She peeked up at me. “There’s monsters, Daddy.”
My heart broke a little. “No, baby,” I said, shaking my head.
“There’s monsters. I was having nightmares, and then they came in, and I screamed, and they said I had to be quiet and hide or the monsters would get me. Is it zombies?” Carter’s big eyes stared up at me and I wanted to punch something – or someone. Again.
Brinke let Carter watch zombie shows a couple weeks ago, and now, instead of whatever kind of monsters kids should dream of, Carter thought zombies were real and might come get her.
“I told you, sweetheart. Those zombies are just make-up and pretend. They aren’t real. Come on. Whatever monsters were here? I got rid of them.”
Carter lay sleeping on the big, beautiful bed of the Waldorf Astoria’s presidential suite.
Brinke had been passed out when I finally checked on her, so deep under that I'd ended up letting hotel security contact a doctor – he’s discreet, I assure you.
I hoped like hell whoever they'd called was discreet, but that wasn’t my main concern.
Carter was.
And because I had to think about my baby, I’d been sitting in the chair by the window, staring outside for the past hour as I came to the understanding that I had to do something. I couldn't just push it aside anymore.
The woman I’d fallen in love with was pretty much gone.
And the guy I’d been then? He didn’t even exist anymore.
When we found out she was pregnant –
Shit. No big mystery there. I’d grown up. Remembering the shit my parents had put me through, some of the stories that Brinke had told me about her folks, I’d known. The moment we'd looked at that little plus sign and realized we were going to have a baby, I’d known that things had to change.
Brinke had seemed to get it too. But either she hadn’t meant it or she’d forgotten.
And I didn’t care anymore.
Whatever we once had was over.
We were done.
Carter made a low noise under her breath, something that sounded almost like a little puppy whimpering.
Getting up, I went over to the big bed and settled down in the middle, pulling her in close to me. She snuggled up to me and the crying stopped immediately.
“It’s okay, princess,” I said softly. “Nobody’s going to hurt you. You’re safe.”
I’d make sure of it too.
No matter what.
Chapter Four
Leslie
I came awake in a bed that wasn’t mine, tucked up next to a hard, warm male body, and I put together pieces of a puzzle I wasn’t aware existed until I’d already solved it.
I wasn’t at home.
I hadn’t spent the night alone.
Also, it was a little later in the morning than I liked. I only realized that when I saw the glowing red numbers on the clock on the table next to my head.
It was almost ten.
I needed to get home.
When I stirred, the man next to me grunted and rolled onto his belly, but he didn't wake.
After a moment, I eased onto my side and stared at him, waiting for my mind to clear.
Bit by bit, it did.
The guy – we’d met at Club Privé. He'd stopped me from falling. We'd danced. Had a few drinks.
Then we ended up here.
A few random flashes pierced the haze of alcohol and good, hard sex. I ached in a nice way, but beyond that, I couldn’t say much about the past night. Not the first time that'd happened.
Easing out of the bed, I looked around for my clothes and gathered them up.
My head pounded a little, and I grabbed my purse as well, hoping I’d remembered to throw some sort of over the counter pain killer in there.
If not, I could always drown myself under the shower.
Twenty minutes later, I was showered, and after having dry-swallowed two ibuprofen tablets, I felt something closer to normal. My dress from last night was wrinkled, but it would do for now. My panties would not – they’d been ripped. I tossed them into the garbage, relieved to see numerous condom wrappers in there. That was always the risk when mixing alcohol and sex.
Spying my shoes by the bed, I bent to pick them up.
“Hey, beautiful.”
Shoes in hand, I looked back over my shoulder to see my partner from last night pushing up on his elbow. The hotel we’d chosen to come was across the street from Club Privé. It was pristine, discreet, elegant, and nicer than some other places I'd woken up.
A thin strip of sunlight came through the mostly closed drapes to fall across his face, highlighting the bronzed beauty of his features. Dreads secured in a neat tail at his neck left that fantastic face unframed, and I knew I’d enjoyed the view of that face from multiple angles most of the night.
But I needed to go.
He trailed a finger down my spine.
I looked away.
Dammit.
“When can I see you again?”
I’d done this often enough that I’d perfected my exit strategy. It helped that I never left the club with a creep. The security guys and I had developed our own little silent language. If I was with some guy who managed to slide under my radar, but who they knew was going to be a problem, they let me know. I’d only needed their intervention twice, though. I’d developed a pretty decent radar when it came to creeps.
This guy wasn't one.
He was, however, someone I needed to let down easy.
Swiveling around, I crawled across the bed and knelt over him.
Giving him a quick kiss, I pulled back and smiled down at him.
“Last night was fun…but that’s all it was. I’m not looking for anything else.”
He grimaced at me. “Ouch.” One hand slid higher on my thigh. “Sure I can’t change your mind?”
I brushed my mouth across his. “Yes. But thanks for the offer.”
