Scandalous

  Also by Tilly Bagshawe

  Do Not Disturb

  Flawless

  Fame

  Adored

  Showdown

  Sidney Sheldon’s Mistress of the Game

  Sidney Sheldon’s Angel of the Dark

  Sidney Sheldon’s After the Darkness

  The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

  Text copyright © 2010 Tilly Bagshawe

  First UK Edition published 2010

  First US Edition published 2013

  All rights reserved.

  Published by Montlake Romance

  P.O. Box 400818

  Las Vegas, NV 89140

  ISBN-13: 9781612184647

  ISBN-10: 1612184642

  CONTENTS

  PROLOGUE

  PART ONE

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  PART TWO

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN

  PART THREE

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  PART FOUR

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

  CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

  CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

  CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

  CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  PROLOGUE

  IN A PRIVATE screening room in Beverly Hills, a beautiful woman stared intently at the man on the screen. Flicking a switch, she allowed her luxurious red velvet chair to recline. Languidly extending a hand dripping in Neil Lane diamonds, she reached for the remote, freeze-framing the shot on the man’s face. She smiled.

  He was handsome, undoubtedly. Blond, blue-eyed, chisel-jawed, like every other television presenter in Los Angeles. But this woman had her pick of handsome men. Handsome, rich, powerful, she had had them all and grown bored of them all. Last month, for the third year in a row, People magazine had voted her “Sexiest Woman Alive.” It was the sort of label that meant little to her but everything to the producers and directors who lined up to be the next piece of man candy on her perfectly sculpted arm. Her looks had made her famous, and they had made her rich. Men were stupid.

  But not this man. This man was different. He was an intellectual. Some even called him a genius. She wondered: What would he be like in bed? How it would feel to sleep with a man who, on one level at least, was her superior? She found the concept thrilling, albeit rather difficult to imagine.

  Hitting PLAY, she watched the man walk toward the camera, talking about deep space and the cosmos and things she did not understand in his divine English accent. Slipping a hand beneath her cream silk La Perla negligée, she began to touch herself, imagining him making love to her.

  Theo! Oh Theo. Don’t stop.

  As always when she pleasured herself, she came to orgasm almost instantly. Yet another thing she did better than the men in her life. Opening her eyes, she sighed. How inconvenient that she’d only just got married again.

  She would have to do something about that…

  Three thousand miles away, in New York, another wealthy, beautiful woman watched the same man on the cinema-size plasma television in the master bedroom of her palatial Upper East Side apartment. Just as she had watched him every night for the last five years.

  Unlike his admirer in LA, this woman did understand what Professor Theodore Dexter was saying. Listening to him pontificate in the fake fireside-chat voice she knew so well, she thought, I hate you. Why are you still alive? Why aren’t you suffering, the way you made me suffer, you treacherous son of a bitch?

  One day, she vowed, Theo Dexter would get what was coming to him.

  When that day came, she would show him no mercy.

  PART ONE

  EIGHT YEARS EARLIER…

  CHAPTER ONE

  “ARE YOU SURE you want to do this, Sasha? It’s not too late to change your mind.”

  Sasha Miller looked at Will Temple’s naked body—the six-pack stomach, broad rugby player’s shoulders, sturdy legs, and, of course, it—and marveled again that such an Adonis had chosen her to be his girlfriend.

  “I’m completely sure. I just…I hope you won’t be disappointed, that’s all.”

  Will Temple was nineteen and very experienced. At least, that’s what he’d told Sasha. Oh God, yeah. I lost my virginity when I was twelve. It was with the au pair. Bodil. Gorgeous Swedish bird, couldn’t keep her hands off me. She’s a top model now. Sasha was wildly impressed. Not that that was why she had fallen for Will. All the girls loved him because he was captain of the rugby team at school, handsome, rich, and insanely popular. But Sasha Miller was drawn to another side of Will Temple. He was funny and spontaneous. When he wasn’t with “the lads,” his posse of sycophantic hangers-on from Tonbridge, the local public school, he could be loving and sweet.

