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“Ready?” Mindy asked me the following day as I went out of the house, wearing just a tank top and some of those prairie skirts that Mindy loved wearing. She told me I must look laid-back; that I should stop wearing those (in her own words) dreaded business suits I always have on. ऀᰀ匠甀爀攀 愀洀☀ᴠ†䤀 愀渀猀眀攀爀攀搀⸀ഀ
She laughed, “Come on,” She said and asked me to hop inside Paul’s yellow Bentley convertible. It looked so vintage, yet so cool.ऀᰀ䠠攀礀 䬀椀洀℀ᴀ†倀愀甀氀 最爀攀攀琀攀搀⸀ഀ
“Hey,” I smiled. “Where exactly are we going?”ऀᰀ䤠 琀漀氀搀 礀漀甀 愀氀爀攀愀搀礀Ⰰᴀ†䴀椀渀搀礀 猀愀椀搀Ⰰ ᰀ吠栀攀 琀愀琀琀漀漀 猀栀漀瀀℀ᴀഠ
“You’re really serious?”ऀᰀ䐠漀 䤀 氀漀漀欀 氀椀欀攀 䤀ᤀ洠 渀漀琀㼀ᴀഠ
“Minds!”ऀ匀栀攀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀 愀渀搀 搀椀搀渀ᤀ琠 琀愀氀欀 琀漀 洀攀 甀渀琀椀氀 眀攀 愀爀爀椀瘀攀搀 愀琀 琀栀椀猀 氀椀琀琀氀攀 猀栀漀瀀 樀甀猀琀 愀爀漀甀渀搀 琀栀攀 挀漀爀渀攀爀⸀ 倀愀甀氀 猀琀漀瀀瀀攀搀 琀栀攀 挀愀爀⸀ഀ
“Here we are…” Mindy smiled.ऀᰀ圠漀眀Ⰰ 琀栀椀猀 椀猀 渀攀愀爀℀ᴀഠ
“Kimmie, you should get out of your house more…” She said and gave Paul a peck on the cheek, “Thanks, babe, we’ll take it from here.”ऀᰀ传欀愀礀Ⰰ 猀攀攀 礀漀甀☀ᴠ†倀愀甀氀 猀愀椀搀 愀渀搀 琀栀攀渀 眀攀 最漀琀 漀甀琀 漀昀 琀栀攀 挀愀爀⸀ 䠀攀 搀爀漀瘀攀 愀眀愀礀⸀ഀ
“I’ve no idea what you’re thinking!” I told Mindy.ऀ䴀椀渀搀礀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ传栀Ⰰ 䬀椀洀洀椀攀Ⰰ 洀攀 琀漀漀⸀ᴀഠ
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The man was holding my arm as he started to use the henna tattoo gun. I chose a rose chain design to go around my wrist. ऀᰀ䘠椀渀愀氀氀礀Ⰰ 礀漀甀ᤀ瘠攀 最椀瘀攀渀 椀渀℀ᴀ†䴀椀渀搀礀 猀愀椀搀⸀ 匀栀攀 眀愀猀 猀椀琀琀椀渀最 漀渀 琀栀攀 挀栀愀椀爀 渀攀砀琀 琀漀 洀攀⸀ഀ
“Well, it’s just henna…” I answered, “Anyway…how are you and Paul? Wedding plans soon?”ऀᰀ传栀Ⰰ 甀栀洀☀渠漀☀ᴠ†匀栀攀 愀渀猀眀攀爀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ圠攀ᤀ爠攀 樀甀猀琀☀琠愀欀椀渀最 琀栀椀渀最猀 猀氀漀眀⸀ᴀഠ
“I like him though, I mean, for you. He seems to be a good guy. And a budding star at that!”ऀ匀栀攀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ䠠攀ᤀ猠 愀氀眀愀礀猀 戀攀攀渀 愀 猀琀愀爀 琀漀 洀攀⸀ᴀഠ
“Aw look at you, all sweet and adoring…”ऀᰀ匠栀甀琀 甀瀀Ⰰᴀ†匀栀攀 猀洀椀氀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ匠漀☀栠漀眀 愀爀攀 琀栀椀渀最猀 戀攀琀眀攀攀渀 礀漀甀 愀渀搀 䴀愀爀欀㼀ᴀഠ
