He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not
Chapter 13
It’s five o'clock and the only thing that we have done is kiss, and kiss, and kiss. So much kissing that I forget to call Aria to pick me up. Damn she’s going to be so mad. But I don’t care. I just kissed Jackson Reed!
“Do you really have to go?” He says with a pouting lip that makes me want to sleep with him. But no, I have to control myself because if I don’t, I may push it too much and then who knows what’s going to happen next.
“Yeah, but I’m going to see you at the party, right?”
“Duh, I would never miss it. I really want you to stay Mia. Please stay…” He says and holds my hand, making me want him to touch me more but I cannot get carried away. Also, I need to go home or my mom would blow a fuse.
“Sorry, but Aria’s going to get mad at me. Also, my mom.” I smile and go to get my books, which are on the ground. We didn’t even touch the books; we didn’t even do any work. Just kissing. I put them in my bag and lift it up. My whole body feels numb somehow. Maybe it’s because he kissed me and touched me everywhere. Thank God my clothes are still on.
“Ok, fine. But call me, please. I need to hear your voice so that I know you're ok.” He stands up and looks at me in the eye. His eyes are making me melt so much….
“Yeah, don’t worry.” I look around his room then thinking that I should check what I look like in the mirror first before going into Aria’s car.
“Um, I was just wondering if I could use your washroom.”
“Yeah sure. It’s down the hall to the left.” He says while picking up some pillows that fell when we're kissing. Things got intense but not too intense.
I get my bag and open his door and walk down the hall to the bathroom. Down the hall to the left, he says. I say it over and over in my head so I don’t get lost in this gigantic house. I open a door that turns out to be the bathroom. Jackpot!
I turn on the light and put my bag on the ground. I take one glance in the mirror and I freeze. I don’t move, I don’t breathe and I don’t blink. My mouth is opened because I don’t believe on what I see on the mirror. I don’t see me. I don’t see the girl who looked normal, now all I see is a slut! My lips are red and swollen and my hair is in a mess. My blond beautiful hair is all in a mess. I try to look around my neck if I have a hickey. Luckily, I don’t. THANK GOD! I
feel so relieved that I don’t have to like hide my neck with a scarf. I turn on the tap and splash some water on my face. It feels so good and I feel alive again. Awake after all the stuff that happened. I also put some water on my hair to make it straighter and less messy. I comb my hair with my fingers to make the knots go away. I open the door and the first thing I see is Jackson. I am so confused why he is like right there but also, I feel safe and happy.
“What were you doing behind the door?” He laughs.
“Don’t worry. I just thought you like freaked out or something so I got scared and waited outside the door for you until you came out.” He laughs and comes closer to me. God, I feel like he smells nicer every time I see him.
“You smell nice.” I say which makes me blush. I didn’t even know I said that out loud. He must think I’m an idiot or something.
“Thanks. I just put more cologne because I thought I needed some more. I actually thought you left because I smelled bad or something.”
“How could you think that? You smell so good.”
“Thanks. You do too. Your hair smells like strawberry when I was kissing you. It made me woozy and wanting me to like yank it off you and keep it or something.”
“Ok weird, but very cute.”
“I know right.” He winks and holds my hand when we walk downstairs. He leads me to his door which my phone dings knowing that it’s Aria texting me saying that she’s right outside. Ready to pick me up.
“I guess I should go now, since Aria is here.”
“I really don’t want you to go, but I guess you have to because I feel like Aria will kick my ass if I don’t let you leave.” He smiles which is still making me notice that I am still holding his hand. It’s not like Aria will kill me, it’s just that she will make it a big deal, and then she will make me spill everything about what I did at Jackson’s house. In his room. When we were alone.
“Yeah she will. But don’t worry she’s a nice girl. Sometimes…. But I will see you at the party, right?” He moves closer and kisses me.
“What do you think?”
“I think you are so coming. I mean who doesn't want to see me in a tight dress which makes me choke and faint.” His eyes glow up and I know how much he wants to see me in the dress. And out of it. I hear the car horn. Even though we are inside I can still hear it. This is me every single morning. Bleh. I let go of his hands and put my hair in a low bun.
“I guess you gotta go then.” He says putting his hands in his pockets and looking at the ground. I see how broken he is and sad that I’m leaving. Damn, why do guys gotta be so sweet and kind. I go to him and kiss him but not for long so he doesn’t take me back to his room or something. Not that I wouldn’t enjoy it.
“Yeah, I have to.” I whisper and turn to the door and open it. I see Aria reading a book and then raising her head. I see her smiling and waving at Jackson. I smile at him and he hugs me. Hard. Like a hug that knows that the person doesn’t want you to leave. I breathe in all that smell and think. Jackson is now mine. And I am his. I smile at him and he smiles back. I turn around and start walking to Aria’s car. She is smiling so much. I guess she saw what happened. Aria smiles back to Jackson, which I do too and she puts the car in gear.
“OMG, did you just see what happened?”
“Um yes, it happened to me, so I felt it.” I say in a laugh. Aria sometimes is so silly. It makes me want to find someone that has the same crazy personality as her so she can be happy for the rest of her life.
“Don’t act like you didn’t like it Mia. I saw you. You liked it!!!” she yells, making me wish I stayed of Jackson’s house so I didn’t have to hear Aria yelling in the car on how I looked when Jackson hugged me. She should’ve seen how I looked when he kissed me.
