The Diary of a Nobody
Mr Huttle paused for a moment, and the opportunity was afforded for the ladies to rise. I asked Mr Franching quietly to excuse me, as I did not wish to miss the last train, which we very nearly did, by-the-by, through Carrie having mislaid the little cloth cricket-cap which she wears when we go out.
It was very late when Carrie and I got home; but on entering the sitting-room I said: ‘Carrie, what do you think of Mr Hardfur Huttle?’ She simply answered: ‘How like Lupin!’ The same idea occurred to me in the train. The comparison kept me awake half the night. Mr Huttle was, of course, an older and more influential man; but he was like Lupin, and it made me think how dangerous Lupin would be if he were older and more influential. I feel proud to think Lupin does resemble Mr Huttle in some ways, Lupin, like Mr Huttle, has original and sometimes wonderful ideas; but it is those ideas that are so dangerous. They make men extremely rich or extremely poor. They make or break men. I always feel people are happier who live a simple unsophisticated life. I believe I am happy because I am not ambitious. Somehow I feel that Lupin, since he has been with Mr Perkupp, has become content to settle down and follow the footsteps of his father. This is a comfort.
Lupin is discharged. We are
in great trouble. Lupin gets engaged
elsewhere at a handsome
salary.
Chapter XXI
MAY 13. A terrible misfortune has happened. Lupin is discharged from Mr Perkupp’s office, and I scarcely know how I am writing my diary. I was away from office last Sat., the first time I have been absent through illness for twenty years. I believe I was poisoned by some lobster. Mr Perkupp was also absent, as Fate would have it; and our most valued customer, Mr Crowbillon, went to the office in a rage, and withdrew his custom. My boy Lupin not only had the assurance to receive him, but recommended him the firm of Gylterson, Sons and Co., Ltd. In my own humble judgement, and though I have to say it against my own son, this seems an act of treachery.
This morning I receive a letter from Perkupp, informing me that Lupin’s services are no longer required, and an interview with me is desired at eleven o’clock. I went down to the office with an aching heart, dreading an interview with Mr Perkupp, with whom I have never had a word. I saw nothing of Lupin in the morning. He had not got up when it was time for me to leave, and Carrie said I should do no good by disturbing him. My mind wandered so at the office that I could not do my work properly.
As I expected, I was sent for by Mr Perkupp, and the following conversation ensued as nearly as I can remember it.
Mr Perkupp said: ‘Good morning, Mr Pooter! This is a very serious business, I am not referring so much to the dismissal of your son, for I knew we should have to part sooner or later. I am the head of this old, influential, and much-respected firm; and when I consider the time has come to revolutionize the business, I will do it myself.’
I could see my good master was somewhat affected, and I said: ‘I hope, sir, you do not imagine that I have in any way countenanced my son’s unwarrantable interference?’ Mr Perkupp rose from his seat and took my hand, and said: ‘Mr Pooter, I would as soon suspect myself as suspect you.’ I was so agitated that in the confusion, to show my gratitude, I very nearly called him a ‘grand old man’.
Fortunately I checked myself in time, and said he was a ‘grand old master’. I was so unaccountable for my actions that I sat down, leaving him standing. Of course, I at once rose, but Mr Perkupp bade me sit down, which I was very pleased to do. Mr Perkupp, resuming, said: ‘You will understand, Mr Pooter, that the high-standing nature of our firm will not admit of our bending to anybody. If Mr Crowbillon chooses to put his work into other hands – I may add, less experienced hands – it is not for us to bend and beg back his custom.’ ‘You shall not do it, sir,’ I said with indignation. ‘Exactly,’ replied Mr Perkupp; ‘I shall not do it. But I was thinking this, Mr Pooter. Mr Crowbillon is our most valued client, and I will even confess – for I know this will not go beyond ourselves – that we cannot afford very well to lose him, especially in these times, which are not of the brightest. Now, I fancy you can be of service.’
I replied: ‘Mr Perkupp, I will work day and night to serve you!’
