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  Jerry shook his head. “No, thanks.”

  “Anna has dinner ready and waiting,” Alek said.

  “I’ll pick up something on the way home,” he assured them both. “Don’t worry about me.”

  Alek drove through the hilly streets that led to their condominium. “How are you feeling?” he asked, when he opened the front door for her.

  “Drained.” The emotions seemed to be pressing against her chest. She was mentally and physically exhausted; her fatigue was so great she could barely hold up her head.

  Alek guided her into the kitchen. She hadn’t eaten since breakfast, hadn’t thought about food even once. The smells were heavenly, but she had no appetite.

  He brought two plates from the oven and set them on the table.

  “I’m not hungry,” she told him. “I’m going to take a bath.” She half expected him to argue with her, to insist she needed nourishment. Instead he must have realized she knew what was best for herself right now.

  One look in the bathroom mirror confirmed Julia’s worst suspicions. Her eyes were red, puffy, and her cheeks were pale, her makeup long since washed away by her tears. She looked much older than her thirty years. About a hundred years older. She looked and felt as if she’d been hit by a freight train.

  Ruth was gone, and other than Jerry she was alone in the world. She was grateful for Alek’s assistance during this traumatic day, but in time he’d leave and then she’d be alone again.

  Running her bathwater, she added a package of peach-scented salts and stepped into the hot, soothing water. She leaned against the back of the tub and closed her eyes, letting the heat of the bath comfort her.

  Children waiting to be born.

  She didn’t know why that phrase edged its way into her mind. There would be no children because there would be no real marriage. She was more determined than ever not to cross that line, especially now, when she was most vulnerable. She’d hurt Alek enough, abused his gentleness, taken advantage of his kindness.

  He was standing in the hallway outside the bathroom waiting for her when she finished. “I’m fine, Alek,” she said, wanting to reassure him, even if it wasn’t true.

  “You’re exhausted. I turned back the sheets for you.”

  “Thank you.”

  He ushered her into the bedroom as if she were a child. In other circumstances, Julia would have resented the way he’d taken control of her life, but not then. She felt only gratitude.

  She slid beneath the covers, nestled her head against the pillow and closed her eyes. “Alek,” she whispered.

  “Yes, my love?”

  “Would you sing to me again?”

  He complied with a haunting melody in his own language. His voice was clear and strong, and even though she couldn’t understand the words, she found it beautiful and soothing. She wanted to ask him the meaning, but her thoughts drifted in another direction. Toward rest. Toward peace.

  * * *

  Julia woke with a start. She didn’t know what had jarred her awake. The room was dark, although the hall light offered little illumination. The digital clock on the nightstand informed her it was nearly 1:00 a.m. As her eyes adjusted, she realized Alek was sitting beside her in a chair, his legs stretched out before him and his head cocked at an odd, uncomfortable angle.

  “Alek?” she whispered, propping herself up on one elbow.

  He stirred immediately and straightened. “Julia?”

  “What are you doing here?”

  “I didn’t want you to be alone.”

  “I’m fine,” she said again.

  “Do you want me to sing to you?”

  Hot, burning tears filled her eyes at his tenderness, his concern. She shook her head. What she needed was to be held.

  “Julia, my love,” he whispered, moving from the chair to the edge of the bed. His hand smoothed the hair from her face, his touch as gentle as if she were a child in need of reassurance, which was exactly the way Julia felt.

  “Why do you have to be so wonderful?” she sobbed. “Why are you so good to me?”

  His lips touched her forehead, but he didn’t answer.

  “I’m a rotten wife.”

  He laughed. “You haven’t given yourself a chance yet.”

  “I’ve treated you terribly. You should hate me.”

  “Hate you?” He seemed to find her words amusing. “That would be impossible.”

  “Will you lie down with me? Please?” The words were out before she could censor them. It was a completely selfish request. “I…need you, Alek.” She added this last part for honesty’s sake, to ease her conscience.

