Selected Stories of Philip K. Dick

  Neither Peters nor Nelson spoke.

  “I am Olham,” he said again. “I know I am. But I can't prove it.”

  “The robot,” Peters said, “would be unaware that he was not the real Spence Olham. He would become Olham in mind as well as body. He was given an artificial memory system, false recall. He would look like him, have his memories, his thoughts and interests, perform his job.

  “But there would be one difference. Inside the robot is a U-Bomb, ready to explode at the trigger phrase.” Peters moved a little away. “That's the one difference. That's why we're taking you to the Moon. They'll disassemble you and remove the bomb. Maybe it will explode, but it won't matter, not there.”

  Olham sat down slowly.

  “We'll be there soon,” Nelson said.

  He lay back, thinking frantically, as the ship dropped slowly down. Under them was the pitted surface of the Moon, the endless expanse of ruin. What could he do? What would save him?

  “Get ready,” Peters said.

  In a few minutes he would be dead. Down below he could see a tiny dot, a building of some kind. There were men in the building, the demolition team, waiting to tear him to bits. They would rip him open, pull off his arms and legs, break him apart. When they found no bomb they would be surprised; they would know, but it would be too late.

  Olham looked around the small cabin. Nelson was still holding the gun. There was no chance there. If he could get to a doctor, have an examination made—that was the only way. Mary could help him. He thought frantically, his mind racing. Only a few minutes, just a little time left. If he could contact her, get word to her some way.

  “Easy,” Peters said. The ship came down slowly, bumping on the rough ground. There was silence.

  “Listen,” Olham said thickly. “I can prove I'm Spence Olham. Get a doctor. Bring him here—”

  “There's the squad,” Nelson pointed. “They're coming.” He glanced nervously at Olham. “I hope nothing happens.”

  “We'll be gone before they start work,” Peters said.“We'll be out of here in a moment.” He put on his pressure suit. When he had finished he took the gun from Nelson. “I'll watch him for a moment.”

  Nelson put on his pressure suit, hurrying awkwardly. “How about him?” He indicated Olham. “Will he need one?”

  “No.” Peters shook his head. “Robots probably don't require oxygen.” The group of men were almost to the ship. They halted, waiting. Peters signaled to them.

  “Come on!” He waved his hand and the men approached warily; stiff, grotesque figures in their inflated suits.

  “If you open the door,” Olham said, “it means my death. It will be murder.”

  “Open the door,” Nelson said. He reached for the handle.

  Olham watched him. He saw the man's hand tighten around the metal rod. In a moment the door would swing back, the air in the ship would rush out. He would die, and presently they would realize their mistake. Perhaps at some other time, when there was no war, men might not act this way, hurrying an individual to his death because they were afraid. Everyone was frightened, everyone was willing to sacrifice the individual because of the group fear.

  He was being killed because they could not wait to be sure of his guilt. There was not enough time.

  He looked at Nelson. Nelson had been his friend for years. They had gone to school together. He had been best man at his wedding. Now Nelson was going to kill him. But Nelson was not wicked; it was not his fault. It was the times. Perhaps it had been the same way during the plagues. When men had shown a spot they probably had been killed, too, without a moment's hesitation, without proof, on suspicion alone. In times of danger there was no other way.

  He did not blame them. But he had to live. His life was too precious to be sacrificed. Olham thought quickly. What could he do? Was there anything? He looked around.

  “Here goes,” Nelson said.

  “You're right,” Olham said. The sound of his own voice surprised him. It was the strength of desperation. “I have no need of air. Open the door.”

  They paused, looking at him in curious alarm.

  “Go ahead. Open it. It makes no difference.” Olham's hand disappeared inside his jacket. “I wonder how far you two can run?”

  “Run?”

  “You have fifteen seconds to live.” Inside his jacket his fingers twisted, his arm suddenly rigid. He relaxed, smiling a little. “You were wrong about the trigger phrase. In that respect you were mistaken. Fourteen seconds, now.”