  Sasha and Will had been an item for three months now. If Sasha didn’t do the deed soon, she knew there was a line of girls from St. Agnes’s waiting to take her place. She’d only been putting it off because of the rumors.

  Rumors about it.

  For weeks Sasha had been hearing that it was so huge, an appendage of such superhuman girth and elephantine length that sex was bound to be agony. So it was with immense relief that Sasha watched Will drop his Simpsons boxer shorts to reveal a modest five and a half inches of manhood. Eager, certainly. Ready for action, unquestionably. But hardly the Eiffel Tower.

  “You could never disappoint me, darling,” Will assured her. “Just follow my lead. I’ll take care of you.”

  Kicking aside a pile of dirty sports gear, Will led Sasha to the bed and started taking off her clothes. Sasha closed her eyes. Downstairs she could hear the thump, thump, thump of music from the party and wondered if all Will’s friends knew what he was up to. Do boys talk to each other about things like that? She tried not to think about it, or about the faint but pervasive smell of mildew rising from Will’s sheets.

  “What’s wrong with this thing?” Will fumbled with the clasp of her bra. “Why won’t it…open?”

  “Sorry. It’s quite old.” Hearing the exasperation in his voice, Sasha wriggled out of the offending garment herself. Two perfectly round, full, seventeen-year-old breasts tumbled into Will’s hands like ripe fruit from the tree of heaven.

  “Bloody hell, you’re gorgeous,” he gasped.

  He was right. With her flawless, milky skin, gleaming mane of black hair, and sparkling, intelligent eyes, the same pale green as mint ice cream, Sasha Miller was a knockout. But she was also…different. All Will Temple’s previous girlfriends had been the cool, popular girls at school. Standard-issue blondes with size zero jeans and the latest Top Shop heels. With her Marks & Spencer cardigans and sensible lace-up shoes, and her nose permanently stuck in a science book, Sasha Miller was a card-carrying nerd. But that was what Will loved about her. He’d had his fill of dating prom queens. Sasha knew even less about fashion than Will did, and either didn’t know that she was beautiful or set no store by her looks. She also had no interest in the local Sussex party scene, a scene of which Will Temple was the undisputed king.

  But even kings could get bored.

  Sasha gazed up at him, naked and adoring.

  “Thank you. You?
??re gorgeous too, Will. I…”

  The pain was sharp, but it was over in a second. Sasha didn’t even remember Will taking her underwear off, but he must have because before her head hit the pillow he was inside her, pounding away like a jackhammer. Tentatively Sasha ran a hand over his bare back. She was debating whether or not it would be bad form to reach lower and stroke his bum—Perhaps she ought to have spent more time reading the CosmoGirl problem pages when she was younger like the rest of her friends?—when Will let out a strange yelping noise and pulled out of her.

  “Would you like a condom?” Sasha offered helpfully. “I’ve got one.”

  “A bit late for that, I’m afraid.” Will grinned. “Sorry darling. You’re so sexy I couldn’t help myself. I didn’t hurt you, did I?”

  “Erm, no. Not really.”

  Wow. So that was sex. It was quite a lot shorter than I expected. But that’s probably only because Will’s so good at it, it doesn’t take him as long as other people.

  “Shall we go back down and join the party?” Will was already pulling on his jeans. “Of course I’d much rather be here, making love to you.” He kissed Sasha on the forehead. “But I feel a bit rude. You know, being the host and everything. Jago’s probably pocketing the silverware as I speak.”

  Will’s parents were on holiday in Spain. With a faith in their eldest son that owed more to love than judgment, they had left Will in charge of Chittenden, their beautiful sixteenth-century farmhouse in the Sussex Weald. Tonight’s party was his third in as many days.

