Page 21 of Forever Black


  “Let’s get you in your pajamas and into bed, you have your injections tomorrow.” He took my nightshirt out of my drawer and I grabbed it out of his hands.

  “Let me help you,” he calmly said.

  “I don’t need your help, I can do it myself.” I undressed as he watched me. I slipped on my nightshirt and climbed into bed. He left the room and I heard the TV turn on. He slept on the couch.

  The next morning, I stumbled out of bed and walked towards the kitchen. Connor was standing there, leaning up against the counter waiting for the coffee to brew looking as sexy as ever.

  “Good morning, you look like shit.”

  I frowned as my head was pounding. “Yeah well we all can’t look as perfect as you.”

  He grinned as he handed me a cup of coffee. “Do I get a hug,” he asked as he held his arms out.

  I walked past him, “Sluts don’t give hugs.”

  He rolled his eyes and sat at the table while I went into the bedroom to get dressed.

  We arrived at the hospital in silence. I walked a few feet ahead of him and heard him say, “I don’t understand why you’re so mad.”

  “You called me a slut Connor.”

  “I said you looked like a slut Elle.”

  I shook my head, “Same thing you idiot.”

  We reached the office and the nurse took us promptly to the room. I changed into the thin gown and sat on the bed waiting for Dr. Murphy.

  “Are you even going to look at me?” he asked.

  “I am so mad at you Connor Black I could scream.”

  He walked over to me and tried to take my hand, I pulled away. “If you think I’m going to apologize, I’m not. What you did last night was unacceptable and immature.”

  I looked straight into his eyes, “At least I didn’t take him home and fuck him like you do.”

  He turned away, “Why did I even bother coming here.”

  “I don’t know Connor, why the fuck did you?”

  Dr. Murphy walked in and looked at us. She could feel the tension in the room. “Hello Ellery, Mr. Black,” she smiled.

  We said hello as she flipped through my chart. She walked over and put her hand on my knee, “Are you ready for this?”

  I looked at her with sadness in my eyes, “Let’s just get it over with.”

  I laid down on my side and Connor sat on the edge of the bed facing me. I pointed to the chair, “You, over there.” He sighed and shook his head as he sat in the chair.

  “Ok Ellery, here’s the first injection.”

  The prick of my skin was the easy part. My body started to burn from the inside. I clenched the sheet of the bed with my fists as my knuckles turned white. I wouldn’t look at Connor even though I wanted him to hold me. I was stubborn and I wanted to do this on my own. As soon as the second injection pierced my skin, I let out a cry of pain as my body felt like a raging fire that couldn’t be extinguished. Fuck it, I needed him. I held out my hand and looked at him as he was by my side in an instant. I clutched his shirt as hard as I could as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead.

  “You are the most stubborn person I’ve ever met.”

  I cried into his chest as Dr. Murphy injected me with the last injection. She patted my arm and walked out the door.

  I walked into the apartment and laid on the couch.

  “Are you going to be comfortable there?”

  I didn’t say anything; I was still mad at him, but I wasn’t sure at this point why. He knelt down in front of me, his piercing green eyes looking into mine.

  “Would it be ok if I gave you a kiss? I’ve really missed those lips.”

  In all honesty, who could resist him, but I’ll be damned if I didn’t try. I clamped my mouth shut and he laughed. He ran his finger softly over my mouth and up my cheek. He leaned into me and softly brushed his lips against my mouth. It didn’t take long before I gave in and my lips joined his. I parted my lips so his tongue had access to my whole mouth. The kiss was light and soft. He broke our kiss and looked at me. He didn’t say anything at first, he just stared at me.

  “I’ve never loved anyone like I love you and no matter what we’ve been through or are going to go through, that will never change.”

  Tears started to swell in my eyes as I cupped his face in my hands, “I love you to and I’m sorry again.”

  “I think we are going to spend our lives apologizing to each other,” he laughed.