  He kissed her, his mouth locating hers unerringly in the near-dark. Although his kiss was light, she knew it was his way of thanking her for admitting the truth.

  He stood and stripped off his pants and shirt. Julia lifted the covers and moved over as far as she could in the narrow bed.

  Despite sleeping in his embrace the night before, she felt strangely shy now. He put his arm around her shoulders and brought her close. He was warm and real and felt so alive that she trembled when she laid her head on his chest. His heart was pounding strong and steady against her ear.

  “Can you sleep now?” he whispered.

  “I…think so. What about you?”

  “Don’t worry about me.”

  That didn’t answer her question, but she didn’t press him. “We kissed last night, didn’t we?”

  He rubbed his chin across her hair. “Yes.” She heard the strain in his voice and felt unusually pleased. She tilted her head back so that she was looking into his warm, dark eyes. Only a few inches separated their mouths.

  “Would you…mind—” she hesitated and moistened her lips “—kissing me again?”

  His breathing stopped abruptly and his eyes narrowed as if he wasn’t sure he should trust her. Julia didn’t blame him.

  Rather than waiting for his permission, she arched toward him until their lips met. Their kiss was sweet and undemanding. She was breathing hard when they finished, but so was he.

  He kissed her again, a little deeper, a little more intensely. Then a lot more intensely.

  Julia sighed as his mouth left hers, their bottom lips clinging momentarily. “Oh, Alek.” She sighed, and a trembling kind of response made its way through her body.

  She said his name again, more softly this time. “I want to make love.”

  She watched him closely and noted the different emotions flashing in his eyes. He wanted her, too; there was no question of that. He wanted her and had from the beginning of their marriage. He’d made certain she knew how much. Yet he hesitated.

  His eyes gradually changed and told her another story. They darkened with doubt, which won over the needy, sensual look she’d seen in him seconds earlier.

  “Julia.” He breathed her name, his tone regretful. “Not now.”

  “Why not?” She knew she sounded defensive and couldn’t help it. He’d demanded she share his bed from the first night of their marriage.

  But when she finally agreed to fulfill her part of their bargain, he rejected her. It made no sense. And it angered her.

  “I’d feel as if I was taking advantage of you.”

  “Shouldn’t I be the judge of that?” she said irritably.

  “Right now, no.”

  Stunned, she jerked her head away. His fingers came to her face, resting on her cheek, directing her gaze back to his.

  “I want you, Julia, don’t ever doubt that. But I refuse to put my own needs before yours. You’re confused and hurting. There’s nothing I’d like more than to—” He stopped. “I’m sure you understand.” She nodded.

  He kissed her briefly, then tucked his arm around her and brought her even closer to his side. His lips were in her hair. “When we make love, I don’t want there to be any regrets in the morning.”

  Julia smiled and kissed his bare chest. “No one told me you were so noble.”

  “No one told me, either,” he muttered
disparagingly.

  The way he said it with a deep, shuddering sigh led her to believe that if anyone had regrets in the morning, it would be her husband.

  Content now, she curled up against him and shut her eyes. She’d prefer it if they made love, but being in his arms would satisfy her for now.

  * * *

  Alek envied Julia her ability to sleep. For weeks he’d been waiting for his wife to come to him, to fulfill her wedding vows by her own choice. Yet when she invited him to her bed, held her arms softly around him, he felt compelled to do the honorable thing.

  Honor. But at what price? His body throbbed with need. His heart ached with love. No woman had led him on a finer chase. No woman had challenged him as much as his wife. No woman had defied and infuriated him more than Julia.

  She’d been hurt and angry at his refusal, then seemed to accept the wisdom of his words. Wisdom, nothing! He was a fool.

  Maybe not, he decided after a moment. Perhaps he had been wise. Only time would tell.

  He felt Julia stir some time later and was surprised to realize it was morning. Slowly he opened his eyes to discover her face staring down at his, studying him. “Good morning,” she whispered.

