Just make one sound! he pleaded with the elephant. So I know for sure that I am not deluded, that you are for real. The elephant understood; it raised its trunk and roared so loudly that he thought he had been deafened.
‘You are free now,’ the elephant said, in words so loud they seemed like newspaper headlines to him. ‘Go and write the true history of Kittur.’
Some months later, there was news of Gururaj. Four young reporters went to investigate.
They muffled their giggles as they pushed open the door to the municipal reading room in the lighthouse. The librarian had been waiting for them; he ushered them in with a finger to his lips.
The journalists found Gururaj sitting at a bench, reading a newspaper which partially covered his face. The old editor’s shirt was in tatters, but he seemed to have gained weight, as if idleness had suited him.
‘He won’t say a word any more,’ the librarian said. ‘He just sits there till sunset, holding the paper to his face. The only time he said anything was when I told him I admired his articles on the riots, and then he shouted at me.’
One of the young journalists put his finger on the top edge of the newspaper and lowered it slowly; Gururaj offered no resistance. The journalist yelped and stepped back.
There was a moist dark hole in the innermost sheet of the paper. Pieces of newsprint stuck to the corners of Gururaj’s mouth, and his jaw was moving.
THE LANGUAGES OF KITTUR
Kannada, one of the major languages of South India, is the official language of the state of Karnataka, in which Kittur is located. The local paper, the Dawn Herald, is published in Kannada. Although understood by virtually everyone in the town, Kannada is the mother tongue only of some of the Brahmins. Tulu, a regional language that has no written script – although it is believed to have possessed a script centuries ago – is the lingua franca. Two dialects of Tulu exist. The ‘upper-caste’ dialect is still used by a few Brahmins, but is dying out as Tulu-speaking Brahmins switch to Kannada. The other dialect of Tulu, a rough, bawdy language cherished for the diversity and pungency of its expletives, is used by the Bunts and Hoykas – this is the language of the Kittur street. Around Umbrella Street, the commercial centre, the dominant language changes to Konkani: this is the language of the Gaud-Saraswat Brahmins, originally from Goa, who own most of the shops here. (Although Tulu- and Kannada-speaking Brahmins began intermarrying in the 1960s, the Konkani-Brahmins have so far rejected all marriage proposals from outsiders.) A very different dialect of Konkani, corrupted with Portuguese, is spoken in the suburb of Valencia by the Catholics who live there. Most of the Muslims, especially those in the Bunder, speak a dialect of Malayalam as their mother tongue; a few of the richer Muslims, being descendants of the old Hyderabad aristocracy, speak Hyderabadi Urdu. Kittur’s large migrant worker population, which floats around the town from construction site to construction site, is mostly Tamil-speaking. English is understood by the middle class.
It must be noted that few other towns in India can match Kittur’s street language for the richness of its expletives, which come from Urdu, English, Kannada and Tulu. The most commonly heard term, ‘son of a bald-headed woman’, requires explanation. Upper-caste widows were once forbidden to remarry and forced to shave their heads to prevent them from attracting men. A child born of a bald woman was very likely to be an illegitimate one.
Day Four (Morning): UMBRELLA STREET
If you wish to do some shopping while in Kittur, allow yourself a few hours to wander through Umbrella Street, the commercial centre of town. Here you will find furniture stores, pharmacies, restaurants, sweet-shops, and book-stores. (A few sellers of hand-made wooden umbrellas can still be found here, although most have gone out of business because of cheap metal umbrellas imported from China.) The street houses Kittur’s most famous restaurant, the Ideal Traders Ice Cream and Fresh Fruit Juice Parlour, and also the office of the Dawn Herald, ‘Kittur’s only and finest newspaper’.
Every Thursday evening, an interesting event takes place in the Ramvittala Temple near Umbrella Street. Two traditional minstrels sit on the verandah of this temple and recite verses from the Mahabharatha, the great Indian epic of heroism and endurance, all through the night.
All the employees of the furniture shop had gathered in a semicircle around Mr Ganesh Pai’s table. It was a special day: Mrs Engineer had come to the shop in person.
