Page 46 of The Grapes of Wrath


  "Git away," she cried. "You said we was."

  "Well, sure we are."

  "An' now you're goin' away."

  Al demanded, "What's the matter with you? You in a fambly way?"

  "No, I ain't."

  Al laughed. "I jus' been wastin' my time, huh?"

  Her chin shot out. She jumped to her feet. "You git away from me, Al Joad. I don' wanta see you no more."

  "Aw, come on. What's the matter?"

  "You think you're jus'--hell on wheels."

  "Now wait a minute."

  "You think I got to go out with you. Well, I don't! I got lots a chances."

  "Now wait a minute."

  "No, sir--you git away."

  Al lunged suddenly, caught her by the ankle, and tripped her. He grabbed her when she fell and held her and put his hand over her angry mouth. She tried to bite his palm, but he cupped it out over her mouth, and he held her down with his other arm. And in a moment she lay still, and in another moment they were giggling together in the dry grass.

  "Why, we'll be a-comin' back purty soon," said Al. "An' I'll have a pocketful a jack. We'll go down to Hollywood an' see the pitchers."

  She was lying on her back. Al bent over her. And he saw the bright evening star reflected in her eyes, and he saw the black cloud reflected in her eyes. "We'll go on the train," he said.

  "How long ya think it'll be?" she asked.

  "Oh, maybe a month," he said.

  The evening dark came down and Pa and Uncle John squatted with the heads of families out by the office. They studied the night and the future. The little manager, in his white clothes, frayed and clean, rested his elbows on the porch rail. His face was drawn and tired.

  Huston looked up at him. "You better get some sleep, mister."

  "I guess I ought. Baby born last night in Unit Three. I'm getting to be a good midwife."

  "Fella oughta know," said Huston. "Married fella got to know."

  Pa said, "We're a-gittin' out in the mornin'."

  "Yeah? Which way you goin'?"

  "Thought we'd go up north a little. Try to get in the first cotton. We ain't had work. We're outa food."

  "Know if they's any work?" Huston asked.

  "No, but we're sure they ain't none here."

  "They will be, a little later," Huston said. "We'll hold on."

  "We hate to go," said Pa. "Folks been so nice here--an' the toilets an' all. But we got to eat. Got a tank of gas. That'll get us a little piece up the road. We had a bath ever' day here. Never was so clean in my life. Funny thing--use ta be I on'y got a bath ever' week an' I never seemed to stink. But now if I don't get one ever' day I stink. Wonder if takin' a bath so often makes that?"

  "Maybe you couldn't smell yourself before," the manager said.

  "Maybe. I wisht we could stay."

  The little manager held his temples between his palms. "I think there's going to be another baby tonight," he said.

  "We gonna have one in our fambly 'fore long," said Pa. "I wisht we could have it here. I sure wisht we could."

  Tom and Willie and Jule the half-breed sat on the edge of the dance floor and swung their feet.

  "I got a sack of Durham," Jule said. "Like a smoke?"

  "I sure would," said Tom. "Ain't had a smoke for a hell of a time." He rolled the brown cigarette carefully, to keep down the loss of tobacco.

  "Well, sir, we'll be sorry to see you go," said Willy. "You folks is good folks."

  Tom lighted his cigarette. "I been thinkin' about it a lot. Jesus Christ, I wisht we could settle down."

  Jule took back his Durham. "It ain't nice," he said. "I got a little girl. Thought when I come out here she'd get some schoolin'. But hell, we ain't in one place hardly long enough. Jes' gits goin' an' we got to drag on."

  "I hope we don't get in no more Hoovervilles," said Tom. "I was really scairt, there."

  "Deputies push you aroun'?"

  "I was scairt I'd kill somebody," said Tom. "Was on'y there a little while, but I was a-stewin' aroun' the whole time. Depity come in an' picked up a frien', jus' because he talked outa turn. I was jus' stewin' all the time."

  "Ever been in a strike?" Willie asked.

  "No."

  "Well, I been a-thinkin' a lot. Why don' them depities get in here an' raise hell like ever' place else? Think that little guy in the office is a-stoppin' 'em? No, sir."

  "Well, what is?" Jule asked.

  "I'll tell ya. It's 'cause we're all a-workin' together. Depity can't pick on one fella in this camp. He's pickin' on the whole darn camp. An' he don't dare. All we got to do is give a yell an' they's two hunderd men out. Fella organizin' for the union was a-talkin' out on the road. He says we could do that any place. Jus' stick together. They ain't raisin' hell with no two hunderd men. They're pickin' on one man."