“Yeah, yeah, so can we get like a drink or something? I’m parched.” I say, so she can change the subject or something. I’m not ready to tell Aria what happened at Jackson’s. I will just tell her at the party. Oh shit, the party. I forgot. It’s on Friday!! Ok what day is it? It’s Thursday so then the party is…. TOMORROW!!! No, no, no, no. I gotta buy stuff for the party. Drinks and food and whatever teenagers want. I am so not buying alcohol though. I would rather not get in trouble for I’m throwing a party without my mom’s approval than serve alcohol.
“Aria!”
“What what??? You ok?? What happened???” She says looking concerned. I feel like she thinks I have a heart attack or something.
“We forgot all about the party!!!” I say, shouting. I really don’t know why I’m so concerned about a dumb party but it’s for Aria and Jackson. Mostly Jackson. Ok all for Jackson. I don’t want him to think I’m a loser or anything. I want him to think I’m cool and hot and sexy. But I think he knows that already though.
“Oh no, I forgot! OMG Mia. We need to do this! We cannot just host a party without food or drinks! Or people!!” Aria says.
“What the hell are you talking about? People?”
“We forgot to invite people!” She says looking so scared and so out of focus. I really don’t feel that bad though because I didn’t even want to do this party in the first place, but no, Aria gets everything she wants. I guess I should help her since she is my best friend and I do love her a lot. Aria is a big part of my life and if that piece broke, I don’t know what I would do. I think I would be broken too….
“Aria, calm down. I will just call Jackson to text people from our school. He’s popular, so, yeah. Please don’t cry, you know I hate it when you cry.”
“Wait, you have Jackson’s phone number?”
“You're focusing on this now? What about
you not calming down because you didn’t invite people for the party? A lot happened that I have not told you…” I say while looking at Aria while she drives. She is such a mess sometimes, but I love her.
“Yeah, yeah, ok, so first things first, grocery store!!!!”
“Ugh, please no. I hate grocery shopping. I feel like my mom.”
“No time to be mad Mia. We need to buy the food and drinks or else people are not going to be happy!!!” She whimpers like this is the worst thing that has happened in her life. This is just the beginning…
We reach the grocery store and I swear, Aria is always such a mess when she parks. It takes her forever just to park her dumb car in a spot.
“Did you really have to take that long to park?”
“Um, yeah. What do you think? It’s me!” She smiles and puts her arm over me.
“Ok… so what should be buy? I mean we are teenagers, we should buy something teenagery.”
“Teenagery? Is that even a real word Mia?”
“Um yes. I made it up, so it is a real word now.” I say and smile at her. She winks. That’s how you know we are best friends. She laughs.
“You are so silly.” We get into the grocery store and I swear that it's so cold. It's freezing, really freezing. I wrap myself with my arms and get a shopping cart. Aria is already gone into the aisles looking for the stuff that we need. I finally find her and look on what she’s looking for.
“So, what are we going to get?”
“Chips, lots and lots of chips.” Aria says and then puts like 30 bags of chips into the cart. This so many bags of chips, like who the hell is going to eat this? All kids do right now is get high on weed, not chips. But of course I am not going to buy weed for some idiots that are going to trash my house. My house!
“Ugh, Aria there is so much.”
“Duh, people eat Mia. Have you seen me eat?”
“Oh yeah, I forgot.” She laughs, which of course makes me laugh. Next, she goes straight to the drinks. They always make me want to shake them and see them burst open. I feel like a little kid again and it feels good.
“Ok we need lots and lots of drinks, and maybe a little bit of alcohol?” She says.
“Oh, hell no, no way. If you’re getting alcohol why don’t we just get some weed then? I know a guy.” I wink at her and she makes a face, telling me not to be a smart ass.
“Fine, we'll just get some drinks.” She goes to the drinks and doesn’t even take time to pick. She just grabs what she sees and puts them in the cart. She literally puts 60 big bottles of pop and cans too. Ugh so much money, and for what? A stupid party.
“Um how on earth are we going to pay for this?” I say and she waves a credit card in her hand. I don’t know where the hell she got this because I know she doesn’t have one, so she must’ve gotten it from her parents.
“With my credit card!”
“Your credit card?” I pause and look at it. There is no way she has a credit card.
“You don’t have one Aria!”
“Ok yeah, it’s not mine it’s my dad’s but you know, I told him and he was fine with it.” She says while looking at more snacks.
“Hmm, sure he is.” I say because I really don’t believe it
After buying all these stupid drinks and snacks, I swear that the cashier was wondering if we were crazy or something. Aria told him that we are having a party, which made the guy's eyes light up. I hope he doesn’t want to come to the party because I don’t know him!!!
“You just realize we wasted like 200 dollars for nothing, right?”
“Nah it’s fine, ok now for shopping!!!”
“Wait what?”
“Shopping! We need to wear something to the party!”
“You’re crazy, right? It’s at my house, the house where I live and where I literally walk around without bras. Why would I buy something to wear at my own house?”
“Mia, don’t yell. We need to wear something because I know Jackson wants you to wear something nice. I mean did you see the way he looked at you when he hugged you?”
“For the last time, I did not see him hug me because I was being hugged Aria!!! Also, I guess so…”
“Hmm see!!! You do want to look nice for Jackson, also you do have a nice body for a tight dress.”
“Are you high?” I do not want to wear a dress in my own house. It’s so weird, but it’s a party, so I guess I have to…
“No. Now let's get the food in the trunk and let's go shopping!!!”