combat the dizziness and dragging in great gulps of air. "We have to go back." She looked up at him. "We do, Nicolas. This may be the only chance we have to track them back to where they're holding Jesse." She raised her gaze to his. "We have to get him out. Those men are killers. I don't want to think what he's been going through all this time."

  Nicolas shook his head. "You aren't in any shape to go rescue anyone, Dahlia. For all we know, he could be dead."

  "I have to know one way or the other. Please, Nicolas. I have to do this, and I don't think I can do it alone."

  "Can you walk on your own?"

  She listened for frustration. For impatience. She waited for the negative energy of his true feelings to swamp her, but he seemed as rock steady and as calm as ever. "Yes. I'm a little shaky, but I've been worse." She forced a wan smile. "It always helps to pass out."

  "Let's get moving then. We don't have a lot of time to pick up their trail. It isn't like I can carry a rifle through the streets of the French Quarter either. We're both going to have to be fully alert."

  She watched as he broke down the gun with quick and efficient movements. She knew he was giving her a few more minutes to rest. When he was finished and the gun was safely stored in his pack, he handed her the canteen.

  "You're like a walking miracle. Prepared for anything, aren't you?"

  "It takes skill and dedication. What about you?" He watched her repeatedly rinse her mouth and spit out the contents. Finally ridding herself of the bad taste she took a long drink, and he found himself mesmerized by the way her throat worked as she swallowed.

  Dahlia handed him back the canteen and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. "I'm a seat-of-the-pants kind of person."

  "I don't think I entirely believe that," he said with a small smile. He reached down and pulled her to her feet, retaining possession of her hand. "We're just strolling through the Quarter, Dahlia. We have to avoid the condo if at all possible. With the firefight and a few men down, the police are going to be swarming around that area."

  "And the NCIS. They'll send their people, and just about everyone else. My guess is they'll put out an OPREP-5 Navy Blue. That's an operational report, a high alert, to include outside agencies such as the FBI that there's trouble." Dahlia added. "Did everyone get out alive?"

  He shrugged. "I have no idea. I did what I could and then came after you."

  Dahlia looked away from him. Everything had gone wrong, and people were dying. She didn't engage in firefights or assassinations. "I think I'm in the wrong business," she admitted as she walked beside him.

  Nicolas set the pace, a casual stroll. He knew the importance of blending in, of becoming what people expected to see. In the early morning hours just before dawn, street cleaners, deliverymen, and police officers would be out. With the shoot-out between military and unknown assailants, the Quarter would be buzzing with more activity and curious people than usual at such an hour. The French Quarter was a small place, and word of the firefight would spread fast. There would be so many rumors, no one would be able to sort them out for weeks.

  Dahlia concentrated on breathing in and out. She shut out the fact that at any moment the police might stop them and ask questions, or that a member of her own NCIS team or the killers might spot them. She tried to look like a woman out for a very early stroll with her lover. The idea of Nicolas being her lover was almost more than she could handle. He made her feel ultrafeminine, and no one in her life had ever managed to make her feel that way. She didn't think much about being a woman. What was the point, when her body temperature was either too hot or too cold? And what would happen if they did try to have sex? Just kissing nearly caused the eruption of a volcano.

  Soft laughter played down her spine, made her shiver with awareness. Nicolas brought her knuckles briefly to the warmth of his mouth. "You're thinking things best left alone."

  "I know." She was unrepentant. "But if all I have in my life is just thoughts, then I'm not going to waste the opportunity." She was still fighting to breathe, to shake off the trembling and feeling of sickness. She didn't want to talk, except maybe to hear the sound of his voice. She wanted to walk the streets of the French Quarter and just for that short time pretend she was normal. She wanted to have her dreams of the man walking beside her and not think about death and spies and men selling out their country for money. Mostly she didn't want to think about energy and the effects on her body. She needed a nice peaceful place to hibernate in for a while.

  Nicolas glanced down at the top of Dahlia's bent head. He tightened his fingers around hers. She was withdrawing from her surroundings. He could feel the way she mentally pulled back, the way she went inside herself, behind the protective walls in her mind she'd built for herself.

  Lily had been working with the GhostWalkers for some time to teach them ways to build barriers in their minds against the continual assault from everyday life. Until Lily had worked with the men Whitney had experimented on, they were all in various stages of dysfunction. Dahlia had managed to find a much more flimsy version of a barrier, but she'd done it on her own.

  Nicolas never minded silences. At times he needed silence nearly as much as he needed solitude and to be outdoors surrounded by nature. Finding that Dahlia was very similar made him surprisingly happy and at peace, even in the midst of their situation. As they crossed the street, he could see the police cars up and down the block where the condo was. He leaned down. "Your enemies have someone watching all this. We need to spot him before he spots us."

  He halted abruptly, almost as the words came out of his mouth, pressing her back into a small alcove, shielding her with his larger, heavier frame. Nicolas allowed his pack to rest on the ground, just out of sight of the street. He placed one palm against the wall, effectively caging her in, his body language blatant, possessive, deliberately easy to read. He bent down toward her, looking every inch her lover. "He's on the roof across the street, watching the cops. I don't see any military personnel, but I feel them. Someone is nosing around trying to figure out what happened. We could find them, identify ourselves, and get you somewhere safe."

  Her face was pale. Small beads dampened her face around her hair. Her skin was hot to the touch. "I'd have to allow them to lock me up. I'm classified, and can't just blurt this out to anyone. I have to get Jesse out before I turn myself in."

  "The NCIS have no idea what happened, Dahlia. They could very well be suspicious that you're somehow involved. You have the brains to be behind something like this, and you're different. Anything or anyone different is an easy target."

  "You sound worried that they're going to try to k
ill me." His fingertips were moving over her face, just brushing back and forth as if he enjoyed the texture of her skin. Dahlia felt the touch all the way to her toes. Deep inside where heat collected and pooled in her most feminine core, she felt her body clench strongly in reaction.

  "I just want to know if you want out now, Dahlia. I can go after Calhoun myself."

  "While I'm nice and safe." She was looking out from under his arm, searching for the man on the roof. "I don't think so. This is my mess and I intend to clean it up. Don't be fooled just because I get a little sick around people and violence. I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself."

  He didn't point out that he shot a man to keep her alive. "Can you see him? The blond on the roof?"

  "Yes, he's glanced this way a couple of times. He has a pair of binoculars."

  "Then we'd better give him something to look at." He stepped closer, his body nearly touching hers, but not quite.

  Dahlia instantly felt the temperature around them rise. "This is risky."

  "Kissing you?" He cupped her chin firmly, captured her gaze with his.

  "You can't kiss me, Nicolas." Her heart pounded so hard she was afraid it might burst. His face was so perfect to her, etched in granite, the hard lines and planes that of a man, not a boy.

  He bent his head slowly toward hers, holding her gaze.

  He stopped when his lips were a mere breath away. When she could taste him. When her heart went from pounding to fluttering and her body began sizzling with electricity. "I think kissing you is a very good idea."

  She felt his words vibrate through her entire body. He didn't actually need to kiss her for her mind to go into meltdown. It happened just thinking about kissing him. "You have such a great mouth, Nicolas. Tempting, you know? But lightning happens when we kiss. We don't want to draw attention to ourselves do we?"

  "Is that a trick question? If I say no, does that mean I don't get to kiss you? Because right now, kissing you seems the most important thing in the world."

  She loved the way his magic voice roughened and his eyes went from ice to a blaze when he looked at her. "Well, then, who am I to tell you to have good sense?" The words came out in a whisper. She could barely breathe with him so close to her. How was it possible to form a rational thought?