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“Because no one else would have married me otherwise, right? Damaged goods. ”
Sean perceived he had made a massive error.
“And for the rest of my life I would have had to put up with Carver’s little ways, like beating on me, because he’d raped me,” Rue said coldly.
“All right, in my time, we would have been wrong,” he conceded. “But we would have been on your side. ”
“I have you on my side,” she said. “I have you on my side now. If this has meant anything to you. ”
“I don’t get this close to anyone unless it means something to me. ”
“That come from being an aristocrat? In your time, were you like Carver?” There was an edge to her voice that hadn’t been there before.
“The night we first make love, you can compare me to the man who raped you?”
She hadn’t thought before she spoke. “After years of weighing every word I said to another person, all of a sudden I’ve gotten to be the worst—I’m so sorry, Sean. Please forgive me for the offense. ”
There was a long silence in the dark room. He didn’t speak. Her heart sank. She’d ruined it. Her bitterness and mistrust had twisted her more than she knew. But she’d come by it naturally, and she didn’t see how she could have existed otherwise.
After another unnerving two minutes of silence, Rue began to fumble around for her clothes. She was determined not to cry.
“Where are you going?” Sean asked.
“I’m going home. I’ve screwed up everything. You won’t talk to me, and I’m going home. ”
“You offended me,” he said, and his voice wasn’t level or calm at all. He was saying, You hurt me. But Rue wasn’t absorbing that. Before Sean could scramble into his own clothes, she was gone, wearing her flannel shirt tossed over her dance outfit. She’d thrust her feet into her boots without lacing them. She was out the door of the studio, then out the door to the building, before Sean could catch her. He cursed out loud. He had to check the studio and lock everything up; that was the duty of the last person out, and it was something he couldn’t shirk. He could always catch up with Rue, he was sure; after all, he was a vampire, and she was human.
Carver was waiting for her in the third alley to the north.
Rue was walking very swiftly. She was trying not to cry; and not having much luck. She wanted to reach the next corner in time for the bus, which would be the last one running on a Sunday night. As she passed the alley entrance, Carver burst out with such astonishing suddenness that he was holding her arm before she could react.
“Hello, Layla,” he said, smiling.
The nightmares she’d had for four years had come to life.
Carver had always been handsome, but his present look was far from his preppy norm. He’d spiked his dark hair and he was wearing ragged jeans and a leather jacket. He’d disguised himself.
“I have a score to settle with you,” he said, still smiling.
Rue hadn’t been able to make a sound when he’d grabbed her arm, but now she began to scream.
“Shut up!” he yelled, and backhanded her across the mouth.
But Rue had no intention of shutting up. “Help!” she screamed. “Help!” She groped in her bag for her pepper spray with her free left hand, but this one night she hadn’t been prepared, mentally or physically, and she couldn’t find the cylinder she usually carried ready to use.
Pinning her with his grip on her right arm, Carver began pummeling Rue with his fist to make her shut up. She tried to dodge the blows, tried to find the spray, tried to pray that help would come. Where was the pepper spray? Abandoning her futile one-handed rummaging through her big bag, Rue yanked it off her shoulder, since it was only an impediment. Then she fought back. She wasn’t nearly as big as Carver, so she went for his genitals. She wanted to grip and squeeze the whole package, but he pulled back. All she managed was a vicious pinch, but that was enough to double him over. When he heard a woman shouting from across the street, he staggered away from Rue.
“Leave that girl alone!” a female voice yelled. “I’m calling the police!”
Rue sank to her knees, too battered to stand any longer, but she stayed facing him, her hands ready to defend herself. She would not give up what she’d worked so hard to maintain. Carver began to hurry down the alley as swiftly as his injury would permit—she was proud to see he was walking funny—and though Rue remained upright, but still on her knees, he vanished from her sight as he passed out of the alley and onto the next street.
“I won’t fall,” she said.
“Are you okay?”
Rue wouldn’t even take her eyes from the alley entrance to examine the woman beside her. This woman had saved her life, but Rue wasn’t going to be taken by surprise again, if Carver decided to return.
“Rue! Rue!” To her immense relief, she heard Sean’s voice. Now Carver couldn’t hurt her anymore; no matter how angry Sean was at her, he wouldn’t let Carver strike her. She knew that. With profound relief, she understood she didn’t need to stay vigilant any longer, and she sat back on the pavement. Then she was lying on the sidewalk. And then she didn’t know anything else.
When she began to relate to her surroundings again, Rue knew she was in a strange place. Hospital? Nope, didn’t smell like a hospital, a smell with which she was all too familiar. It was a quiet place, a comfortable place. She was lying on clean white sheets, and there was someone next to her. She tried to move, to sit up, and she found out she was sore in several places. Before she could gain control of herself, she groaned.
“You okay? You need a drink of water?” The voice was familiar and came from a few feet away. Rue pried her swollen eyes open. She could see—a little. “Is that Megan?” she asked, her voice a dry thread.
“Yep, it’s me. Julie and I been taking turns. ”
“Who else is here? Where is here?”
“Oh, we’re at Sean’s place, in his safe room. That’s him in the bed with you, babe. It’s daytime, so he had to sack out. He wasn’t going to leave you without someone to help you, though. He made us swear on a stack of Bibles that we wouldn’t leave. So you won’t think we’re these wonderful people, I gotta tell you that he promised to help us out with the money we’re getting docked for missing work. I mean, I want to help you, and I would’ve come, anyway. But I just couldn’t, ah, skip telling you. Okay?”
Rue nodded. It was an effort, but somehow Megan caught the motion. “Water would be good,” Rue managed to say.
