“Like the Arabs,” Webb Murkett says.
“Jesus, those Arabs,” Buddy Inglefinger says. “Wouldn’t it be bliss just to nuke ‘em all?”
“Did you see what gold did last week?” Webb smiles. “That’s the Arabs dumping their dollars in Europe. They smell a rat.”
Buddy asks, “D’you see in today’s paper where some investigation out of Washington showed that absolutely the government rigged the whole gas shortage last June?”
“We knew it at the time, didn’t we?” Webb asks back, the red hairs that arc out of his eyebrows glinting.
Today is the Sunday before Labor Day, the day of the members-only fourball. Their foursome has a late starting time and they are having a drink by the pool waiting, with their wives. With some of their wives: Buddy Inglefinger has no wife, just that same dumb pimply Joanne he’s been dragging around all summer, and Janice this morning said she’d go with her mother to church and show up at the club around drink time, for the after-the-fourball banquet. This is strange. Janice loves the Flying Eagle even more than he does. But ever since Melanie left the house this last ‘Wednesday something is cooking. Charlie has taken two weeks off now that Harry is back from the Poconos, and with Nelson being persona non grata around the lot the Chief Sales Representative has his hands full. There is always a little uptick at the end of summer, what with the fall models being advertised and raised prices already in the wind and the standing inventory beginning to look like a bargain, what with inflation worse and worse. There always comes in September a parched brightness to the air that hits Rabbit two ways, smelling of apples and blackboard dust and marking the return to school and work in earnest, but then again reminding him he’s suffered another promotion, taken another step up the stairs that has darkness at the head.
Cindy Murkett hoists herself out of the pool. Dry sun catches in every drop beaded on her brown shoulders, so tan the skin bears a flicker of iridescence. Her boyishly cut hair is plastered in a fringe of accidental feathers halfway down the back of her skull. Standing on the flagstones, she tilts her head to twist water from this hair. Hair high inside her thigh merges with the black triangle of her string bikini. Walking over to their group, Cindy leaves plump wet footprints, heel and sole pad and tiny round toes. Little circular darkdab sucky toes.
“You think gold is still a good thing to buy?” Harry asks Webb, but the man has turned his narrow creased face to gaze up at his young wife. The fat eaves of her body drip onto his lap, the checks of his golf pants, darkening their lime green by drops. From the length of those eyebrow hairs of Webb’s that curve out it’s a wonder some don’t stab him in the eye. He hugs her hips sideways; the Murketts look framed as for an ad against the green sweep of Mt. Pemaquid. Behind them a diver knifes supply into the chlorine. Harry’s eyes sting.
Thelma Harrison has been listening to his story, its sad undertone. “Nelson must have been desolated by what he’d done,” she says.
He likes the word “desolated,” so old-fashioned, coming from this mousy sallow woman who somehow keeps the lid on that jerk Harrison. “Not so’s you’d notice,” he says. “We had that moment right after it happened, but he’s been mean as hell to everybody since, especially since I made the mistake of telling him his ad had produced some results. He wants to keep coming to the lot but I told him to stay the hell away. You know what he did borders on
Thelma offers, “Maybe there’s more on his mind than he can tell you.” The sun must be right behind his head from the way she shields her eyes to look up at him, even though she has on her sunglasses, big rounded brown ones that darken at the top like windshields. They hide the top half of her face so her lips seem to move with a strange precise independence; though thin, they have a dozen little curves that might fit sweetly around Harrison’s thick prick, if you try to think what her hold on him might be, though this is hard to imagine. She’s such a schoolteacher with her little pleated skirt and studied way of holding herself and pronouncing words. For all of her lotions her nose is pink and the pinkness ‘spreads into the area below her eyes, that her sunglasses all but hide.
In his floating wifeless state beside the pool, near the bottom of his g-and-t with its wilted sprig of mint, waiting for his fourball to start, he finds Thelma’s solemn staring mottled look a bit befuddling. “Yeah,” he says, eyes on the sprig. “Janice keeps suggesting that. But she won’t tell me what it might be.”