  I sat up letting him sit next to me. He pulled me onto him so my head was resting in his lap. He gently stroked my hair as I fell asleep.

  Chapter 42

  We spent the next couple of days in bed catching up on sex. “Christmas is next week and I’m taking you to get a tree.”

  I looked at him and pouted, “You mean we have to leave this bed?”

  Connor smiled, “We do, but I promise we won’t leave it for too long.” He took my hand and led me into the shower.

  We spent the day picking out the perfect Christmas tree. Connor made arrangements to have it delivered while we bought the lights and ornaments. We decorated the tree as we sipped wine and ate Chinese food. We made love by the tree with the lights brightly cascaded down around us and laid on the floor wrapped in a blanket.

  “My mom wants you to come for Christmas,” he said as he ran his finger up and down my arm.

  “I would love that; I miss your family.”

  “I talked to Peyton and if it’s ok with you, we’re going to spend Christmas Eve with her and Henry and then Christmas day at my mom and dads, unless you have other plans?”

  “That sounds perfect to me and I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.”

  It was the day before Christmas Eve and we were heading back to New York first thing the next morning. I got out of bed and started a pot of coffee. Connor emerged from the bedroom with his hand behind his back.

  “What are you hiding Mr. Black?”

  He smiled and kissed me on the lips, “A present for you.” He handed me the beautiful white box with a pink satin bow. I opened it and pulled out a beautiful white, spaghetti strap sundress.

  “Oh Connor, it’s beautiful,” I smiled as I held it up to me.

  “You’re going to wear that tonight for dinner.”

  I cocked my head to the side, “You’re taking me to dinner?”

  “Don’t I always? But tonight will be our last dinner in California for a while so I wanted to make it special.”

  I put the dress down and wrapped my arms around his neck, “Thank you, I love it.” It didn’t take long before he picked me up and carried back to the bedroom for our routine morning lovemaking.

  We walked out the door and there was a Limo waiting for us.

  “A Limo? How classy Mr. Black.”

  He smiled and opened the door. I slid in and gasped when I looked at the driver, “Denny what are you doing here?”

  He turned and looked at me with a smile. “It’s good to see you Ellery.”

  Connor slid in next to me and shut the door. “Why is Denny driving us in California?” Connor just smiled.

  “I need to blindfold you.”

  I looked at him and smiled, “Don’t you think that’s a little kinky with Denny here?”

  He lightly laughed and shook his head, “Trust me, we will be using this in the bedroom, but for now, where I’m taking you is a surprise and I don’t want you to know till we get there.” He took out a black cloth and put it over my eyes.

  “Are you ok?”

  “Except for being incredibly turned on, yes.”

  The limo stopped and Connor took my hand and helped me out. He stopped and told me to take off my shoes. My heart was racing a mile a minute with excitement. As soon as my feet touched the sand, I stopped and listened as the waves crashed to the shore. Connor reached over and took off the blindfold.

  “I’m guessing you know where we are.”

  I stood there; my feet softened by the sand as I look out and see a white canopy sitting in the middle of
the beach.

  “Is it just us here tonight?” I asked.

  Connor smiled as he kissed me softly on the cheek, “Yes baby, I rented out the entire beach for us.”

  He took my hand and led me down the beach to the white canopy. Inside the canopy sat a round table draped in white linen, white roses and two chairs covered in white fabric. I was speechless at the beauty of it all. The best part was that the sun was going to set soon and we’d be here to watch it.

  “Connor, how and when did you do all this?”

  “Do you like it?”

  “I love it, you are so amazing.”

  “Dinner will be here soon, so I thought we could take a walk along the water.”

  He took my hand as we walked along the edge of the shoreline; the water hitting our feet. He stopped and pointed to the sky, “Look the sun is starting to set.” I felt an overwhelming sense of peace and comfort at that moment. Connor took my hands and held them as he faced me taking in a deep breath.

