Mastering Her Senses (Blasphemy Book 2)

  He held out his hand and helped her rise, and then he drew the flat, rectangular box from his pocket.

  Fuck, he hated being nervous. It made him chuckle, even though he was dead fucking serious about the words on the tip of his tongue. He opened it, revealing another heart-shaped diamond, this one dangling from a key chain. He held it out to her.

  Cass grasped the loop, and her gaze lifted from the two keys hanging there to him. “Master?”

  “I know this is fucking fast. And maybe a little crazy. But I want you here. With me. Would you consider making my apartment our home? Would you consider moving in with me?” he asked.

  Her mouth dropped into an oval, and her gaze latched onto the keys.

  As the seconds stretched out, Quinton thought he might crawl out of his skin. Too fast. It was too damned fast. “Aw, hell, I haven’t even shown you the rest of the—”

  “Yes.”

  He almost swallowed his tongue. “Yes? Did you say yes?”

  She laughed, and the sound lit him up inside. “Yes, it’s fast and it’s crazy and I’ll move in with you.”

  “Holy shit, Cass,” he said, hugging her and spinning her around. “Holy shit.” Words spilled out of him in a fast jumble. “You can change whatever you want. Do whatever you want. Make it yours.”

  She kissed him and laughed and held him tight. Had his place ever heard so much laughter? Quinton determined right then and there that it always would. Every day.

  “We’ll figure it out,” she said. “But maybe, you know, since I live here now and all, you could show me the rest.”

  “Yeah? Of course,” he said, his head spinning from getting everything he wanted. And so much more. For a moment, he just stared at her standing there, naked, wearing his collar, holding their key, and agreeing to walk this life together with him. It made his heart race and his cock turn to steel. “Baby, I was thinking. Maybe this tour should start with the bedroom.”

  She arched a brow and tried to bite back a threatening smile. “Wherever you lead, I’ll follow, Master. Always.”

  Which was the moment he threw his submissive over his shoulder, walked her back to their bedroom, and kept her there all night long.

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  Acknowledgements

  Books are never written alone, and that was definitely the case with Mastering Her Senses. I have to offer the biggest thanks to three people in particular. First, to my friend Lea Nolan, who cheered me on and allowed me to plot parts of the book out with her over our table at Panera. Second, to my friend Christi Barth, who critiqued the book for me and caught all kinds of things that made it shine. And third, to my publicist extraordinaire, KP Simmon, who was always there with a word of support and encouragement. Thanks to all three of you ladies, you were a big part of me getting this one done!

  I also have to thank my Heroes and my Reader Girls, whose enthusiasm for Blasphemy is such a delight and motivation. You guys rock my socks!

  And without question, I have to thank my husband and daughters, who allowed Mom lots of weekends and nights away to get this done. I couldn’t do it without their love and support.

  And, finally, thanks to you, the readers, who take my characters into your hearts and let them tell their stories over and over again. ~LK

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  CHAPTER ONE

  As Kenna Sloane stood on the stage in front of the applauding audience, one word kept echoing through her brain.

  Fraud.

  Fraudfraudfraud.

  Keeping the smile plastered on her face, she looked out over the ballroom full of women from a local business and professional organization.

  Since being medically discharged from the United States Marine Corps two years before, Kenna had become something of a motivational speaker. She didn’t feel particularly motivational or inspirational, for that matter, and she certainly hadn’t set out to be any such thing.

  It had started when her physical therapist at Walter Reed asked her to speak a few times to the new amputees. And then her nephew’s teacher invited her to speak to his school assembly around Veteran’s Day. One of the kid’s fathers turned out to be a reporter for the local paper who pushed her to do a story until she finally agreed. Though the Baltimore Sun wasn’t just any local paper. It was big. And so was the story. After it ran, the invitations came in from all over. And though some part of her always resisted agreeing, another part wondered how she could consider turning them down.

  Because she was alive when others weren’t. She could share their stories when they couldn’t tell them themselves. She could perhaps offer other veterans and their families the hope that was so hard to grasp onto in those early months after a serious injury.

  It was her duty. One way she could continue to serve. The only way she could continue to serve.

  The long minutes after her speech passed in a blur of congratulations on her talk and introductions to dignitaries in the audience.

  “Thank you for your service, Miss Sloane.”

  “Fantastic speech, Kenna. Truly inspirational.”

  “You’re a real survivor, Miss Sloane. Thank you for sharing your story.”

  Kenna was grateful for everyone’s appreciation—being thanked for her service and sacrifice meant a lot. But it was also hard to hear sometimes.

  Hard to hear because so often—too often—she felt like such a damn fraud.

  Everyone thought she’d adjusted so well—to the loss of her career, to the loss of her best friend in the Corps, to the loss of her right forearm and hand—but on the inside, she felt like a disaster. Grief, regret, guilt. And so much pain that sometimes she had to give into the promising lure of the narcotics her doctor prescribed.

