Fairest of Them All
He closed his fist around it and shook his head. One big, blunt finger drifted upward to caress the delicate arch of her jaw. “Leave me now, my lady, and I shall consider it a trophy of a battle contemplated, but never fought.”
Mesmerized by the frosty glitter of his eyes, Holly hesitated, sensing it was the last warning he would bestow upon her. A peculiar mixture of fear and anticipation quickened her breath as she briefly wondered what fate she might endure at his hands should she fail to heed it.
His mask dropped, briefly, tantalizingly, showing her the indisputable truth. He wasn’t afraid of her. He was afraid of what he might do to her should she be fool enough to linger.
Tearing her gaze away from his, she raced for the stairs without daring a single backward glance.
Had she done so, she might have seen the knight sink down on the bench in the moonlight, his massive body folding in on itself as if to protect his heart from a blow that had already done mortal damage.
• • •
“Men! Faithless, miserable wretches, the lot of them!”
Holly groaned in grudging satisfaction as she sank into the hot bath Elspeth had prepared for her. Steam wafted up from the myrrh-scented water, curling the tendrils of hair that had snaked loose from the heavy coil wound atop her head.
Elspeth drew a rough sponge over her shoulders, the motion failing to soothe her as it should. “Ye shouldn’t have run off like that, my lady. Brother Nathanael almost called for the castle guard. ’Tisn’t safe to be rambling alone with all those men lurking about.”
Remembering the naked desire she had glimpsed so briefly on the knight’s face, Holly snorted bitterly. “You speak the truth, Elspeth, for it seems one woman will do as well as any other in the dark.”
She leaned her head back against the lip of the wooden tub while Elspeth sponged her breasts and belly. As her eyes drifted shut, she was besieged by an unbidden vision of the knight entangled in the pale, plump arms of his “lady.”
“Lady indeed!” she muttered beneath her breath. “Probably a castle doxy. Or one of the serving wenches.”
“Eh? Did ye speak, child?”
“No,” she snapped without opening her eyes, then mumbled, “Probably has a wife tucked away somewhere as well. Rutting boar.” Her eyes popped open. “Bear.”
Elspeth cast her mistress’s sullen face a puzzled look. The girl had flown into the chamber a short while ago as if pursued by some wild beast, eyes sparkling and cheeks riotous with color. Ignoring her attendants’ cooed questions and breathless protests, she had herded them from the room, even daring to slam the door in her tutor’s livid face. The ladies had prudently retired, but Brother Nathanael still hovered outside the bolted door, his pacing punctuated by sharp knocks and imperious demands for entry.
Elspeth hummed beneath her breath as she wrung out the sponge. In truth, the nurse much preferred this grumbling virago to the pale, subdued ghost of her mistress who had haunted the castle since learning of the tournament that was to take place on the morrow.
Her bewilderment returned when Holly snatched the sponge from her hands and began to scrub at her lips.
Sensing Elspeth’s scrutiny, Holly sheepishly lowered the sponge, knowing her efforts were in vain. No matter how hard she scrubbed, the knight’s taste still lingered. It was as if his kiss had invaded not only her mouth, but her soul as well. She wanted nothing so much as to throw her hands over her face and burst into tears.
She had been on the verge of surrendering to her father’s machinations, but her encounter with the knight had reminded her of one thing. She must fight for her freedom. She would never become the docile ornament of a tyrant like Eugene, or worse yet, the chattel of some man who would leave her languishing by the hearth while he trysted with his doxy in a moonlit garden.
The chamber door came under the assault of a persistent fist. “I insist that you let me in, Holly. I’ve yet to prepare you for your song on the morrow. This childish sulking ill becomes you.” The last was punctuated by a frustrated kick to the unyielding door.
Holly gritted her teeth. When he had applied for the position as priest of Tewksbury, Brother Nathanael had sworn to her father that he had left the abbey on a pilgrimage to seek sustenance for his starving soul. Holly suspected the abbot had booted out the arrogant young monk after he’d exhibited the poor judgment of pointing out that if he were God, he would have designed both women and kittens to function with far more efficiency.
“Go away, Nathanael.” She was the only one who dared to strip him of his title, knowing it pricked his boundless vanity beyond bearing. “I’ll sing for no man tonight. Not even you.”