  “Ellery, from the moment I saw you I knew instantly I needed you in my life and I set out to make sure that happened. You kept calling me a stalker and you were right, I did stalk you, but for good reason.”

  I smiled as he continued. “You are different from anyone I have ever met. You’re strong, kind, good-hearted, forgiving and loving. And you’re also stubborn, a smart ass and very independent and that’s everything I love about you. You have certainly given me a run for my money since I’ve met you. You’ve challenged me and brought out a man I thought I never could be. You’ve shown me things I never would have seen if you weren’t in my life. You have filled the void in my heart and soul that I never knew existed until you weren’t by my side.” Tears started to fall down my face.

  “I was simply a man with no meaning until I met you and I’m proud of whom I’ve become because of you. We have been through a lot together and we will continue to go through a lot, but we’ll conquer whatever life throws our way. I want to thank you for being my best friend and my lover.”

  Suddenly he got down on one knee and pulled a small velvet box from his pocket. The tears wouldn’t stop flowing down my face. “I want to be more than just your lover, I want to be your happily ever after, your best friend, your husband and I want you for my wife; will you marry me Ellery Lane?” He opened the box and took out the most beautiful ring I have ever seen.

  I looked at him, crying as I shook my head, “Yes Connor, I will marry you.”

  He put the ring on my finger and stood up, hugging me and twirling me around. We kissed passionately and then looked up at the sunset.

  “I wanted to do this here because I figured you’d want your mom to be here with us.”

  I was touched in so many ways by this man. We stood and watched the sunset over the ocean waters wrapped around each other and never wanting to let go.

  He led me back to the table as we ate dinner and talked. “I saw the tape your mom made for you; last night when we got back from the club and I slept on the couch. I turned the TV on and it was playing. That had to be so hard for you watch.”

  “It was at first, but then it was comforting at the same time. It was amazing to see her and I regret not getting the contents of that safe deposit box sooner.”

  I kept looking at my ring that gracefully sat on my finger. It was a 4 carat platinum princess cut diamond with smaller diamonds going down the band.

  “A beautiful ring for a beautiful woman,” he smiled.

  He stood up and took my hand and led me a large white tent that was filled with fluffy pillows and blankets.

  A huge grin crossed my face, “Sex on the beach?”

  He shook his head, “Yes, sex on the beach.”

  He walked over to me and slid the spaghetti straps off my shoulders allowing my entire dress to fall at my feet. I stood there in only my white lace panties as his tongue traveled across my neck and up my jaw line before meeting my mouth with his.

  “I want to make love to you all night, first here and then at home in every room. When you walk tomorrow you’ll be reminded of our passionate night, one I never want you to forget.”

  I braced myself for the amazing hot sex that was about to take place. After all it has been a while and I craved him like chocolate. He laid me down on the soft pillow and watched me as he took off his shirt and removed his pants and boxers. Every time I look at him it amazes me how blessed this man was in the “goods” department. He bent down and laid on his side propped up on his elbow as he softly stroked my breasts, paying special attention to each hardened nipple as he twisted them in his fingers. I ran my hand through his hair and brought his head closer for a kiss. Our lips grew hot as our tongues were reunited with each other. With finesse, he moved his hand up and down my torso and into my lace panties feeling my wetness and my ache for him.

  “Christ you are so wet,” he moaned. His lips broke from mine as he kissed each breast, making his way down to my belly button and kissing me softly inside my inner thighs. He gently inserted his finger in me and feeling the wetness before inserting another. I gasped at the pleasure and arched my back for him to go deeper. His tongue ran circles around my swollen area forcing me to release my pleasure to him. He quickly placed his mouth where his fingers had been, sucking lightly and licking every sensitive area. My heart was beating rapidly as his erotic moves were scorching my skin. He brought his mouth up to mine giving me a taste of what he loves so much. I reached down and took him in my hand, stroking the length of him with long soft strokes. Groans came from the back of this throat as his mouth was lightly licking behind my ear.

