her chair. Decker took a small sip of the drink and let it burn down his throat.
“How do you know exactly what Dabney stole?” he asked.
She drank some scotch before answering. “I have a DIA top secret clearance with an SCI, or Sensitive Compartmented Information, access kicker. Anyone at CIA or NSA with those security clearances from their agencies would not be allowed to know that information, because that’s just how our world works. There’s no reciprocity on that score.”
“Which is your polite way of telling me you can’t answer my question.”
She held up her glass in affirmation of his statement. “But what I can tell you is that we are satisfied that we’re correct in what was stolen. We just don’t know who has it, or how long they’ve had it. Or what they’ve done with it.”
“So how do we work this together?”
“Can you really remember everything?”
“More or less. Emphasis on the more.”
“How many people were in the restaurant tonight?”
Decker clicked through his frames. “Fourteen, not counting us or the staff.”
“There was a guy sitting at the right side of the bar. What was he wearing?”
Decker told her, down to his sock color. Then he added, “Your odometer reading on the BMW is 24137. Do you want to know your VIN? I saw it the first time you gave me a ride, so I’ve got that too.” He recited it for her. She grabbed her purse, took out her wallet, slipped out her insurance card, and read out the VIN. Her expression said it all—Decker had been perfect.
She sat back. “That’s remarkable.”
“So, again, how do we work this? Together?”
“As I said before, Dabney interests me more than Berkshire. Do you agree?”
Decker shook his head.
“Whoever got Dabney to kill Berkshire blackmailed him to do it. That means they know about the secrets he sold. And I’m betting that they know who he sold them to. It actually might have been one and the same party. We figure out the Berkshire end, then we solve your problem too.”
She put down her scotch. “That actually makes a lot of sense.”
“So you’ll work with us on Berkshire?”
She nodded. “Yes, I will.”
“Good, I might have some information that will help.”
“Like what?”
“Like maybe what Anne Berkshire used to be.”
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BROWN’S FEATURES FROZE for an instant. “What she used to be? You care to explain that statement?”
“It’s the reason I called you tonight. She has no past further back than ten years. But she had a résumé showing she graduated from Virginia Tech, only her first name was spelled differently. And she’s rich, and we don’t know how she came by the money.”
“Okay, what does that tell you?”
“I was speculating that she might be a spy. Maybe the one that Dabney passed the secrets to. But then why kill her? And we can find no connection between them. So we considered the Witness Protection angle, but I don’t think any of the people in that program are rich. And she volunteered and worked as a schoolteacher. That really put her out there in the public eye some. I don’t think the U.S. Marshals encourage that. They have their protectees keep low profiles.”
“Which leaves what?”
“She did something on her own that caused her to put together a new identity. And whatever she did in the recent past gave her great wealth.”
“Don’t keep me in suspense, Decker.”
“It stands to reason that the people who blackmailed Dabney might be in the military arena. Defense contracting more specifically. That allowed Dabney to have the access to get the secrets and them to buy the secrets or at least know he committed treason.”
“And that is all speculation on your part,” pointed out Brown.
“Without facts, that’s all we can do at this point. But I’m trying to deal in probabilities.”
“Okay, go on.”
“I think she could have been a whistleblower.”
Brown put her feet on the floor and stared at him. “Keep going.”
“If she was the whistleblower on some defense contract that went sideways, she might have gotten a reward. Sometimes they’re tied to a percentage of the amounts saved by the government because of the person’s actions. That would explain Berkshire’s wealth. She might have gotten some of the people she informed on sent to prison. That would explain why she adopted a new identity. To hide from them.”
“And those people might be out now,” said Brown.
“They might be, yes. And maybe some of them didn’t go to prison, but her whistleblowing might have ruined their business, caused them to go bankrupt, shut them out of the government feeding trough. That could be a motive to have someone kill her.”
“Yes, it could. How did you come up with this angle?”
“Something Todd Milligan said earlier about whistling in the wind.”
“So what do we do with this information?”
“We follow it up. We have to look at whistleblower cases.”
“There are a lot of them.”
“That’s where you come in. I believe this is tied to the defense sector.”
She nodded and took another sip of her scotch. “You’ll need to be read into some things. And you don’t have a security clearance, which makes things difficult.”
“I’ve applied for one through the FBI. I’ve taken and passed the polygraph, but they haven’t finished the background check on me yet.” He added, “My past is a little complicated.”
She gazed keenly at him. “I would imagine it is.” She set her glass down. “I might be able to work something out. I’ll call you tomorrow.”
* * *
Brown dropped Decker off at his apartment and drove away. For a moment Decker stood there in the darkness staring up at the windows of the apartment where Danny and his father had lived.
Danny Amaya was a year older than Decker’s daughter was when she’d been killed. She’d never actually reached her tenth birthday. Her murderer had gotten to her before that could happen.
Molly Decker would have turned twelve this year. His wife, Cassie, would have turned forty-two.
They were dead and buried back in Ohio.
He was five hundred miles from them, farther than he ever thought he would be.
Five hundred miles farther than he thought he ever could be.
He sat down on the front steps of the building and stared down at his feet.
Though his memory was near perfect, there were many emotional tethers that Decker struggled to recall or even re-form in his head.
He had once been someone very different. And that was difficult if not impossible for most people to come close to understanding. There were many days when even Decker didn’t understand it.
He knew that he irritated people with his behavior. He knew that he drove Alex Jamison and the others to distraction sometimes. There was a part of him that wanted to do something about this. To let her and others see the person he used to be. But a larger part of him seemed to crush any attempt to enable himself to do this.
