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I think this is her, said a voice from above. OK, you can lower away. A big wheel with ponderous lead weights on it spun slowly as the tower concertinad back, creaking and grinding. Susan climbed down the last few feet. Everyones in here? said the oh god, as she thumbed through the pages. Yes.
Even gods?
Anything thats alive and self-aware, said Susan, not looking up. This is . . . odd. It looks as though shes in some sort of . . . prison. Whod want to lock up a tooth fairy?
Someone with very sensitive teeth? Susan flicked back a few pages. Its all . . . hoods over her head and people carrying her and so on. But . . . she turned a page . . . it says the last job she did was on Banjo and . . . yes, she got the tooth . . . and then she felt as though someone was behind her and . . . theres a ride on a cart . . . and the hoods come off . . . and theres a causeway . . . and. . .
All thats in a book?
The autobiography. Everyone has one. It writes down your life as you go along.
Ive got one?
I expect so.
Oh, dear. “Got up, was sick, wanted to die. ” Not a gripping read, really. Susan turned the page. A tower, she said. Shes in a tower. From what she saw, it was tall and white inside . . . but not outside? It didnt look real. There were apple trees around it, but the trees, the trees didnt look right. And a river, but that wasnt right either. There were goldfish in it . . . but they were on top of the water.
Ah. Pollution, said the oh god. I dont think so. It says here she saw them swimming! Swimming on top of the water?
Thats how she thinks she saw it.
Really? You dont think shed been eating any of that mouldy cheese, do you?
And there was blue sky but . . . she must have got this wrong . . . it says here there was only blue sky above . . .
Yep. Best place for the sky, said the oh god. Sky underneath you, that probably means trouble. Susan flicked a page back and forth. She means . . . sky overhead but not around the edges, I think No sky on the horizon.
Excuse me, said the oh god. Im not long in this world, I appreciate that, but I think you have, to have sky on the horizon. Thats how you can tell its the horizon. A sense of familiarity was creeping up on Susan, but surreptitiously, dodging behind things whenever she tried to concentrate on it. Ive seen this place, she said, tapping the page. If only shed looked harder at the trees . . . She says theyve got brown trunks and green leaves and it says here she thought they were odd. And . . . She concentrated on the next paragraph. Flowers. Growing in the grass. With big round petals. She stared unseeing at the oh god again. This isnt a proper landscape, she said. It doesnt sound too unreal to me, said the oh god. Sky. Trees. Flowers. Dead fish.
Brown tree trunks? Really theyre mostly a sort of greyish mossy colour. You only ever see brown tree trunks in one place, said Susan. And its the same place where the sky is only ever overhead. The blue never comes down to the ground.
She looked up. At the far end of the corridor was one of the very tall, very thin windows. It looked out on to the black gardens. Black bushes, black grass, black trees. Skeletal fish cruising m the black waters of a pool, under black water lilies. There was colour, in a sense, but it was the kind of colour youd get if you could shine a beam of black through a prism. There were hints of tints, here and there a black you might persuade yourself was a very deep purple or a midnight blue. But it was basically black, under a black sky, because this was the world belonging to Death and that was all there was to it. The shape of Death was the shape people had created for him, over the centuries. Why bony? Because bones were associated with death. Hed got a scythe because agricultural people could spot a decent metaphor. And he lived in a sombre land because the human imagination would be rather stretched to let him live somewhere nice with flowers. People like Death lived in the human imagination, and got their shape there, too. He wasnt the only one . . . . . . but he didnt like the script, did he? Hed started to take an interest in people. Was that a thought, or just a memory of something that hadnt happened yet? The oh god followed her gaze. Can we go after her? said the oh god. I say we, I think Ive just got drafted in because I was in the wrong place.
Shes alive. That means she is mortal, said Susan. That means I can find her, too. She turned and started to walk out of the library. If she says the sky is just blue overhead, whats between it and the horizon? said the oh god, running to keep up. You dont have to come, said Susan. Its not your problem.
Yes, but given that my problem is that my whole purpose in life is to feel rotten, anythings an improvement.
It could be dangerous. I dont think shes there of her own free will. Would you be any good in a fight?