She had chosen her TV table and now she was approaching Mr Pai’s desk to finalize the deal.
His face was smeared with sandalwood and he wore a loose-fitting silk shirt over which a dark triangle of his chest hair stuck out. On the wall behind his chair, he had hung gold tin-foil images of Lakshmi, goddess of wealth, and the fat elephant-god Ganapati. An incense-stick smoked below the images.
Mrs Engineer sat down slowly at the desk. Mr Pai reached into a drawer and then held out four red cards to her. Mrs Engineer paused, bit her lip, and snatched at one of the four cards.
‘A set of stainless-steel cups!’ Mr Pai said, showing her the bonus card she had selected. ‘A truly wonderful gift, Madam. Something you’ll treasure for years and years.’
Mrs Engineer beamed. She took out a small red purse, counted off four 100-rupee notes, and put them on the desk before Mr Pai.
Mr Pai, moistening the tip of his finger in a small bowl of water that he kept on his desk for just this purpose, counted the notes afresh; then he looked at Mrs Engineer and smiled, as if expecting something more.
‘The balance on delivery,’ she said, getting up from her chair. ‘And don’t forget to send the bonus gift.’
‘She may be the wife of the richest man in town, but she’s still a stingy old cunt,’ Mr Pai said, after he had seen her out of the store, and an assistant laughed behind him. He turned and glared at the assistant – a small, dark, Tamilian boy.
‘Get one of the coolies to deliver it, quickly,’ Mr Pai said. ‘I want the balance before she forgets about it.’
The Tamilian boy ran out of the shop. The cycle-cart pullers were in their usual position – lying on their carts, staring into space, smoking beedis. Some of them were staring with dull avarice at the store on the other side of the road, the Ideal Traders Ice Cream Parlour; fat kids in T-shirts were licking vanilla cones outside the shop.
The boy stuck out his index finger and motioned to one of the men.
‘Chenayya – your number is up!’
Chenayya pedalled hard. He had been told to take the direct route to Rose Lane, so he had to go over Lighthouse Hill; he struggled to move the cart with the TV table, which was attached to his cycle. Once he was over the hump of the hill, he let the cycle glide. He slowed down in Rose Lane, found the house number, which he had memorized, and rang the bell.
He was expecting to see a servant, but when a plump, fair-skinned woman opened the door, he knew it was Mrs Engineer herself.
Chenayya carried the TV table into the house and put it down where she indicated.
He went out and returned with a saw. He had walked in holding the thing close to his side, but when he got to the dining room, where he had left the table in two separate pieces, Mrs Engineer watched as he held the tool at an arm’s length and suddenly it seemed enormous: eighteen inches long, with a serrated edge, rusty, but with patches of the original metal-grey colour still showing through, like a sculpture of a shark made by a tribal artist.
Chenayya saw the anxiety in the woman’s eyes. To dispel her fear, he grinned ingratiatingly – it was the exaggerated, death-mask grin of a person not used to grovelling – then he looked around as if to remind himself where he had left the table.
The legs were not of equal length. Chenayya closed an eye and examined the legs one by one; then he took the saw to each of the legs, creating a fine dust on the ground. He moved the saw so slowly, so precisely that it seemed he was just rehearsing his actions; only the accumulation of wood-dust on the ground was evidence to the contrary. He examined the four legs again with one eye closed to make
sure they were even and then dropped his saw. He searched the dirty white sarong he was wearing, which was the only garment on his body, for a relatively clean corner and wiped down the table.
‘The table is ready, Madam.’ He folded his hands and waited.
With an ingratiating smile, he wiped the table again, to make sure that the lady of the house had noticed the care he had taken with her furniture.
Mrs Engineer had not been watching; she had retreated into an inner room. She returned and counted off seven hundred and forty-two rupees.
Hesitating a moment, she added three rupee notes to it.
‘Give me something more, Madam?’ Chenayya blurted. ‘Give me three more rupees?’
‘Six rupees? Nothing doing,’ she said.