  “Connor I need you inside me now, please I need to feel you.” He moaned and before I knew it I was flipped on my stomach as he entered me slowly from behind.

  Is this how you want me?” he asked.

  “Yes,” I whispered.

  He sat up and moved fluently in and out of me. He reached his hands around and grabbed my breasts, squeezing them and pinching at each nipple before moving his hand down and rubbing my aching spot.

  “Don’t come yet baby, I need you to come with me.”

  “Harder Connor, fuck me harder, right now!” I demanded.

  I was never usually that vocal, but something inside me snapped and I wanted him hard and fast. He took in a sharp breath as he moved faster in and out of me. He was bringing me to orgasm quickly as I screamed his name and we both felt each other’s release. “Fuck,” he said as he pushed himself deeper into me releasing all his pleasure into my body. He proceeded to kiss up and down my back before collapsing on me. I could feel his heart rapidly beating as he was trying to catch his breath. I wrapped my arms around his neck and stroked his hair.

  “I love you,” I whispered.

  “I love you to Ellery.”

  We spent a couple of more hours in the tent, drinking wine and talking. Then as promised, we made love in every room back at my apartment.

  Chapter 43

  Before we left for New York, we stopped by Mason and Landon’s apartment so I could give them their gifts and show off my gorgeous ring. They made us some Mimosas and an elegant breakfast before we headed to Connors plane. Denny was there sitting in a seat when we arrived. I ran to him and gave him a hug.

  “You knew didn’t you?”

  He smiled and kissed me on the cheek, “Of course I knew and congratulations.” We arrived in New York and back to Connors penthouse.

  The Christmas holiday was beautiful and well spent with family and friends. Connor and I spent New Year’s Eve hosting a party at the Waldorf Hotel with about 200 people. We rented a room for the night and made passionate love. He wrapped his arms around me as I laid my head on his chest.

  “What’s wrong babe?” he asked.

  I looked up at him, “Nothing, what makes you think something is wrong?”

  He lightly smiled and ran his finger across my lips, “I can tell when something is bothering you.” I sighed and laid my head back down.

  “Talk to me Ellery; tell
me what’s on your mind.”

  I ran my hand lightly across his chest, “What if this trial program doesn’t help me?”

  “It will help you.”

  I sat up and turned towards the edge of the bed letting my feet hit the floor.

  “You can’t be so sure of that Connor.”

  He sat up and clasped his hands on my shoulders, “I can be sure because I have faith Ellery. It’s a new year and a new beginning for us, for our future, and nothing is going to take that away. You will get better and we’ll be married and have the rest of our lives in front of us.”

  I wasn’t so sure and I was scared. “There’s something I want to talk to you about.” The seriousness of his tone made me uneasy. I turned to face him as he pushed my hair behind my ear.

  “I’ve made an appointment with my doctor to have my vasectomy reversed.”

  My eyes grew wide. “What? Connor, no you can’t.”

  He looked at me with a surprised look. “Listen to me; I want this because I want a family with you and if we can have our own child that would be amazing. I’m not saying it will work, but there’s a 50/50 chance and I think we should try it.”

  I sighed. “But my genes suck and you know it.”

  He laughed and planted a kiss on my forehead, “Your genes are beautiful.” I smiled as he took me in his arms.

  “I’m just scared.”

  “Don’t worry baby, everything will be fine, I promise.”

  We stayed in New York for a couple more weeks so Connor could tie up some business deals then headed back to California for my last round of injections.

  “Well, this is it Ellery, are you ready?” Dr. Murphy asked.

  “As ready as I’ll ever be,” I smiled.

  Connor took a hold of my hands and planted them firmly against his shirt. I smiled as my hands began clutching the fabric with each burning injection.

  “One month from today you’ll be back here for blood work,” Dr. Murphy instructed.

  Connor took my hand and helped me from the bed. He pulled me into an embrace and whispered in my ear, “Now we wait.”