Page 26 of A Maiden's Grave


  They all did.

  Dan Tremain--senior HRU commander and a man who had a reputation for thinking fast--composed and then offered a silent prayer to his just and merciful Lord in Christ, thanking Him for sparing the girl's life. But mostly he gave thanks for providing the extra time in which to prepare for the assault that He had assured Tremain would free the poor lambs from the hands of the barbaric Romans.

  "Downlink," Tobe announced. "From him."

  Potter let the phone ring twice then answered it. "Art?"

  "Lou. Creswell just called."

  "He thinks you're a prick. He doesn't even know your fucking name."

  "I have my enemies. More of them within the government than without, I'm sorry to say. What about it?"

  "Okay, it's a deal," Handy said cheerfully. "You got one more hour."

  Potter paused, let the silence build up.

  "Art," Handy asked uncertainly, "you still there?"

  A subtle sigh issued from the negotiator's mouth.

  "What'sa matter? You sound like your fucking dog just died."

  "Well . . ."

  "Come on, talk to me."

  "I don't know how to ask this. You were real good about agreeing to give us the extra time. And . . ."

  Test the bonds, Potter was thinking. What exactly is Handy thinking about me? How close are we?

  "Well, ask me what you gotta, Art. Just fucking do it."

  "Creswell said he'll need at least until nine-thirty to do the clearance right. He's got to coordinate with the Canadian authorities. I told him to do it within an hour. But he said they can't do it that fast. I feel like I'm letting you down . . . ."

  And part of him did, yes--at the lie he was telling, so blatantly, so coldly.

  "Nine-thirty?'

  A long hesitation.

  "Fuck, I can live with that."

  "Really, Lou?" Arthur Potter asked, surprised. "Appreciate it."

  "Hey, anything for my good buddy Art."

  Take advantage of the good mood. He said, "Lou, let me ask you another question."

  "Shoot."

  Should I push or not?

  Angie was watching him. Their eyes met and she mouthed, "Go for it."

  "Lou, how about if you let her go? Melanie."

  Okay. Art, I'm in a good mood. I'm going to Canada, so you just bought yourself one.

  Handy's voice was like a cold razor blade. "Sometimes you ask for too fucking much, you asshole. I'm the one person in the fucking universe you don't want to do that to."

  The phone went dead.

  Potter raised his eyebrows at the outburst. But the room erupted into applause and laughter. Potter hung up the phone and joined in.

  Potter clapped LeBow on the back. "Excellent job." He looked at Angie. "Both of you."

  Budd said, "You deserve an Oscar for that. Yessir, I'd vote for you."

  "M-4?" Potter said. "What's an M-4 priority?"

  "Doris and I went to England last year," LeBow explained. "That was a highway, I seem to recall. Did sound good, didn't it?" He was very pleased with himself.

  "That radar missile tracking," Budd said. "That sounded pretty cool."

  "All made up."

  "Oh, brother. He bought it all."

  Then they went somber again as Potter gazed out the window at the place where six hostages still remained, safe for at least a couple of hours--if Handy kept his word. Then simultaneously the entire crowd in the van all laughed once more as Tobe Geller, maven of electronics and coldly rational science, whispered reverently, "Papal clearance," and crossed himself expertly like the good Catholic that he apparently was.

  7:15 P.M.

  "Well, Charlie, what's the news from the front?"

  Budd stood outside the van in a gully. He held his cellular phone pressed hard into his ear--as if that would keep anyone from overhearing. Roland Marks's voice tended to boom.

  The assistant attorney general was down at the rear staging area. Budd said, "I'll tell you, it's been a real roller coaster here. Up and down, you know. He's doing some real remarkable things--Agent Potter, I mean."

  "Remarkable?" Marks asked sarcastically. "He's brought that girl back to life, has he? A regular Lazarus situation, is it?"

  "He's gotten a couple more out safe and he just bought us another couple of hours. He's--"

  "Do you have that present for me?" Marks asked evenly.

  The door of the van opened and Angie Scapello stepped out.

  "Not yet," Budd said, and decided the lie was credible. "Soon. I should go."

  "I want that tape within the hour. My friend from the press'll be here then."

  "Yessir, that's right," he said. "I'll talk to you later."

  He pushed disconnect. And said to Angie, "Bosses. We could do without 'em."

