As soon as he got free.
Even if she didn't want him as he wanted her, she was good and deserved more, certainly more kindness than he'd given her.
His resolve renewed, he set the slipper away, then headed outside.
When he reached the cutting stump, he grasped the ax. This operation would be problematic with his chains, but he thought he could get enough leverage to swing for one clean strike.
Was this more madness? No. He would do this for her. Then what are you waiting for?
Raising the ax, he regarded his hand pitilessly.
Obstacle.
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Maybe I can reach it," Neomi murmured as she gazed at the paper. "And maybe I can't."
In the end, she decided it wasn't worth the trouble. She was turning her back on a possible paper, and she didn't care. As she floated down the drive, a placid breeze blew and the stars were out in a cloudless night sky, and she couldn't stop smiling over last night.
She'd decided that she was going to give Conrad the key this eve, because she believed that he would make the vow never to harm his brothers.
And that look in his eyes... She thought he truly wanted a future with her, impossible though that might seem.
Just as she wanted more with her fascinating vampire.
Would he be angry about the key at first? Without a doubt. But after a rage, he'd soon calm. And if his brothers were trapped somewhere else, there really was no other option....
As she closed in on the manor, she spied movement near the toolshed. She frowned to see Conrad. What was he doing out there?
She blinked for focus. Because it looked like he was holding an ax at the cutting stump. What the devil is he doing? Why would he--
The horrific answer dawned on her; the ax dropped.
Everything began to spin.
The sound of the strike was still echoing as the blood spurted...he staggered silently. Silent, doesn't want to alert me with a yell, doesn't want me to stumble upon him quietly removing his own hand in the dark.
Mere de Dieu. Her energy flared and dimmed. He shoved a towel to the wound. The white cloth was red and dripping with blood in seconds.
Madness...A storm soon boiled overhead. Too much. Just as the rain began to fall, she finally had enough air to scream.
His head jerked up, and his big body lurched. He was gritting his teeth against the pain as they made their way to each other.
"Don't be upset, koeri," he bit out, his eyes rapt on her face. His expression was drawn in agony--but not over his own pain. "It will...regenerate."
She could barely hear him over the roaring in her ears. "But...but..."
"I did this for us."
"Oh, God..." The pain he must be suffering!
His face was wet from the growing storm, his black hair lashed over his cheeks. "Can you...do you think you can help with the other one?"
"Conrad, no!"
"You can do this, Neomi. It will save days...of healing time. Have to get these goddamned things...off me."
"Why?" She began weeping in earnest.
"This is the first step. I made a conscious decision. You're looking at me...like I've gone completely mad again." His voice faltering, he asked, "H-have I?"
"I...that's not why I'm so upset!" Rose petals swirled around her body. Her hair began whipping, yet not in time with the strengthening wind.
"Then why are you looking at me like this?" He narrowed his eyes, realizing her reaction was more than horror. "What is happening to you? To the sky?"
She gazed up at him, her eyes awash in tears. "Conrad, c-come inside so I can tend to you. I have to t-tell you something. D'accord?" Lightning struck close by.
"No. Tell me now." Even after what he'd just done, he got that stubborn look on his face.
"S'il te plait, let me just tend to you--"
"Now, Neomi!"
"I...I'll be back." She unsteadily traced to her studio. It took three tries before she could get hold of the key. When she returned, fear for him sat cold and heavy inside her. "I-I was giving it to you tonight," she whispered, offering the key.
His brows drew together as if he couldn't comprehend what it was. Then his eyes went wild. He threw back his head; his unholy roar of fury echoed in the night.
She gasped, energy funneling out of her.
"What is this? Neomi, what the fuck is this?"
She focused on his face, trying to keep the world from spinning. "J-just let me help you."
"Don't come near me!"
"Conrad, please, listen! I was going to give it--"
"Bullshit! Cease your lies!" he bellowed.
She squeezed her eyes shut, only opening them once she heard the rattle of chains. He flung the manacles to the ground in front of her.
