A Dog's Life: The Autobiography of a Stray

  Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Night

  Part I

  The House in the Country

  The Wheelbarrow

  Mother

  Secret Dogs

  The Highway

  Bad Dogs

  The Throwaways

  Part II

  Squirrel Alone

  On the Move

  The Fight

  Healing

  Town Dogs

  The Long Winter

  Moon

  Part III

  Gentle Hands

  Summer Dog

  Farm Dog

  The Scent of Bone

  Part IV

  Old Woman

  Addie

  Companions

  Two Old Ladies

  Home

  Acknowledgments

  After Words™

  About the Author

  Q&A with Ann M. Martin

  If You Love Animal Stories …

  Ways You Can Become Involved

  Copyright

  The fire is crackling and my paws are warm. My tail, too, and my nose, my ears. I’m lying near the hearth on a plaid bed, which Susan bought for me. Lying in the warmth remembering other nights — nights in the woods under a blanket of stars, nights spent with Moon, nights in the shed when I was a puppy. And the many, many nights spent searching for Bone. The fire pops and I rise slowly, turn around twice, then a third time, and settle onto the bed again, Susan smiling fondly at me from her armchair.

  Warmth is important to an old dog. At least it is to me. I can’t speak for all dogs, of course, since not all dogs are alike. And most certainly, not all dogs have the same experiences. I’ve known of dogs who dined on fine foods and led pampered lives, sleeping on soft beds and being served hamburger and chicken and even steak. I’ve known of dogs who looked longingly at warm homes, who were not invited inside, who stayed in a garage or a shed or under a wheelbarrow for a few days, then moved on. I’ve known of dogs who were treated cruelly by human hands and dogs who were treated with the gentlest touch, dogs who starved and dogs who grew fat from too many treats.

  I’ve known all these dogs, and I’ve been all these dogs.

  Lindenfield in the wintertime was a bleak place. The air was chill. For weeks on end a dog could see her breath all night long, and all day long as well. Even in early spring, as winter faded, the gardens, tended by humans in warm weather, were barren and silent. And the lakes and ponds were gray, and very still. No frogs croaked, no turtles sunned, no shiny fish twined through the underwater grasses. In warm weather, things would be different. The air would hum with insect noises, and the ponds might be quiet, but they were rarely silent. Along their muddy bottoms and on their banks and in the moss and grasses and fallen logs was a secret animal neighborhood.

  On the piece of land where the Merrions’ big house rose from among gardens and walkways were all sorts of animal neighborhoods. At the time I lived there, as a pup, there were the stone-wall neighborhoods and the shed neighborhoods and the garden neighborhoods and the forest neighborhoods and the pond neighborhoods and the above-the-ground neighborhoods. There was even a secret in-the-Merrions’-house neighborhood. All were linked to form an animal world with the Merrions’ house at the center, like a stone that had been tossed in a pond. The farther the ripples spread from the splash, the more animals were to be found, and the noisier and less secretive their lives were.

  The time that I am talking about was not so very long ago, and yet it’s my whole life ago. I haven’t been back to the Merrions’ house since the day I followed my brother off their property. In all my wandering I never found my way back there, but then of course, I was looking for Bone, not for the Merrions.

  I really don’t know much about the Merrions. I was very young when I lived on their land, and I was concentrating on what I needed to learn from Mother. But the Merrions couldn’t be ignored. This is what I do know about them:

  Their grand house, the house that was the center of our world, was not the center of the Merrions’ world. In the spring, when Bone and I were born — in an old garden shed, the one with the unused chicken coop at the back — the Merrions lived in their house sporadically. They were not like most animals I knew, returning to their nests or burrows or holes night after night or, like the owls, day after day. Instead, they would arrive at the house, always in the evening, stay for a couple of days, then pile back into their car, drive down their lane, and turn onto the big road. Mother would watch as the car became smaller and smaller and finally disappeared. Then several entire nights and days would pass before the Merrions’ car would pull into their lane again.