  She was carrying two cups of coffee and offered one to him.

  "Milk, no sugar. That's how you like it?" she said.

  "Agent LeBow has my file too, huh?"

  "You live near here, Charlie?"

  "My wife and I bought a house about fifteen miles away."

  That was good. Work in Meg again.

  "I have an apartment in Georgetown. I travel so much it doesn't make sense for me to buy. And just being by myself."

  "Never been married?"

  "Nope. I'm an old maid."

  "Old, there you go again. You must be all of twenty-eight."

  She laughed.

  "You like life out here in the country?" Angie asked him.

  "Sure do. The girls have good schools--I showed you the pictures of my family?"

  "You did, yes, Charlie. Twice."

  "They have good schools and good teams to be on. They live for soccer. And it's not expensive, really. I'm thirty-two and own my own house on four acres. You couldn't do that on the East Coast, I don't imagine. I went to New York once and what people pay for apartments there--"

  "You faithful to your wife, Charlie?" She turned her warm, brown eyes on him.

  He gulped down coffee he had absolutely no taste for. "Yes, I am. And as a matter of fact I've been meaning to talk to you. I think you're an interesting person and what you're doing to help us is real valuable. And I'd have to be a blind man not to see how pretty you are--"

  "Thank you, Charlie."

  "But I'm not even unfaithful in my mind--like that president was, Jimmy Carter? Or somebody, I don't remember." This was all rehearsed and he wished he didn't have to swallow so often. "Meg and I've had our problems, that's for sure. But who hasn't? Problems're part of a relationship and you get through them just like you get through the good times, and you keep going." He stopped abruptly, forgetting completely the end of his speech, which he improvised as "So there. I just wanted to say that."

  Angie stepped closer and touched his arm. She leaned up and kissed his cheek. "I'm very glad you told me that, Charlie. I think fidelity is the most important trait in a relationship. Loyalty. And you don't see much of it nowadays."

  He hesitated. "No, I guess you don't."

  "I'm going down to the motel and visit the girls and their parents. Would you like to come with me?" She smiled. "As a friend and fellow threat management team member?"

  "I'd be delighted." And to Budd's unbounded relief she didn't slip her arm through his as they walked to the van to tell Potter where they would be and then proceeded to the squad car for the short drive to the Days Inn.

  They sat in the killing room, the entrance to hell, tears on all their faces.

  What was happening now--only a few feet in front of them--was worse than they'd ever imagined. Let it be over soon, Melanie thought, her fingers twitching this mute plea. For the love of God.

  "Don't look," she finally signed to the girls. But they all did look--no one could turn away from this terrible spectacle.

  Bear lay atop poor Mrs. Harstrawn, her blouse open, her skirt up to her waist. Numb, Melanie watched the man's naked ass bob up and down. She watched his hands grip one of Mrs. Harstrawn's breasts, as white as his own
bloated skin. She watched him kiss her and stick his wet tongue into her unresponsive mouth.

  He paused for a moment and looked back into the main room. There, Brutus and Stoat sat before the TV, drinking beer. Laughing. Like Melanie's father and brother would sit around the TV on Sunday, as if the small black box were something magic that allowed them to talk to one another. Then Bear reared up, hooked his arms beneath Mrs. Harstrawn's knees and lifted her legs into the air. He began his ungainly motion once again.

  Melanie grew calm as death.

  It's time, she decided. They couldn't wait any longer. Never looking away from Bear's closed eyes, she wrote a note on the pad of paper that Brutus had torn from her hands earlier. She folded it tightly and slipped it into Anna's pocket. The girl looked up. Her twin did too.

  "Go into corner," Melanie signed. "By gas can."

  They didn't want to. They were terrified of Bear, terrified of the horrible thing he was doing. But so emphatic was Melanie's signing, so cold were her eyes that they moved steadily into the corner of the room. Once again Melanie told them to take Mrs. Harstrawn's sweater.

  "Tie it around gas can. Go--"

  Suddenly Bear leapt up off the teacher and faced Melanie. His bloody organ was upright and glistened red and purple. The overwhelming scent of musk and sweat and woman's fluid made her gag. He paused, his groin only a foot from her face. He reached down and touched her hair. "Stop that fucking spooky shit. Stop . . . with your hands . . . that bullshit." He mimicked signing.