Mr Perkupp said: ‘I know you will. Now, what I should like you to do is this. You yourself might write to Mr Crowbillon – you must not, of course, lead him to suppose I know anything about your doing so – and explain to him that your son was only taken on as a clerk – quite an inexperienced one in fact – out of the respect the firm had for you, Mr Pooter. This is, of course, a fact. I don’t suggest that you should speak in too strong terms of your son’s conduct; but I may add, that had he been a son of mine, I should have condemned his interference with no measured terms. That I leave to you. I think the result will be that Mr Crowbillon will see the force of the foolish step he has taken, and our firm will neither suffer in dignity nor in pocket.’
I could not help thinking what a noble gentleman Mr Perkupp is. His manners and his way of speaking seem to almost thrill one with respect.
I said: ‘Would you like to see the letter before I send it?’
Mr Perkupp said: ‘Oh no! I had better not. I am supposed to know nothing about it, and I have every confidence in you. You must write the letter carefully. We are not very busy; you had better take the morning tomorrow, or the whole day if you like. I shall be here myself all day tomorrow, in fact all the week, in case Mr Crowbillon should call.’
I went home a little more cheerful, but I left word with Sarah that I could not see either Gowing or Cummings, nor in fact anybody, if they called in the evening. Lupin came into the parlour for a moment with a new hat on, and asked my opinion of it. I said I was not in the mood to judge of hats, and I did not think he was in a position to buy a new one. Lupin replied carelessly: ‘I didn’t buy it; it was a present.’
I have such terrible suspicions of Lupin now that I scarcely like to ask him questions, as I dread the answers so. He, however, saved me the trouble.
He said: ‘I met a friend, an old friend, that I did not quite think a friend at the time, but it’s all right. As he wisely said, “all is fair in love and war”, and there was no reason why we should not be friends still. He’s a jolly good, all-round sort of fellow, and a very different stamp from that inflated fool of a Perkupp.’
I said; ‘Hush, Lupin! Do not pray add insult to injury.’
Lupin said: ‘What do you mean by injury? I repeat, I have done no injury. Crowbillon is simply tired of a stagnant stick-in-the-mud firm, and made the change on his own account. I simply recommended the new firm as a matter of biz – good old biz!’
I said quietly: ‘I don’t understand your slang, and at my time of life have no desire to learn it; so, Lupin, my boy, let us change the subject. I will, if it please you, try and be interested in your new hat adventure.’
Lupin said: ‘Oh! there’s nothing much about it, except I have not once seen him since his marriage, and he said he was very pleased to see me, and hoped we should be friends. I stood a drink to cement the friendship, and he stood me a new hat – one of his own.’
I said rather wearily: ‘But you have not told me your old friend’s name?’
Lupin said, with affected carelessness: ‘Oh! didn’t I? Well, I will. It was Murray Posh.’
MAY 14. Lupin came down late, and seeing me at home all the morning, asked the reason of it. Carrie and I both agreed it was better to say nothing to him about the letter I was writing, so I evaded the question.
Lupin went out, saying he was going to lunch with Murray Posh in the City. I said I hoped Mr Posh would provide him with a berth. Lupin went out laughing, saying: ‘I don’t mind wearing Posh’s one-priced hats, but I am not going to sell them.’ Poor boy, I fear he is perfectly hopeless.
It took me nearly the whole day to write to Mr Crowbillon. Once or twice I asked Carrie for suggestions; and although it seems ungrateful, her suggestions were none of them to the point, while one or two were absolutely idiotic. Of course I d
id not tell her so. I got the letter off, and took it down to the office for Mr Perkupp to see, but he again repeated that he could trust me.
Gowing called in the evening, and I was obliged to tell him about Lupin and Mr Perkupp; and, to my surprise, he was quite inclined to side with Lupin. Carrie joined in, and said she thought I was taking much too melancholy a view of it. Gowing produced a pint sample-bottle of Madeira, which had been given him, which he said would get rid of the blues. I dare say it would have done so if there had been more of it; but as Gowing helped himself to three glasses, it did not leave much for Carrie and me to get rid of the blues with.
MAY 15. A day of great anxiety, for I expected every moment a letter from Mr Crowbillon. Two letters came in the evening – one for me, with ‘Crowbillon Hall’ printed in large gold-and-red letters on the back of the envelope; the other for Lupin, which I felt inclined to open and read, as it had ‘Gylterson, Sons, and Co Limited’, which was the recommended firm. I trembled as I opened Mr Crowbillon’s letter. I wrote him sixteen pages, closely written; he wrote me less than sixteen lines.