And then she learned what rage truly was.
Can't comprehend...what I've just learned...
Fury threaded through his veins, drowning out the pain. She'd willfully kept him here. Lied about the key. Again and again.
Not her. I didn't want her ever to betray me.
He could hear himself beginning to speak, but didn't register the words, just had this rage he had to unleash before it seared him inside.
As the rain fell harder, the sparks glittering off her grew more intense. With each word, her face paled, her image flickering even more. Her lips parted as if she was horrified, as if she didn't recognize him at all.
He dimly heard her say, "Y-you're going to say something you regret, something you can never take back...."
And then he must have.
"Oh," she murmured, looking like he'd struck her. Tears spilled from her eyes. Just before she disappeared, she whispered, "Good-bye, vampire."
Somewhere out in the night, he heard her crying harder. An answering roar of pain was ripped from his chest.
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Free of the chains, Conrad could finally trace. He ignored the throbbing from his injury and returned to his cabin deep in the Estonian marshes.
Inside, he peered around. I'm glad she'll never see this.
It looked exactly like a madman's home would--the product of a disordered mind. Esoteric writing was crudely printed on the walls; belongings lay broken, destroyed in countless rampages. Scattered on the floor were books with the pages stripped and crumpled.
Dark sheets haphazardly covered the windows. Demon skulls hung nailed over the door. His furniture consisted of a threadbare couch, a table with one chair, and a mattress on the floor. The only things organized were his weapons, and there were hundreds of them.
Atop the table were the notes he'd kept on his search for his brothers. With his remaining hand, he flipped through them. Just as this cabin didn't fit Conrad anymore, neither did these writings.
He'd tracked the three all over the world, from Mount Oblak in Russia all the way to Louisiana. But the writings no longer made sense to him whatsoever. Because he was different. All Conrad could discern from the pages was an all-consuming need for revenge.
Even that was extinguished.
He lay back on the mattress, but couldn't sleep for hours. Vivid red streaks had begun slashing up his arm as his hand began to regenerate; the pain was punishing.
He'd severed his hand for her. For them. He'd been proud to take the pain. To get a step closer to discovering a way for them to be together.
She betrayed you, willfully kept you a captured plaything. Why was it that everything he gave a damn about ended up stabbing him in the back?
She'd played him for a fool, keeping his mind from hunting. He'd walked around that mausoleum high on her, complacent. Charmed by her every move, he'd been blinded to what was really happening....
Hours toiled by before he finally passed out.
Sometime in the night, he jerked awake with a yell, cradling his arm, his body slicked with sweat. He'd seen Neomi screaming in terror, trapped in darkness where he couldn't reach her.
She wasn't here with him as she always had been. "Shh, mon coeur..." she'd so
othed. "Good-bye, vampire," she'd said last night.
His brows drew together. Stop thinking about her!
She'd calmed him, surrounded him with laughter. She'd challenged him to rethink his blind hatred. You'll never see her again. Once his trust was lost, he didn't give it again.
He was disgusted with himself. Even after her betrayal, he missed her presence more than he missed his hand.
The silence within her home seeped into Neomi like a damp chill, until she thought she'd lose her mind.
Just as she'd known it would.
For the last three days, she'd aimlessly roamed her halls, a lonely, despairing ghost, filled with regret. And always she wondered where Conrad had gone, where in the world he was at that moment. Was he safe? Healing? Was he drinking from a glass--or from victims?
Is he thinking of me?
She hadn't known it was possible to miss another this much.
He would never return, and she could do nothing but...await. Await the years to pass, hoping for the arrival of someone, anyone.
Neomi was helpless, powerless to alleviate her own misery. She was as pitiful as he'd accused that night.
With a sigh, she exited the house into the drizzling rain, bent on getting the paper. Having long since read the ones he'd collected, she pined for something to take her mind from this.
She had no other escape. She couldn't unburden herself to a good friend or change her scenery. She couldn't drink. There was no television show or good book to absorb her.