A distinctly impious mutter penetrated the thick oak of the door before his footsteps receded.
“Men!” Holly sprang to a standing position, streaming water over the sides of the round tub. “The rogues care for nothing but sweetness of voice, fairness of face, and bounteous breasts. Why do they praise such trifles? Why does no one ever compliment me on the sharpness of my wit? Or my gentle demeanor?” She hurled the sponge at the far wall. It struck with a satisfying splat and dropped to the floor.
Bounding from the tub, she stormed across the chamber, leaving Elspeth to trot behind her, wringing a linen towel in her chapped hands. “Come now, my lady. Ye’ll take a chill.”
Holly paused before a full-length looking glass, turning this way and that to give her naked form a critical perusal. There was simply no help for it, she thought grimly. She was stunning from any angle. As Elspeth timidly patted the droplets of moisture from her back, she wondered if there was any way for her to outwit both her tutor and her papa. If their plan was successful, tonight would be the last night she would slip between her sheets naked and alone.
She reached up to uncoil her hair, briefly touching the spot from where the knight had cut his trophy. He had taken such care that she could barely tell a curl was missing. She remembered the wisp of ebony lying across his callused palm, the tantalizing brush of his fingertip against her jaw. Who would have thought his graceless paws were capable of such subtlety?
Sighing wistfully, she inquired of her reflection, “Why are men such vexsome creatures?”
“I can’t say, my lady,” Elspeth replied, lifting one of Holly’s arms to dry beneath it. “Not a moment’s trouble have they given me.”
Holly’s gaze slowly shifted to Elspeth’s reflection. Her nurse was but a few inches shorter than she, but her simian bearing made Holly’s slim form tower over her. Holly had never given Elspeth’s looks, or lack of them, much regard. She saw only the twinkle of affection in the woman’s crossed eyes, heard only the note of concern in her hoarse croak, felt only the tenderness in the touch of her gnarled hands.
Compared to those gifts, bestowed so generously upon a little girl still pining for her mother, Elspeth’s sparse mustache and the pronounced wart beside her nose had all faded to insignificance. Until that moment.
Still fingering a strand of her hair, Holly glanced once more between their reflections, a calculating smile burgeoning on her lips.
Elspeth grinned, revealing a row of blackened stumps. “ ‘Ye’d best earn a position in the castle, girl,’ my papa always said, ‘for only a blind man would take ye to wife.’ ” She giggled, a girlish sound, devoid of self-pity. “Called me his little gargoyle, he did. Threatened to make me sit on the thatch o’ the cottage and frighten off wicked spirits.”
Elspeth dropped the towel with a startled shriek as Holly enveloped her in a damp embrace, nearly lifting her off the floor. “Then your papa was a fool, for I think you’re the most beautiful woman in all the world!”
As Holly pressed her smooth cheek to her nurse’s mottled one, Elspeth squinted at their reflections, recognizing with dawning alarm the spark of mischief in her mistress’s eyes.
CHAPTER 4
A crisp fanfare rippled through the morning air.
Carey spat out the plume of the feathered quill he was nibbling, his gaze shifting to
the castle on the hill. The metallic rumble of the drawbridge being lowered underscored the brassy invitation of the trumpet.
As if drawn by its siren lure, Austyn emerged from their faded tent into the dappled sunshine. Carey promptly sat on his parchment and tucked the quill behind his ear, fully expecting to be chided for not devoting his free time to polishing his master’s chain mail or some other practical task. His first glimpse of Austyn’s face banished all such concerns from his mind and brought him halfway to his feet.
Carey had been dodging retching, moaning Englishmen all morning, men sickened to pale husks of themselves by their overindulgence in ale, wenches, and revelry, but none of them bore the haunted look of the damned as Sir Austyn of Gavenmore did. To Carey’s knowledge, his master had indulged in none of those vices. He had returned early to the tent, declining to discuss the outcome of his quest, and retired without a word. It appeared he had not slept, but had spent the night wrestling demons and losing.