In just a moment, Megan was sliding her arm under Rue’s back and helping her sit up a little. There was a glass of cool water at her lips, and Rue sipped gratefully.
“You need to get up and go to the bathroom?”
“Yes, please. ”
Megan helped Rue rise. To her relief, Rue discovered she was in the T-shirt and shorts she’d worn the night before. She shuffled to the bathroom. When she was through, she washed her face in the sink and brushed her teeth with a toothbrush she found still encased in a cellophane wrapper. That made her feel a great deal better, and she made her way back to the bed with a little more confidence.
“Megan, I’ll be okay now, if you need to get to work. ”
“You sure, girlfriend? I can stay. I don’t want Sean to be mad at me. ”
“I’m good. Really. ”
“Okay then. It’s four o’clock. Sean ought to be up in about two hours. Maybe you can get some more sleep. ”
“I’ll try. Thank you so much. ”
“Don’t mention it. See you later. ”
Rue had left the light in the bathroom on, and when Megan had gone through the heavy curtain at one end of the room, Rue turned to her silent companion. Sean lay on his back with his hair spread out on the pillow. His lips were slightly parted, his eyes closed, his chest still. The absence of that rising and falling, the tiny motion of life, was very unnerving. Did he know she was there? Did he dream? W
as he truly asleep, or was he just held motionless, like a paralysis victim? She’d almost forgotten what they’d fought about. She stroked his hair, kissed his cool lips. She remembered what they’d done together, and a flush suffused her face.
What Carver had done to her, when he’d attacked her years before, didn’t qualify as sex. It had been an assault, using his sex organ as the weapon. What she’d done with Sean had been real sex, making-love sex. It had been intimate and primal and wonderful. Carver had made her into a shell of a human being overnight. Over the course of a few weeks, Sean had helped her become a full person once more.
She wasn’t going to chicken out just because he was dead part of the time.
So, when darkness fell, Rue made sure her arm was across his chest, her leg lying over his. Suddenly she knew he was awake. The next second, his body reacted.
“Good evening to you, too,” she said, startled and intrigued by his instant readiness.
“Where is Megan?” he asked, his voice still a little fuzzy from sleep.
“I told her to go. I’m better. ”
His eyes widened as he remembered. “Show me,” he demanded.
“You seem to be ready for anything,” she said, greatly daring, her hand wandering down his abdomen in a tentative way.
“I have to see your injuries first,” he said. “I shouldn’t even be. . . it’s your smell. ”
“Oh?” she tried to sound insulted, failed.
“Just the smell of you. Your skin, your hair. You make me hard. ”
Not a compliment she’d ever gotten before, but she could see the evidence of the sincerity of it.
“Okay, check me out,” she said mildly, and lay down. Sean raised himself on one elbow, and his left hand began to turn her face this way and that.
“It’s my fault,” he said, his voice steady but not exactly calm. “I shouldn’t have stopped to lock up the studio. ”
“The only fault is Carver’s,” she said. “I’ve played that blame game too many years. We don’t need to start it all over again. For the first year after he attacked me, I thought, ‘What if I hadn’t worn that green dress? What if I hadn’t let him hold my hand? Kiss me? Slow dance with me? Was it my fault for looking pretty? Was it my fault for treating him as I would any date I liked? No. It was his fault, for taking a typical teenage evening and turning it into the date from hell. ”
Sean’s fingers gripped her chin gently and turned her face to the other side so he could examine her bruises. He kissed the one on her cheek, and then he pulled the cover down to look over her body. She had to stop herself from pulling it right back up. This level of intimacy was great and very exciting, but she sure wasn’t used to it.
“This is the closest anyone’s been to me in years,” she said. “I haven’t even seen a doctor who looked at this much of me. ” Then she told herself to shut up. She was babbling.
“No one should ever see this much of you,” he said absently. “No one but me. ” His fingers, whiter even than her own magnolia skin, brushed a dark bruise on her ribs. “How much are you hurting?”
“I’m pretty stiff and sore,” she admitted. “I guess my muscles were all tensed up, and then, when I got knocked around. . . ”
He touched her side gently, his hand very close to her breast. “Will you be able to dance tonight? We need to call Sylvia and cancel if you will not be able. She can get Thompson and Julie to do it. ”
He was still hard, ready for her. She was having a difficult time remembering her sore muscles.
“I don’t know,” she said, trying not to sound as breathless as she felt.
“Turn over,” he said, and she obediently rotated. “How’s your back?”
She moved her shoulders experimentally. “Feels okay,” she said. His fingers traced her spine, and she gasped. His hand rubbed her hip.
“Don’t think I got bruised there,” she said, smiling into the pillow.
“What about here?” His hand traveled.
“There, either. ”
“Here?”
“Oh, no! Definitely not there!”
He entered her from behind, holding himself up so his weight wouldn’t press on her tender ribs. “There?” he asked, the mischief in his voice making something in her heart go all soft and mushy.
“You’d better. . . massage. . . that,” she said, ending on a gasp.
“Like this?”
“Oh, yes. ”
After they’d basked in the afterglow for a happy thirty minutes, Rue said, “I hate to bring this up, but I’m hungry. ”
Sean, stung by his own negligence, leaped from the bed in one graceful movement. Before Rue knew what was happening, he’d lifted her from the bed, ensconced her in a chair, and clean sheets were on the bed and the old ones stuffed in a hamper. He’d started the shower for her and asked her what kind of food she liked to eat. “Whatever’s in the neighborhood,” she said. “That’s what I love about the city. There’s always food in walking distance. ”