His letter was: ‘Sir, – I totally disagree with you. Your son, in the course of five minutes’ conversation, displayed more intelligence than your firm has done during the last five years. – Yours faithfully, Gilbert E. Gillam O. Crowbillon.’
What am I to do? Here is a letter that I dare not show to Mr Perkupp, and would not show to Lupin for anything. The crisis had yet to come; for Lupin arrived, and, opening his letter, showed a cheque for £25 as a commission for the recommendation of Mr Crowbillon, whose custom to Mr Perkupp is evidently lost for ever. Cummings and Gowing both called, and both took Lupin’s part. Cummings went so far as to say that Lupin would make a name yet. I suppose I was melancholy, for I could only ask: ‘Yes, but what sort of a name?’
MAY 16. I told Mr Perkupp the contents of the letter in a modified form, but Mr Perkupp said: ‘Pray don’t discuss the matter; it is at an end. Your son will bring his punishment upon himself.’ I went home in the evening, thinking of the hopeless future of Lupin. I found him in most extravagant spirits and in evening dress. He threw a letter on the table for me to read.
To my amazement, I read that Gylterson and Sons had absolutely engaged Lupin at a salary of £200 a year, with other advantages. I read the letter through three times and thought it must have been for me. But there it was – Lupin Pooter – plain enough. I was silent. Lupin said: ‘What price Perkupp now? You take my tip, Guv. – “off” with Perkupp and freeze on to Gylterson, the firm of the future! Perkupp’s firm? The stagnant dummies have been standing still for years, and now are moving back. I want to go on. In fact I must go off, as I am dining with the Murray Poshes tonight.’
In the exuberance of his spirits he hit his hat with his stick, gave a loud war ‘Whoo-oop,’ jumped over a chair, and took the liberty of rumpling my hair all over my forehead, and bounced out of the room, giving me no chance of reminding him of his age and the respect which was due to his parent. Gowing and Cummings came in the evening, and positively cheered me up with congratulations respecting Lupin.
Gowing said: ‘I always said he would get on, and, take my word, he has more in his head than we three put together.’
Carrie said: ‘He is a second Hardfur Huttle.’
Master Percy Edgar Smith James.
Mrs James (of Sutton) visits us again
and introduces ‘spiritual séances’.
Chapter XXII
MAY 26. SUNDAY. We went to Sutton after dinner to have meat-tea with Mr and Mrs James. I had no appetite, having dined well at two, and the entire evening was spoiled by little Percy – their only son – who seems to me to be an utterly spoiled child.
Two or three times he came up to me and deliberately kicked my shins. He hurt me once so much that the tears came into my eyes. I gently remonstrated with him, and Mrs James said: ‘Please don’t scold him; I do not believe in being too severe with young children. You spoil their character.’
Little Percy set up a deafening yell here, and when Carrie tried to pacify him, he slapped her face.
I was so annoyed, I said: ‘That is not my idea of bringing up children, Mrs James.’
Mrs James said: ‘People have different ideas of bringing up children – even your son Lupin is not the standard of perfection.’
A Mr Mezzini (an Italian, I fancy) here took Percy in his lap. The child wriggled and kicked and broke away from Mr Mezzini, saying: ‘I don’t like you – you’ve got a dirty face.’
A very nice gentleman, Mr Birks Spooner, took the child by the wrist and said: ‘Come here, dear, and listen to this.’
He detached his chronometer from the chain and made his watch strike six.
To our horror, the child snatched it from his hand and bounced it down upon the ground like one would a ball.
Mr Birks Spooner was most amiable, and said he could easily get a new glass put in, and did not suppose the works were damaged.
To show you how people’s opinions differ, Carrie said the child was bad-tempered, but it made up for that defect by its looks, for it was – in her mind – an unquestionably beautiful child.
I may be wrong, but I do not think I have seen a much uglier child myself. That is my opinion.
Master Percy Edgar Smith James
MAY 30. I don’t know why it is, but I never anticipate with any pleasure the visits to our house of Mrs James, of Sutton. She is coming again to stay for a few days. I said to Carrie this morning, as I was leaving: ‘I wish, dear Carrie, I could like Mrs James better than I do.’