He hauled me down for one more kiss and I had to admit, my heart was fluttering harder when he let go, but by the time I was on the street less than ten minutes later, I couldn’t even quite remember the exact color of his eyes.
And I knew by the time I was home, I’d forgotten a lot more about my one-night stand.
It was sad, really, but it proved what I'd already known. Love wasn't for me.
The résumés on the left were going in the shredder as soon as I got up to refill my wine. The ones on the right, I’d go through again. I had a good feeling about two of them, and the others were decent possibilities.
One thing was certain – I was hiring somebody within the next few weeks, before I drowned in paperwork.
I could see my own obituary.
Leslie Calvin – she died buried under mounds of paperwork. Those who knew her best believe she would be pissed off – she always wanted to die dancing.
Leaving the firm that had given me my first job hadn’t been a bad idea, but I hadn’t been prepared for how much work came with going solo. The paperwork alone was enough to make me want to pull my hair out.
And not everything was even connected to cases.
Like advertising.
That was next on my list of things to conquer for the day, and it was my least favorite.
With a headache pounding at the base of my skull, I flipped to the final résumé in my pile. Within a split second, I wadded it up and hurled it across the room.
“No, I don’t think somebody with two years working as a filing clerk will count as experience,” I muttered. “Paralegal experience a necessity. Not optional. A necessity. Maybe I should've mentioned a basic understanding of the English language.”
Leaning back in my chair, I stared up at the tray-ceiling overhead.
The ceiling fan spun in slow, lazy circles. Outside my windows, I heard the hum of the city. I wanted to get out there in that hum, leaving the monotony of work for another day and just do something. That restlessness that had plagued me for days – weeks – longer – wasn’t letting up, but
I couldn’t think of anything that might relieve it.
Nor could I understand why I was feeling it.
I had a great job.
I had a decent social life.
A year ago, I would have been completely happy to sit here and work my afternoon away. Work hard, play harder. Earn money, spend money.
What had changed? Had I changed?
I had a funny feeling the answer was yes. And I had an even funnier feeling that I knew when that change had started.
But I didn’t want to think about any of that too much, didn’t want to put a finger on it.
Naming it would just make it worse anyway.
Chapter Five
Leslie
“You look like you need this.”
Looking up, I saw my assistant, Haley, in the doorway, holding a cup in her hand. Steam wafted up from it, and the scent of coffee hit my system like a jolt of speed.
“Gimme. You can have my first born, my apartment or my 401k. Which do you want?”
“You’re too easy.” Haley winked at me and came in, putting the coffee down next to the filing I’d gotten earlier that morning from a courier. A client’s soon-to-be -ex was trying to drag things out with bullshit delays. Haley grimaced when she saw what I was working on. “Ugh. The McAllisters. You should charge them hazard pay.”
“Tell me about it.”
“I was going to see if you had a minute free to go over the résumés, but I’ll leave you to have all this fun.”
“No.” Pushing back from the desk, I took the coffee and flipped the filing facedown. “I need a break from their bullshit. Let’s do it now.”
“What are they fighting over now? Is she saying she wants the dog every Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday?”
I took a small sip of coffee before answering. As I circled around the desk, I thought about the crap I’d just finished reading and wondered what they’d do if I called them out for acting like a couple of children.
“No. This time, he is saying he should get the dog because she told him once ten years ago that she was allergic, and that he fears for the dog’s well being. Even though he bought her the dog.”
She laughed as we took the résumés over to the sitting area by the window and settled down with the sun on our backs. Coffee in hand, I listened as Haley gave me her opinion on two of the possible candidates for the job. “She looks good on paper, but…well, I get the impression her previous employer wouldn’t take her back if you paid them.”
“Okay. Bottom of the list. Next?”
Before Haley had a chance to answer, the phone on her desk buzzed. She kept it on vibrate, but Haley and I had an understanding about her phone. Her mother had recently been placed in hospice care and the nurses contacted her often. She didn't have to turn it off, but if it was anyone besides family, she left it alone.
“Go on.” I rubbed her shoulder. “As thorough as your notes are, I’m sure I can handle this.”
Haley gave me a tight smile and answered the phone half between the second and third buzz.
As she stepped into the small area we used for our employee lounge, I focused on the next résumé. His name was Daniel Carfax, and he was practically fresh out of school, but he did have nine months of experience, and he hadn’t left his last employer per se. He’d worked for an older divorce attorney named Max Bennett. Max had died in a rather public venue – in court – cross-examining the lover of his client’s husband. She’d been so shocked that she’d ended up confessing right there as the man staggered and fell to his knees in front of her, clutching at his chest.
I heard they’d ended up settling out of court.
Trust Bennett to get the best for his client in the end, even though he died on the floor of the courthouse.
The door opened and I said, “I think we need to give this guy a call.”
“Excuse me?”
The sound of that voice, low and rough and raw, sent a shiver down my spine.
Slowly, I looked up.
It hadn’t been the door to the lounge. Rather, it had been the front door, and now I had somebody in my office.