  Two shocked faces stared at him from the pressure suits. Then they were struggling, running, tearing the door open. The air shrieked out, spilling into the void. Peters and Nelson bolted out of the ship. Olham came after them. He grasped the door and dragged it shut. The automatic pressure system chugged furiously, restoring the air. Olham let his breath out with a shudder.

  One more second—

  Beyond the window the two men had joined the group. The group scattered, running in all directions. One by one they threw themselves down, prone on the ground. Olham seated himself at the control board. He moved the dials into place. As the ship rose up into the air the men below scrambled to their feet and stared up, their mouths open.

  “Sorry,” Olham murmured, “but I've got to get back to Earth.”

  He headed the ship back the way it had come.

  It was night. All around the ship crickets chirped, disturbing the chill darkness. Olham bent over the vidscreen. Gradually the image formed; the call had gone through without trouble. He breathed a sigh of relief.

  “Mary,” he said. The woman stared at him. She gasped.

  “Spence! Where are you? What's happened?”

  “I can't tell you. Listen, I have to talk fast. They may break this call off any minute. Go to the Project grounds and get Dr. Chamberlain. If he isn't there, get any doctor. Bring him to the house and have him stay there. Have him bring equipment, X-ray, fluoroscope, everything.”

  “But—”

  “Do as I say. Hurry. Have him get it ready in an hour.” Olham leaned toward the screen. “Is everything all right? Are you alone?”

  “Alone?”

  “Is anyone with you? Has … has Nelson or anyone contacted you?”

  “No. Spence, I don't understand.”

  “All right. I'll see you at the house in an hour. And don't tell anyone anything. Get Chamberlain there on any pretext. Say you're very ill.”

  He broke the connection and looked at his watch. A moment later he left the ship, stepping down into the darkness. He had a half mile to go.

  He began to walk.

  One light showed in the window, the study light. He watched it, kneeling against the fence. There was no sound, no movement of any kind. He held his watch up and read it by starlight. Almost an hour had passed.

  Along the street a shoot bug came. It went on.

  Olham looked toward the house. The doctor should have already come. He should be inside, waiting with Mary. A thought struck him. Had she been able to leave the house? Perhaps they had intercepted her. Maybe he was moving into a trap.

  But what else could he do?

  With a doctor's records, photographs, and reports, there was a chance, a chance of proof. If he could be examined, if he could remain alive long enough for them to study him—

  He could prove it that way. It was probably the only way. His one hope lay inside the house. Dr. Chamberlain was a respected man. He was the staff doctor for the Project. He would know, his word on the matter would have meaning. He could overcome their hysteria, their madness, with facts.

  Madness—That was what it was. If only they would wait, act slowly, take their time. But they could not wait. He had to die, die at once, without proof, without any kind of trial or examination. The simplest test would tell, but they had no time for the simplest test. They could think only of the danger. Danger, and nothing more.

  He stood up and moved toward the house. He came up on the porch. At the door he paused, listening. Still no
sound. The house was absolutely still.

  Too still.

  Olham stood on the porch, unmoving. They were trying to be silent inside. Why? It was a small house; only a few feet away, beyond the door, Mary and Dr. Chamberlain should be standing. Yet he could hear nothing, no sound of voices, nothing at all. He looked at the door. It was a door he had opened and closed a thousand times, every morning and every night.

  He put his hand on the knob. Then, all at once, he reached out and touched the bell instead. The bell pealed, off some place in the back of the house. Olham smiled. He could hear movement.

  Mary opened the door. As soon as he saw her face he knew.

  He ran, throwing himself into the bushes. A security officer shoved Mary out of the way, firing past her. The bushes burst apart. Olham wriggled around the side of the house. He leaped up and ran, racing frantically into the darkness. A searchlight snapped on, a beam of light circling past him.

  He crossed the road and squeezed over a fence. He jumped down and made his way across a backyard. Behind him men were coming, security officers, shouting to each other as they came. Olham gasped for breath, his chest rising and falling.