‘It’s a long way, Madam.’ He picked up his saw and gestured at his neck. ‘I had to carry it all that way, Madam, on my cycle-cart. It hurts my neck very much.’
‘Nothing doing. Get out – or I’ll call the police, you thug – get out and take your big knife with you!’
As he walked out of the house, grumbling and sulking, he folded the money into a wad; then tied it into a knot on the loose dirty white sarong he wore. A neem tree grew near the gate of the house, and he had to duck not to scrape his head against its branches. He had left the cycle-cart near the tree. He threw the saw into the cart. Around his cycle seat he had wrapped a white cotton cloth; he unfastened it and tied it around his head.
A cat went running past his leg; two dogs followed it in full flight. The cat leaped up the neem tree and bounded up the limbs; the dogs waited at the foot of the tree, scraping the base of the tree and barking. Chenayya, who had got onto his seat, lingered to watch the scene. The moment he started pedalling, he would no longer notice such things around him; he would turn into a pedalling machine that was headed straight back to his boss-man’s shop. He stood there, watching the animals, enjoying consciousness. He picked up a rotting banana skin and left it draped on the leaves of the neem tree, so that it would startle the owners when they came out.
He was so pleased with himself for this that he smiled.
But he still did not want to start pedalling again, which was like handing over the keys of his personality to fatigue and routine.
About ten minutes later, he was on his bike again, heading back to Umbrella Street. He was cycling, as always, with his butt elevated off the seat, his spine inclined at sixty degrees. Only at crossroads did he straighten himself, relax, and ease back onto the seat. The road, as he drew near to Umbrella Street, was jammed once again; pushing his front wheel into the car ahead of him, Chenayya yelled: ‘Son of a bitch, move!’
At last he saw to his right the sign ‘GANESH PAI FAN AND FURNITURE STORE’ and stopped his cycle.
Chenayya felt the money was burning a hole in his sarong; he wanted to hand it over to his employer as soon as possible. He wiped his palm against his sarong, pushed the door open, went into the store, and crouched by a corner of Mr Pai’s table. Neither Mr Pai nor the Tamilian assistant paid any attention to him. Untying the bundle in his sarong, he put his hands between his legs and stared at the floor.
His neck was hurting again; he moved it from side to side to relieve the stress.
‘Stop doing that.’
Mr Pai motioned for him to hand over the cash. Chenayya got up.
He moved slowly towards to the boss-man’s desk and handed the notes over to Mr Ganesh Pai, who moistened his finger in the water bowl and counted off seven hundred and forty-two rupees. Chenayya stared at the water bowl; he noticed how its sides were scalloped to make them look like lotus-petals, and how the artisan had even traced the pattern of a trellis around the bottom of the bowl.
Mr Pai snapped his fingers. He had tied a rubber band around the notes and was holding out his palm in Chenayya’s direction.
‘Two rupees short.’
Chenayya undid the knot in the side of his sarong and handed over two one-rupee notes.
That was the sum he was expected to hand over to Mr Pai at the end of every delivery; one rupee for the dinner he would be given at around nine o’clock, and one rupee for the privilege of having been chosen to work for Mr Ganesh Pai.
Outside, the Tamilian boy from Mr Pai’s shop was giving instructions to one of the cyle-cart pullers, a strong young fellow who had recently joined. He was about to start pedalling a cart with two cardboard boxes on it, and the boy from the store was saying, tapping the two boxes: ‘It’s a mixie in one box and a four-blade fan in the other. When you take it to the house, you’ve got to make sure they both get plugged in before you return.’ He told the cart puller the address he was to go to; then he made the coolie say it aloud, like a teacher with a slow pupil.
It would be some time before Chenayya’s number was called again, so he walked down the road to a spot where a man was sitting at a desk on the pavement, selling bundles of small rectangular tickets that were as colourful as pieces of candy. He smiled at Chenayya; his fingers began flipping through one of the bundles.
‘Yellow?’
‘First tell me if my number won last time,’ Chenayya said. He brought out a dirty piece of paper from the knot on his sarong. The seller found a newspaper and glanced down to the bottom right-hand corner.