“Maybe she can’t,” Thelma says, pressing her legs together tighter and tugging the skirt of her bathing suit down over an inch of thigh. She has these little purple veins women her age get but Harry can’t see why she’d be self-conscious with an old potbellied pal like him.
He tells her, “He doesn’t seem to want to go back to college so maybe he’s flunked out and never told us. But wouldn’t we have gotten a letter from the dean or something? These letters from Colorado, boy, we see plenty of them.”
“You know Harry,” Thelma tells him, “a lot of fathers Ronnie and I know complain how the boys don’t want to come into the family business. They have these businesses and no one to carry them on. It’s a tragedy. You should be glad Nelson does care about cars.”
“All he cares about is smashing ‘em up,” Harry says. “It’s his revenge.” He lowers his voice to confide, “I think one of the troubles between me and the kid is every time I had a little, you know, slip-up, he was there to see it. That’s one of the reasons I don’t like to have him around. The little twerp knows it, too.”
Ronnie Harrison, trying to put some kind of a move on poor old Joanne, looks up and shouts across to his wife, “What’s the old hotshot trying to sell ya, hon? Don’t let him do a number on ya.”
Thelma ignores her husband with a dim smile and tells Harry matter-of-factly, “I think that’s more in you than in Nelson. I’m wondering, could he be having girl trouble? Nelson.”
Harry is wondering if another g-and-t might erase a little headache that’s beginning. Drinking in the middle of the day always does that to him. “Well I can’t see how. These kids, they just drift in and out of each other’s beds like a bunch of gerbils. This girl he brought with him, Melanie, they didn’t seem to have any contact really, in fact were getting pretty short with each other toward the end. She took some kind of a crazy shine to Charlie Stavros, of all people.”
“Why `of all people’?” Her smile is less dim, its thin curves declare that she knows Charlie had been Janice’s lover, in the time before this club existed.
“Well he’s old enough to be her father for one thing and he has one foot in the grave for another. He had rheumatic fever as a kid and it left him with a bum ticker. You ought to see him toddle around the lot now, it’s pathetic.”
“Having an ailment doesn’t mean you want to give up living,” she says. “You know I have what they call lupus; that’s why I try to protect myself against the sun and can’t get nice and tan like Cindy.”
“Oh. Really?” Why is she telling him this?
Thelma from a wryness in her smile sees that she’s presumed. “Some men with heart murmurs live forever,” she says. “And now the girl and Charlie are out of the county together.”
This is a new thought also. “Yeah, but in totally different directions. Charlie goes to Florida and Melanie’s visiting her family on the West Coast.” But he remembers Charlie talking up Florida to her at the dinner table and he finds the possibility that they are together depressing. You can’t trust anybody not to fuck. He turns his head to let the sun strike the skin of his face; his eyes close, the lids glowing red. He should be practicing chipping for the fourball instead of lying here drowning in these voices. He heard on the radio driving over that a hurricane is approaching Florida.
Ronnie Harrison’s voice, close at hand, shouts, “What’s that hon, you say I’m going to live forever? You bet your sweet bippy I amt”
Rabbit opens his eyes and sees that Ronnie has changed the position of his chair to make room for Cindy Murkett, who is at home enough
now among them all not to fuss covering her lap with the towel the way she did earlier in the summer; she just sits there on the wire grid of her poolside chair naked but for a few black strings and the little triangles they hold in place, letting her boobs wobble the way they will as she pushes back the wet hair from her ears and temples, not once but several times, selfconscious at that. In her happiness with Webb she is letting her weight slip up, there is almost too much baby fat; when she stands, Harry knows, the pattern of the chair bottom will be printed in the backs of her thighs like a waffle iron releasing two warm slabs of dark dough. Still, that wobble: to lick and suck and let them fall first one and then the other into your eyesockets. He closes his eyes. Ronme Harrison is trying to entrance Joanne and Cindy simultaneously with a story that involves a lot of deep-pitched growling as the hero-self talks back to the villain-other. What a conceited shit.