  He waited, thinking she might be angry at finding him in bed with her, but she revealed none of the outrage she had the morning before. Still, her eyes were clouded and her grief was evident.

  “Did you sleep well?” he asked.

  She nodded shyly, her gaze avoiding his. “What about you?”

  “As well as can be expected.” He stretched his cramped arms and yawned loudly. They were fools, the pair of them. His sister had said as much yesterday morning. They were sleeping in a single bed when there was a perfectly good king-size bed in the other room.

  Alek didn’t have a single excuse to offer his sister and finally told her to mind her own business. But Anna was right.

  “Thank you, Alek,” Julia said, climbing out of bed. Her face was turned away from him.

  “For what, staying with you?”

  “No…well, yes, that, too, but for…you know, not…”

  “Making love to you?”

  She nodded. Reaching inside her closet, she took out a set of clothes and held them in front of her as if to shield her body from his view. She’d spent most of the night cuddling against him. He’d felt every inch of her creamy smooth skin; there wasn’t anything left to hide. It didn’t seem right to point that out, however.

  “The next few days are going to be very busy. I’ll be spending a lot of my time finishing up the funeral arrangements and…and going through Ruth’s things, so we probably won’t see much of each other for a while.”

  She didn’t need to sound so pleased at the prospect, Alek mused.

  By the time he’d showered and dressed, Julia had already left the condominium. His sister was eyeing him critically, clearly displeased about something.

  “What’s wrong with Julia?” Anna asked in an accusatory voice. “She looks as if she was crying.”

  Naturally it would be his fault, Alek thought, ignoring his sister’s glare.

  “Her grandmother died,” he explained and he watched as Anna’s eyes went soft with sympathy.

  “You love this woman.”

  “She’s my wife.” He saw now that it was a mistake to have hired his sister. It was obvious that she was going to be what Jerry called “a damned nuisance.”

  “You did not marry her for love.”

  “No,” he admitted gruffly, resenting this line of questioning. He wouldn’t have tolerated it from anyone else and Anna knew it.

  “She knows that you did not love her. This is why she sleeps in the small bed.”

  “Thank you, Dear Abby.”

  “Who?”

  “Never mind,” Alek said impatiently. He grabbed a piece of toast from the plate and didn’t wait for the rest of his breakfast. He turned to leave the room.

  “Aleksandr,” she said sharply, stopping him. “You’ve become very American.” Her face relaxed into a wide smile. “I think this is good. You teach me, too, okay?”

  “Okay,” he said, chuckling.

  * * *

  Sorting through Ruth’s possessions proved to be far more difficult than Julia had expected. Her grandmother’s tastes had been simple, but she’d held on to many things, refusing to discard life’s mementos.

  Disposing of her clothes was the easiest. Julia boxed them up and took them to a shelter for the homeless. It was the little things she found so difficult. A token from the Seattle World Fair, an empty perfume bottle that had long since faded. The photographs. She could never part with the photographs.

  Julia had no idea her grandmother had collected so many snapshots. The comical photos Ruth sent Louis Conrad while he was away fighting in the Second World War made her smile.

  Julia came across a packet of pictures that caused her to laugh outright. Her grandmother, so young and attractive, was poised in a modest-looking swimsuit in front of a young soldier’s photograph. It had to be Julia’s grandfather, but she’d never seen pictures of him at that age.

  The whole thing must have been rather risqué for the time. Julia guessed Ruth had been giving Louis a reason to come home. Heaven knew it had worked.

  Julia studied the picture and sat for several minutes remembering the love story Ruth had told her. It was sweet and innocent, unlike now when sex so often dominated a relationship.

  Except for her marriage, she thought defeatedly. It was difficult to believe she could’ve been married to Alek this long without making love.

  He’d been eager for the physical side of their relationship—until she’d revealed the first signs of wanting him, too. How typical of a man.

  “Oh, Alek,” she breathed, holding her grandmother’s picture. “Will there ever be a way for us?”

