on. "Darsey, how did the Aramis come to be docked in the
   south quarter?"
   Still trying to deal with all she had shared, Darsey took a
   ragged breath and began to tell of his nightmare in the last 36
   hours.
   "I didn't give you much time to return to the back room.
   When you hadn't shown in five minutes, I got nervous. When
   two more went past, I hit the door running. There was no sign
   of you.
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   "Someone in the tavern said that the table in the corner
   pad recently been occupied and was now empty. Hearing that,
   I| ran for the docks. As you well know, there was no trace of
   I you. I searched for a time--many of us did--but I didn't wait vvery long before going back into Clancy's and asking about the
   men who were missing.
   "No one seemed to know a thing about them, and for
   Clancy's, that's not normal. Meg and Bart know everyone who
   walks through the door, or they do soon afterward. Evidently
   those two were not new, but neither were they regulars until
   some weeks ago. Any and all attempts to gain information
   from them were met with blank stares, and since they kept to
   themselves and always paid their bill, Bart let them alone.
   "When Clancy's came up dry, I did a little more inquiring
   in the neighboring taverns. Bart went with me. Even though
   others had seen the men we spoke of, no one knew their
   names. I felt frantic at that point, and on the off chance that
   you'd returned, decided to head back to the ship. Docked
   some yards away from us was a huge frigate. I don't know why
   it caught my interest, but it was so heavily guarded that I
   couldn't get it out of my mind.
   "When they pushed off, we followed them. I knew there
   was a chance that I could be leaving you high and dry on the
   docks, but I simply had to follow that ship. Strangely enough,
   they did not head for high seas. They docked again, this time
   in the--"
   "South port area," Smokey finished for him, now understanding
   exactly where she had been. All this said, both
   Darsey and Smokey fell quiet. When Smokey spoke, she
   sounded weary.
   "I want to go home, Darsey. I want to go home to Willa's
   cooking and scolding and loving."
   "We've set a course for Kennebunk, lass," Darsey told her,
   watching as her eyes briefly slid shut with relief. She hadn't
   eaten anything yet, but for the moment there was no need.
   Darsey watched as she scooted low beneath the covers and
   closed her eyes, this time to sleep.
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   Q/mifo~Q/m
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   Smokey back for weeks. An appearance now would bring a
   myriad of questions.
   Smokey had no idea how Jenny would respond to all she
   had been through. With Jenny's present condition in mind,
   and real concern for the baby, Smokey made herself stay away.
   It was one of the hardest things she had ever asked herself to
   do.
   smokey lay in her bed at Willa's and stared at the white
   ceiling above her. She had been home for over two weeks and
   had done little but sleep, eat, and take long walks to the beach,
   where she would sit for hours and pray.
   Her encounter with Haamich Wynn made her feel as if
   something precious had been wrenched away from her. She
   had escaped physical harm, but the emotional effects went
   deep. She knew such men existed, but she had never faced one
   personally.
   Smokey also spent hours every day thinking about Dallas
   and wondering where he could be. She asked herself all the
   questions she wanted to ask him. Did he understand that she
   panicked on the docks that night? Was he angry over the way
   she was dressed, or was it concern? And always, her last
   question--why, if he was angry or upset with her, did he pull
   her back for another kiss?
   All these questions and many more swam through her
   mind. She longed for answers, but when none came she
   repeatedly forced her mind back to God's sovereign will,
   asking for His peace in this troubling time.
   She also prayed for Jenny. She hadn't been to see her since
   she returned, but it wasn't for lack of want. In truth, she
   wanted desperately to see her, but Jenny was not expecting
   "Why, Dolly," Jenny exclaimed as her brother opened the
   door to her bed-sitter after a soft knock.
   "May I come in?"
   "Of course," Jenny assured him and stayed on the settee
   after he had waved her back down.
   Dallas bent and kissed her cheek. "Motherhood agrees
   with you; I've never seen you look lovelier."
   "Thank you," Jenny told him sincerely. As her hand moved
   to her distended stomach, she wished she could return the
   compliment. Dallas was smiling and looked genuinely glad to
   see her, but as she took a moment to study his face, Jenny saw
   something that disturbed her.
   "Did I misunderstand you, Dolly, or are you back before
   you had originally planned?"
   "I am early, yes, and I'm afraid I can't stay. I'm looking for
   Smokey."
   "Smokey?" Jenny frowned in confusion and studied her
   brother's face once again. He was working hard to hide his
   anxiety, but it was there.
   "She isn't here. Did you really expect her to be?"
   He shook his head regretfully. "I only hoped Has she been
   in touch?"
   "No. Dallas, what's going on?" Jenny's use of his real name
   told him she was frightened.