If it was frustrating for others, it was maddening for Amos Decker.
What they failed to fully comprehend was that the hit on the football field had done far more than give him perfect recall and the ability to see things in color. It had forced him into being a different person, as though a stranger’s personality and attendant quirks had been superimposed over his own.
But now the stranger’s footprint was Decker.
I am now the stranger. I’m a stranger in my own body.
He would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and wonder not where he was—as many people, confused and muddled by weariness, did—but rather who he was.
And sometimes the answer was not all that easy.
He stood, turned, and headed inside. It was after eleven now and he expected that Jamison would b
e asleep. So when he opened the door to their apartment he was surprised to see her sitting at the kitchen table fully dressed. He closed the door behind him.
“Where have you been, Decker?” she said quietly.
“I’m sorry, Alex. I was with Agent Brown. I came up with a theory and we’re going to work together to run it down.”
“That’s great, Decker, really wonderful.”
Decker did not appear to catch the edge to her voice.
“It had to do with—”
“The man who forgets nothing,” she said.
He looked at her strangely. “What?”
She stood. “But that’s not entirely right.”
“What’s not entirely right?” he said in a perplexed tone.
“That you don’t forget anything.”
He drew closer. “I’m not following where this is going.”
“Well, then let me enlighten you.” She paused, drew a long breath that seemed to swell her body, and said in a strident tone, “You forgot that we were supposed to have dinner with Melvin tonight. Cottons on Fourteenth Street, seven-thirty?”
The color drained from Decker’s face. “Oh, shit, Alex, I’m—”
She pushed on, her voice starting to crack now. “We waited at the restaurant for two hours for you. Two fucking hours, Decker. I called Bogart. I called 911. I called everybody I could think of.”
“But why didn’t you call me?”
“I did! Twelve times.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone. He turned even paler.
“I forgot I turned it to silent.”
“Forgot something else, huh? Wow, that perfect memory of yours is just going to hell in a handbasket.”
“Alex, I’m—”
Tears crept into her eyes. “You can listen to my frantic voicemails later. You’ll probably get a real chuckle out of them. You asshole!”
Before he could say anything else she had turned and stormed down the hall to her room. He heard the door slam behind her.
Decker looked down at his phone and saw all the missed calls. He sat down at the kitchen table and listened to the increasingly panicked voicemails. Jamison sounded like she was going out of her mind with worry. And with the fact that he had been nearly killed twice recently and had enemies still out there, he could hardly blame her.
The old Decker would have gone to her door, knocked, and profusely apologized.
The new Decker just sat there staring out the window at the darkness that was not so nearly as opaque as the one currently residing squarely in his head.
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BLEARY-EYED, JAMISON got up the next morning, washed her face, and walked down the hall to the kitchen to make coffee.
She stopped dead when she got to the kitchen.
“Have you been sitting there all night?”
Decker looked up from his chair.
She said, “Decker, it’s seven in the morning. Have you even been to bed?”
In answer he held up his phone. “I listened to the messages. All of them.”
She frowned and leaned against the wall, wrapping the folds of her robe around her because the apartment was chilly. “Okay,” she said slowly.
“I screwed up, Alex. I’m sorry. I’m sorry you were so worried. And I’m sorry I missed dinner.”
She came and sat down next to him. She rubbed her eyes and looked at him. “Knowing you, I probably shouldn’t have overreacted when you didn’t show up. I mean, it’s not like it’s the first time you’ve stood me up.” She played with the cord on her robe and added, “But with all that’s taken place recently, with the Amayas and everything, I just thought something terrible had happened to you.”
“If you ever call again I will answer it. And if I don’t then you probably will need to call 911.”
She gave him a grudging smile, squeezed his arm, and rose to go make coffee. “I called Melvin last night and told him you were okay.”
Decker flinched because it had never occurred to him to do this.
What the hell is wrong with me?
“Thanks for doing that.”
“Maybe we can grab dinner tonight?” she said cautiously.
“Yes, we can.”
“Don’t be too quick to agree. You might live to regret it.”
She brought two cups of coffee over and set one down in front of him before retaking her seat. “Now, talk to me about this theory you came up with.”
Decker went through it step by step.
Jamison looked impressed. “A whistleblower, huh? That would explain a lot of the questions we’ve got.”
“The problem will be finding out which whistleblowing case. There have been a lot of them over the years.”
“But it shouldn’t be that hard. We can circulate Berkshire’s picture all over. Someone will have to recognize her.”
“The thing is, Alex, her picture has been all over the place. After the murder it was on all the news cycles and still is in some places.”
She took a sip of coffee and looked perplexed. “That’s true. I wonder why no one has come forward, then?”
“She changed her name, obviously. She could have changed her appearance too.”
“You mean plastic surgery?”
“There are lots of ways to change your appearance other than going under the knife. She could have lost weight, changed her hairstyle and color, started wearing glasses, or used tinted contacts to change her eye color. It all adds up.”
“We could ask the ME if Berkshire had had surgery. The autopsy would have shown that.”
“I emailed her last night. She must be an early riser. She emailed me a half hour ago and said there were no signs of plastic surgery.”
“Speaking of early risers, don’t you think you should get some sleep?”
“I’m not tired.”
“Well, at some point you’re going to need to rest or else you’re going to wear out. You want some breakfast?”
“I’ll get it.”
“Okay, I’m going to grab a shower.”
As she walked off, Decker’s thoughts trended back to Berkshire. Specifically, to the old house in the woods. The flash drive, he knew, would have been a treasure trove of information. It might have detailed Berkshire’s past, answering so many questions. But