  In her heart she heard a resounding yes. But the voice wasn’t her own, nor was it Alek’s. It came from Ruth.

  * * *

  The day of the funeral, Julia wore a black dress and an old-fashioned pillbox hat with black netting that fitted over her face.

  Julia hadn’t slept well the past few nights and the fatigue was beginning to show. She’d made a point of coming home late, knowing Alek would be waiting for her. She’d mumble something about being tired and close her bedroom door, slipping into bed alone.

  She’d spent the past two nights wishing Alek was there with her. She cursed her foolish pride for not approaching him. But she was afraid that once she did, she’d ask him to make love to her again, and this time she wouldn’t take no for an answer.

  The limousine delivered Julia, Jerry and Alek to the Methodist church where Ruth had worshiped for a number of years. Jerry and Alek climbed out first. Alek offered her his hand as Julia stepped out of the car. A small group of mourners had formed on the sidewalk outside the church, awaiting the family’s arrival. Julia’s gaze quickly scanned the crowd, then stopped abruptly.

  There, seeking her eyes, stood Roger Stanhope.

  Eight

  Julia hesitated, one foot on the curb, the other in the limousine. Crouched as she was, she felt in danger of collapsing. Roger had dared to show up at her grandmother’s funeral! The man had no sense of decency, but that didn’t come as any surprise.

  Although Alek couldn’t have known what was happening, he leaned forward, put his arm around her waist and assisted her to an upright position.

  His eyes were filled with concern. Julia’s heart was beating double time and her head was spinning. She was afraid she might faint.

  “I…I need to sit down.”

  “Of course.” With his hand securely around her waist, Alek led her into the church vestibule. A row of wooden pews lined the wall and Alek encouraged her to take a seat.

  “What’s wrong?” Jerry asked.

  Julia couldn’t answer. “Water…could you get me a glass of water?”

  Jerry hurried away and returned a moment later with her drink. Other friends were beginning to arriv
e and after taking a moment to compose herself, Julia stood.

  How dare Roger come to her grandmother’s funeral! He’d done it to agitate her, and his unscrupulous ploy had worked. Julia had never been so close to passing out. Not even the day her father had—She pushed the thought from her mind, refusing to dwell on anything that had to do with Roger.

  Jerry caught sight of their former employee, and his mouth thinned with irritation. “You saw him, didn’t you?”

  Julia nodded.

  “I’ll have him thrown out.”

  “Don’t,” she said. Roger wasn’t worth the effort. “He’ll cause a scene. Besides, I think Ruth would’ve gotten a kick out of it. We tried everything but a subpoena to talk to him after the fire, remember?”

  “I’m not likely to forget.”

  “Who would’ve believed he’d end up coming to us?”

  “Not me,” Jerry agreed.

  Alek didn’t say anything, but Julia was well aware of his presence at her side. She wasn’t fooled; he took in every word of the exchange between her and her brother.

  “Point out this man to me,” Alek said to them both. “I will see to his removal.”

  Jerry glanced at Julia, looking for her consent. She thought about it a moment, then decided she wouldn’t give Roger the satisfaction.

  “Don’t kid yourself, Julia, he’s up to something,” Jerry warned.

  “I’d be a fool if I didn’t know that,” she returned testily. She’d been duped by Roger once and it wasn’t a mistake she cared to repeat. She knew his methods and wouldn’t be taken in a second time.

  The three of them had gathered in the back of the church and were unaware of anyone else until Pastor Hall approached them and announced they were ready for the service to begin.

  Julia had known this ordeal would leave her emotionally depleted. Several times during the funeral she felt close to tears, but she held them at bay, taking in deep, even breaths. Her fingers were entwined with Alek’s and she appreciated more than ever that he was with her. His presence lent her the strength she needed to get through the heartrending experience of saying goodbye to the woman she loved so dearly.

  Anna sat nearby, and despite the solemnity of the occasion, Julia thought she saw Jerry cast her several interested glances.