  There were five Merrions in all. I understand that human children generally are not born in litters like puppies, but one or two at a time like deer. The two Merrion parents had given birth to three young. The oldest was a boy, then there was another boy, and finally a small girl, who was the loudest of the children. Over time I learned the names of the children, but only one mattered to me, and that was Matthias, the younger boy, the gentle one. But I did not know him until I was several months old.

  The Merrions were tidy people. That was clear. Everything about their house and their property was tidy. The shutters hung straight and were repainted often. No toys littered the yard. The walks and the porches were swept clean, and the gardeners showed up regularly to edge the flower beds, mow the lawns, trim the hedges, and hang potted plants on the porches.

  The Merrions did not own any pets. “Because of germs,” Mother once told Bone and me. She had overheard Mrs. Merrion talking to a gardener. “And hair,” Mrs. Merrion had added. “Germs and hair.”

  When Mother said this I thought of the in-the-Merrions’-house neighborhood of animals. This consisted not only of many insects, but also of a large family of mice, two squirrels (in the attic walls), a possum who went in and out of the utility room through a hidden hole in the wall, and — in the basement — several snakes, two toads, and some lizards. There were plenty of germs and lots of hair in the Merrions’ house, and this amused me. But I remembered the time I heard screaming and banging and crashing in the house and then Mr. Merrion ran outside with a bag containing a dead, bleeding bat, which he shoved into a garbage can, and I did not feel so amused.

  All the creatures on the property knew how the Merrions felt about animals, and they made their own decisions about where to live. Mother had her reasons for choosing the garden shed. There were other sheds and other small buildings on the property, each with its own population, each different from the others, each connected to, but separate from the Merrions.

  And that is what I know about the Merrions at the time Bone and I were born. The days were mild — spring arrived early that year — and still the humans came to their home only for brief periods of time. An animal could live quite comfortably on the Merrion property. Around the house were nothing but woods and fields and rolling hills. The nearest neighboring house was a good hour’s trot away, for a grown dog. So the animal communities thrived. There were hawks and moths and foxes and fish and deer and owls and stray cats and frogs and spiders and possums and skunks and snakes and groundhogs and squirrels and chipmunks; birds and insects and nonhuman animals of all kinds.

  Apart from Mother and Bone and me, the main residents in our garden shed were cats and mice. There were insects, too, but they were harder to get to know. They came and went and were very small.

  The shed was a good place for cats and dogs. Mother chose well when she selected it as the spot in which to raise her puppies. It was a small wooden structure that had originally been built as a chicken coop, the nest
ing boxes still lining one end. The door was permanently ajar, and one window had been removed, which might have made the shed too cold for puppies and kittens. However, when the Merrions bought the big house, they planned to turn the shed into a playhouse for their children, and got as far as insulating two of the walls before Mrs. Merrion decided that a chicken coop was unsanitary and better suited as a garden shed. So the Merrions built a brand-new playhouse and then a bigger garden shed, both sturdier than the chicken coop, and before long, they stopped using the old shed, except as a place in which to store things the gardeners rarely used.

  Mother found the shed shortly before she gave birth to Bone and me. She was a stray dog — had never lived with humans, although she had lived around them — and had been roaming the hills and woods bordering the Merrions’ property, looking for the right spot in which to give birth to her puppies. For several days she watched the Merrions’ house from the edge of the woods. She watched the animals on the property, too. There were no other dogs that she could see, but there was a mother fox with four newly born kits, and sometimes, in the small hours of the morning, she heard coyotes yipping in the hills. Mother needed a place that was safe from predators, out of sight of the Merrions, and warm and dry for her puppies.

  The shed seemed perfect. The first time she poked her nose through the partially open door she noticed how much warmer the inside air was than the spring air outside. She stood very still, listening and allowing her eyes to adjust to the darkness. She heard the scurrying of mice in straw, but nothing else.