  "Yeah," said Jule, "an' suppose you got a union? You got to have leaders. They'll jus' pick up your leaders, an' where's your union?"

  "Well," said Willie, "we got to figure her out some time. I been out here a year, an' wages is goin' right on down. Fella can't feed his fam'ly on his work now, an' it's gettin' worse all the time. It ain't gonna do no good to set aroun' an' starve. I don' know what to do. If a fella owns a team a horses, he don't raise no hell if he got to feed 'em when they ain't workin'. But if a fella got men workin' for him, he jus' don't give a damn. Horses is a hell of a lot more worth than men. I don' understan' it."

  "Gets so I don' wanta think about it," said Jule. "An' I got to think about it. I got this here little girl. You know how purty she is. One week they give her a prize in this camp 'cause she's so purty. Well, what's gonna happen to her? She's gettin' spindly. I ain't gonna stan' it. She's so purty. I'm gonna bust out."

  "How?" Willie asked. "What you gonna do--steal some stuff an' git in jail? Kill somebody an' git hung?"

  "I don' know," said Jule. "Gits me nuts thinkin' about it. Gets me clear nuts."

  "I'm a-gonna miss them dances," Tom said. "Them was some of the nicest dances I ever seen. Well, I'm gonna turn in. So long. I'll be seein' you someplace." He shook hands.

  "Sure will," said Jule.

  "Well, so long." Tom moved away into the darkness.

  *

  In the darkness of the Joad tent Ruthie and Winfield lay on their mattress, and Ma lay beside them. Ruthie whispered, "Ma!"

  "Yeah? Ain't you asleep yet?"

  "Ma--they gonna have croquet where we're goin'?"

  "I don' know. Get some sleep. We want to get an early start."

  "Well, I wisht we'd stay here where we're sure we got croquet."

  "Sh!" said Ma.

  "Ma, Winfiel' hit a kid tonight."

  "He shouldn' of."

  "I know. I tol' 'im, but he hit the kid right in the nose an', Jesus, how the blood run down!"

  "Don' talk like that. It ain't a nice way to talk."

  Winfield turned over. "That kid says we was Okies," he said in an outraged voice. "He says he wasn't no Okie 'cause he come from Oregon. Says we was goddamn Okies. I socked him."

  "Sh! You shouldn'. He can't hurt you callin' names."

  "Well, I won't let 'im," Winfield said fiercely.

  "Sh! Get some sleep."

  Ruthie said, "You oughta seen the blood run down--all over his clothes."

  Ma reached a hand from under the blanket and snapped Ruthie on the cheek with her finger. The little girl went rigid for a moment, and then dissolved into sniffling, quiet crying.

  In the sanitary unit Pa and Uncle John sat in adjoining compartments. "Might's well get in a good las' one," said Pa. "It's sure nice. 'Member how the little fellas was so scairt when they flushed 'em the first time?"

  "I wasn't so easy myself," said Uncle John. He pulled his overalls neatly up around his knees. "I'm gettin' bad," he said. "I feel sin."

  "You can't sin none," said Pa. "You ain't got no money. Jus' sit tight. Cos' you at leas' two bucks to sin, an' we ain't got two bucks amongst us."

  "Yeah! But I'm a-thinkin' sin."
br />   "Awright. You can think sin for nothin'."

  "It's jus' as bad," said Uncle John.

  "It's a whole hell of a lot cheaper," said Pa.

  "Don't you go makin' light of sin."

  "I ain't. You jus' go ahead. You always gets sinful jus' when hell's a-poppin'."

  "I know it," said Uncle John. "Always was that way. I never tol' half the stuff I done."

  "Well, keep it to yaself."

  "These here nice toilets gets me sinful."

  "Go out in the bushes then. Come on, pull up ya pants an' le's get some sleep." Pa pulled his overall straps in place and snapped the buckle. He flushed the toilet and watched thoughtfully while the water whirled in the bowl.

  It was still dark when Ma roused her camp. The low night lights shone through the open doors of the sanitary units. From the tents along the road came the assorted snores of the campers.

  Ma said, "Come on, roll out. We got to be on our way. Day's not far off." She raised the screechy shade of the lantern and lighted the wick. "Come on, all of you."