  She should be stronger. She should be able to fight all this. She was a damn Marine—and always would be, whether she still wore the uniform or not. At least, that’s what she tried to remind herself.

  “How did it go?” Sierra asked through the car speaker phone not five minutes after Kenna pulled out of the hotel’s downtown Baltimore lot. Her sister was one of the few people who understood even a little of the inner turmoil Kenna tried to keep hidden from the world.

  “Fine. Good. It was a nice crowd,” Kenna said, her hands at ten and two on the steering wheel. One hand real, the other hand part of her myoelectric prosthesis. The hand was matte black and connected to a black and silver forearm shaft that cradled and covered the small stump of forearm that remained. Her gaze dropped for just a moment to the way the almost skeletal-looking fingers wrapped around the wheel.

  Be thankful for what you have.

  Because the prosthetic’s cost of over fifty thousand dollars had been m
ostly, and generously, covered by a foundation.

  “You there, Kenna?” Sierra asked.

  “Yeah, sorry. How’s Jake?”

  “He’s good,” her sister said, a smile clear in her tone. “He lost a tooth at school today and I’m waiting to make sure he’s asleep so I can play tooth fairy.”

  As Kenna maneuvered through Baltimore traffic, she couldn’t help the small smile that crept up her face. “How much does a tooth earn these days?”

  Sierra chuckled. “I’m giving him two bucks. The little bugger’s losing teeth so frequently lately that I’m half convinced he’s yanking them out for the cash. How was physical therapy? Didn’t you have an appointment this morning?”

  And there went that smile. Kenna didn’t question the effectiveness of physical therapy—the muscles in her residual limb were stronger, which enhanced her ability to control the movement of the prosthetic—it operated in part based on the electrical signals her remaining muscles generated. She also had more mobility in her right shoulder, and her neck and upper back pain had improved a lot.

  But physical therapy also left her arm fatigued and her body emotionally drained. And an intense session always seemed to exacerbate her phantom pain for a night or three after.

  “It was fine. Good.” Kenna merged into the right lane and turned.

  “That’s the same thing you said about your speech,” Sierra said, her tone easy-going but obviously concerned.

  Despite the light touch her sister tried to use, the comment still tripped Kenna’s shorter-than-usual temper. “What the hell do you want me to say, Si? That I’m exhausted? That I’m randomly driving around right now to avoid going home because I know the second I lay down the phantom pain will start, and I’ll have to grit my teeth through it all night in order to resist downing more pain killers? Which don’t always work anyway. That I’m terrified that the pain will never go away and I won’t be able to carry it, and I’m terrified that it will go away and how can I deserve that when George is dead? That every time I give a speech it makes the fear worse because now all these fucking people think I’m some kind of hero which means when I finally crash and burn they’ll all know I never deserved their praise and applause in the first place? Is that what you want to hear?” By the time Kenna finished the tirade she was breathing hard and shaking, her eyes dry as always. Why couldn’t she have a good cry and feel better like a normal person?

  The phone was quiet long enough that Kenna wondered if she’d dropped the call. And then her sister spoke. “That’s exactly what I want you to say. That and whatever else you’re really feeling. Pull over.”

  “What?”

  “Pull over. I want you to be safe and you’re driving upset right now.”

  On a huff, Kenna made her way to the side of the street and parked illegally in front of a fire hydrant. “Okay,” she whispered, smoothing her hands over her black dress pants.

  “I’m not a stranger, Kenna. You don’t have to put on an act for me. I’d know you weren’t in a good place even if you did so don’t waste your energy on it. I’d love for you to talk to me, but you don’t even have to do that. You can just be silently miserable with me if you want. Or you can rant at me. Whatever you need, I’ll do for you. And if you don’t know what that is, I’ll just be with you until you figure it out.” Another long pause. “Okay?”

  “Okay,” Kenna said.

  “Do you want to talk about any of what you just said?” Sierra asked.

  Kenna gave a humorless chuckle. “Nooo.”

  “Fine. But I will say this, I didn’t know Georgia as good you did, obviously, but I knew her well enough to know she would kick your ass for torturing yourself about her death. And you know that’s true. Even if you can’t feel it yet, you have to know it. She would not have wanted you beating yourself up on her behalf. She would’ve hated that for you.”

  A squeezing pang tugged in the center of her chest. Georgia Kern had been Kenna’s friend from the first day of basic training, and they’d quickly become close. “I know that’s true, but I…” She shook her head, the sadness of the loss washing through her for the millionth time.

  “I know,” her sister said.