A hot and sexy somebody too.
Scruffy and hiding behind a pair of sunglasses and a hat, but he was still a hot and sexy piece of work. My heart kicked up a beat or ten even as the professional in me offered a polite smile.
I didn’t have any appointments until this afternoon so I didn’t think he was here to see me. Except I was very much hoping he wasn’t here to see me.
Because that would mean he was married, and married guys were off limits.
“If you’re looking for the modeling agency, they’re on the third floor.” I really hoped he was there for the modeling agency, because if he was, I could get his name as I took a few minutes to walk him up. Give him mine. Maybe ask him about a drink later on…?
“No.” He looked around, a bit lost before shifting his attention back to me. “I…you’re Leslie Calvin.”
And just like that, my heart sank. If he wasn’t here for the modeling agency and he knew my name, then that meant one thing.
He’d come here looking for me.
Damn it to hell.
A piece of work like this scruffy pretty boy might've had just what I needed…
He tugged off the hat and looked around. “Do you have any free time for a…um…what do you call it, a consult?”
“Are you needing an attorney?” I asked calmly. “I specialize in divorce.”
“I know.” He gave a short nod. “Do you have time? Is there anybody else here?”
“Just my – ”
Another door, just to his left, opened and Haley came out. She looked a little surprised at the sight of him, and more than a little dazed. Her eyes were damp as she looked over at me. “Leslie, I…”
Shit. She didn’t even need to finish.
“Go.” I managed a smile as I got up and went to her, pausing to collect her purse and keys from the drawer where she always kept them. “Call me when you can.”
She nodded jerkily. “I’ll call Agnes about covering for me. I might…well.”
Agnes was my part-time assistant before I’d hired Haley full-time and she still came in to help out as needed, although she was moving closer and closer to retirement.
“Don't worry about it,” I said immediately. “I'll take care of it. You do what you need to do.”
“Thank you.” After I turned over her purse and keys, I hugged her. She clung to me tightly for a second and left, not saying another word. I didn't know what happened, but I knew Haley, and it wasn't anything good.
Once the door closed behind her, I focused on the man who’d lapsed into silence the moment he’d seen Haley. “Now there’s nobody else here.” It was a little unsettling that he’d asked, but he didn't really look like the psycho killer type.
Then again, they never did...
“Although I do need to make that call to my temp,” I added.
“Okay. I…uh…well…” He swore and all but ripped his sunglasses off.
Then it was my turn to swear, although luckily for me, I managed to bite my tongue in time to keep the words from actually making it out into the open. Shit. I knew who he was now.
“Paxton Gorham.”
His jaw went tight at his name. “Everything I say is confidential, right? Nobody is allowed to say anything about me being here, even your assistant?”
“Absolutely.” My heart was racing at full throttle now. The sight of those blue eyes, so seductive and haunting, and the streaky blond hair that tumbled into his beautiful face – he had the kind of features that had probably launched a thousand wet dreams.
And he was here to hire me?
“I’ll tell you what…” I moved toward him, taking a deep slow breath. “Let me lock the door. My assistant has a family emergency going on, and I'll wait until after you leave to call in my temp, so no one else will be around to hear us talk.”
As I stood next to him, I caught a heady lungful of
his scent and found myself thinking a hundred things, all at the same time.
He was here to get a divorce.
He’d be single.
He was so hot.
He was about to become my client – maybe.
This could be the kind of case that made my career.
Except…I really, really didn’t want to represent him in court.
I wanted to ride him…or have him riding me.
Talk about a conundrum.
And it was worse than I thought.
He didn’t just want a divorce. It sounded like he needed one, fast, and in the worst way because his wife, Brinke Maynard, mother of his child, was a complete disaster and a danger to their little girl.
“Is this the first time such a thing has happened?” I asked, making furious notes.
“Fuck, yes!” he snapped.
I met his blue eyes, saw the rage snapping there and understood it. At least as much as somebody who didn’t have kids could. “Mr. Gorham, I’m not implying anything with these questions, but you need to prepare for the fact that if you go through with a divorce, and she fights it, these questions are just the tip of the iceberg. And I have to ask them so I know the answers and can plan for them.”
The heat in those blue eyes didn’t change, but he muttered something under his breath before heaving out a hard sigh. He dropped down and my heart banged hard against my ribs at the nearness of him. Why did he have to sit next to me? On the couch?
My heart raced and fluttered, and I gripped the pen tightly, staring at the notes I was taking. It didn’t help, because from the corner of my eye, I could see the way his jeans stretched tight over long, lean legs. I wanted to feel those legs moving against mine. Wanted to feel that hard body against mine.
Why in the hell did he have to come to me for a divorce?
Of course, if he hadn’t, well…I wouldn’t be sitting here daydreaming about having that beautiful mouth pressed to mine, now would I?
“I’m sorry.”
The short, succinct phrase caught me off guard, and I looked up to see him staring off at absolutely nothing. He looked…lost.