   He hesitated and then spoke with a measured tone. "I saw
   Smokey when I was in London, but she was in a terrific hurry
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   and we didn't really get to talk. I was rather hoping she had
   come home, since I had an early shipment for Tate." Dallas did
   not tell Jenny that he altered his course in hopes of seeing
   Smokey. "I just wanted to make sure everything was all right
   with her."
   Jenny looked instantly relieved "I'm sure she's fine, probably
   running a little behind schedule. Knowing Smokey, she's
   made up for it by now and is halfway to the Orient."
   Dallas worked to put a smile on his face. "Just in case she
   did come this way, I think I'll ride over and check with
   Darsey's sister. Where did you say she lived?"
   Dallas had finally managed to use his normal voice, and
   Jenny gave him directions to Willa's without the slightest
   reservation.
   Willa poured coffee for Darsey and Smokey before refilling
   her own cup and sitting down at the table again. They had
   just eaten a wonderful meal of baked fish, and everyone was
   full and content.
   "That was wonderful, Willa," Smokey told her. The older
   woman smiled Smokey had been off her food for the first
   week she was home, and it was nice to see her face filled out
   again.
   "My mother's recipe," Willa said and smiled at Darsey. "Do
   you remember those Saturday clambakes, Dars?"
   Darsey chuckled and explained to Smokey. "Mother hated
   clams, couldn't even stand the smell of them. So as a new
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					     					 			bsp; bride, when the rest of the family was eating clams, Mother
   always baked fish for herself. Mother was so good at it that
   Father wasn't long in joining her and abandoning the clams.
   "Before their first anniversary the whole family was eating
   fish on Saturday afternoons. They never stopped calling it a
   clambake, but they all ate fish."
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   Smokey listened with rapt attention to their reminiscences.
   She'd never had a family life like the type they had
   known, and it was all very fascinating and wonderful to her.
   She thought she could sit all evening and hear them go on, but
   there was a knock at the door.
   Willa rose to answer it, saying that their neighbor, Mrs.
   Bright, had planned to bring some fabric over so Willa could
   help make some clothes for her baby granddaughter. Neither
   Darsey nor Smokey noticed when they did not hear the sound
   of Mrs. Bright's voice, but when the deep tones of a masculine
   voice floated from the front room, they both tensed
   Smokey's back was to the kitchen door, but she kept her
   eyes fixed on Darsey's face and knew the exact moment their
   guest entered
   "Hello, Dallas," Darsey spoke easily. To his credit, he did
   not look at Smokey. "Would you like to sit down and have some
   coffee?"
   "Thank you, but I'll pass. I'd like to talk with Smokey if I
   may."
   Smokey's heart was doing funny things just hearing his
   voice, but she forced herself to turn and, with a semblance of
   calm, look at Dallas.
   "May I talk with you, Smokey?" he asked when her eyes
   locked with his.
   "Certainly," Smokey said and rose slowly from the table
   "We can go into the front room." Smokey mentally congratulated
   herself on how normal she sounded and hoped that he
   wouldn't notice how she was trembling as she led the way to
   the parlor.
   Once seated across the room from each other on the old,
   comfortable furniture, an unwelcome silence fell. Smokey
   spent a few moments looking at the hands in her lap and then
   out the window, dark as it was. She glanced up to find Dallas'
   eyes riveted on her.
   "Am I out of line to ask why you were so set on leaving me
   when we met in London?"
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   "No," Smokey began, "but it's a long story and I--"
   "I have time," Dallas cut in.
   Smokey nodded "First of all, I'm sorry I kicked you. That
   was terrible, and I only hope you can forgive me."
   "Were you afraid of me, Smokey? Did you think I was going
   to force you to do something against your wishes?" Dallas*
   face and voice were so pained that Smokey nearly cried.
   "No, Dallas, no!" Smokey's hand went to her mouth in
   horror. "Itwasn't that at all. I just panicked out offearforyou. I
   acted without thinking."
   "Fear for me?" Dallas' face was now a mask of confusion.
   Smokey took a deep, calming breath and began to share.
   "We were running behind schedule as you might have already
   guessed, or we would have been out of London before you
   arrived. We really should have rushed on, but I knew we
   wouldn't be back for some time and I wanted to see the folks at
   Clancy's.
   "I left the back room long enough to take care of a personal
   need, and when I came out of Meg's private rooms, a
   man grabbed me. I fought, but he held a drug-soaked cloth
   over my mouth. Everything went black, and when I woke up I
   was on a ship."
   The hair stood up on the back of Dallas' neck, and fear
   pounded in his chest. He shifted in his chair, his face intense
   as he waited for her to continue,
   "There was no one with me, and I was lying on the bed
   The room was rife with lewd art and paintings, but I wasn't
   given much time to look around When the door opened, a
   man came in." Smokey wondered how detailed she should be.
   She would be horribly embarrassed to repeat all the pirate
   had said
   "The man was Haamich Wynn."
   "The pirate?" Dallas broke his silence.