  The floor of the tent squirmed into slow action. Blankets and comforts were thrown back and sleepy eyes squinted blindly at the light. Ma slipped on her dress over the underclothes she wore to bed. "We got no coffee," she said. "I got a few biscuits. We can eat 'em on the road. Jus' get up now, an' we'll load the truck. Come on now. Don't make no noise. Don' wanta wake the neighbors."

  It was a few moments before they were fully aroused. "Now don' you get away," Ma warned the children. The family dressed. The men pulled down the tarpaulin and loaded up the truck. "Make it nice an'flat," Ma warned them. They piled the mattress on top of the load and bound the tarpaulin in place over its ridge pole.

  "Awright, Ma," said Tom. "She's ready."

  Ma held a plate of cold biscuits in her hand. "Awright. Here. Each take one. It's all we got."

  Ruthie and Winfield grabbed their biscuits and climbed up on the load. They covered themselves with a blanket and went back to sleep, still holding the cold hard biscuits in their hands. Tom got into the driver's seat and stepped on the starter. It buzzed a little, and then stopped.

  "Goddamn you, Al!" Tom cried. "You let the battery run down."

  Al blustered, "How the hell was I gonna keep her up if I ain't got gas to run her?"

  Tom chuckled suddenly. "Well, I don' know how, but it's your fault. You got to crank her."

  "I tell you it ain't my fault."

  Tom got out and found the crank under the seat. "It's my fault," he said.

  "Gimme that crank." Al seized it. "Pull down the spark so she don't take my arm off."

  "O.K. Twist her tail."

  Al labored at the crank, around and around. The engine caught, spluttered, and roared as Tom choked the car delicately. He raised the spark and reduced the throttle.

  Ma climbed in beside him. "We woke up ever'body in the camp," she said.

  "They'll go to sleep again."

  Al climbed in on the other side. "Pa 'n' Uncle John got up top," he said. "Goin' to sleep again."

  Tom drove toward the main gate. The watchman came out of the office and played his flashlight on the truck. "Wait a minute."

  "What ya want?"

  "You checkin' out?"

  "Sure."

  "Well, I got to cross you off."

  "O.K."

  "Know which way you're goin'?"

  "Well, we're gonna try up north."

  "Well, good luck," said the watchman.

  "Same to you. So long."

  The truck edged slowly over the big hump and into the road. Tom retraced the road he had driven before, past Weedpatch and west until he came to 99, then north on the great paved road, toward Bakersfield. It was growing light when he came into the outskirts of the city.

  Tom said, "Ever' place you look is restaurants. An' them places all got coffee. Lookit that all-nighter there. Bet they got ten gallons a coffee in there, all hot!"

  "Aw, shut up," said Al.

  Tom grinned over at him. "Well, I see you got yaself a girl right off."

  "Well, what of it?"

  "He's mean this mornin', Ma. He ain't good company."

  Al said irritably, "I'm goin' out on my own purty soon. Fella can make his way lot easier if he ain't got a fambly."

  Tom said, "You'd have yaself a fambly in nine months. I seen you playin' aroun'."

  "Ya crazy," said Al. "I'd get myself a job in a garage an' I'd eat in restaurants----"

  "An' you'd have a wife an' kid in nine months."

  "I tell ya I wouldn'."

  Tom said, "You're a wise guy, Al. You gonna take some beatin' over the head."

  "Who's gonna do it?"

  "They'll always be guys to do it," said Tom.

  "You think jus' because you----"

  "Now you jus' stop that," Ma broke in.

  "I done it," said Tom. "I was a-badgerin' him. I didn' mean no harm, Al. I didn' know you liked that girl so much."

  "I don't like no girls much."

  "Awright, then, you don't. You ain't gonna get no argument out of me."

  The truck came to the edge of the city. "Look a them hotdog stan's--hunderds of 'em," said Tom.

  Ma said, "Tom! I got a dollar put away. You wan' coffee bad enough to spen' it?"

  "No, Ma. I'm jus' foolin'."

  "You can have it if you wan' it bad enough."

  "I wouldn' take it."

  Al said, "Then shut up about coffee."

  Tom was silent for a time. "Seems like I got my foot in it all the time," he said. "There's the road we run up that night."

  "I hope we don't never have nothin' like that again," said Ma. "That was a bad night."

  "I didn' like it none either."

  The sun rose on their right, and the great shadow of the truck ran beside them, flicking over the fence posts beside the road. They ran on past the rebuilt Hooverville.

  "Look," said Tom. "They got new people there. Looks like the same place."

