"Don't worry," she said, rolling on top of him. "I'll be quick."
Half an hour later Ned was walking briskly along the Strand.
Queen Elizabeth had not yet appointed a new bishop of Kingsbridge to replace Julius, and Ned wanted the dean of Kingsbridge, Luke Richards, to get the job. Dean Luke was the right man--and also a friend of the Willard family.
Everyone at court wanted jobs for their friends, and Ned hesitated to pester the queen with his own personal preferences. He had learned, during five years in Elizabeth's service, how quickly her amity could turn sour if a courtier lost sight of who served whom. So he had bided his time. However, today the queen planned to discuss bishops with her secretary of state, Sir William Cecil, and Cecil had told Ned to be there.
The palace called White Hall was a sprawl of dozens of buildings, courtyards, and gardens, including a tennis court. Ned knew his way to the royal apartment and went quickly through the guardroom to a large waiting room. He was relieved to find that Cecil had not yet arrived. Susannah had been quick, as promised, and she had not delayed Ned too much.
Also in the outer chamber was the Spanish ambassador, Alvaro de la Quadra. He was pacing restlessly and looked angry, though Ned suspected the emotion might be at least partly faked. An ambassador's job was difficult, Ned reflected: when his master was impassioned he had to convey that emotion, whether he shared it or not.
It was only a few minutes before the secretary of state came in and swept Ned along with him to the presence chamber.
Queen Elizabeth was now thirty, and she had lost the girlish bloom that had once made her almost beautiful. She was heavier, and her fondness for sugary treats had damaged her teeth. But she was in a good mood today.
"Before we get on to bishops, let's have the Spanish ambassador in," she said. Ned guessed that she had been waiting for Cecil, not wanting to be alone for a confrontation with Quadra, who represented the most powerful monarch in Europe.
Quadra's greetings to the queen were so brisk as to be almost offensive, then he said: "A Spanish galleon has been attacked by English pirates."
"I'm very sorry to hear that," said the queen.
"Three noblemen were killed! Several sailors also died, and the ship was severely damaged before the pirates fled."
Reading between the lines, Ned guessed that the galleon had got the worst of the encounter. King Felipe's pride was hurt, hence his ire.
Elizabeth said: "I'm afraid I can't control what my subjects do when they're at sea and far from home. No monarch can."
What Elizabeth said was only half the truth. It was difficult to control ships at sea, but the other side of the story was that Elizabeth did not try very hard. Merchant ships could get away with murder, often literally, because of the role they played in the security of her kingdom. In times of war the monarch could order merchant ships to join forces with the royal navy. Together they formed the main defense of an island nation with no standing army. Elizabeth was like the owner of a vicious dog that is useful in scaring off intruders.
Elizabeth went on: "Anyway, where did this happen?"
"Off the coast of Hispaniola."
Cecil, who had studied law at Gray's Inn, asked: "And who fired the first shot?"
That was an astute question. "I do not have that information," said Quadra; and Ned took that to mean the Spaniards had fired first. Quadra came close to confirming that suspicion when he blustered: "However, a ship of His Majesty King Felipe would be entirely justified in firing on any vessel involved in criminal activity."
Cecil said: "What sort of crime are we talking about?"
"The English ship did not have permission to sail to New Spain. No foreign ships may do so."
"And do we know what the captain was up to in the New World?"
"Selling slaves!"
Elizabeth said: "Let me make sure I understand you," and Ned wondered if Quadra could hear, as clearly as Ned could, the dangerous note in her voice. "An English vessel, innocently doing business with willing buyers in Hispaniola, is fired upon by a Spanish galleon--and you are complaining to me because the English fired back?"
"They were committing a crime just by being there! Your Majesty is well aware that His Holiness the Pope has granted jurisdiction over the entire New World to the kings of Spain and Portugal."
The queen's voice became icy. "And His Majesty King Felipe is well aware that the Pope does not have the authority to grant this or that part of God's earth to one monarch or another at his pleasure!"
