Poetry

frail

  Will I ever become

  Useful again

  How can I return

  To the faith I once had

  And the joy I had

  As a child

  Where did I leave

  My faith and beliefs

  As I search my character

  For any remnants of love

  Or truth

  I have lost the servant’s heart

  I know no joy only pain

  But I long for peace

  And I scream for

  My deliverer

  To rescue me

  Now

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  Who Stole My Heart

  Who stole my heart?

  I cannot find it today.

  I knew I had it yesterday.

  What did you say?

  I threw it away!?!

  Will someone please retrieve

  My faith and love

  That I lost on the street

  When they dripped from

  My heart? (It’s gone.)

  Where is my faith?

  I cannot find it today.

  I knew I had it yesterday?

  What did you say?

  I threw it away!?!

  Will someone please restore

  My faith and love

  That I lost on the street

  When they dripped from

  My heart? (It’s gone.)

  What is this mess?

  I can’t find myself today.

  I knew I was here before?

  What did you say?

  I can’t be restored!?!

  Will someone please transform

  My empty heart?

  Please create a new one

  To replace this dead

  And useless heart

  That I have carried

  All along this road.

  Take this tiny spark

  And rekindle the fire

  That once burned

  Bright and hot

  Within my spirit.

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  Self-Deception

  I find myself deceiving

  To even yours truly

  And I don’t know why

  I have just ceased receiving

  From our God and Abba

  Someone tell me why

  The truth I stopped believing

  Is now hunting me down

  And I don’t know why

  I find myself denying

  All my hidden motives

  Someone tell me why

  Why do I submit to sin

  When will I serve God

  Why do I give in

  To every temptation

  And bow to all idols

  I am dead in sin

  I have come to realize

  That I am a victim

  Of self-deception

  God opened up my eyes

  Previously blind to

  My situation

  Call me sinner

  Call me deceiver

  But never believer

  Open your eyes

  Come to realize

  I am a deceiver

  You must come to realize

  That I am a victim

  Of self-deception

  I will not let you devise

  Some kind of scape goat for

  My self-deception

  My words proclaim believer

  And you are all deceived

  I never reveal

  The truth of my behavior

  Because I am ashamed

  And fear a scandal

  Why do I submit to sin

  When will I serve God

  Why do I give in

  To every temptation

  And bow to all idols

  I am dead in sin

  I have come to realize

  That I am a victim

  Of self-deception

  God opened up my eyes

  Previously blind to

  My situation

  Call me sinner

  Call me deceiver

  But never believer

  Open your eyes

  Come to realize

  I am a deceiver

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  A Useful Vessel

  I know I need to stop hurting You.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to change habits.

  And I am so weak; I grow weaker each day;

  I know these sins hurt You—they hurt You.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to change myself.

  And I am broken; I am broken inside.

  Can You help me, Lord, to change?

  I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.

  Lord, mold me after You,

  And let me be a useful vessel.

  Lord, help me change today.

  I know I need to reach this lost world.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to explain You.

  And I don’t know much; I don’t know You enough.

  I know You need to reach them through me;

  But, Lord, it’s hard to relate this.

  And I am so young and slow in this walk.

  Can You help me, Lord, to change?

  I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.

  Lord, mold me after You,

  And let me be a useful vessel.

  Lord, help me change today.

  I know I need to love the sinners.

  And You will shine through me today.

  Lord, please use me as a fountain of blessing.

  I know I need to stop hurting You.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to change habits.

  And I am so weak; I grow weaker each day.

  I know these sins hurt You; they hurt You.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to change myself.

  And I am broken; I am broken inside.

  Can You help me, Lord, to change?

  I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.

  Lord, mold me after You,

  And let me be a useful vessel.

  Lord, help me change today.

  I know I need to reach this lost world.

  But, Lord, it’s hard to explain You.

  And I don’t know much; I don’t know You enough.

  I know You need to reach them through me;

  But, Lord, it’s hard to relate this.

  And I am so young and slow in this walk.

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  Dear Mr. Atheist

  Dear Mr. Atheist

  How can you ignore

  The science you use

  Still calls out your bluff

  How can you reject

  The obvious truth

  Painted so clearly

  Dear Mr. Atheist

  Why must you choose to

  Interpret the truth

  Of God’s creation

  Why must you pervert

  All the evidence

  To align with you

  Dear Mr. Atheist

  How can you ignore

  That there is a God

  And you may know Him

  When you wake up in Hell

  You will understand

  You have no excuse

  You choose to accept

  Your own religion

  Instead of the truth

  Dear Mr. Atheist

  How can you reject

  The obvious truth

  Painted so clearly

  Dear Mr. Atheist

  How can you ignore

  That there is a God

  And you may know Him

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  My Soul Longs

  My soul longs for more of You.

  As I cry out to You, Lord.

  Please hear my call.

  Answer me I pray.

  What is my call?

  Help me not to stray

  Away from You.

  My soul weeps as I seek You.

  You consecrate me to You,

  And change me

  From deep within.

  I will serve You

  With all my heart.


  I love You.

  My soul sings out to You, Lord.

  I praise and adore You, Lord.

  I worship You.

  And I can’t explain

  My love for You.

  Men don’t understand

  You loved us first.

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  My Soul Weeps

  My soul weeps as I cry out to You

  My heart seeks to know You as my friend

  Conviction floods my soul

  I pray You’ll make me whole

  And the tears fall down

  And my sins all drown

  In Your precious blood that was shed

  I’m thankful for the day You bled

  And paid the complete price for my life

  And I agreed to give You my life

  And serve You evermore

  You cannot love me more

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  Bless Our Troops

  Bless our troops,

  And send them home

  Victorious.

  Go with them

  Into battle

  Victorious.

  Send angels

  Right before them

  Victorious

  Spare the old,

  The young, and weak

  From war and death.

  Please bring them refuge

  In their time of need.

  Evict the evil one,

  And restore the land.

  O Lord,

  Please bless our troops.

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  Mercy

  Have mercy on me, O God

  For I am nothing before You

  Have mercy on me, O God

  I am sinful and unpure

  I am unclean before You, Lord

  Please bathe me in Your grace

  And shower me in righteousness

  And bless me with faithfulness

  Have mercy on me, O God

  For I am nothing before You

  Have mercy on me, O God

  I am sinful and unpure

  I am unclean before You, Lord

  Please let me be a servant

  And make me a useful vessel

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  Faith

  I have a need

  Without hope of rescue

  And I agreed

  To put my trust in You

  I feel assured

  Each time I look at You

  I hear the Spirit say

  “Just have faith and obey

  And it will be okay.”

  I turn away

  And think of all the lies

  Doubt comes my way

  Then it covers my eyes

  When You hear me cry out

  You come to help me out

  And burn up all the doubt

  I hear the Spirit say

  “Just have faith and obey

  And it will be okay.”

  You come tell me

  My miracle is done

  All You ask me

  Is to wait patiently

  When You hear me cry out

  You come to help me out

  And burn up all the doubt

  I hear the Spirit say

  “Just have faith and obey

  And it will be okay.”

  When You hear me cry out

  You come to help me out

  And burn up all the doubt

  I hear the Spirit say

  “Just have faith and obey

  And it will be okay.”

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  Memories of You

  In our hearts you will remain

  Happy and joyful as always

  In our minds we will retain

  All the memories that you made

  And we count ourselves blessed

  That we knew you

  We, your family and friends,

  We salute you

  To a life lived well

  With family around

  To a life lived long

  Although it had to end

  We choose to remember

  What we