  The old nesting boxes for the chickens were along the wall across from the door. Mother had never seen anything like them. She crept forward to investigate. First she surveyed them from several feet away. Then she crept closer, and finally she stuck her nose into one of the holes.

  Hssss! Pttt! Something sprang out of the box, hissed and spat at Mother, then ducked inside again. It was a yellow cat, protecting a litter of newborn kittens. Mother backed up and surveyed the boxes from a little distance. Now she could see eyes in several of the holes. More cats. Mother left them alone. She was too big to fit in the boxes anyway. Behind her, along the sides of the shed and next to the door, were a few old gardening tools, some clay pots, a few piles of straw, and a wheelbarrow filled with burlap bags and more straw. The mice had chewed holes in the bags, but the burlap still looked cozy and warm. Mother glanced up. In the rafters above she could see several abandoned nests that had belonged to barn swallows and hornets.

  Mother considered the cats again, the pairs of eyes glaring at her from the nesting boxes. And then she heard a tiny rustle behind her. She swept her head toward the door in time to see a large gray cat squeeze through it. The cat stared at Mother, then hurried by her and disappeared into a hole. Mother let out a quiet woof. In response, she heard a soft growl from the cat, but nothing more.

  That afternoon Mother sat patiently near the door, watching the comings and goings of the cats. As long as she didn’t move about too much, the cats kept their distance. Mother watched the mice, too. They kept their distance from the cats. When night fell, Mother crept to a pile of straw that was as far away from the cats as she could get. She curled up on it, her back to the nesting boxes, and fell asleep. She was safe, she was very warm, and the night passed peacefully.

  In the morning, Mother felt she was ready to give birth to her puppies.

  We were born in the wheelbarrow, Bone and I. Mother (her dog name was Stream, but to Bone and me she was simply Mother) managed to climb into it early that first morning, having decided that it was an ideal nest for her puppies.

  Mother gave birth to five puppies, but only Bone and I survived. Two of the puppies were born dead, and a third lived for less than an hour. He was tiny, too tiny, and his legs were misshapen. Mother tossed him out of the wheelbarrow and ignored him. He whimpered several times, then was silent.

  Bone and I were strong, though. We nuzzled into Mother and nursed from her. We squirmed and wiggled. We slept, our heads curled under our chests, we burrowed, we nursed some more. And when, after our first night, Mother saw that Bone and I were still strong and active and eating well, she gave us our names. She chose, as mother dogs do, names of things that are important to her. So I was known as Squirrel, and my brother was known as Bone.

  My earliest memories are of warmth, comfort, and food. For the first days of my life, my eyes and ears were not open. Bone and I slept most of that time, rousing ourselves only to eat. Awake or asleep we curled into our nest, into each other, and into Mother. I could feel the heartbeats of my brother and mother.

  During this time, Mother left the wheelbarrow as little as possible, but she did have to leave it. She would rise unsteadily, cover Bone and me in the straw and burlap, climb over the edge of the wheelbarrow, and leave the shed to relieve herself and to find food. She would come back as soon as she could, and then Bone and I would squirm into her.

  When Bone and I had been alive long enough for the moon to change from a disk to half a disk, our eyes and ears opened, and my world slowly became clear to me. Head and legs wobbling, I stood in the wheelbarrow and gazed around the shed. The light was dim but I could make out the nesting boxes and later the eyes that peered from within them.

  All day long the adult cats came and went. When I wasn’t sleeping, I followed their movements in the shed. The cats trotted back and forth, slinking through the open door. Sometimes they returned carrying small rodents in their mouths, sometimes birds. I watched them take their food back to the nesting boxes. The cats, sleek and lean and almost always hungry, would pause at the boxes and glance around the shed before leaping through a hole. They glanced around the shed before leaving the holes, too. Their glances always took in Mother. The shed cats were not our friends, but I think we trusted one another, even as wary as we all were.