Carrie said: ‘So do I, dear; but as for years I have had to put up with Mr Gowing, who is vulgar, and Mr Cummings, who is kind but most uninteresting, I am sure, dear, you won’t mind the occasional visits of Mrs James, who has more intellect in her little finger than both your friends have in their entire bodies.’
I was so entirely taken aback by this onslaught on my two dear old friends, I could say nothing, and as I heard the ’bus coming, I left with a hurried kiss – a little too hurried, perhaps, for my upper lip came in contact with Carrie’s teeth and slightly cut it. It was quite painful for an hour afterwards. When I came home in the evening I found Carrie buried in a book on Spiritualism, called There is no Birth, by Florence Singleyet.1 I need scarcely say the book was sent her to read by Mrs James, of Sutton. As she had not a word to say outside her book, I spent the rest of the evening altering the stair-carpets, which are beginning to show signs of wear at the edges.
Mrs James arrived and, as usual, in the evening took the entire management of everything. Finding that she and Carrie were making some preparations for table-turning, I thought it time really to put my foot down. I have always had the greatest contempt for such nonsense, and put an end to it years ago when Carrie, at our old house, used to have séances every night with poor Mrs Fussters (who is now dead). If I could see any use in it, I would not care. As I stopped it in the days gone by I determined to do so now.
I said: ‘I am very sorry, Mrs James, but I totally disapprove of it, apart from the fact that I receive my old friends on this evening.’
Mrs James said: ‘Do you mean to say you haven’t read There is no Birth?’ I said: ‘No, and I have no intention of doing so.’ Mrs James seemed surprised and said: ‘All the world is going mad over the book.’ I responded rather cleverly: ‘Let it. There will be one sane man in it, at all events.’
Mrs James said she thought I was very unkind, and if people were all as prejudiced as I was, there would never have been the electric telegraph or the telephone.
I said that was quite a different thing.
Mrs James said sharply: ‘In what way, pray – in what way?’
I said: ‘In many ways.’
Mrs James said: ‘Well, mention one way.’
I replied quietly: ‘Pardon me, Mrs James; I decline to discuss the matter. I am not interested in it.’
Sarah at this moment opened the door and showed in Cummings, for which I was tha
nkful, for I felt it would put a stop to this foolish table-turning. But I was entirely mistaken; for on the subject being opened again, Cummings said he was most interested in Spiritualism, although he was bound to confess he did not believe much in it; still, he was willing to be convinced.
I firmly declined to take any part in it, with the result that my presence was ignored. I left the three sitting in the parlour at a small round table which they had taken out of the drawing-room. I walked into the hall with the ultimate intention of taking a little stroll. As I opened the door, who should come in but Gowing!
On hearing what was going on, he proposed that we should join the circle and he would go into a trance. He added that he knew a few things about old Cummings, and would invent a few about Mrs James. Knowing how dangerous Gowing is, I declined to let him take part in any such foolish performance. Sarah asked me if she could go out for half an hour, and I gave her permission, thinking it would be more comfortable to sit with Gowing in the kitchen than in the cold drawing-room. We talked a good deal about Lupin and Mr and Mrs Murray Posh, with whom he is as usual spending the evening. Gowing said: ‘I say, it wouldn’t be a bad thing for Lupin if old Posh kicked the bucket.’
My heart gave a leap of horror, and I rebuked Gowing very sternly for joking on such a subject. I lay awake half the night thinking of it – the other half was spent in nightmares on the same subject.
MAY 31. I wrote a stern letter to the laundress. I was rather pleased with the letter, for I thought it very satirical. I said: ‘You have returned the handkerchiefs without the colour. Perhaps you will return either the colour or the value of the handkerchiefs.’ I shall be rather curious to know what she will have to say.
More table-turning in the evening. Carrie said last night was in a measure successful, and they ought to sit again. Cummings came in, and seemed interested. I had the gas lighted in the drawing-room, got the steps, and repaired the cornice, which has been a bit of an eyesore to me. In a fit of unthinkingness – if I may use such an expression – I gave the floor over the parlour, where the séance was taking place, two loud raps with the hammer. I felt sorry afterwards, for it was the sort of ridiculous, foolhardy thing that Gowing or Lupin would have done.