He read aloud: ‘Winning Lottery Numbers. 17-8-9-9-643-455.’
Chenayya had learned enough about English numerals to recognize his own ticket number; he squinted for several moments and then let the ticket float to the ground.
‘People buy for fifteen, sixteen years before they win, Chenayya,’ the lottery seller said, by way of consolation. ‘But in the end, those who believe always win. That is the way the world works.’
Chenayya hated it when the seller tried to console him like this; that was when he felt he was being ripped off by the men who printed the lottery tickets.
‘I can’t go on this way for ever,’ he said. ‘My neck hurts. I can’t go on like this.’
The lottery seller nodded. ‘Another yellow?’
Tying the ticket into his bundle, Chenayya staggered back; He collapsed onto his cart. For a while he lay like that, not feeling refreshed from the rest, but only numb.
Then a finger tapped on his head.
‘Number’s up, Chenayya.’
It was the Tamilian boy from the store.
To be delivered to 54 Suryanarayan Rao Lane. He repeated it aloud: ‘54, Suryanarayan…’
‘Good.’
This route took him uphill over the Lighthouse Hill again. Riding his cart halfway up the hill, he alighted and began dragging the cart. His sinews bulged from his neck like webbing; and as he inhaled, the air burned through his chest and lungs. You can’t go on, said his tired limbs, his burning chest. You can’t go on. But at the same time, this was when his sense of resistance to his fate waxed greatest within him: and as he pushed, the restlessness and anger that had been within him all day became articulate at last:
You will not break me, motherfuckers! You will never break me!
If the thing to be delivered was light, like a mattress, he was not allowed to take a cycle-cart; it had to be carried on his head. Repeating the address to the Tamilian boy from the shop, he set off with a slow, light step, like a fat man jogging. In a short while, the weight of the mattress had seemed unbearable; it compressed his neck and spine and sent a shaft of pain down his back. He was virtually in a trance.
This morning he was taking a mattress to the railway station. The client turned out to be a North Indian family that was leaving Kittur; the owner, as he had guessed beforehand (from his demeanour, his manner – you can tell which of these rich people have a sense of decency and which don’t), refused to pay him the tip.
Chenayya stood his ground. ‘You motherfucker! Give me my money!’
It was a triumph for him; the man relented and gave him three rupees. On the way out of the station, he thought: I feel elated, but my customer has done no more than pay me what he owes me. This is what my life has been re
duced to.
The odours and the noise of the train station made him feel sick. Turning around, he squatted down by the tracks and pulled his sarong up and held his breath. As he was squatting there, the train roared by. He turned around; he wanted to shit into the faces of the people on the train. Yes, that would be good; as the train thundered over the motions, he forced out the turds into the faces of the passers-by.
Next to him, he saw a pig, which was doing the same thing.
At once, he thought, God, what am I becoming? He walked to a corner, crawled behind a bush, and defecated there. He told himself: I will never again defecate like this, in a place where I can be seen. There is a difference between man and animal; there is a difference.
He closed his eyes.
The scent of basil from near him seemed like evidence that there were good things in the world. But when he opened his eyes, the earth around was one of thorns and shit and stray animals.
He looked up and took a deep breath. The sky is clean, he thought. There is purity up there. He tore off a few leaves, wiped himself clean with them, then rubbed his left hand against the earth in a bid to neutralize the smell.
At two o’clock, he got his next ‘number’: the delivery of a giant stack of boxes to an address in Valencia. The Tamilian boy made sure he understood the address exactly: beyond the hospital and down by the Seminary where the Jesuit priests stayed.
‘There’s a lot of work today, Chenayya,’ he said. ‘Make sure you go the quick way – over the Lighthouse Hill.’
Chenayya grunted, rose out of the seat, shifted his weight onto the pedals, and was on his way. The rusty iron chain that double-locked the cart to the front wheels of the bicycle began to make a noise as he cycled.
Down the main road, he was stuck in a traffic jam. He stopped, and became aware of his body once again. His neck hurt; the sun seared his back. Once he was conscious of pain, he began to think.