Webb Murkett leans forward to tell Harry, “In answer to your question, yes, I think gold is an excellent buy. It’s up over sixty per cent in less than a year and I see no reason for it not to appreciate at the same rate as long as the world energy situation holds. The dollar is bound to keep leaking, Harry, until they figure out how to get gasoline cheap out of grain alcohol, which’ll put us back in the driver’s seat. Grain we’ve got.”
From the other side of the group, Buddy Inglefinger calls over, “Nuke ‘em, I say; let’s take their oil from the Arabs the same way we took it from the Eskimos.” Joanne gives this an obligatory giggle, Ronnie’s story having been overridden for a minute. Buddy sees Harry as his straight man and calls, “Hey Harry, did you see in Time where people stuck with their big old American cars are giving ‘em to charity and taking a deduction or leaving ‘em on the street to be stolen so they can collect the insurance? It said some dealer somewhere is giving you a free Chevette if you buy a Cadillac Eldorado.”
“We don’t get Time,” Harry tells him coolly. Looked at a certain way, the world is full of twerps. Oh but to close your eyes and just flicker out with your tongue for Cindy’s nipples as she swung them back and forth, back and forth, teasing.
Joanne tries to join in: “Meanwhile the President is floating down the Mississippi.”
“What else can the poor schmuck do?” Harry asks her, himself feeling floating and lazy and depressed.
“Hey Rabbit,” Harrison calls, “whaddidya think when he was attacked by that killer rabbit?”
This gets enough of a laugh so they stop teasing him. Thelma speaks softly at his side. “Children are hard. Ron and I have been lucky with Alex, once we gave him an old television set he could take apart he’s known what he’s wanted to do, electronics. But now our other boy Georgie sounds a lot like your Nelson, though he’s a few years younger. He thinks what his father does is gruesome, betting against people that they’re going to die, and Ron can’t make him understand how life insurance is really such a small part of the whole business.”
“They’re disillusioned,” Webb Murkett asserts in that wise voice of tumbling gravel. “They’ve seen the world go crazy since they were age two, from JFK’s assassination right through Vietnam to the oil mess now. And here the other day for no good reason they blow up this old gent Mountbatten.”
“Huh,” Rabbit grunts, doubting. According to Skeeter the world was never a pleasant place.
Thelma intervenes, saying, “Harry was saying about how Nelson wants to come into the car business with him, and his negative feelings about it.”
“Be the very worst thing you could do for him,” Webb says. “I’ve had five kids, not counting the two tykes Cindy has given me, bless her for it, and when any of them mentioned the roofing business to me I’d say, `Go get a job with another roofer, you’ll never learn a thing staying with me.’ I couldn’t give ‘em an order, and if I did they wouldn’t obey it anyway. When those kids turned twenty-one, boy or girl, I told each one of them, `It’s been nice knowing you, but you’re on your own now.’ And not one has ever sent me a letter asking for money, or advice, or anything. I get a Christmas card at Christmastime if I’m lucky. One once said to me, Marty the oldest, he said, `Dad, thanks for being such a bastard. It’s made me fit for life.”’
Harry contemplates his empty glass. “Webb, whaddeya think? Should I have another drink or not? It’s fourball, you can carry the team.”
“Don’t do it, Harry, we need you. You’re the long knocker. Stay sober.”