  Melanie understood his reaction. It was common. People have always been frightened by signing. It was why there was such a strong desire to force the deaf to speak and not use sign language--which was a code, a secret language, the hallmark of a mysterious society.

  She nodded slowly and lowered her eyes once more to the glistening, erect penis.

  Bear strode back to Mrs. Harstrawn, squeezed her breasts, knocked her legs apart, and plunged into her once again. She lifted a hand in a pathetic protest. He slapped it away.

  Don't sign. . . .

  How could she talk to the girls? Tell the twins what they had to do?

  Then she happened to recall her own argot. The language that she had created at age sixteen, when she'd risked getting her knuckles slapped by the teachers--most of them Others--for using ASL or SEE at the Laurent Clerc School. It was a simple language, one that had occurred to her while watching Georg Solti conduct a silent orchestra. In music the meter and rhythm were as much a part of the piece as the melody; she'd kept her hands close to her chin and spoke to her classmates through the shape and rhythm of her fingers, combined with facial expressions. She'd shown all her students the basics of the language--when she compared different types of signing--but she didn't know if the twins recalled enough to understand her.

  Yet she had no choice. She lifted her hands and moved her fingers in rhythmic patterns.

  Anna didn't understand at first and began to respond in ASL.

  "No," Melanie instructed, frowning for emphasis. "No signing."

  It was vital that she convey her message, for she believed she could save the twins at least, and maybe one more--poor gasping Beverly, or Emily, whose thin white legs Bear had been staring at for long moments before he pulled Donna Harstrawn toward him and spread her legs like a hungry man opening up a package of food.

  "Take gas can," Melanie communicated. Somehow. "Tie sweater around it."

  After a moment the girls understood. They eased forward. Their tiny hands went to work enwrapping the can with the colorful sweater.

  The can was now enwrapped by the sweater.

  "Go out back door. One on left."

  The doorway swept clean of dust by the breeze from the river.

  "Afraid."

  Melanie nodded but persisted. "Have to."

  A faint, heartbreaking nod. Then another. Emily stirred beside Melanie. The girl was terrified. Melanie took her hand, behind their backs, out of Bear's view. She fingerspelled in English. "Y-o-u w-i-l-l b-e n-e-x-t. D-o n-o-t w-o-r-r-y."

  Emily nodded. To the twins Melanie said, "Follow smell of river." She flared her nostrils. "River. Smell."

  A nod from both girls.

  "Hold on to sweater and jump into water."

  Two no shakes. Emphatic.

  Melanie's eyes flared. "Yes!"

  Then Melanie looked at the teacher and back to the girls, explaining silently what could happen to them. And the twins understood. Anna started to whimper.

  Melanie would not allow this. "Stop!" she insisted. "Now. Go."

  The twins were behind Bear. He'd have to stand up and turn to see them.

  Afraid to use her hands, Anna timidly lowered her face and wiped it on her sleeve. They shook their heads no. In heartbreaking unison.

  Melanie's hand rose and she risked fast fingerspellings and hand signs. Bear's eyes were closed; he missed the gestures. "Abbe de l'Epee is out there. Waiting for you."

  Their eyes went wide.

  De l'Epee?

  The savior of the Deaf. A legend. He was Lancelot, he was King Arthur. For heaven's sake, he was Tom Cruise! He couldn't be outside. Yet Melanie's face was so serious, she was so insistent that they offered faint nods of acquiescence.

  "You must find him. Give him note in your pocket."

  "Where is he?" Anna signed.

  "He's older man, heavy. Gray hair. Glasses and blue sports coat." They nodded enthusiastically (though this was hardly how they pictured the legendary abbe). "Find him and give him note."

  Bear looked up and Melanie continued to lift her hand innocently to wipe her red, but dry, eyes as if she'd been crying. He looked down again and continued. Melanie was grateful she couldn't hear the piggish grunts she knew issued from his fat mouth.

  "Ready?" she asked the girls.

  Indeed they were; they would leap into flames if it meant they could meet their idol. Melanie looked again at Bear, the sweat dripping off his face and falling like rain on poor Mrs. Harstrawn's cheeks and jiggling breasts. His eyes closed. The moment of finishing was near--something Melanie had read about but couldn't quite comprehend.

  "Take shoes off. And tell de l'Epee to be careful."

  Anna nodded. "I love you," she signed. Suzie did too.

