The Pillars of the Earth
In a tone of mild exasperation, Philip said: "Perhaps you would tell us, Brother Remigius, why you chose to read that short verse in the middle of our discussion of building plans?"
Remigius pointed an accusing finger at Jack. "Because the man who wants to be our master builder is living in a state of sin!" he thundered.
Jack could hardly believe he was serious. He said indignantly: "It's true that our union has not been blessed by the Church, because of special circumstances, but we'll get married as soon as you like."
"You can't," Remigius said triumphantly. "Aliena is already married."
"But that union was never consummated."
"Nevertheless, the couple were wed in church."
"But if you won't let me marry her, how can I avoid committing adultery?" Jack said angrily.
"That's enough!" The voice was Philip's. Jack looked at him. He seemed furious. He said: "Jack, are you living in sin with your brother's wife?"
Jack was flabbergasted. "Didn't you know?"
"Of course I didn't!" Philip roared. "Do you think I could have remained silent about it if I had?"
There was a silence. It was unusual for Philip to shout. Jack saw that he was in real trouble. His offense was a technicality, of course, but monks were supposed to be strict about such things. Unfortunately, the fact that Philip had not known that he was living with Aliena made matters much worse. It had enabled Remigius to take Philip by surprise and make a fool of him. Now Philip would have to be firm, to prove that he was strict.
Jack said miserably: "But you can't build the wrong sort of church just to punish me."
Remigius said with relish: "You'll have to leave the woman."
"Piss off, Remigius," Jack said. "She has my child--he's a year old!"
Remigius sat back with a look of satisfaction.
Philip said: "Jack, if you speak like that in chapter you'll have to leave."
Jack knew he should calm down but he could not. "But it's ludicrous!" he said. "You're telling me to abandon my woman and our child! This isn't morality, it's hairsplitting."
Philip's anger abated somewhat, and Jack saw the more familiar light of sympathy in his clear blue eyes. He said: "Jack, you may take a pragmatic approach to God's laws but we prefer to be rigid--that's why we're monks. And we cannot have you as builder while you're living in a state of adultery."
Jack remembered a line of Scripture. "Jesus said: 'He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone.' "
Philip said: "Yes, but Jesus said to the adulteress: 'Go, and sin no more.' " He turned to Remigius. "I take it you would withdraw your opposition if the adultery ceased."
"Of course!" said Remigius.
Despite his anger and misery, Jack noticed that Philip had outmaneuvered Remigius neatly. He had made the adultery the decisive question, thereby sidestepping the whole issue of the new design. But Jack was not ready to go along with that. He said: "I'm not going to leave her!"
Philip said: "It might not be for long."
Jack paused. That had taken him by surprise. "What do you mean?"
"You could marry Aliena if her first marriage was annulled."
"Can that be done?"
"It should be automatic, if, as you say, the marriage was never consummated."
"What do I have to do?"
"Apply to an ecclesiastical court. Normally it would be Bishop Waleran's court, but in this case you probably should go straight to the archbishop of Canterbury."
"And is the archbishop bound to agree?"
"In justice, yes."
That was not a totally unequivocal answer, Jack noted. "But we would have to live apart meanwhile?"
"If you want to be appointed master builder of Kingsbridge Cathedral--yes."
Jack said: "You're asking me to choose between the two things I love most in all the world."
Philip said: "Not for long."
His voice made Jack look up sharply: there was real compassion in it. Jack realized Philip was genuinely sorry to have to do this. That made him less angry and more sad. He said: "How long?"
"It could be as much as a year."
"A year!"
"You don't have to live in different towns," Philip said.
"You can still see Aliena and the child."
"Do you know she went to Spain to look for me?" Jack said. "Can you imagine that?" But the monks had no conception of what love was about. He said bitterly: "Now I must tell her we've got to live apart."
Philip stood up and put a hand on Jack's shoulder. "The time will go by faster than you think, I promise you," he said. "And you'll be busy--building the new cathedral."
II
The forest had grown and changed in eight years. Jack had thought he could never get lost in territory he had once known like the back of his hand, but he had been wrong. Old trails were overgrown, new ones had been trodden in the undergrowth by the deer and the boar and the wild ponies, streamlets had altered course, old trees had fallen and young ones were taller. Everything was diminished: distances seemed less and hills not so steep. Most striking of all, he felt a stranger here. When a young deer gazed at him, startled, across a glade, Jack could not guess which family the deer belonged to or where its dam was. When a flight of ducks took off, he did not instantly know what stretch of water they had risen from and why. And he was nervous, for he had no idea where the outlaws were.
He had ridden most of the way here from Kingsbridge, but he had to dismount as soon as he left the main road, for the trees grew too low over the trail to permit him to ride. Returning to the haunts of his boyhood made him feel irrationally sad. He had never appreciated, because he had never realized, how simple life had been then. His greatest passion had been for strawberries, and he had known that every summer, for a few days, there would be as many as he could eat, growing on the forest floor. Nowadays everything was problematical: his combative friendship with Prior Philip; his frustrated love for Aliena; his towering ambition to build the most beautiful cathedral in the world; his burning need to find out the truth about his father.
He wondered how much his mother had changed in the two years he had been away. He was looking forward eagerly to seeing her again. He had coped perfectly well on his own, of course, but it was very reassuring to have someone in your life who was always ready to fight for you, and he had missed that comforting feeling.
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