  “Oh, gosh, totally. Of course. You should go down.” Sasha scoured the floor for her underwear. “I have to get home anyway.”

  “You’re not staying over?” Will looked genuinely crestfallen. Sasha sighed. He’s so lovely.

  “I can’t. It’s my dad’s birthday, remember? I promised him I’d be home for supper. Mum and I always watch him unwrap his presents.”

  “Hmmm. Well, I suppose that’s fair enough. After all, I’ve already unwrapped my present.” Will pulled Sasha to her feet and kissed her on the lips. She felt ready to burst with happiness.

  Will Temple loves me.

  Will Temple has made love to me.

  I am a woman at last!

  Chittenden was in the village of Tidebrook, about a ten-minute drive from Sasha’s parents’ cottage in Frant. It was just past seven o’clock, and the last rays of summer sun were still sinking into the woody Sussex horizon. I love it here, thought Sasha, driving through the familiar countryside. I’ll miss it when I go away to Exeter.

  In a few weeks Sasha would have her A-level results. Not that there was ever much doubt what her grades would be. Sasha Miller had been a straight-A student since she started school at four years old. By that age she could already read fluently and knew considerably more about the solar system than her primary school teacher, Miss Rush.

  “I hesitate to use the word obsession,” Miss Rush told Sasha’s father at her first parent-teacher meeting, “but Sasha is inordinately interested in space. I’m wondering if you could try to introduce some other interests? Just to create a balance.”

  “Such as what?” Don Miller, Sasha’s father, was a keen amateur astronomer himself. He shared his daughter’s delight in the unknown world of stars and planets, and wasn’t sure he liked the gist of Miss Rush’s remark.

  “A lot of the little girls are keen on princesses.”

  “Princesses?”

  “Yes. Princesses. Mermaids. Even the dreaded Barbie!” Miss Rush let out a tinkling little laugh. Don Miller shot her a withering stare.

  “It might help her make friends, Mr. Miller. Sasha…how shall I put this? She doesn’t quite fit in.”

  Sasha never did learn how to fit in. Princesses, mermaids, and Barbies passed her by in much the same way that in later years drugs, nightclubs, and celebrity culture remained a deliberately closed book. Thankfully as she grew older, her teachers became more encouraging of Sasha’s “obsession” with astronomy and her emerging genius at physics.

  “Your daughter is a uniquely gifted scientist, Mr. and Mrs. Miller.” Mrs. Banks, the headmistress of St. Agnes’s, stated the obvious. “We have high hopes for her at university.” Don and Susan Miller had strained every financial sinew to afford their daughter’s private-school fees. They had high hopes too.

  “What about Oxbridge?”

  “Well.” Mrs. Banks shifted uncomfortably in her high-backed wooden chair. “That’s certainly a possibility. Of course, Oxford and Cambridge both require interviews.”

  Nobody doubted Sasha’s intellectual ability. It was her social skills that had always been the problem. Speaking in public was her worst nightmare. But even speaking in private could be a challenge if the subject didn’t interest her. These days, Cambridge colleges were looking for more than straight-A grades. They wanted “rounded” students. Pretty, confident girls who could hold their own at an interview. Sasha was fine once you got her onto particle physics or the latest debates raging in game theory. But she had no facility for small talk. As for the dreaded space left for applicants to include “Hobbies and Other Interests,” Sasha could only stare at it in bafflement. Why would somebody need to have another interest, when their specialist subject was the entire universe?

  Sasha applied to the four redbrick universities with the best reputations in her subject. None of them required interviews. All four offered her a place. She decided that if Cambridge rejected her, she would go to Exeter, and she did her best to look forward to the prospect. But deep down she knew that the Cambridge physics faculty was the best in the world. She desperately longed to get in.

  The staff at St. Agnes’s suggested she go to an interview coach to address her weaknesses as a candidate. “Even something as simple as wearing the right clothes can be crucially important.” But Don Miller was having none of it.