  Melanie looked out the doorway and saw Brutus and Stoat, far across the slaughterhouse, staring at the TV. She nodded twice. The girls picked up their gas-can life preserver and vanished around the corner. Melanie watched Bear to see if their passage was silent. Apparently it was.

  To distract him she leaned forward, enduring the ugly man's ominous stare, and slowly, cautiously, with her burgundy sleeve wiped the sheen of his sweat from the teacher's face. He was perplexed by the gesture then angered. He shoved her back against the wall. Her head hit the tile with a thud. There she sat until he finished and lay gasping. Finally he rolled off her. Melanie saw a slick pool on the woman's thigh. Blood too. Bear glanced furtively into the other room. He had escaped undetected; Brutus and Stoat hadn't seen. He sat up. He zipped his filthy jeans and pulled down Mrs. Harstrawn's skirt, roughly buttoned her blouse.

  Bear leaned forward and put his face inches from Melanie's. She managed to hold his eye--it was terrifying but she would do anything to keep him from looking around the room. He spat out, "You . . . word about . . . you're . . ."

  Delay, stall. Buy time for the twins.

  She frowned and shook her head.

  He tried again, words spitting from his mouth.

  Again she shook her head, pointed to her ear. He boiled in frustration.

  Finally, she leaned away and pointed to the dusty floor. He wrote, Say anything and your dead.

  She nodded slowly.

  He obliterated the message and buttoned his shirt.

  Sometimes all of us, even Others, are mute and deaf and blind as the dead; we perceive only what our desires allow us to see. This is a terrible burden and a danger but can also be, as now, a small miracle. For Bear rose unsteadily, tucked in his shirt, and looked a
round the killing room with a glazed look of contentment on his flushed face. Then he strode out, never noticing that only four shoes remained in place of the twins and that the girls were gone, floating free of this terrible place.

  For a few years I was nothing but Deaf.

  I lived Deaf, I ate Deaf, I breathed it.

  Melanie is speaking to de l'Epee.

  She has gone into her music room because she cannot bear to think about Anna and Suzie, leaping into the waters of the Arkansas River, dark as a coffin. They're better off, she tells herself. She remembers the way Bear looked at the girls. Whatever happens, they're better off.

  De l'Epee shifts in his chair and asks what she meant by being nothing but Deaf.

  "When I was a junior the Deaf movement came to Laurent Clerc. Deaf with a capital D. Oralism was out and at last the school began teaching Signed Exact English. Which is sort of a half-assed compromise. Eventually, after I graduated, they agreed to switch to ASL. That's American Sign."

  "I'm interested in languages. Tell me about it." (Would he say this? It's my fantasy; yes, he would.)

  "ASL comes from the world's first school for the deaf, founded in France in the 1760s by your namesake. Abbe Charles Michel de l'Epee. He was like Rousseau--he felt that there was a primordial human language. A language that was pure and absolute and unfalteringly clear. It could express every emotion directly and it would be so transparent that you couldn't use it to lie or deceive anyone."

  De l'Epee smiles at this.

  "With French Sign Language, oh, the Deaf came into their own. A teacher from de l'Epee's school, Laurent Clerc, came to America in the early 1800s with Thomas Gallaudet--he was a minister from Connecticut--and set up a school for the deaf in Hartford. French Sign Language was used there but it got mixed with local signing--especially the dialect used on Martha's Vineyard, where there was a lot of hereditary deafness. That's how American Sign Language came about. That, more than anything, allowed the Deaf to live normal lives. See, you have to develop language--some language, either sign or spoken--by age three. Otherwise you basically end up retarded."

  De l'Epee looks at her somewhat cynically. "It seems to me that you've rehearsed this."

  She can only laugh.

  "Once ASL hit the school, as I was saying, I lived for the Deaf movement. I learned the party line. Mostly because of Susan Phillips. It was amazing. I was a student teacher at the time. She saw my eyes flickering up and down as I read somebody's lips. She came up to me and said, 'The word "hearing" means only one thing to me. It's the opposite of who I am.' I felt ashamed. She later said that the term 'hard of hearing' should infuriate us because it defines us in terms of the Other community. 'Oral' is even worse because the Oral deaf want to pass. They haven't come out yet. If somebody's Oral, Susan said, we have to 'rescue' them.