  Al came slowly out of his sullenness. "Fella tol' me some a them people been burned out fifteen-twenty times. Says they jus' go hide down the willows an' then they come out an' build 'em another weed shack. Jus' like gophers. Got so use' to it they don't even get mad no more, this fella says. They jus' figger it's like bad weather."

  "Sure was bad weather for me that night," said Tom. They moved up the wide highway. And the sun's warmth made them shiver. "Gettin' snappy in the mornin'," said Tom. "Winter's on the way. I jus' hope we can get some money 'fore it comes. Tent ain't gonna be nice in the winter."

  Ma sighed, and then she straightened her head. "Tom," she said, "we gotta have a house in the winter. I tell ya we got to. Ruthie's awright, but Winfiel' ain't so strong. We got to have a house when the rains come. I heard it jus' rains cats aroun' here."

  "We'll get a house, Ma. You res' easy. You gonna have a house."

  "Jus' so's it's got a roof an' a floor. Jus' to keep the little fellas off 'n the groun'."

  "We'll try, Ma."

  "I don' wanna worry ya now."

  "We'll try, Ma."

  "I jus' get panicky sometimes," she said. "I jus' lose my spunk."

  "I never seen you when you lost it."

  "Nights I do, sometimes."

  There came a harsh hissing from the front of the truck. Tom grabbed the wheel tight and he thrust the brake down to the floor. The truck bumped to a stop. Tom sighed. "Well, there she is." He leaned back in the seat. Al leaped out and ran to the right front tire.

  "Great big nail," he called.

  "We got any tire patch?"

  "No," said Al. "Used it all up. Got patch, but no glue stuff."

  Tom turned and smiled sadly at Ma. "You shouldn' a tol' about that dollar," he said. "We'd a fixed her some way." He got out of the car and went to the flat tire.

  Al pointed to a big nail protruding from the flat casing. "There she is!"

  "If they's one nail in the county, we run over it."

  "Is it bad?" Ma called.

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; "No, not bad, but we got to fix her."

  The family piled down from the top of the truck. "Puncture?" Pa asked, and then he saw the tire and was silent.

  Tom moved Ma from the seat and got the can of tire patch from underneath the cushion. He unrolled the rubber patch and took out the tube of cement, squeezed it gently. "She's almos' dry," he said. "Maybe they's enough. Awright, Al. Block the back wheels. Le's get her jacked up."

  Tom and Al worked well together. They put stones behind the wheels, put the jack under the front axle, and lifted the weight off the limp casing. They ripped off the casing. They found the hole, dipped a rag in the gas tank and washed the tube around the hole. And then, while Al held the tube tight over his knee, Tom tore the cement tube in two and spread the little fluid thinly on the rubber with his pocket knife. He scraped the gum delicately. "Now let her dry while I cut a patch." He trimmed and beveled the edge of the blue patch. Al held the tube tight while Tom put the patch tenderly in place. "There! Now bring her to the running board while I tap her with a hammer." He pounded the patch carefully, then stretched the tube and watched the edges of the patch. "There she is! She's gonna hold. Stick her on the rim an' we'll pump her up. Looks like you keep your buck, Ma."

  Al said, "I wisht we had a spare. We got to get us a spare, Tom, on a rim an' all pumped up. Then we can fix a puncture at night."

  "When we get money for a spare we'll get us some coffee an' side-meat instead," Tom said.

  The light morning traffic buzzed by on the highway, and the sun grew warm and bright. A wind, gentle and sighing, blew in puffs from the southwest, and the mountains on both sides of the great valley were indistinct in a pearly mist.

  Tom was pumping at the tire when a roadster, coming from the north, stopped on the other side of the road. A brown-faced man dressed in a light gray business suit got out and walked across to the truck. He was bareheaded. He smiled, and his teeth were very white against his brown skin. He wore a massive gold wedding ring on the third finger of his left hand. A little gold football hung on a slender chain across his vest.

  "Morning," he said pleasantly.

  Tom stopped pumping and looked up. "Mornin'."

  The man ran his fingers through his coarse, short, graying hair. "You people looking for work?"

  "We sure are, mister. Lookin' even under boards."

  "Can you pick peaches?"

  "We never done it," Pa said.

  "We can do anything," Tom said hurriedly. "We can pick anything there is."

  The man fingered his gold football. "Well, there's plenty of work for you about forty miles north."

  "We'd sure admire to get it," said Tom. "You tell us how to get there, an' we'll go a-lopin'."