Yes. I could be sick on people. It was a shack, somewhere out on the outskirts of the Plains town of Scrote. Scrote had a lot of outskirts, spread so widely - a busted cart here, a dead dog there that often people went through it without even knowing it was there, and really it only appeared on the maps because cartographers get embarrassed about big empty spaces. Hogswatch came after the excitement of the cabbage harvest when it was pretty quiet in Scrote and there was nothing much to look forward to until the fun of the sprout festival. This shack had an iron stove, with a pipe that went up through the thick cabbage-leaf thatch. Voices echoed faintly within the pipe. THIS IS REALLY, REALLY STUPID. I think the tradition got started when everyone had them big chimneys, master. This voice sounded as though it was coming from someone standing on the roof and shouting down the pipe. INDEED? ITS ONLY A MERCY ITS UNLIT. There was some muffled scratching and banging, and then a thump from within the pot belly of the stove. DAMN. Whats up, master? THE DOOR HAS NO HANDLE ON THE INSIDE. I CALL THAT INCONSIDERATE. There were some more bumps, and then a scrape as the stove lid was lifted up and pushed sideways. An arm came out and felt around the front of the stove until it found the handle.
It played with it for a while, but it was obvious that the hand did not belong to a person used to opening things. In short, Death came out of the stove. Exactly how would be difficult to describe without folding the page. Time and space were, from Deaths point of view, merely things that hed heard described. When it came to Death, they ticked the box marked Not Applicable. It might help to think of the universe as a rubber sheet, or perhaps not. Let us in, master, a pitiful voice echoed down from the roof. Its brass monkeys out here. Death went over to the door. Snow was blowing underneath it. He peered nervously at the woodwork. There was a thump outside and Alberts voice sounded a lot closer. Whats up, master? Death stuck his head through the wood of the door. THERES THESE METAL THINGS Bolts, master. You slide them, said Albert, sticking his hands under his armpits to keep them warm. AH. Deaths head disappeared. Albert stamped his feet and watched his breath cloud in the air while he listened to the pathetic scrabbling on the other side of the door. Deaths head appeared again. ER . . . Its the latch, master, said Albert wearily. RIGHT. RIGHT. You put your thumb on it and push it down. RIGHT. The head disappeared. Albert jumped up and down a bit, and waited. The head appeared. ER . . . I WAS WITH YOU UP TO THE THUMB. . . Albert sighed. And then you press down and pull, master. AH. RIGHT. GOT YOU. The head disappeared. Oh dear, thought Albert. He just cant get the hang of them, can he . . . ? The door jerked open. Death stood behind it, beaming proudly, as Albert staggered in, snow blowing in with him. Blimey, its getting really parky, said Albert. Any sherry? he added hopefully. IT APPEARS NOT. Death looked at the sock hooked on to the side of the stove. It had a hole in it. A letter, in erratic handwriting, was attached to it. Death picked it up. THE BOY WANTS A PAIR OF TROUSERS THAT HE DOESNT HAVE TO SHARE, A HUGE MEAT PIE, A SUGAR MOUSE, A LOT OF TOYS AND A PUPPY CALLED SCRUFF. Ah, sweet, said Albert. I shall wipe away a tear, cos what hes gettin, see, is this little wooden toy and an apple. He held them out. BUT THE LETTER CLEARLY Yes, well, its socio-economic factors again, right? said Albert The worldd be in a right mess if everyone got what they asked for, eh? I GAVE THEM WHAT THEY WANTED IN THE STORE . . . Yeah, and tha
ts gonna cause a lot of trouble, master. All them “toy pigs that really work”. I didnt say nothing cos it was getting the job done but you cant go on like that. What goods a god who gives you everything you want?
YOU HAVE ME THERE. ‘It’s the hope thats important. Big part of belief, hope. Give people jam today and theyll just sit and eat it. jam tomorrow, now - thatll keep them going for ever. AND YOU MEAN THAT BECAUSE OF THIS THE POOR GET POOR THINGS AND THE RICH GET RICH THINGS?