He obeys, but can’t shake his depression, thinking of Nelson. Thanks for being such a bastard. He misses Janice. With her around, his paternity is diluted, something the two of them did together, conniving, half by accident, and can laugh together about. When he contemplates it by himself, bringing a person into the world seems as terrible as pushing somebody into a furnace. By the time they finally get out onto the golf course, green seems a shade of black. Every blade of grass at his feet is an individual life that will die, that has flourished to no purpose. The fairway springy beneath his feet blankets the dead, is the roof of a kingdom where his mother stands at a cloudy sink, her hands red and wearing sleeves of soap bubbles when she lifts them out to give him some sort of warning. Between her thumb and knobby forefinger, the hands not yet badly warped by Parkinson’s, a bubble pops. Mountbatten. And this same week their old mailman has died, Mr. Abendroth, a cheerful overweight man with his white hair cut in a whiffle, dead of a thrombosis at sixty-two. Ma Springer had heard about it from the neighbors, he’d been bringing the neighborhood their bills and magazines ever since Harry and Janice had moved in; it had been Mr. Abendroth who had delivered last April that anonymous envelope containing the news that Skeeter was dead. As he held that clipping that day the letters of type like these blades of grass drew Harry’s eyes down, down into a blackness between them, as the ribs of a grate reveal the unseen black river rushing in the sewer. The earth is hollow, the dead roam through caverns beneath its thin green skin. A cloud covers the sun, giving the grass a silver sheen. Harry takes out a seven-iron and stands above his ball. Hit down. One of the weaknesses of Harry’s game is he cannot make himself take a divot, he tries with misapplied tenderness to skim it off the turf, and hits it thin. This time he hits the ball fat, into a sand bunker this side of the tenth green. Must have rocked forward onto his toes, another fault. His practice swing is always smooth and long but when the pressure is on anxiety and hurry enter in. “You dummy,” Ronnie Harrison shouts over at him. “What’d you do that for?”
“To annoy you, you creep,” Rabbit tells him. In a fourball one of the foursome must do well on every hole or the aggregate suffers. Harry here had the longest drive. Now look at him. He wriggles his feet to root himself in the sand, keeping his weight back on his heels, and makes himself swing through with the wedge, pick it up and swing it through, blind faith, usually he picks it clean in his timidity and flies it over the green but in this instance with his fury at Ronnie and his glum indifference it all works out: the ball floats up on its cushioning spray of sand, bites, and crawls so close to the pin the three others of his foursome cackle and cheer. He sinks the putt to save his par. Still, the game seems long today, maybe it’s the gin at noon or the end-of-summer doldrums, but he can’t stop seeing the fairways as chutes to nowhere or feeling he should be somewhere else, that something has happened, is happening, that he’s late, that an appointment has been made for him that he’s forgotten. He wonders if Skeeter had this feeling in the pit of his stomach that moment when he decided to pull his gun out and get blasted, if he had that feeling when he woke on the morning of that day. Tired flowers, goldenrod and wild carrot, hang in the rough. The millions of grass blades shine, ready to die. This is what it all comes to, a piece of paper that itself turns yellow, a news item you cut out and mail to another with no note. File to forget. History carves these caverns with a steady drip-drip. Dead Skeeter roams below, cackling. Time seeps up through the blades of grass like a colorless poison. He is tired, Harry, of summer, of golf, of the sun. When he was younger and just taking up the game twenty y
ears ago and even when he took it up again eight years or so ago there were shots that seemed a miracle, straight as an edge of glass and longer than any power purely his could have produced, and it was for the sake of collaboration with this power that he kept playing, but as he improved and his handicap dwindled from sky’s-the-limit to a sane sixteen, these supershots became rarer, even the best of his drives had a little tail or were struck with a little scuff, and a shade off line one way or another, and the whole thing became more like work, pleasant work but work, a matter of approximations in the realm of the imperfect, with nothing breaking through but normal healthy happiness. In pursuit of such happiness Harry feels guilty, out on the course as the shadows lengthen, in the company of these three men, who away from their women loom as as boring as they must appear to God.
Janice is not waiting for him in the lounge or beside the pool when at last around 5:45 they come in from playing the par-5 eighteenth. Instead one of the girls in their green and white uniforms comes over and tells him that his wife wants him to call home. He doesn’t recognize this girl, she isn’t Sandra, but she knows his name. Everybody knows Harry at the Flying Eagle. He goes into the lounge, his hand lifted in continuous salute to the members there, and puts the same dime he’s been using as a ball marker on the greens into the pay phone and dials. Janice answers after a single ring.