  Her face—He had known at once. The set lips, the terrified, wretched eyes. Suppose he had gone ahead, pushed open the door, and entered! They had tapped the call and come at once, as soon as he had broken off. Probably she believed their account. No doubt she thought he was the robot, too.

  Olham ran on and on. He was losing the officers, dropping them behind. Apparently they were not much good at running. He climbed a hill and made his way down the other side. In a moment he would be back at the ship. But where to, this time? He slowed down, stopping. He could see the ship already, outlined against the sky, where he had parked it. The settlement was behind him; he was on the outskirts of the wilderness between the inhabited places, where the forests and desolation began. He crossed a barren field and entered the trees.

  As he came toward it, the door of the ship opened.

  Peters stepped out, framed against the light. In his arms was a heavy Boris gun. Olham stopped, rigid. Peters stared around him, into the darkness. “I know you're there, someplace,” he said. “Come on up here, Olham. There are security men all around you.”

  Olham did not move.

  “Listen to me. We will catch you very shortly. Apparently you still do not believe you're the robot. Your call to the woman indicates that you are still under the illusion created by your artificial memories.

  “But you are the robot. You are the robot, and inside you is the bomb. Any moment the trigger phrase may be spoken, by you, by someone else, by anyone. When that happens the bomb will destroy everything for miles around. The Project, the woman, all of us will be killed. Do you understand?”

  Olham said nothing. He was listening. Men were moving toward him, slipping through the woods.

  “If you don't come out, we'll catch you. It will be only a matter of time. We no longer plan to remove you to the Moon base. You will be destroyed on sight, and we will have to take the chance that the bomb will detonate. I have ordered every available security officer into the area. The whole county is being searched, inch by inch. There is no place you can go. Around this wood is a cordon of armed men. You have about six hours left before the last inch is covered.”

  Olham moved away. Peters went on speaking; he had not seen him at all. It was too dark to see anyone. But Peters was right. There was no place he could go. He was beyond the settlement, on the outskirts where the woods began. He could hide for a time, but eventually they would catch him.

  Only a matter of time.

  Olham walked quietly through the wood. Mile by mile, each part of the county was being measured off, laid bare, searched, studied, examined. The cordon was coming all the time, squeezing him into a smaller and smaller space.

  What was there left? He had lost the ship, the one hope of escape. They were at his home; his wife was with them, believing, no doubt, that the real Olham had been killed. He clenched his fists. Some place there was a wrecked Outspace needle-ship, and in it the remains of the robot. Somewhere nearby the ship had crashed and broken up.

  And the robot lay inside, destroyed.

  A faint hope stirred him. What if he could find the remains? If he could show them the wreckage, the remains of the ship, the robot—

  But where? Where would he find it?

  He walked on, lost in thought. Some place, not too far off, probably. The ship would have landed close to the Project; the robot would have expected to go the rest of the way on foot. He went up the side of a hill and looked around. Crashed and burned. Was there some clue, some hint? Had he read anything, heard anything? Some place close by, within walking distance. Some wild place, a remote spot where there would be no people.

  Suddenly Olham smiled. Crashed and burned—

  Sutton Wood.

  He increased his pace.

  It was morning. Sunlight filtered down through the broken trees, onto the man crouching at the edge of the clearing. Olham glanced up from time to time, listening. They were not far off, only a few minutes away. He smiled.

  Down below him, strewn across the clearing and into the charred stumps that had been Sutton Wood, lay a tangled mass of wreckage. In the sunlight it glittered a little, gleaming darkly. He had not had too much trouble finding it. Sutton Wood was a place he knew well; he had climbed around it many times in his life, when he was younger. He had known where he would find the remains. There was one peak that jutted up suddenly, without a warning.

  A descending ship, unfamiliar with the Wood, had little chance of missing it. And now he squatted, looking down at the ship, or what remained of it.

