She dodged back across the market to arrive breathless and apologizing at Sister Mathilde's side, wondering if ... She hadn't spent much time at all with Da's wife--but she had heard her talking with Da as she wrote down receipts in a book, and she'd mentioned black hellebore as something women used to make themselves miscarry. If Leonie were pregnant ... Holy Mother of God, could she be with child by Michael? The thought struck her like a blow in the stomach.
No. No, she couldn't believe it. He was still in love with his wife, anyone could see that, and even if not, she'd swear he wasn't the sort to ... But what did she ken about men, after all?
Well, she'd ask him when she saw him, she decided, her mouth clamping tight. And 'til then ... Her hand went to the rosary at her waist and she said a quick, silent prayer for Leonie. Just in case.
As she was bargaining doggedly in her execrable French for six aubergines (wondering meanwhile what on earth they were for, medicine or food?), she became aware of someone standing at her elbow. A handsome man of middle age, taller than she was, in a well-cut dove-gray coat. He smiled at her and, touching one of the peculiar vegetables, said in slow, simple French, "You don't want the big ones. They're tough. Get small ones, like that." A long finger tapped an aubergine half the size of the ones the vegetable seller had been urging on her, and the vegetable seller burst into a tirade of abuse that made Joan step back, blinking.
Not so much because of the expressions being hurled at her--she didn't understand one word in ten--but because a voice in plain English had just said clearly, "Tell him not to do it."
She felt hot and cold at the same time.
"I ... er ... je suis ... um ... merci beaucoup, monsieur!" she blurted, and, turning, ran, scrambling back between piles of paper narcissus bulbs and fragrant spikes of hyacinth, her shoes skidding on the slime of trodden leaves.
"Soeur Gregory!" Sister Mathilde loomed up so suddenly in front of her that she nearly ran into the massive nun. "What are you doing? Where is Sister Misericorde?"
"I ... oh." Joan swallowed, gathering her wits. "She's--over there." She spoke with relief, spotting Mercy's small head in the forefront of a crowd by the meat-pie wagon. "I'll get her!" she blurted, and walked hastily off before Sister Mathilde could say more.
"Tell him not to do it." That's what the voice had said about Charles Pepin. What was going on? she thought wildly. Was M. Pepin engaged in something awful with the man in the dove-gray coat?
As though thought of the man had reminded the voice, it came again.
"Tell him not to do it," the voice repeated in her head, with what seemed like particular urgency. "Tell him he must not!"
"Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee, blessed art thou among women ..." Joan clutched at her rosary and gabbled the words, feeling the blood leave her face. There he was, the man in the dove-gray coat, looking curiously at her over a stall of Dutch tulips and sprays of yellow forsythia.
She couldn't feel the pavement under her feet but was moving toward him. I have to, she thought. It doesn't matter if he thinks I'm mad....
"Don't do it," she blurted, coming face-to-face with the astonished gentleman. "You mustn't do it!"
And then she turned and ran, rosary in hand, apron and veil flapping like wings.
*
He couldn't help thinking of the cathedral as an entity. An immense version of one of its own gargoyles, crouched over the city. In protection or threat?
Notre Dame de Paris rose black above him, solid, obliterating the light of the stars, the beauty of the night. Very appropriate. He'd always thought that the church blocked one's sight of God. Nonetheless, the sight of the monstrous stone creature made him shiver as he passed under its shadow, despite the warm cloak.
Perhaps it was the cathedral's stones themselves that gave him the sense of menace? He stopped, paused for a heartbeat, and then strode up to the church's wall and pressed his palm flat against the cold limestone. There was no immediate sense of anything, just the cold roughness of the rock. Impulsively, he shut his eyes and tried to feel his way into the rock. At first, nothing. But he waited, pressing with his mind, a repeated question. Are you there?
He would have been terrified to receive an answer but was obscurely disappointed not to. Even so, when he finally opened his eyes and took his hands away, he saw a trace of blue light, the barest trace, glowing briefly between his knuckles. That frightened him, and he hurried away, hiding his hands beneath the shelter of the cloak.