  Kenna and Georgia, or Ken and George as everyone had quickly taken to calling them, had both volunteered for the Female Engagement Teams, or FETs, small, specially trained groups who served alongside male infantry units in the Middle East. In their FET, they’d worked as cultural advisors and liaisons, communicating especially with the women and families their units encountered. She and Georgia had loved their jobs, loved being central to the mission of the infantry units, loved getting to serve in such a fundamental and intense way.

  And then George hadn’t made it when another of the guys in their unit, Evan Burrell, had triggered a forty-pound IED during a patrol. Kenna had been walking on the other side of George, the force of the blast enough to throw Kenna up in the air, spinning her body like a helicopter blade. She’d been close enough that the explosion had ripped skin and muscle off her arm, and the way she’d landed had done the rest of the job of destroying the arm she eventually lost, despite multiple surgeons’ efforts to save it.

  One of the doctors had said that Georgia being there had probably saved Kenna’s life and, after he’d left the room, she’d vomited despite having nothing in her belly. Somedays, knowing she was alive because someone else had died was more guilt than she could bear. Especially when that someone had been her best friend.

  “I’ll call you tomorrow, Si, okay?” Kenna said.

  “No you won’t,” Sierra said with absolutely no judgment. “But I’ll talk to you soon.”

  After driving around for another hour, Kenna finally returned to the small studio apartment she’d managed to find when she’d been discharged. She’d been living off of her savings, her disability, and the honoraria she received from her speaking engagements, so the five-hundred-square-foot place was the most she could afford. Sierra had wanted her to bunk in her guest room, but no way had Kenna wanted to force her less-than-cheerful self on her sister’s little family.

  She was so used to removing her prosthesis that the process barely took thought anymore. She released the suction, removed the limb and plugged it in to charge, and rolled off the protective sleeve and cleaned it for the next day’s use. And then she climbed into bed.

  Hours later, she remained wide awake, her eyes glued to the dark ceiling overhead, ghosts of every kind making it impossible to fall asleep.

  Tonight, the phantom pain was the worst of those ghosts. The pain made her arm and wrist ache despite the fact that she didn’t still have those parts. It was an ache that felt like, if she could just massage the muscles and joints, it would feel better. It was a pain that sometimes felt like an itch she could never scratch, or pins and needles that would never go away.

  But there were other ghosts, too. “Quit yer bitchin’.” Georgia’s voice. One of her favorite sayings when anyone uttered a gripe about anything. Kenna supposed that imagining her bestie wanting to kick her ass over the poor-me routine was better than remembering the sound of her screams when that IED had detonated.

  On a sigh, Kenna sat up and turned on the light. Her gaze went right to her prosthesis, laying on her night stand and plugged into the charging unit. She had to find a way to become more than what’d happened to her, more than what she’d lost. If she could just get out of her head, maybe she could get free of the pain, of the grief, of the guilt.

  Get out of your head, Kenna. Stop thinking. Just feel what I’m doing to you.

  Kenna gasped.

  Where had that voice and those words come from? Heat ran over her skin, a phantom sensation of another kind. A sensation from a distant, lust-drenched moment, and caused by a man to whom she hadn’t spoken in years.

  Griffin Hudson.

  Her lover. Her Dominant. But never her Master. He hadn’t wanted to claim her for keeps.

  She’d fallen in love with Griffin, and when she’d finally told
him, they’d ended up in what turned out to be the most awkward conversation ever, which had essentially boiled down to him not being interested in a committed relationship. He hadn’t been unkind about it, just honest, but it had still left Kenna reevaluating everything. Because things with Griffin hadn’t worked out, and working as a paralegal had left her absolutely certain she didn’t want to go to law school, as her parents had badly wanted her to do.

  She’d needed something more meaningful, something deeper, something real. She’d needed a change.

  A change that had led her to a calling she hadn’t realized she’d had until she’d made the commitment and become a Marine. Kenna hadn’t told Griffin. She hadn’t seen the point. She’d just enlisted. And she’d never regretted it for a moment—and still didn’t. Being a Marine could be grueling and exhausting, but the camaraderie, mission, and service had resonated deep inside her in a way she never would’ve predicted. For a long time, she’d still grieved the loss of Griffin, but the Marines had been like someone turning the lightbulb on over her whole life.

  So why was she thinking of Griffin now?

  “I’m sorry. How long was I out of it?” she asked.

  Arms around her shoulders, Griffin cradled her tighter against his muscled chest and smiled down at her. “About a half hour. Close your eyes and rest. I’m in no rush.”

  Kenna pressed her fingers to her mouth as her thoughts churned and realization finally set in. That memory of Griffin taking care of her had come after a particularly intense scene that had left Kenna flying so high she’d all but lost consciousness. Subspace, they called it, and with Griffin, she’d achieved it quite a lot. Nothing got her out of her head or sent endorphins racing like it.

  “Oh, God,” she whispered out loud. An idea took route that threatened to shake up her whole world—for better or worse, she didn’t know. “Would it work now?”