“We’re trying to work things out…”ऀ匀栀攀 猀洀椀氀攀搀 氀椀最栀琀氀礀Ⰰ ᰀ䠠攀 爀攀愀氀氀礀 氀漀瘀攀猀 礀漀甀⸀ᴀഠ
“I love him, too. A lot.”ऀᰀ䤠 欀渀漀眀☀ᴠഠ
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, “I just can’t imagine life without him…but I can’t let him see me suffer.”ऀᰀ夠漀甀 挀愀渀ᤀ琠 洀愀欀攀 栀椀洀 渀漀琀 猀攀攀⸀ᴀഠ
“Well…”ऀᰀ吠栀椀猀 椀猀 眀栀愀琀 礀漀甀 栀愀瘀攀 渀漀眀Ⰰᴀ†匀栀攀 猀愀椀搀Ⰰ ᰀ䄠渀搀 栀攀ᤀ猠 眀椀氀氀椀渀最 琀漀 猀琀愀礀 眀椀琀栀 礀漀甀Ⰰ 氀椀欀攀 眀攀 愀氀氀 愀爀攀☀ᴠഠ
“You’re being too sweet, it’s scary.”ऀ䴀椀渀搀礀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ䤠ᤀ洠 猀琀椀氀氀 礀漀甀爀 猀椀猀琀攀爀Ⰰ 礀愀 欀渀漀眀㼀ᴀഠ
“Yeah, yeah whatever.”ऀᰀ传欀愀礀Ⰰ 洀椀猀猀Ⰰ 琀愀琀琀漀漀ᤀ猠 搀漀渀攀Ⰰᴀ†吀栀攀 洀愀渀 眀栀漀 搀椀搀 洀礀 琀愀琀琀漀漀 猀愀椀搀Ⰰ ᰀ䰠漀漀欀猀 最漀漀搀 漀渀 礀漀甀⸀ 䴀愀礀戀攀 礀漀甀爀 猀椀猀琀攀爀 眀椀氀氀 洀愀欀攀 礀漀甀 愀搀搀椀挀琀攀搀 琀漀 琀愀琀琀漀漀猀 琀漀漀℀ᴀഠ
“Oh, no, that’s entirely her expertise.”ऀ䴀椀渀搀礀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ圠栀愀琀攀瘀攀爀⸀ 吀栀愀渀欀猀Ⰰ 䐀椀爀欀℀ᴀഠ
We made our way out the door and stopped. ऀᰀ䴠椀渀搀猀Ⰰᴀ†䤀 猀愀椀搀Ⰰ ᰀ吠栀愀渀欀 礀漀甀⸀ᴀഠ
“You owe me.”ऀ䤀 氀愀甀最栀攀搀Ⰰ ᰀ圠栀愀琀攀瘀攀爀⸀ 䤀ᤀ洠 氀攀愀瘀椀渀最 礀漀甀 漀甀爀 栀漀甀猀攀 椀渀 琀栀攀 䠀愀洀瀀琀漀渀猀Ⰰ 琀栀愀琀 最漀漀搀㼀ᴀഠ
She laughed, “Ahh…let’s not talk about that.”ऀᰀ圠栀礀㼀 䤀ᤀ洠 搀礀椀渀最Ⰰᴀഠ
“Keep fighting, Kimmie,” She said, “Keep fighting.”ऀ䄀渀搀 昀漀爀 琀栀攀 昀椀爀猀琀 琀椀洀攀Ⰰ 䤀 猀愀眀 洀礀 猀椀猀琀攀爀ᤀ猠 攀礀攀猀 昀椀氀氀 甀瀀 眀椀琀栀 琀攀愀爀猀Ⰰ 戀甀琀 猀栀攀 栀攀氀搀 琀栀攀洀 戀愀挀欀 愀猀 䤀 愀氀猀漀 栀攀氀搀 洀椀渀攀⸀ഀ
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?愀猀 樀甀猀琀 椀渀 吀愀栀漀攀 昀漀爀 昀甀渀Ⰰ 愀渀搀 昀漀爀 愀 挀栀愀渀最攀 漀昀 猀挀攀渀攀爀礀⸀ 䤀 搀椀搀渀ᤀ琠 戀攀氀椀攀瘀攀 椀渀 氀漀瘀攀 愀琀 昀椀爀猀琀 猀椀最栀琀 琀栀攀渀Ⰰ 戀甀琀 䤀 欀渀攀眀Ⰰ 眀攀 栀愀搀 愀 猀瀀攀挀椀愀氀 挀漀渀渀攀挀琀椀漀渀⸀ 圀攀 攀砀挀栀愀渀最攀搀 瀀栀漀渀攀 渀甀洀戀攀爀猀 愀渀搀 琀眀漀 眀攀攀欀猀 氀愀琀攀爀Ⰰ 栀攀 眀愀猀 戀愀挀欀 椀渀 一攀眀 夀漀爀欀 愀渀搀 眀攀 猀琀愀爀琀攀搀 搀愀琀椀渀最⸀ 吀栀爀攀攀 洀漀渀琀栀猀 氀愀琀攀爀Ⰰ 眀攀 最漀琀 洀愀爀爀椀攀搀⸀ഀ
And then I learned that he and my sister, Caroline, knew each other from before. It was from Caroline’s hey days as a bar-tripper, and late-night-all nighter girl. Caroline used to be on everyone’s social calendars! Well…they kissed, and they told me that’s that and that before I introduced him to them, nothing else ever happened. It got me paranoid that time and I even accused them of cheating on me, not knowing that Caroline was already dating Mark’s cousin, Robbie, who would eventually become her