"The holy father in his wisdom--"
"God's body!" Elizabeth exploded, using a curse that deeply offended Catholics such as Quadra. "If you fire upon Englishmen just for being in the New World, your ships must take their chances! Don't complain to me of the consequences. You are dismissed."
Quadra bowed, then looked sly. "Don't you want to know the name of the English ship?"
"Tell me."
"It was the Hawk, based at Combe Harbour, and its captain is Jonas Bacon." Quadra looked at Ned. "The master gunner is someone called Barnabas Willard."
Ned gasped. "My brother!"
"Your brother," said Quadra with evident satisfaction, "and, by generally accepted laws, a pirate." He bowed again to the queen. "I humbly bid Your Majesty good day."
When he had gone, Elizabeth said to Ned: "Did you know?"
"Some of it," said Ned, trying to collect his thoughts. "Three years ago, my uncle Jan in Antwerp wrote to say Barney was on his way home aboard the Hawk. By now we've guessed he got diverted. But we had no idea he might have crossed the Atlantic!"
"I hope he gets home safely," the queen said. "Now, speaking of Kingsbridge, who can we have as bishop?"
Ned missed his cue, still being dazed by the news of Barney; but after a pause Cecil prompted him by saying: "Ned knows of a suitable candidate."
Ned shook himself. "Luke Richards. Age forty-five. He's already the dean."
"A friend of yours, I suppose," the queen said sniffily.
"Yes, Your Majesty."
"What's he like?"
"A moderate man. He is a good Protestant--although honesty compels me to tell Your Majesty that five years ago he was a good Catholic."
Cecil frowned in disapproval, but Queen Elizabeth laughed heartily. "Excellent," she said. "That's just the kind of bishop I like!"
Margery had been married for five years, and every day of those years she had thought about running away.
Bart Shiring was not a bad husband by general standards. He had never beaten her. She had to submit to sex with him now and again, but most of the time he took his pleasure elsewhere, so in that respect he was like most noblemen. He was disappointed that they had no children, and all men believed that such a failure was the woman's fault, but he did not accuse her of witchcraft, as some husbands would have. All the same, she hated him.
Her dream of escape took many forms. She thought about entering a French nunnery, but of course Bart would find her and bring her back. She could cut her hair, dress as a boy, and run away to sea; but there was no privacy on a ship and she would be discovered within a day. She could saddle her favorite horse one morning and just never come back, but where would she go? London appealed, but how would she make a living? She knew a little of how the world worked, and it was common knowledge that girls who fled to the big city usually ended up as prostitutes.
There were times when she was tempted to the sin of suicide.
What kept her alive was her clandestine work for England's deprived Catholics. It gave meaning to her existence, and in addition it was exciting, though frightening. Without it she would have been nothing more than a sad victim of circumstance. With it she was an adventurer, an outlaw, a secret agent for God.
When Bart was away from home she was almost happy. She liked having the bed to herself: no one snoring, belching, or lurching out of bed in the middle of the night to piss in the pot. She enjoyed being alone in the morning while she washed and dressed. She liked her boudoir, with
its little shelf of books and sprays of greenery in jugs. She could come back to her room in the afternoon, to sit alone and read poetry or study her Latin Bible, without being asked scornfully why any normal person would want to do such a thing.
It did not happen often enough. When Bart traveled it was usually to Kingsbridge, and then Margery went with him, taking the opportunity to see friends and connect with the clandestine Catholics there. But this time Bart had gone to Combe Harbour, and Margery was enjoying her own company.
She appeared at supper, of course. Earl Swithin had married a second time, to a girl younger than Margery, but the teenage countess had died giving birth to her first, stillborn child. So Margery was again the lady of the house, and meals were her responsibility. Tonight she had ordered mutton with cinnamon and honey. At table were just Earl Swithin and Stephen Lincoln, who now lived at New Castle: officially he was the secretary, in fact he was the earl's priest. He said mass in the chapel for the family and their servants every Sunday, except when he and Margery were away doing the same thing somewhere else.