The skin of his brow was pale, his eyes burning hollows. Yet the mouth beneath his dark mustache was set in sullen determination. Carey had seen that particular twist of his lips only once before, when he’d discovered a nine-year-old Austyn struggling to carry his mother’s body down the narrow, winding stairs of Caer Gavenmore without bumping her limp head on the wall.
Carey held his breath without realizing it, anticipating the gruff command to prepare the horses so they could begin the long journey home.
Austyn strode past him without a word, heading toward the castle.
Scrambling to gather ink and parchment, Carey hastened after him, trotting to match his long strides. “We’re staying?” he dared.
Carey’s boldness earned him a brusque nod. “Aye. We can’t keep living as we have forever—riding from tourney to tourney, fighting and clawing for every ounce of English gold they’ll surrender to us. What if I should lose a purse, or worse yet, a limb? What if I were to die on the jousting field? What would happen to Caer Gavenmore then?” He shook his head. “I’ll not leave this place without that dowry. My father has been punished enough by that damned curse. I’ll rot in hell before I’ll see him robbed of his freedom and everything he holds dear.” Austyn’s resolution failed to soften the fierceness of his expression. A twitching acrobat flipped out of his path, forgoing his penny payment to seek less hazardous turf.
The acrobat wasn’t the only one looking askance at Austyn. Their passage among the ranks of the English streaming up the hill earned him more than a few wary stares, nudges, and knowing mutters of “Gavenmore.” The Welsh giant towered head and shoulders over even the tallest of them. His current demeanor only contributed to his air of menace. He looked like a man about to sell his soul to Satan without reaping any of the benefits.
Carey’s curiosity mounted. “Was the lady truly so fair?”
Austyn shuddered, never breaking stride. “ ’Twas like looking into the face of my own death.”
“Eyes?”
“Two of them. So blue as to be almost violet.”
“Brow?”
“Fair as virgin snow.”
Carey unrolled his parchment, juggling ink and paper. “Nose?”
Austyn lifted a self-conscious finger to his own nose, battered from too many blows taken in a helm. “Straight.”
Drawing the quill from behind his ear, Carey wiped a smudge of ink from his temple before starting to scribble. “Voice?”
“Drizzles over your ears like sun-warmed mead.”
“Oh, that’s good. That’s very good. What of her hair?”
Austyn slipped a hand into his hauberk, drawing forth a sable curl that unrolled past his knees. Carey stopped writing, swallowing hard. “Sweet Christ, Austyn? Did you leave her any?”
Austyn’s glare as he tucked the treasure away prompted Carey to blurt out, “Lips?”
A pained mist captured his master’s eyes. “Soft. Yielding. Made a man want to sink between them and …” His voice faded on a groan.
Carey scribbled madly. This was even better than he had hoped. “Temperament?”
Austyn’s resignation erupted into passion. “Such boldness! Such brazen vanity! Saucy wench hadn’t a morsel of sense. Too foolish to shrink from an armed knight in a deserted garden, yet sniveled like an infant when I laid my blade to her precious hair.”
Carey tucked the quill between his teeth and nibbled thoughtfully. “So you found her distasteful, eh? Perhaps your repugnance will protect you from—”
Austyn’s fist closed in the front of his tunic, driving him back until his shoulders struck a handy oak. Carey quailed before the desperation in his master’s face. “Distasteful? Repugnance? Would to God that it were so! I wanted to drag her to the ground beneath me and plow her like a fallow field. I wanted to drop to my knees, bathe her feet in my kisses and swear her my eternal fealty. I wanted to lock her away so no man but me would ever lay eyes on her again.”
In his friend’s eyes Carey caught a glimpse of the beast Austyn had struggled his entire life to tame. A tremor of foreboding shook him. Ignoring the curious gazes of the passersby, he whispered, “ ’Tis not too late to turn back.”
Austyn released him, absently smoothing the wrinkle he had made in his tunic. Even as a boy, the weight of responsibility had straightened his shoulders instead of bowing them. “That’s where you’re wrong, lad. ’Twas too late to turn back before I was born.” He squatted to retrieve Carey’s scattered quill and papers, noticing them for the first time. “And what’s this?”
Carey rescued his precious notes, trying not to squirm. He’d been hoping to put off this moment for as long as he dared. “While you were gone last night, I passed the time with some bards brought by their masters from Normandy. It seems the tournament is to commence with a test of chivalry.”