   "Yes. He told me that my capture was deliberate and that
   he wanted to get to know me better. He insisted that I put on
   that red dress."
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   A flicker of skepticism lit Dallas' eyes, but Smokey, thinking
   she had imagined it, kept talking. She was babbling
   slightly, and some of her facts were getting muddled
   "I noticed some fencing swords on the wall, and I told him
   I would fight him. He agreed to set me free if I won. I've never
   done such a thing before but I cut his face. He actually fainted
   at the sight of his own blood. I tied him up and ran away.
   "I ran from the ship, but my escape was immediately
   noticed, and his men came after me. That's when I ran into
   you. I was afraid of your being found with me, so when you
   wouldn't let me go, I panicked." Smokey ended with a small shrug and noticed that Dallas looked almost angry.
   "I'd heard that Haamich Wynn was a huge man."
   "He is. As big as Darsey, if not bigger."
   "And you want me to believe that you had a duel with him
   and won?" Dallas could no longer hide his doubt.
   Smokey's whole body stiffened at his tone. She stood, her
   entire being radiating anger.
   "I apologized for kicking you, Dallas, but I did not owe you
   an explanation."
   Dallas stood also. "No, I guess you didn't, but there are
   some things that bother me. I'd like to get the entire picture."
   "No," she told him. She could see that she had surprised
   him. "I've told you all I'm going to, and if that isn't good
   enough, then that's too bad. As I said, I owe you nothing, and I
   might add that I don't deserve your judgment."
   "I'm not judging you." Dallas fought to keep his voice
   even.
   "So you believe me?"
   Dallas hesitated, and it cost him.
   "Get out, Dallas," Smokey told him, her voice low with
   fury. "Get out and do not come back, not until you're ready to
   apologize for believing me a liar."
   "Smokey, if you would just tell me again how you came to
   be in the dress, I--"
   "Get out." Smokey's voice was whisper soft, and Dallas
   knew he would have to give her some time.
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   It was on his tongue to apologize, but he felt so muddled at
   the moment. With regret he moved toward the door. Knowing
   that he'd handled the situation very badly, he looked back, but
   Smokey was already leaving the room. He noticed that she did
   not even turn as she strode back toward the kitchen.
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   a
   twenty-four hours later the Aramis set sail with a full
   crew. Darsey was at the helm when Smokey came topside to
   check on the men.
   "I want answers, Darsey," she told him as she stood next to
   the older man. "I won't be home until I get some."
   Darsey, having already read her motive for leaving Willa's,
   only nodded.
   "You might be asking for trouble," he told her, his face and
   voice calm.
   "Well, I've never been afraid of tro 
					     					 			uble," she said logically.
   "And since I can't go on as I am, wondering and upset, I think
   I'd best do what I can."
   Darsey only nodded. The old sparkle was back in her eye.
   He knew that she had prayed constantly while they had been
   home, but he also recognized as Smokey just had, that she had
   been hiding. Now she was facing her fears and acting with the
   good sense she normally had
   If she had wanted to head out and trade in southern waters
   as she had originally planned, Darsey would have been all for
   it. But now she needed to fit together the pieces of this puzzle,
   and Darsey understood that just as well. He prayed for her and
   her responsibility as captain of their vessel. He also prayed for
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   Dallas, who was certain to come looking for Smokey again
   and find her gone.
   "She's not here," Willa told Dallas the afternoon after
   Smokey left.
   "When do you expect her back?" Dallas asked, never
   dreaming that she was on her ship.
   Willa was as unflappable as ever when she answered. "It
   could be weeks, but I'm thinking it probably will be months."
   "You mean she's left on the Aramisr Dallas asked in
   astonishment.
   "With Darsey and the whole crew. I'm not sure how much
   trading they'll do, but Smokey needed to find some answers."
   Distracted, Dallas ran a hand through his hair and stood in
   frustration. He turned to leave, barely remembering to bid
   Willa goodbye.
   Willa shut the door and then watched from the front room
   window. "That Darsey's got me to answer to when he returns!
   Why didn't he ever tell me that Dallas was in love with her?"
   "He's good, Darsey; I'll give him that," Smokey told her
   first mate some seven weeks after they had set sail.
   Darsey could only shake his head. Their search to know
   more about the pirate Haamich Wynn reminded him of the
   night that Smokey was taken. One dead-end lead after another.
   They had been to London, France, the Netherlands, and
   even up into Norway and Sweden, and had still come up
   empty. They weren't discouraged, but more curious than
   ever.
   Smokey was wondering if this wasn't God's way of telling
   her to let the matter rest. She was quite certain of this and
   praying about heading home or doing some trading when the
   weather stepped in and answered for her.
   A storm hit hard and fast, and the Aramis and her crew
   found themselves stranded just off China Island making
   repairs. They had plenty of stores to survive, as well as to fix