At the property line once more, her hopes sank. Tears began to fall for the paper that was well out of her reach.
I'm in the driveway, crying over a newspaper. This was the low point of her afterlife. She was as weak and pathetic as Conrad had deemed her with his crazed, yelling words.
Next thing she knew, she'd be moaning, "Woowooo."
To hell with this. She would not mope like a...a damned ghost!
Her sadness boiled to anger. She refused to feel guilt for what she'd done. She'd been trying to protect him and his brothers. For ages they'd wanted to save Conrad. He was the one who'd gone and lopped off his hand without so much as a mention of his plans to her!
With her new anger came realization. Had she actually thought she needed a man to actualize her? To save her from this cursed afterlife? Would she wait forever for his return, as Marguerite L'Are had done for Neomi's contemptible father?
Conrad called me pitiful--and he was right!
How much she'd changed. In life, she'd always been bold, taking her destiny into her own hands. After that year of burlesque, Neomi had told everyone at the club, "I want to be a ballerina," and they'd laughed. "Maybe you could make the leap from burlesque to vaudeville," they'd said. "There are a few who've made that climb."
But burlesque dancer to ballerina was supposedly an impassable divide. Which was why Neomi had had to make it.
How do I get from point A to point B? she'd thought, hour after hour, day after day. She had figured it out, and though it had taken her years, she'd done it.
Neomi had danced her way from the Quarter to worldwide fame!
I want to be the old me! She had to do something. Think...think.
But in the last eighty years, she hadn't been able to come up with any way to alter her existence--
Wait... Neomi possessed two things she never had before. One was a tool--Nikolai's cell phone. The other was the knowledge that at least one person on earth had been able to hear her.
What if someone else could? Someone like Conrad, someone from the Lore? If there was one thing Neomi was learning about this Lore, it was that assumptions were readily turned on their ears.
There were witches, they'd said, some with extraordinary abilities--like that Mariketa. Maybe witches could hear ghosts?
And maybe pigs can fly.
She frowned at herself. Why was she scoffing at her daring idea?
Because she wasn't the old Neomi who relished challenges. She supposed that being disembodied did that to spirits. After all, she couldn't recall a tale featuring a ghost worthy of rooting for. How many stories recounted the quests of intrepid ghosts?
But what do I have to lose? She gave a laugh. My precious time?
What if this Mariketa was powerful enough to make Neomi...incarnate? Neomi had to find her number. Yet how?
She floated through the tangled gardens to the sad little folly, turning it over in her head. How? How?
Nikolai had used their services--it made sense that their number would still be in his phone! In a flash, she traced back to her studio and raised the phone in front of her face.
When the rain outside faded and the night cleared to match her change in mood, she reminded herself, Don't get too excited. Even if she could divine how to operate the phone, the telekinesis to work it would be complicated and tiring.
Surely I can figure it out! In nineteen twenty-seven, telephoning had been difficult--today, it wasn't. Besides, a cell phone wasn't a totally alien object to her. She'd seen the brothers using theirs, pressing buttons without even glancing at them. And she'd read the reviews in the paper for all the newest products, learning about their features.
She squinted at the screen. Yes, she knew enough to recognize a battery graphic.
This one's was an angry red.
Merde! No, no, don't lose power. Not yet! Manipulating small touches to dial wasn't easy, much less while being panicked. Brows drawn in concentration, she painstakingly "scrolled" until she reached the address book. Within it were business cards that looked like actual paper cards that had somehow been copied into the phone. Searching under W, she found:
The House of Witches
Est. 937
1st Class Curses, Hexes, Spells, and Potions
We Won't Be Undersold!
ph: (504) WITCHES
[email protected] Member LBBB
Swallowing, she selected the card and pressed the green "call" button.
Mon Dieu, we're ringing! The phone made an ominous beep. Hold on, battery.
Two rings. Was no one there? Ringing, ringing. It was long after five o'clock. Businesses probably closed even in the Lore.