Surely not, he assured himself. He'd done that before, made the light happen when he held the jewels he used for travel and said the words over them--his own version of consecration, he supposed. He didn't know if the words were necessary, but Melisande had used them; he was afraid not to. And yet. He had felt something here. The sense of something heavy, inert. Nothing resembling thought, let alone speech, thank God. By reflex, he crossed himself, then shook his head, rattled and irritated.
But something. Something immense and very old. Did God have the voice of a stone? He was further unsettled by the thought. The stones there in the chalk mine, the noise they made--was it after all God that he'd glimpsed, there in that space between?
A movement in the shadows banished all such thoughts in an instant. The frog! Rakoczy's heart clenched like a fist.
"Monsieur le Comte," said an amused, gravelly voice. "I see the years have been kind to you."
Raymond stepped into the starlight, smiling. The sight of him was disconcerting; Rakoczy had imagined this meeting for so long that the reality seemed oddly anticlimactic. Short, broad-shouldered, with long, loose hair that swept back from a massive forehead. A broad, almost lipless mouth. Raymond the frog.
"Why are you here?" Rakoczy blurted.
Maitre Raymond's brows were black--surely they had been white thirty years ago? One of them lifted in puzzlement.
"I was told that you were looking for me, monsieur." He spread his hands, the gesture graceful. "I came!"
"Thank you," Rakoczy said dryly, beginning to regain some composure. "I meant--why are you in Paris?"
"Everyone has to be somewhere, don't they? They can't be in the same place." This should have sounded like badinage but didn't. It sounded serious, like a statement of scientific principle, and Rakoczy found it unsettling.
"Did you come looking for me?" he asked boldly. He moved a little, trying to get a better view of the man. He was nearly sure that the frog appeared younger than he had when last seen. Surely his flowing hair was darker, his step more elastic? A spurt of excitement bubbled in his chest.
"For you?" The frog seemed amused for a moment, but then the look faded. "No. I'm searching for a lost daughter."
Rakoczy was surprised and disconcerted.
"Yours?"
"More or less." Raymond seemed uninterested in explaining further. He moved a little to one side, eyes narrowing as he sought to make out Rakoczy's face in the darkness. "You can hear stones, then, can you?"
"I--what?"
Raymond nodded at the facade of the cathedral. "They do speak. They move, too, but very slowly."
An icy chill shot up Rakoczy's spine at the thought of the grinning gargoyles perched high above him and the implication that one might at any moment choose to spread its silent wings and hurtle down upon him, teeth still bared in carnivorous hilarity. Despite himself, he looked up, over his shoulder.
"Not that fast." The note of amusement was back in the frog's voice. "You would never see them. It takes them millennia to move the slightest fraction of an inch--unless of course they are propelled or melted. But you don't want to see them do that, of course. Much too dangerous."
This kind of talk struck him as frivolous, and Rakoczy was bothered by it but for some reason not irritated. Troubled, with a sense that there was something under it, something that he simultaneously wanted to know--and wanted very much to avoid knowing. The sensation was novel, and unpleasant.
He cast caution to the wind and demanded boldly, "Why did you no
t kill me?"
Raymond grinned at him; Rakoczy could see the flash of teeth and felt yet another shock: he was sure--almost sure--that the frog had had no teeth when last seen.
"If I had wanted you dead, son, you wouldn't be here talking to me," he said. "I wanted you to be out of the way, that's all; you obliged me by taking the hint."
"And just why did you want me 'out of the way'?" Had he not needed to find out, Rakcozy would have taken offense at the man's tone.
The frog lifted one shoulder.
"You were something of a threat to the lady."
Sheer astonishment brought Rakoczy to his full height.
"The lady? You mean the woman--La Dame Blanche?"
"They did call her that." The frog seemed to find the notion amusing.
It was on the tip of Rakoczy's tongue to tell Raymond that La Dame Blanche still lived, but he hadn't lived as long as he had by blurting out everything he knew--and he didn't want Raymond thinking that he himself might be still a threat to her.