s right, said Albert. Thats the meaning of Hogswatch. Death nearly wailed. BUT IM THE HOGFATHER! He looked embarrassed. AT THE MOMENT, I MEAN. Makes no difference, said Albert, shrugging. I remember when I was a nipper, one Hogswatch I had my heart set on this huge model horse they had in the shop . . . His face creased for a moment in a grim smile of recollection. I remember I spent hours one day, cold as charity the weather was, I spent hours with my nose pressed up against the window . . . until they heard me callin, and unfroze me. I saw them take it out of the window, someone was in there buying it, and, yknow, just for a second I thought it really was going to be for me . . . Oh. I dreamed of that toy horse. It were red and white with a real saddle and everything. And rockers. Idve killed for that horse. He shrugged again. Not a chance, of course, cos we didnt have a pot to piss in and we even `ad to spit on the bread to make it soft enough to eat--- PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME. WHAT IS SO IMPORTANT ABOUT HAVING A POT TO PISS IN? Its . . . its more like a figure of speech, master. It means youre as poor as a church mouse. ARE THEY POOR? Well . . . yeah. BUT SURELY NOT MORE POOR THAN ANY OTHER MOUSE? AND, AFTER ALL, THERE TEND TO BE LOTS OF CANDLES AND THINGS THEY COULD EAT. Figure of speech again, master. It doesnt have to make sense. OH. I SEE. DO CARRY ON. O course, I still hung up my stocking on Hogswatch Eve, and in the morning, you know, you know what? Our dad had put in this little horse hed carved his very own self . . . AH, said Death. AND THAT WAS WORTH MORE THAN ALL THE EXPENSIVE TOY HORSES IN THE WORLD,EH? Albert gave him a beady look. No! he said. It werent. All I could think of was it wasnt the big horse in the window. Death looked shocked. BUT HOW MUCH BETTER TO HAVE A TOY CARVED WITH--- No. Only grown-ups think like that, said Albert. Youre a selfish little bugger when youre seven. Anyway, Dad got ratted after lunch and trod on it. LUNCH? All right, mebbe we had a bit of pork chipping tor the bread . . . EVEN SO, THE SPIRIT OF HOGSWATCH--- Albert sighed. If you like, master. If you like. Death looked perturbed. BUT SUPPOSING THE HOGFATHER HAD BROUGHT YOU THE WONDERFUL HORSE--- Oh, Dad wouldve flogged it for a couple of bottles, said Albert. BUT WE HAVE BEEN INTO HOUSES WHERE THE CHILDREN HAD MANY TOYS AND BROUGHT THEM EVEN MORE TOYS, AND IN HOUSES LIKE THIS THE CHILDREN GET PRACTICALLY NOTHING.
Huh, wed have given anything to get practically nothing when I were a lad, said Albert. BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOUVE GOT, IS THAT THE IDEA? Thats about the size of it, master. A good god line, that. Dont give em too much and tell em to be happy with it. jam tomorrow, see. THIS IS WRONG. Death hesitated. I MEAN . . . ITS RIGHT to BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOUVE GOT. BUT YOUVE GOT TO HAVE SOMETHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT HAVING. THERES NO POINT IN BEING HAPPY ABOUT HAVING NOTHING. Albert felt a bit out of his depth in this new tide of social philosophy. Dunno, he said. I suppose peopled say theyve got the moon and the stars and suchlike. IM SURE THEY WOULDNT BE ABLE TO PRODUCE THE PAPERWORK. All I know is, if Dadd caught us with a big bag of pricey toys wed just have got a ding round the earhole for nicking em. IT IS . . . UNFAIR. Thats life, master. BUT IM NOT. I meant this is how its supposed to go, master, said Albert. NO. YOU MEAN THIS IS HOW IT GOES. Albert leaned against the stove and rolled himself one of his horrible thin cigarettes. It was best to let the master work his own way through these things. He got over them eventually. It was like that business with the violin. For three days there was nothing but twangs and broken strings, and then hed never touched the thing again. That was the trouble, really. Everything the master did was a bit like that. When things got into his head you just had to wait until they leaked out again. Hed thought that Hogswatch was all . . . plum pudding and brandy and ho ho ho and he didnt have the kind of mind that could ignore all the other stuff. And so it hurt him. IT IS HOGSWATCH, said Death, AND PEOPLE DIE ON THE STREETS. PEOPLE FEAST BEHIND LIGHTED WINDOWS AND OTHER PEOPLE HAVE NO HOMES. IS THIS FAIR? Well, of course, thats the big issue--- Albert began. THE PEASANT HAD A HANDFUL OF BEANS AND THE KING HAD SO MUCH HE WOULD NOT EVEN NOTICE THAT WHICH HE GAVE AWAY. IS THIS FAIR? Yeah, but if you gave it all to the peasant then in a year or two hed be just as snooty as the king- -- began Albert, jaundiced observer of human nature. NAUGHTY AND NICE? said Death. BUT ITS EASY TO BE NICE IF YOURE RICH. IS THIS FAIR? Albert wanted to argue. He wanted to say, Really? In that case, how come so many of the rich buggers is bastards? And being poor dont mean being naughty, neither. We was poor when I were a kid, but we was honest. Well, more stupid than honest, to tell the truth. But basically honest. He didnt argue, though. The master wasnt in any mood for it. He always did what needed to be done. You did say we just had to do this sos peopled believe- he began, and then stopped and started again. When it comes to fair, master, you yourself- I AM EVEN-HANDED TO RICH AND POOR ALIKE, snapped Death. BUT THIS SHOULD NOT BE A SAD TIME. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY. He wrapped his red robe around him. AND OTHER THINGS ENDING IN OLLY, he added. Theres no blade, said the oh god. Its Just a sword hilt.