  Olham stood up. He could hear them, only a little distance away, coming together, talking in low tones. He tensed himself. Everything depended on who first saw him. If it was Nelson, he had no chance. Nelson would fire at once. He would be dead before they saw the ship. But if he had time to call out, hold them off for a moment—That was all he needed. Once they saw the ship he would be safe.

  But if they fired first—

  A charred branch cracked. A figure appeared, coming forward uncertainly. Olham took a deep breath. Only a few seconds remained, perhaps the last seconds of his life. He raised his arms, peering intently.

  It was Peters.

  “Peters!” Olham waved his arms. Peters lifted his gun, aiming. “Don't fire!” His voice shook. “Wait a minute. Look past me, across the clearing.”

  “I've found him,” Peters shouted. Security men came pouring out of the burned woods around him.

  “Don't shoot. Look past me. The ship, the needle-ship. The Outspace ship. Look!”

  Peters hesitated. The gun wavered.

  “It's down there,” Olham said rapidly. “I knew I'd find it here. The burned wood. Now you believe me. You'll find the remains of the robot in the ship. Look, will you?”

  “There is something down there,” one of the men said nervously.

  “Shoot him!” a voice said. It was Nelson.

  “Wait.” Peters turned sharply. “I'm in charge. Don't anyone fire. Maybe he's telling the truth.”

  “Shoot him,” Nelson said.“He killed Olham. Any minute he may kill us all. If the bomb goes off—”

  “Shut up.” Peters advanced toward the slope. He stared down. “Look at that.” He waved two men up to him. “Go down there and see what that is.”

  The men raced down the slope, across the clearing. They bent down, poking in the ruins of the ship.

  “Well?” Peters called.

  Olham held his breath. He smiled a little. It must be there; he had not had time to look, himself, but it had to be there. Suddenly doubt assailed him. Suppose the robot had lived long enough to wander away? Suppose his body had been completely destroyed, burned to ashes by the fire?

  He licked his lips. Perspiration came out on his forehead. Nelson was staring at him, his face still livid. His chest rose and fell.

  “Kill him,” Ne
lson said. “Before he kills us.”

  The two men stood up.

  “What have you found?” Peters said. He held the gun steady. “Is there anything there?”

  “Looks like something. It's a needle-ship, all right. There's something beside it.”

  “I'll look.” Peters strode past Olham. Olham watched him go down the hill and up to the men. The others were following after him, peering to see.

  “It's a body of some sort,” Peters said. “Look at it!”

  Olham came along with them. They stood around in a circle, staring down.

  On the ground, bent and twisted in a strange shape, was a grotesque form. It looked human, perhaps; except that it was bent so strangely, the arms and legs flung off in all directions. The mouth was open; the eyes stared glassily.

  “Like a machine that's run down,” Peters murmured. Olham smiled feebly. “Well?” he said.

  Peters looked at him.“I can't believe it. You were telling the truth all the time.”

  “The robot never reached me,” Olham said. He took out a cigarette and lit it. “It was destroyed when the ship crashed. You were all too busy with the war to wonder why an out-of-the-way woods would suddenly catch fire and burn. Now you know.”

  He stood smoking, watching the men. They were dragging the grotesque remains from the ship. The body was stiff, the arms and legs rigid.

  “You'll find the bomb now,” Olham said. The men laid the body on the ground. Peters bent down.

  “I think I see the corner of it.” He reached out, touching the body.

  The chest of the corpse had been laid open. Within the gaping tear something glinted, something metal. The men stared at the metal without speaking.

  “That would have destroyed us all, if it had lived,” Peters said. “That metal box there.”

  There was silence.

  “I think we owe you something,” Peters said to Olham.“This must have been a nightmare to you. If you hadn't escaped, we would have—” He broke off.

  Olham put out his cigarette.“I knew, of course, that the robot had never reached me. But I had no way of proving it. Sometimes it isn't possible to prove a thing right away. That was the whole trouble. There wasn't any way I could demonstrate that I was myself.”