“Chivalry?” Austyn spat out the word like an epithet.
“Aye. After the earl’s daughter opens the tournament with a song, her suitors are to engage in a brief contest of”—he dropped his voice to a mumble—“verse.”
Austyn spun on his heel and marched back toward the tent.
Carey rushed after him. “Don’t be so rash! ’Tis only the earl’s ploy to separate the civilized from any unschooled savages who might attempt to win his daughter.”
Austyn’s long strides did not falter. “Then you can congratulate the man for me. This unschooled savage is going home to Wales. Being damned for all eternity is one thing, but being made an ass of is quite another.”
Carey scampered ahead of him, waving the papers beneath Austyn’s intractable nose. “I’ll not let them make an ass of you. That’s why I’ve been up all night writing these masterful tributes to the lady’s beauty.”
Austyn stopped dead, a scant inch away from trampling his man-at-arms. His nostrils flared like an angry bull’s. “Very well.” He stabbed a finger at the beaming Carey. “But if she dares to laugh at me, I won’t kill her. I’ll kill you.”
Austyn’s hackles prickled as they passed through the inner bailey of Castle Tewksbury to be swallowed by the yawning jaws of the great hall.
The sturdy weight of the hauberk worn beneath his surcoat soothed his raw nerves. He refused to leave his back unguarded in such a mob of armed English. No peace decreed by treaty or surrender could banish the centuries of distrust bred into his Welsh bones.
A retinue of extravagantly garbed knights led by a hooded lord jostled past Carey, sneering at his worn tunic and faded boots. Carey waved a fist at their backs. “Flee my wrath, will you? Be ye knights or damsels?”
Austyn clapped a restraining hand on his man’s shoulder, itching to caress his own sword hilt. He refrained, knowing any hasty flare of his temper might result in bloodshed. Better to save his hostility for the battlefield of the tournament, where he could vent it with honor for a worthy prize.
Provided, of course, that he survived the humiliation of dueling with rhyme instead of steel. A flush of heat crept up the back of his neck as he envisioned the beauty from the garde
n, her dark head tossed in laughter, her eyes sparkling with merriment at his expense.
He shot Carey a glower, but his efforts were wasted. His man-at-arms was gazing around, as wide-eyed and open-mouthed as if the pearly gates of heaven had parted to grant him entry. Austyn rolled his eyes. Carey was only two summers younger than his own twenty-nine years, but at times Austyn felt decades older.
He resisted his own temptation to gawk. Castle Tewksbury was less a castle than a palace. Instead of a central hearth with a crude smokehole overhead, three pairs of stone-hooded fireplaces flanked the plastered walls. Crushed beneath his boots were not sweet herbs and stale rushes, but luxuriant Turkish rugs. Austyn could remember when Caer Gavenmore had been adorned with such treasures, before his mother died and they’d all been sold off to pay the taxes.
At the far end of the vaulted hall sat a raised dais draped in white samite. Behind the platform, an oriel window sifted the sunlight through panes of colored glass, casting jade and ruby masks over the expectant faces clustered beneath it.
Carey nudged him. “Looks like a bloody cathedral, doesn’t it?”
“Aye.” Austyn nodded grimly, eyeing the virginal hue of the draped dais. “A fitting altar for an angel.”
He could not help but notice that the crafty earl had admitted no women, noble or peasant, into the hall. He doubtlessly wanted every scrap of male attention riveted on the tournament’s prize. Austyn snorted cynically. The precaution was unnecessary. From what he had seen of the earl’s daughter, she embodied the unfulfilled desires of every man born into the world since Adam. With such a glorious Eve displayed before them, any other female present would have paled like the moon before the radiance of the rising sun.
The scarlet curtain draped over the arched doorway at the side of the platform parted. Austyn’s pulse quickened in anticipation even as his gut knotted with dread.
A squat man emerged. Had his saffron-colored surcoat not borne the Tewksbury coat of arms, Austyn might have taken the fellow for one of the mummers. ’Twas incomprehensible to him that the dwarfish creature could have spawned the willowy nymph Austyn had encountered in the garden. The man looked better suited to frolicking beneath a toadstool.