"What is the ultimate goal of an alchemist?" the frog said very seriously.
"To transform matter," Rakoczy replied automatically.
The frog's face split in a broad amphibian grin.
"Exactly!" he said. And vanished.
He had vanished. No puffs of smoke, no illusionist's tricks, no smell of sulfur--the frog was simply gone. The square stretched empty under the starlit sky; the only thing that moved was a cat that darted mewing out of the shadows and brushed past Rakoczy's leg.
*
Worn out with constant walking, Michael slept like the dead these days, without dreams or motion, and woke when the sun came up. His valet, Robert, heard him stir and came in at once, one of the femmes de chambre on his heels with a bowl of coffee and some pastry.
He ate slowly, suffering himself to be brushed, shaved, and tenderly tidied into fresh linen. Robert kept up a soothing murmur of the sort of conversation that doesn't require response and smiled encouragingly when presenting the mirror. Rather to Michael's surprise, the image in the mirror looked quite normal. Hair neatly clubbed--he wore his own, without powder--suit modest in cut but of the highest quality. Robert hadn't asked him what he required but had dressed him for an ordinary day of business. He supposed that was all right. What, after all, did clothes matter? It wasn't as though there was a costume de rigueur for calling upon the sister of one's deceased wife, who had come uninvited into one's bed in the middle of the night.
He had spent the last two days trying to think of some way never to see or speak to Leonie again, but, really, there was no help for it. He'd have to see her.
But what was he to say to her, he wondered, as he made his way through the streets toward the house where Leonie lived with an aged aunt, Eugenie Galantine. He wished he could talk the situation over with Sister Joan, but that wouldn't be appropriate, even were she available.
He'd hoped that walking would give him time to come up at least with a point d'appui, if not an entire statement of principle, but instead he found himself obsessively counting the flagstones of the market as he crossed it, counting the bongs of the public horologe as it struck the hour of three, and--for lack of anything else--counting his own footsteps as he approached her door. Six hundred and thirty-seven, six hundred and thirty-eight ...
As he turned into the street, though, he abruptly stopped counting. He stopped walking, too, for an instant--then began to run. Something was wrong at the house of Madame Galantine.
He pushed his way through the crowd of neighbors and vendors clustered near the steps and seized the butler, whom he knew, by a sleeve.
"What?" he barked. "What's happened?" The butler, a tall, cadaverous man named Hubert, was plainly agitated but settled a bit on seeing Michael.
"I don't know, sir," he said, though a sideways slide of his eyes made it clear that he did. "Mademoiselle Leonie ... she's ill. The doctor ..."
He could smell the blood. Not waiting for more, he pushed Hubert aside and sprinted up the stairs, calling for Madame Eugenie, Leonie's aunt.
Madame Eugenie popped out of a bedroom, her cap and wrapper neat in spite of the uproar.
"Monsieur Michel!" she said, blocking him from entering the room. "It's all right, but you must not go in."
"Yes, I must." His heart was thundering in his ears, and his hands felt cold.
"You may not," she said firmly. "She's ill. It isn't proper."
"Proper? A young woman tries to make away with herself and you tell me it isn't proper?"
A maid appeared in the doorway, a basket piled with bloodstained linen in her arms, but the look of shock on Madame Eugenie's broad face was more striking.
"Make away with herself?" The old lady's mouth hung open for a moment, then snapped shut like a turtle's. "Why would you think such a thing?" She was regarding him with considerable suspicion. "And what are you doing here, for that matter? Who told you she was ill?"
A glimpse of a man in a dark robe, who must be the doctor, decided Michael that little was to be gained by engaging further with Madame Eugenie. He took her gently but firmly by the elbows, picked her up--she uttered a small shriek of surprise--and set her aside.
He went in and shut the bedroom door behind him.
"Who are you?" The doctor looked up, surprised. He was wiping out a freshly used bleeding-bowl, and his case lay open on the boudoir's settee. Leonie's bedroom must lie beyond; the door was open, and Michael caught a glimpse of the foot of a bed but could not see the bed's inhabitant.
"It doesn't matter. How is she?"