Although everyone was discreet, such a practice could not remain hidden forever. By now a lot of people knew or guessed that Catholic services were going on at New Castle and, probably, all over England. The Puritans in Parliament--all men, of course--were infuriated by this. But Queen Elizabeth refused to enforce the laws. It was a compromise that Margery was beginning to recognize as typical of Elizabeth. The queen was a heretic, but she was also a sensible woman, and Margery thanked God for that.
She left the supper table as soon as it was polite. She had a genuine excuse: her housekeeper was ill, and probably dying, and Margery wanted to make sure the poor woman was as comfortable as possible for the night.
She made her way to the servants' quarters. Sal Brendon was lying in an alcove to one side of the kitchen. She and Margery had got off to a rocky start, five years ago, but Margery had slowly made an ally of her, and eventually they had run the house as a team. Sadly, Sal had developed a lump in one of her ample breasts, and over the past year had been transformed from a fleshy middle-aged sexpot into a skeleton with skin.
Sal's tumor had broken through the skin and spread to her shoulder. It was heavily bandaged in an attempt to suppress the bad smell. Margery encouraged her to drink some sherry wine, and sat talking to her for a while. Sal told her, with bitter resignation, that the earl had not bothered to come to see her for weeks. She felt she had wasted her life trying to make an ungrateful man happy.
Margery retired to her room and cheered herself up with an outrageously funny French book called Pantagruel, about a race of giants, some of whom had testicles so large that three would fill a sack. Stephen Lincoln would have disapproved of the book, but there was no real harm in it. She sat by her candle for an hour, chuckling now and again; then she undressed.
She slept in a knee-length linen shift. The bed was a four-poster, but she kept the drapes tied back. The house had tall windows, and there was a half moon, so the room was not completely dark. She climbed under the bedclothes and closed her eyes.
She would have liked to show Pantagruel to Ned Willard. He would have delighted in the author's fantastic comic inventions the way he had in the Mary Magdalene play here at New Castle. Whenever she came across something interesting or unusual she wondered what Ned would have to say about it.
She often thought of him at night. Foolishly, she felt that her wicked ideas were more secret when she was lying in the dark. Now she remembered the first time Ned and she had kissed and petted, in the disused old oven, and she wished they had gone further. The memory made her feel warm and cozy inside. She knew it was a sin to touch herself down there, but--as sometimes happened--tonight the feeling came over her without touching, and she could not help pressing her thighs together and riding the waves of pleasure.
Afterward she felt sad. She thought about Sal Brendon's regrets, and she pictured herself on her own deathbed and wondered if she would feel as bitter as Sal. Tears came to her eyes. She reached out to a small chest beside the bed where she kept her private things and took out a linen handkerchief embroidered with acorns. It was Ned's: she had never given it back. She buried her face in it, imagining that she was with him again, and he was gently touching it to her cheeks, drying her tears.
Then she heard breathing.
There were no locks at New Castle, but she normally shut her door. However, she had not heard it open. Perhaps she had left it ajar. But who would enter silently?
The breathing could have come from a dog: the earl's hounds were allowed to roam the corridors at night, and one might have nosed in curiously. She listened: the breathing was restrained, like that of a man trying to be quiet--dogs could not do that.
She opened her eyes and sat upright, her heart beating fast. In the silver moonlight she made out the figure of a man in a nightshirt. "Get out of my room," she said firmly, but there was a tremor in her voice.
A moment of silence followed. It was too dark to identify the man. Had Bart come home unexpectedly? No--no one traveled after dark. It could not be a servant: one of them would risk death entering a noblewoman's bedroom at night. It could not be Stephen Lincoln, for she felt sure he was not drawn to women's beds--if he were to sin in that way it would be with a pretty boy.
The man spoke. "Don't be afraid."
It was Swithin.
"Go away," said Margery.
He sat on the edge of her bed. "We're both lonely," he said. His speech was a little slurred, as it always was by the end of the evening.
She moved to get up, but he stopped her with a strong arm.