The red battery picture had begun flashing. Just as she was about to hang up to save the power, a woman answered in a creepy tone, "Hellooooo, Clarice."
Neomi's jaw dropped. This worked? I made a call? Who's Clarice?
In the background, it sounded as if a dozen females were singing, drunkenly howling the high notes of some song. First they'd mumble, "Duh, duh, dun, duh, duh..." then they'd yell, "Ever-last-in' love!"
"Hello? Hello? Is this a crank call?" the woman said, sounding normal now." 'Cause let me tell you, you dialed the wrong coven. I can convince your dialing finger to make its legal residence where the sun don't shine. Got me?"
Throwing caution to the wind, Neomi silently begged, Please be able to hear me! then said, "This isn't Clarice. Can I speak with Miss Mariketa? My name is--"
The witch held the phone away and called out, "Hey, does anybody here speak Voice from Beyond?"
Neomi's eyes went wide. My God, I love the Lore!
Back on the phone, the witch cried, "I'm kidding! I'm Mari. Hey, how do you spirits keep getting on the cell lines? It's because you're all electrically and everything, right?"
Neomi could barely move her lips. "I, um, electrically?" she repeated dumbly.
"I keep telling everyone our conversations are not private. Hold up, I've gotta do this." She held the phone away again. "Hey, Regin! Firstly, stop peeking at my frigging cards. Secondly, get your own cigars. And C, check this--I've got a ghost on the line, and she's coming over the phone wire to see us right now."
"Ahhhhhhhhhhh!" a woman screamed. Neomi heard running footsteps, then a slammed door.
Mariketa chuckled. "Reege isn't scared of basilisks or twenty-foot-long centipedes, but ghosts make her freak balls. We just made one of the most fearsome Valkyrie on earth run for her life. Classic."
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sp; The music grew louder as a manic-tempo song played--the only lyric was the word tequila.
Sweet pandemonium. Neomi wanted to be there so badly it hurt. The phone beeped again.
"So what's your name, spirit?"
"N-Neomi. Neomi Laress."
"Oh, man! I've heard of you! Dancer, right? From the old-timey days? You refused to get hitched and got shanked in the ticker. We studied you in my Local Feminists 205 class."
People actually study me?
In a chiding tone, she added, "Which, Neomi, I might have passed if you'd called two years ago. So what do you want with me?"
This is so bizarre! "I need, um, I would be very grateful to be corporeal, and thought you might be able to help me."
"Do you have any money?" Mariketa asked, her tone instantly turning shrewd. "I don't do gratis."
"I have a drawer full of antique jewelry." The phone was beeping more insistently!
"Meh. It's my one girls' night out for the week, and I'm kicking ass at five card st--"
"There are more than fifty diamonds! One alone is four carats. You can have all of them."
"We're getting warmer, spirit."
Beeeeeep. "In the safe there are stock certificates from before I...died. They were worth twenty or thirty thousand dollars eighty years ago. They'd have to be worth a fortune today, since the companies are still in business."
"Which companies?" This Mariketa was certainly no-nonsense when it came to money.
"Um, there's General Electric and International Business Machines. I think it's called just IBM today--"
"Okay, I have cartoon dollar signs in my bulging cartoon eyes. I'll be right over. Knock on the mirror closest to you while I'm on the phone."
Did Mariketa need the mirrors for her spells? Neomi's heart fell. "But they're all broken."
"Doesn't matter. Just need a sliver." Neomi dutifully knocked, and Mariketa said, "And I've...got it. All right, when a witch of superlative gorgeousableness climbs out of your mirror, don't ghost out on me."
Climbs out of my mirror? "Oh, I assure you--"
The phone was now emitting a long, unbroken tone!
"Please hurry, Miss Mariketa!"
"Hey, just call me Mari." In a feigned somber tone, she sighed, "And I shall call you...Spirit Friend."
Smiling stupidly, Neomi turned off the phone and tossed it to the bed. She was giddy--she was...hopeful.