  One day, one of the shed cats, the hissing yellow one Mother had met when she first discovered the shed, left her kittens and did not return for a long, long time. By afternoon, her kittens were mewing loudly, so loudly that Mother jumped out of the wheelbarrow and poked her nose in their nesting box. I heard all sorts of spitting and growly noises from the adult cats in the shed, but Mother ignored them. She backed out of the box with a kitten in her mouth and dropped it to the floor. Then she pulled out two more kittens, lay on the floor beside them, and lifted her hind leg in the air. The kittens burrowed into Mother the way Bone and I did, searching for milk.

  Creak. Behind us the shed door eased open. Standing in it was the yellow cat. She stared at Mother for a moment, then bolted through the shed. Mother leapt to her feet, the kittens tumbling away, and she scrambled back into our wheelbarrow while the cat collected her babies.

  Our shed was busy all day long and all night long, too. Mother and Bone and I tended to sleep at night, but not the cats. And definitely not the mice. The mice were busy and noisy. We could hear them chewing. And climbing. There was no place in the shed the mice couldn’t get to. They scurried up walls and posts and along rafters. They ran in and out of holes too tiny to notice. They emerged from unlikely places — under flowerpots and inside beams. Usually they could outrun the cats or escape from them, but sometimes a cat was smarter or more patient than a mouse, and then with a squeak, and a flash of teeth and claws, the mouse became a meal.

  For a long time I felt secure as a dog, even a small one, in our shed. Mother was the biggest creature there, and she didn’t fear the cats or the mice. But my eyes and ears had been open for just a few days when I realized what nearby threat Mother did fear, and that was the fox.

  The fox, the one with the four kits, lived underneath the Merrions’ new garden shed. I don’t know where her mate was. I never saw him. And I wouldn’t see the mother or her kits with my own eyes until the time that I was big enough and strong enough to leave the wheelbarrow and go outside. Mother saw the fox often, though. She paid attention to her and she even learned her name. Mother didn’t learn the names of the other creatures on the Merrions’
property, but the fox was a different story, and that was because Mother had recognized how dangerous she could be.

  The fox’s name was Mine, and I believe she had named herself. Mine wasn’t interested in Mother. And she didn’t know Mother had puppies, so Bone and I were not in danger from Mine. Still, Mother was afraid of her. Bone and I would peer over the edge of the wheelbarrow and see Mother at the door to the shed. She sat planted on her haunches, her brow creased, gazing out at the field beyond the Merrions’ backyard. I could tell when Mine was in the field, because Mother sat at strict, grim attention. If a squirrel was out there, Mother would sit quivering, her tail twitching. She might even jump to her feet and give chase. But when Mine was outside, Mother watched motionless, except for the slow turn of her head as she tracked Mine from a garden to the woods, or from the playhouse to the Merrions’ porch.

  This was why Mother feared Mine: Mine had no sense. She didn’t even have the sense to steer clear of the Merrions. She wandered through their yard at all hours, not caring who might see her. She didn’t teach her kits to fear the Merrions, she didn’t try to hide her kills, she was reckless, she was bold, she was cheeky. Mother thought Mine put us all in danger.

  I didn’t quite understand this, though, not when I was still such a young puppy that I couldn’t leave our nest. All I knew then was life in our warm wheelbarrow, where each day was much the same as the next. Bone and Mother and I would lie in a pile of fur and feet and tails and snouts. Bone and I would nurse. When Mother left the shed, which she did more often as Bone and I grew older, I would peer over the edge of the wheelbarrow at the cats and mice. I watched the mice dart and hide, listened to them chew and squeak. I watched the cats come and go, listened to them mew and purr. Every now and then a cat or an older kitten would venture out of the shed and not return. I realize now what was happening: The mice were eating corn and seeds, the cats were eating the mice, and owls and hawks were eating the cats.