"You know you want it," he said.
"No, I don't!" She struggled against his grip, but he was big and powerful, and had not drunk enough to weaken him.
"I like a bit of resistance," he said.
"Let me go!" she cried.
With his free hand he pulled the bedclothes off. Her shift was rucked up around her hips, and he stared hungrily at her thighs. Irrationally, she felt ashamed, and tried to cover her nakedness with her hands. "Ah," he said with pleasure. "Shy."
She did not know what to do to get rid of him.
With surprising swiftness he grabbed her by both ankles and pulled sharply. She was dragged down the bed and her shoulders fell back onto the mattress. While she was still shocked he jumped onto the bed and lay on her. He was heavy and his breath was foul. He groped her breasts with his mutilated hand.
Her voice came out in a high squeal. "Go away now or I'll scream and everyone will know."
"I'll tell them you seduced me," he said. "They'll believe me, not you."
She froze. She knew he was right. People said that women could not control their desires, but men could. Margery thought it was the other way round. But she could imagine the scenes of accusation and counter-accusation, the men all siding with the earl, the women looking at her with suspicion. Bart would be torn, for he knew his father well, yet in the end he might not have the courage to go against the earl.
She felt Swithin fumble to pull up his nightshirt. Perhaps he would be impotent, she thought in desperate hope. It happened sometimes with Bart, usually because he had drunk too much wine, though he always blamed her for putting him off. Swithin had certainly drunk a lot.
But not too much. She felt his penis pushing against her, and that hope faded.
She pressed her legs close together. He tried to force them apart. But it was awkward: he had to rest his considerable weight on one elbow while shoving the other hand between her thighs. He grunted in frustration. Perhaps she could make it so difficult that he would lose his erection and give up in disgust.
He hissed: "Open your legs, bitch."
She pressed them closer together.
With his free hand, he punched her face.
It was like an explosion. He was powerfully built, with big shoulders and strong arms, and he had done a lot of punching in his lifetime. She had no idea that such a blow could hurt so much. She felt as
if her head would come off her neck. Her mouth filled with blood. Momentarily she lost all power of resistance, and in that second he forced her thighs apart and shoved his penis into her.
After that it did not take long. She endured his thrusts in a daze. Her face hurt so much that she could hardly feel the rest of her body. He finished and rolled off her, breathing hard.
She got off the bed, went into the corner of the room, and sat on the floor, holding her aching head. A minute later she heard him pad out of the room, still panting.
She wiped her face with the handkerchief that was, to her surprise, still clutched tightly in her hand. When she was sure he had gone she returned to the bed. She lay there, crying softly, until at last sleep brought blessed unconsciousness.
In the morning she might have thought she dreamed it, except that one side of her face was agony. She looked in a glass and saw that it was swollen and discolored. At breakfast she made up a story about having fallen out of bed: she did not care whether anyone believed it, but for her to accuse the earl would get her into even more trouble.
Swithin ate a hearty breakfast and acted as if nothing had happened.
As soon as he left the table, Margery told the servant to leave the room and went to sit next to Stephen. "Swithin came to my room last night," she said in a low voice.
"What for?" he said.
She stared at him. He was a priest, but he was twenty-eight years old and had been a student at Oxford, so he could not be completely innocent.
After a moment he said: "Oh!"
"He forced himself on me."
"Did you struggle?"
"Of course, but he's stronger than I am." She touched her swollen face with her fingertips, careful not to press. "I didn't fall out of bed. His fist did this."
"Did you scream?"
"I threatened to. He said he would tell everyone that I seduced him. And that they would believe him and not me. He was right about that--as you must know."
Stephen looked uncomfortable.
There was a silence. At last Margery said: "What should I do?"
"Pray for forgiveness," said Stephen.
Margery frowned. "What on earth do you mean?"
"Ask forgiveness for sin. God will be merciful."
Margery's voice rose. "What sin? I haven't committed a sin! I am the victim of a sin--how can you tell me to ask forgiveness?"