The doctor eyed him narrowly, but after a moment nodded.
"She will live. As for the child ..." He made an equivocal motion of the hand. "I've done my best. She took a great deal of the--"
"The child?" The floor shifted under his feet, and the dream of the night before flooded him, that queer sense of something half wrong, half familiar. It was the feeling of a small, hard swelling pressed against his bum; that's what it was. Lillie had not been far gone with child when she died, but he remembered all too well the feeling of a woman's body in early pregnancy.
"It's yours? I beg your pardon, I shouldn't ask." The doctor put away his bowl and fleam and shook out his black velvet turban.
"I want--I need to talk to her. Now."
The doctor opened his mouth in automatic protest but then glanced thoughtfully over his shoulder.
"Well ... you must be careful not to--" But Michael was already inside the bedroom, standing by the bed.
She was pale. They had always been pale, Lillie and Leonie, with the soft glow of cream and marble. This was the paleness of a frog's belly, of a rotting fish, blanched on the shore.
Her eyes were ringed with black, sunk in her head. They rested on his face, flat, expressionless, as still as the ringless hands that lay limp on the coverlet.
"Who?" he said quietly. "Charles?"
"Yes." Her voice was as dull as her eyes, and he wondered whether the doctor had drugged her.
"Was it his idea--to try to foist the child off on me? Or yours?"
She did look away then, and her throat moved.
"His." The eyes came back to him. "I didn't want to, Michel. Not--not that I find you disgusting, not that ..."
"Merci," he muttered, but she went on, disregarding him.
"You were Lillie's husband. I didn't envy her you," she said frankly, "but I envied what you had together. It couldn't be like that between you and me, and I didn't like betraying her. But"--her lips, already pale, compressed to invisibility--"I didn't have much choice."
He was obliged to admit that she hadn't. Charles couldn't marry her; he had a wife. Bearing an illegitimate child was not a fatal scandal in high court circles, but the Galantines were of the emerging bourgeoisie, where respectability counted for almost as much as money. Finding herself pregnant, she would have had two alternatives: find a complaisant husband quickly, or ... He tried not to see that one of her hands rested lightly across the slight swell of her st
omach.
The child ... He wondered what he would have done had she come to him and told him the truth, asked him to marry her for the sake of the child. But she hadn't. And she wasn't asking now.
It would be best--or at least easiest--were she to lose the child. And she might yet.
"I couldn't wait, you see," she said, as though continuing a conversation. "I would have tried to find someone else, but I thought she knew. She'd tell you as soon as she could manage to see you. So I had to, you see, before you found out."
"She? Who? Tell me what?"
"The nun," Leonie said, and sighed deeply, as though losing interest. "She saw me in the market and rushed up to me. She said she had to talk to you--that she had something important to tell you. I saw her look into my basket, though, and her face ... thought she must realize ..."
Her eyelids were fluttering, whether from drugs or fatigue, he couldn't tell. She smiled faintly, but not at him; she seemed to be looking at something a long way off.
"So funny," she murmured. "Charles said it would solve everything--that the comte would pay him such a lot for her, it would solve everything. But how can you solve a baby?"
Michael jerked as though her words had stabbed him.
"What? Pay for whom?"
"The nun."
He grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Sister Joan? What do you mean, pay for her? What did Charles tell you?"
She made a whiny sound of protest. Michael wanted to shake her hard enough to break her neck but forced himself to withdraw his hand. She settled into the pillow like a bladder losing air, flattening under the bedclothes. Her eyes were closed, but he bent down, speaking directly into her ear.
"The comte, Leonie. What is his name? Tell me his name."
A faint frown rippled the flesh of her brow, then passed.
"St. Germain," she murmured, scarcely loud enough to be heard. "The Comte St. Germain."
*
He went instantly to Rosenwald and, by dint of badgering and the promise of extra payment, got him to finish the engraving on the chalice at once. Michael waited impatiently while it was done and, scarcely pausing for the cup and paten to be wrapped in brown paper, flung money to the goldsmith and made for les Couvent des Anges, almost running.