  “Ridiculous. It’s a travesty. Sash wants to be a scientist, not a television presenter. It’s blatant sexism.”

  He was right. It was blatant sexism.

  Unfortunately, the school was right too. Sasha’s interview at St. Michael’s College Cambridge was an unmitigated disaster.

  On the drive back to Sussex, Sasha glumly ran through a postmortem for her dad.

  “They asked me about politics. What I thought about the latest G8 summit and whether I had strong views on globalization.”

  “Why?”

  “I’ve no idea, Dad.”

  “Well, what did you say, love?”

  “I said no.”

  Fair enough. Bloody silly question anyway.

  “What else did they ask?”

  “The tutor for admissions asked me what I thought I would bring to St. Michael’s.”

  Don Miller brightened. “And what did you say to that?”

  “Books.”

  “Ah.”

  Oh well. Exeter’s a fine university. I’m sure she’ll be happy there.

  The Millers’ cottage was a tiny, disordered, tile-hung gem overlooking Frant village green. All Sasha’s classmates from St. Agnes’s lived in far grander houses—houses like Will’s—but Sasha would not have traded her childhood home for Buckingham Palace. She loved everything about it: the hanging flower baskets dripping jasmine on either side of the front door; the minuscule leaded windows that let in almost no light but that gave the house the look of Hansel and Gretel’s cottage; the long, sloping back garden, a tangled mishmash of weeds and wildflowers, with the shed at the bottom housing Sasha’s precious telescope, her most treasured possession.

  By the time Sasha parked her dilapidated red VW beside the green, it was twilight. The church’s ancient Saxon steeple jutted proudly over the village rooftops, a benevolent giant bathed in the blue light of evening. As Sasha got out of the car, a single note of the church bell marked the half hour. Summer smells of warm earth, freshly mown grass, and honeysuckle hung heavy in the air. Sasha breathed them in, dizzy with happiness. Will loves me.

  Before tonight, she’d been nervous abou
t leaving him in September. Will had gone straight from school into his father’s estate agency business—I never fancied uni, Sash. I’m not the type. The idea of leaving him in Sussex, prey to all the St. Agnes’s girls in the year below, filled Sasha with horror. Especially as Exeter was so terribly far away. But now that they were sleeping together—Good-bye virginity! I won’t miss you—she felt blissfully secure in the relationship. She would read books on the subject and become a fabulous, inventive lover. Will, consumed with desire, would hurtle down the A303 every weekend, desperate to be with her. Afterward they would lie awake at night, staring at the stars, talking about…hmmm, the fantasy got a little vague at that point. But anyway, it would all be wonderful and perfect and…

  “Sasha! Where have you been? We’ve been trying your mobile all day. Dad was about to call the hospitals.”

  Sue Miller, Sasha’s mother, was a plumper, shorter version of her daughter. Her once-black hair was now heavily laced with gray, but her pale skin was still smooth. More worldly and sensible than Sasha (not that that was hard; the family poodle, Bijoux, had more common sense than Sasha), Sue had no idea how she and Don had produced such an intellectual powerhouse of a child. Don reckoned it was his genes. But then Don was out of his mind.

  “Sorry. I must have switched it off. Or something…” Sasha rummaged absentmindedly in her handbag. Where was that phone? “Is it birthday suppertime? I’m starving.”

  “Not yet.” Don Miller appeared in the hallway. He was holding a large envelope. “This arrived for you in the afternoon post, Sasha. I think you should open it now. Get it out of the way.”

  Despite herself, Sasha’s heart lurched when she saw the Cambridge postmark.

  “St. Michael’s.”

  She already knew she hadn’t got in. But the weight of the envelope confirmed it. Everyone knew that if you were accepted, they sent you a fat package full of pamphlets about grants and accommodation and reading lists. This, quite clearly, was a single sheet of paper.

  Sasha wandered through into the kitchen. Don started to follow her, but Sue held him back.